christmas is nearing, i have a chemistry test tomorrow and more spring cleaning needs to be done. i think i am going to explode haha but i am excited nonetheless. oh yes and my math mid term test is on the 29th of december how fucking wonderful! and my open house is on the 28th...should i cancel? mdis needs to kena

i want this for christmas i already told David thanks!

help me :(

i never really had good friends in primary school. they were my good friends but they werent good friends. ive had a friend who brought me out on a Sunday, her parents drove us around and i remember feeling "ah..shes gonna be my best friend" then the next day i get full marks for a malay test (shut up) and she never spoke to me again because she didnt do very well. ive had friends who told me "can u not play with us anymore?" and i believe i was a part of the "plastics" in primary 4. real mean girl shit went down + bullying. ikr at primary 4? tell me about it. and then i made the most awesomest friends in primary 5 and i really thought they were the ones who were gonna be with me through thick and thin, we had dreams. BIG dreams. and then it all went down the drain in sec 1 because i was streamed to NA. once again i found myself pushed to the curb without any reason. more backstabbing in sec 1 because i made friends with the devil herself. she spread rumours about me when i was absent and acted like my best friend when i came back to school. and she tried to make me shoplift.. but of course i didnt. thinking back, i really let myself get pushed around because as weird as this may sound, i hated losing friends no matter how sucky they were to me. now that im older, i know who my real friends are and labeling someone your "best friend" just jinxes everything more often than not. and ive learnt that you have many kinds of friends. it used to be "good friends", "close friends" and "best friends" but now, ive realised that theres so much more to it. there are friends who arent your best friends but you tell them everything. and even though most of the communication is done online or on the phone and u only see their faces once in a blue moon, you just know u can trust them with your deepest darkest secret and probably even your life. then there are those u meet all the time but everything is just really on the surface level. theyre the ones u cant be serious with and everytime u get serious, it gets awkward. then there are the ones who get a boyfriend and you dont exist anymore and they start living in the shadow of their boyfriends. their mentality changes and u find, u cant trust them anymore. because everything u tell them, they tell their boyfriends. basically, they are the ones who lose their individuality once they get a boyfriend. then there are the friends, whom u bare your soul to and u think they are doing the exact same thing but in reality, theyre only giving u bits and pieces of it. and there are the friends whom u dont see for ten years and when you do meet, its like nothing ever changed.

if you dont care about you, then i wont. useless getting worked up when youre so nonchalant about everything. i want to say so many things to you, and i will. but not today because my blood is boiling at the fact that you are being so selfish to the loved ones around you who actually give a shit. if me caring about you so much makes you mad (especially if u read this) resulting in another broken friendship then im willing to risk it knowing i tried. my intentions are all good. seriously, what do i get out of all this? million dollar paycheck? no, i get to see my friend who is so dear to me considering the fact that ive known you since i was what 5? 6? be healthy. please, pride and ego aside and think about it. it isnt impossible. but really, im not gonna sit and watch u do this to yourself after what you went through. hate me for being naggy i really dont care. i tell it as it is and this is it

watched Milk today and it was really good apart from the very realistic assassination scene which made my heart drop but other than that it was awesome. james franco is so delicious thats a plus ++++