i hate the damnnnnnnnnn tv shows

okae i noe.
if the show sucks...just switch off the damn telly and walk away......................


but then .......when your mom is channel surfing and u can hear the freakkkkkkkking telly which is airing some irritating to the MAX lame fuck chinese/korean show.........


u tend to go nuts.......
or rather i do.


todae, i ate botak jones.................
i only like the fact that they placed cheese on top of the chicken........
and the fact that............their serving ..................is just right for cindy.

hahahahhahaha.

their french fries taste like BBQ potatoe chips.

i am now currenty craving for Dan Ryan's onion soup which brims of totally unwholesome oil and oil and more OIL.

and a 1.5 tub of banana spilt chocolate from dairy bell.and scoops of diff flavoured daily scoops ice cream and haato's sweet potatoe ice cream and sorbet from the glass house restaurant at the botanic gardens and dim sum from chijmes and bo luo bao from carlton and green tea frappe from starbucks and australian peaches and mangoes and those round special grapes from japan which they one bring in to singapore for a bloody 2-3 weeks a YEAR ONLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. ...........hmmmmmmmm

i also am craving for...................other stuff like my beloved prawn crackers from msia and fish floss and like....................uhhhhhhhhhh.............lime cake from ps cafe.......and uhhhhhhhhhh lemon cheese cake? and like...........caterpillar bread from four leaves and passion fruit bubble tea and like.....................white rice(a tub?) and fish cakes from the thai restaurant at bk timah.......and the gu lou yok (sweet and sour pork) at far east...........
uhhhhhhhhhhh..........and lotus wrapped rice from chijmes also............
and my gf's cupcakes which look damn pretty..........
and honey water..................

i shall just iron off my cravings for the time being with my mfs weapons........
twix.
mars bar.
wangwang xiao man tuo.
coffee.
chips
vegetable sticks
pocky corn sticks.
marie biscuits
digestive biscuits
danish pastries
guava


just ate dinner at botak jones and yong tau foo and a plate of vegetables and like capsicums at home..................................
HUNGRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY to the max.
thanks for mfs pissing me off with all the product,price,place,promotion crap.

someone buy me some blubber sucked machine.


btw salny jia you!



jae is coming over.........hahahahahaha.
2 girls in a room mugging useless notes

yay-to the max

project maddness

cfas..............is mind boogling.
but manageable

there's ALOT to do
from videos to blogs
to cards
questions
board and marketing crap.

but i guess...........the hard work will be worth it in the end.
video n blog........MUST be done in a day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
questions in a day too.


mfs proj too.

with all the stuff happening at home.i'm just glad my mind's focused at work entirely and not at petty conflicts else where.


theme of the week=CONCENTRATE and FOCUSFOCUSFOCUS!

no guts no glory suddenly seem so true.........though bloody corny.

.........the floating mind

20 and unsure.

their strength draws me in.
but their emotions makes me repel


trying to concentrate on what i have and not crave for the uncertain.



days without sleep makes you think of issues you hid beneath the bed

cindy's treasures!

hahahahah my bdae collection list of happiness

i wanna take pics of them all.but too lazy.

3 cakes! 2=secret recipe and one from awfully chocolate!

super choco maddnes.

and muah chee indulgence.lol

and giant bdae card!
and lollipop
and retro pic
and necklace
and giant cat calender!
and shawl
and choco
and cat figurines which i reallirealli love cause my nephew made it all by himself

cindy was abit down but markie and gf realli cheered me up with their cake.
and they are so sweet! i think rene did the words.anyways!thanks for the cake!

shall now do the editing of PLB with 107% of happiness!

my bdae with friends :)

okae.
cindy is happy.

KEN gave me a FAB surprise with kenneth tall and 2 boys(sorry cannot remember your names-so i shall call u 2 the "2-some") and si jie.

i was happily kept in the dark , talking cock with classmates who happily entertained me with questions and funny jokes. then suddenly someone said to eat hotdogs at the underpass.

so i was munching on my yummy hot dog , when suddenly........................
"happy bdae to you" rang in the air.(lol this sounds like a psle composition)LOL

anyways.i was still clueless until someone tapped me on the back and i turned ard to see a SUPER YUMMY LOOKING secret recipe cake !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(the happy 20th bdae-really made me feel OLD)

lol

then i saw ken and company.
OMG.
and my classmates were like totally not shocked at all la.the accomplices.

thanks fred!for being the liaison spy.

anyways.having a grp of guys sing happie bdae in the underpass is..........weirdly hilarious,with their deeeeeeeeeep voices(attracted alot of weird stares,hahahahha.). and my classmates were so sweet.awwwwwww....

blew the candles out MANY times!!!!!!!!!!!!!so that ppl could take pics.
LOL
then took MANY pictures!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n i probably lookedcrappy in most cause i was in shock.and most were taken after i gorged in teeth staining, super yummy,sinful choco INDULGENCE cake!

hahahahaha.
and ken's friend who walked pass was so sweet la! dun even noe him and he bought me a drink and said happie bdae.
HEEXXXXXX

si jie!!!!!!!!!thanks for taking time to see cindy blow cake!
super happie u were there.

oh and kenneth tall helped me cut the cakes.SUPER NICE of him.

KENNNNNNNNNNNN the fab organizer. he really made my 20th celebration the best ever.
thanks for the necklace!its really beautiful.
but even without the gifts of the FAB cake. i still wanna thank ken.
heex.kenneth tall told me that ken really put ALOT of effort planning and stuff.

and i'm really super touched and feel REALLY blessed and really lucky to have known ken.thanks for putting in the effort.and like........the thought really counts and like.cindy is super happy.

then after that was lessons.
and i got to take fantastic pics with classmates.

THEY ARE LIKE the best.

thanks everyone for the pictures! DIONNE!!!!!!!!!your pic is super treasured! lol i kept staring at it non stop for the WHOLE DAY! until now.hahahahah kerin and jae probably think i am mad.


oh after that, went out with JAE! and kerin.cause everyone else was busy with projects, church,work,etc...
lol
anyways we went to IKEA.
and ate almost EVERYTHING!
the meatballs, salmon, chicken wing,cheese cakes, fish and chips........hahahhaha.

walked ard and talk cock.

hahahaha.but through out my mind was on the celebration i had in the afternoon and the great pictures taken...


cindy is super happy.

she got to spend time with ppl she really likes=classmates, KEN, kenneth tall and the 2-some and sijie.

and all along i noe.........my gf and alex and mark would be happy too.

todae.............is really.one of the best day of my life.

:) the feeling of not being able to stop smiling is.............great.
and i hope it lasts and repeats itself ALWAYS.

guilt

sorry salny.
din see the tag until NOW.

i've been...............rushing PROJECTS.EVIL THINGS< THEM.
wad eye candy???

anyways.
cindy=walking corpse.
if u see some girl with bed hair(uncombed and messed up in a 0% sexy manner) +
prob some loose clothes(din have time to think before throwing some dress/shirt over)
funeral shoes(black slip-ons)
panda eyes(smudged on eyeliner plus eye bags)
and a sniffy nose
and really bad complexion(late nights + choco+ bad weather+ cookies=BAD SKIN)

its probably CINDY
then again...........the above sounds like any ngee ann poly BFS year 3 girl.

projects are scary, with bad comments abt everyone flying ard.

the best thing to cover your ass now is to just

do your work.
do it well
if u can't
just try your damn best till you are damn sure if u tried anyharder.........u'll be 101%dead.

sleep,outings,excuses=out of the window.
and u will be guilt free and ALL members will not have anything against you.

1% less than your best , and no matter what you say/do.regardless of fancy excuses.
and your organs be fried.and basically ego smashed and reputation?...............OUT OF THE FUCKING WINDOW SIR.

covering your ass.................is an art of.........doing your best to please everyone and yourself.

..............projs aside.


bdae coming.
was quite excited abt it.........
but as the day draws closer..........
kinda loathing it to come.

not that i mind the age.

bdaes are just................inauspicious days where one has to tread with caution.

:]


bdae wishes.............un purchasable
-after car ride piggybacker
-blanket tucker

some happy memories are best left under the bed, covered with dust.