BLOGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

hahahaahhahahah.i've been really lazy to blog
and i realised i SHOULD!
cause now is the time of my life when im at the crossroads u know.
planning gatherings, and stuff to prepare myself for another phase.

yup
so to keep memories.i'm gonna blog abt it before i forget.

yesterdae i went shopping with jae
bought my dress.....for the bdae...(an excuse, i wanted a new one)
gave her a pressy .
ate at nydc holland v (her fav seafood pasta and baked mushroom side)
bought marshmallow krisipies to make

then today.
is ALEX LEE's bdae!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i din spend it with him.
the present will COME!
i promise!

k anyway today.
went out with mom to get them stuffs for the bbq
80 chicken wings.
50 sausages.
hmmmmm
profiteroles
and other stuff too

i also made the rice krispies and ice for the party

and im gonna do the paper work photocopy errand soon :)

okays.
that's it.

plan for the week-tml is.roughly free
then sat-uni mel talk and yee mah's dinner
sun-PARTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
mon-dental,crez clique outing :)))))))
tues-???
wed-tian hao's and hong jun's day?
thursday- cutting of locks day
fri and sat-pack bags
sunday-flight day :)


i am excited and scared?and really happy now.
and i really hope everyone hugs me on sunday :))))))but pls hug me before u sweat infront of the bbq pits :)))))))))))))))))))

unpacked bags

...........
din pack my stuff yet
din choose course yet
din contact agent yet
din call jo yet

wow


someone is prepared huh!?

.

attempted to run.
key word-attempt.

it is a bad idea to run when you have cramps.
BAD
BAD
BAD IDEA.


insanity is just a hairline crack away

the time is ticking

it's kinda of weird now.

the australia thing.........with h1n1 ard.....mom is hesitating but i think most prob i'm still flying on the 7th of july.

i've got abt.....20 days left.
spending most of it with family now.due to the circumstances.

really worried about how things are going to be.

thursday is already planned by cxl, hopefully i'll get clearance to meet him.
the plan of thursday, apparently i have to buy instant noodles,soup,etc....
my friends faith in my cooking........knows NO boundaries

i CAN cook you know!....the edible part is a mystery though....

sometimes, i wonder if saying the truth is really the best route to follow.
and if saying it as it is would really solve the problem.

sometimes just to maintain the status quo, i had brushed aside the words.
and it did work. do i regret?.no......because i don't know what would have happened if i did release the words.

but now.i really wonder is it worth it.the truth and the conclusion.
if i knew the endings to both choices.thing would be ALOT easier.haha.NO SHIT

people often say it takes courage to tell the truth.
but often,

it takes courage to sweep things under the rug too.
to understand you'll never know what would have happened if you had said, to live with the words in your mind.

i wonder which path to take

should i front or face

alex came today.....at night.
and

told me.......things
which
are the right thing to do.

now.
i have a choice.to run.or to face it

are you worth the plunge.
and am i worth it?

bestie day

ehhhhhhhh din take pics..........
oops
anyways met marks @ coffee club holland v

drank fag and hit provence the bakery with a vengeance and bought loads of carbo sweetie buns
then crossed over to subway and ate teriyaki chicken................with white choco cookies and orange juice.......ahhhhhhhhhh....shiok...binging when u are upset is.......just comforting..and great company just makes things feel ALOT better.

if only i bought the more sinful subway melt.........teriyaki chicken.........reminds me of low fat nonsense crappy salads......i dunnoe why.

anyways i'm just blabbing on to divert my attention.


the meaning of so near yet so far.......is irritatingly in my face.

australia better get CLOSER FASTER QUICKER SPEEDIER. and get me out of this country before i fuck more things up

empty glasses

went to the IT fair with lk
bought a HP notebook
met ian passed it to him
went to timbre met
shu ying,kerin,yixin,wei ting and the man of the moment. HO SHENG LIN
hahahahhaa aka the guy who is booking in on monday.WOOHOO

i said the words.

the best thing i can do to minimize the crap i created.
is to just be friends

and keep my acidity to myself.

i hate the word sorry.it does not fix the past actions,its lackadaisical,and has a tired tone to it.
the worst thing now........
its the only word i can say

flu bug and other musings

k.did my evisa medical.and i'm really happy and relieved to say.......i've got no channel 8 drama diseases to report :)))))))))))))))))))

but i'm down with a sickening.10am-5pm flu......seriously.i keep sneezing during these times.WHY?

my flight has been changed from the 5th to the 7th of july,due to bro's plans.anyways i packed some of my luggage yesterdae.too many things to bring, too little space and arm power.lol

k my WISH LIST.............for the record i feel damn lame blogging abt my wish list.i feel like some bratty 5 year old kid writing to santa claus.)on the otherhand i don't think you guys wanna waste $ to get stuff i dun like...like what huey ying said "cindy just tell me straight, its very hard choosing for gifts u know."so here goes!

actually i have no clue to what i really want?so let's just start on things i definately would chuck into a dark corner should i receive them
-soft toys (babes, i love hugging things BUT i'm going to aus, n my bags are FULL.)
-tiffany jewellery (i would love to get some later.but i want to get my 1st piece.....MYSELF)
-edible stuff(i LOVE DESIRE CRAVE for sweet things 24/7....but the australian authorities wld confiscate them.so. :(((((((((((
-breakable stuff ( glass,clay,crystal,etc......i am a violent person.....being demure is not in my vocab and never was......plus i am travelling....u guys are smart ppl, do the maths yourself.)
-web cam (i noe some of u were thinking abt this.but yeah,my bro beat u to it.)
-zoobie (jae's gonna get the pola bear for me already :)))))))))))))))))))) HAHAHAHAHA.

k.stuff i saw at places i liked.
-black/brown/grey roomy can fit A4 files bags,brooches,key holders,apparel,stuff from "Egg3" which can be found at Ann Siang or The Cathy.............if u can't decide what to buy, follow 3 easy cindy checks.......does it look cutesy/ah lianish? issit pink? if yes is the answer of any of the 3.please don't get it :)))))))

oh and if egg3 does sell vouchers, that wld be the most practical gift ever.since i can pick and choose :)

list of no brainer items i would love to get
=gift vouchers frm MUJI (yes i do LOVE jap made products)
-clothes...............are a touchy thing.cause i'm going in winter.and i have a weird dress sense.so......unless u can read my mind...............gift vouchers frm the usual zara and topshop are the way to go.YERP
-a HARD leather messenger bag with leather strap abt A4 sized" no nasty prints/embellishments on it pls."-dark brown leather, vintage bronze clasps.it what i've been looking for ....for ages.so if u succeed.i salute you.

if you dun wanna get any of the above.....
i'll be super happy if i receive your idea of a lovely gift for me too.
hand written cards with dumb notes and hugs (pls make sure you smell gd) will be super treasured by me.

okay my main point is............seriously, if i really wanted/needed/desired something so badly...i would have bought it myself already right? for my 21st.........all i REALLY really REALLY want. is time spent with good company with a great ambience and of course........desserts,drinks and red drunk happy faces to end the night :)

.......................................
i'll be meeting peeps 2-3 weeks from now.and it'll be a series of dates in a rushed week cause of family issues.yup.i can't wait to spend time with you suckersssssssss
hahahahahahahahahahaa.
so think of an outfit to wear w/ me.no slippers or i'll smack you with them.smile and have hugs ready.

cheers, see you guys soon

rushrush

okay.
i hate the citizenship issue.
and i'm a frigging singaporean.kia si runs in my frigging blood n dna
i dun wanna be stuck in singapore when i come back during my sem break in end nov.

dear god pls make the high comm of msia SUUUUUUUUUUPER efficient when i come back in Nov.
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe.

anyways
the weather these few days have been HUMIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

my fbt was soaking last night after a WEAK jog ard mt sinai.usually i don't even reak 1/2 that much sweat.

humid weather-unlimited amt of house work-NO MAID-flight worries-citizenship woes-course uncertainty-A CLEAR LACK of party ideas-unpacked bags-undone medical check ups-evisa fears.....pretty much makes up the current rosy as a posy situation.

btw sun moulin makes killer banana soft roll cakes. their choco soft rolls are pretty good at chasing emo bugs away too.i love aunt kit for bring em down hahahahahhahaahaha.

talking to max also made me think more deeply into the whole HR/MKTING major.
gosh...............the next few years of my life will really be a sprint.
things to consider
1)i'm not getting married ANYWHERE in the near future.......and having kids is something which can wait/not happen............so setttling down is not ANYWHERE near.
2)i do wanna have overseas posting if possible......so hr loses out at this
3)living on a single income, the gradient and duration of the climb up would be impt.


argh
i really don't know which to choose seriously.

someone throw me a lifeline.
mkting is a choice many would consider without a thought due to its vibrancy and limitless opportunities.
but hr is a bread and butter career.boring and steady enough for me to pursue other interests in life.
and then there's the subjects which i have to take up in the 2 majors.
:(
so.............50-50 i guess.

k
anyways
flight is on the 5th..............as for the timing........uh that's for me to know and for you to be indifferent about.

i hope the maid comes asap.then i can quickly meet up with everyone before i go down to melbourne
if nottttttt..................then i'll meet u guys in end nov when i'm back in singapore.
yup

NO WORRIES.

huey ying told me to write a wish list instead of ppl guessing what to buy during the farewell/bdae party......................
uh......
wish list.
hmmmmmmmmmm.
SUPER HIGH SPEED UNLIMITED BROADBAND in aus wld be great.
that and a maid and a butler.

i pretty much have everything i want and i need.......i'm gonna buy my laptop soon i guess.
i already bought my external drive,mp3,hp.........so........i dunnoe.......
i'll make the list soon yup:) i rather get "no surprises things that i want "presents than "surprise!!!shit i dislike that item" present.

yeah.
oh but i do know what i want definately. print out group photographs of each clique/grp/class that i know..................ONE PER GRP PLS>my wall in melbourne is DAMN SMALL .

and cause i'll be travelling...LESS IS MORE.no oversized cards.toys.breakables.........
hugs are free,warm and not breakable in the messy way.so i would like hugs too.

k i'm too damn hot to type anymore
acers overheat easily and my keyboard is burning my hands.

next post will have wish list i think.