Miss Beautiful

Saturday, March 27, 2004

Today, i was supposed to go for the MJ match, but i ended up going to see doctor for sinus. As expected, i was scolded by doctor lahz...

After seeing doc, mum took me all the way to Shenton Way to try the Hakka cuisine. Man, the yong tau foo is very nice!! Then we went town to shop. Mum bought some t-shirts. I wanted to buy the bodynits sports bra la. But when i tried it on, it's quite weird cos' my right breast bigger than my left, then quite obvious, so i ended up not buying. Haha.

I got my mum to buy 4d for me. Hahaha, this is my first time buying 4d, so i'm quite excited. If i strike 4d first price, i will have 2000 bucks. With 2000 bucks, i'll give my mum half the money and take the other half to buy a digi-cam, a new racket and treat my friends a meal! Wootz...but that's if i strike the first price. Hahah, i dont know what makes me wanna buy 4d, probably, i'm just hoping that i'm struck with beginner's luck...*pray that i strike*

As i was going home, i saw this mad old man wearing a metal pot on his head. Mum and I couldnt stop laughing. So funny!!! Seriously, though i'm having a good laugh at the deranged old man, i cant stop thinking how i'll behave if i become old and mad...

Anyway, first week of school has been pretty much fun and boring all at once for me, though it's mostly tiring. I've decided to stop tuition at Novel cos' it's too ex. Decided to go with xpr to tian xiong at singapore shopping centre for tuition(saw laureen's sis today). Yeah man.

Tennis season starting school and i've a feeling we might be so damn trashed. In my grouping, we have RJC, HCJC, NTJC and even CJC. I believe that my school is the only one without coach... And that i heard a lot of ex-sec school players going cjc tennis team. Oh man, we'll be so trashed...GEEZ!!!

Tennis trial didnt went as well as i hoped. Only 3 gals and 1 guy came...How are we to form a team with that little people...HAHA.. Right now, i can only conclude that the future for tennis seems quite bleak.

Went TPJC for tennis on Wed, we were all so trashed (sob sob). But hey, TPJC people noticed me!! haha, and they(dunno who are they, maybe it's just one person but heck) asked Jamie if i was from a girl school cos' i had this very girl school look. Wootz~

But again, with the above comment, i was pondering what it means by having a girl's school look.
1) Look dao and bitchy
2) Loud and out-going yet seemingly irritating
3) Sporty and fun
4) The very attitude look
5) The anti-guy look
6) I aint gonna say anything bd to degrade myself...

Okay peeps, if ya're free to tag on moi's taggie, tell me what ya think a girl's school look to you portrays...yuppz~

P.s: I'll be meeting Sc and prob Ernie tomorrow~Excited~~~~

Monday, March 22, 2004

The day I feel revitalised and bright after seeing a fresh new batch of newbies...

Today, as i made my way outta YISHUN MRT STATION, my little heart(considering that the size of my hand is very small as compared to the others) is throbbing with excitement. "How will the new J1s(guys only) look like...hope there're some really cute ones who can be my permanant eye candies." Then i spotted Sharon and ran up to her so that we can both talk and walk to school at the same time. It's a bad move considering the fact that i might had just run quite clumsily. Then, Sharon was like, "Look at the two acs guys behind, i think one of them is cute." *turn my head and i was greeted by a Clive look-alike. Wow, this guy, quite tall, very sharp features, nice dyed hair, YUMMY~

Well, such sightings of cute guys are actually very unusual when you are in YJ. The sight of the cute barker guy set my heart ablaze and i was pretty optimistic that this is a good beginning. Well, i ended up seeing a few more cute barker guys. Dont they just rock? Well, i also saw the fat guy from moulmein high lah, wassup with him being in YJ(not that i have any problem).

ANYway, XPR was irritating me with her love for the pierce sec guy. She's like so in love with him, kept telling me he's cute(yeah yeah...i can see for myself) and that he has thick eye brow...(yeah yeah)... Well, what can i say, i probably irritate the shit outta my fellow pals with all my boy crazy swooning.

Kutu asked me to get out of the permanant boy-crazy phase that i'm stucked in. Hahaha, permanant boy-crazy? Nah...it's just a temporary one. Till i find THE ONE, i'll never be able to switch out of my crazed mode.

Shall stop crapping about boys now. Looking forward and enthusiastically to school tomorrow. Hopefully, all the cute guys stay in YJ~

Saturday, March 20, 2004

Power Web Music is alive once again. Kinda happy cos i put up Sarah McLachlan's Fallen and would really like to share this lovely song with everyone. Every time i listen to this song, it just evokes all that sad feelings that i contained. Then, at my not very sarah McLachlan's voice, i'll sing the song to console myself. Then i'll imagine myself dancing ballet to the song...or else, i'll indulge in some rather clusmy yoga-like movements as i listen to this song. And then, i'll feel happier~ It's a wonder how music can influence and affect one's mood. Love Sarah McLachlan's voice, so crystal-clear...brings about serenity to the surroundings...

Anyway, spent the day in school for tennis training. Well, i think that though my servings now are pretty much accurate, i think my servings is like quite chicken feet for the oponents loe..still havent caught the secret to a powerful servings with unpredictable rebounds. Well, training was fun with my pals lah. Without ya all (kat, xpr, joyce, jas, hungy n sometimes leonie plus the rest of the tennis people), tennis wont be fun. Tennis Rocks~

Saw a cute NS guy when i went to school. Hahaha, dunno why, i feel quite cheeko nowadays, like got hormones changing with adrenaline rushing all the time. Always wanna check out on cute guys...hahahaha...so unlike me...(RIGHT)

Anyway, quite sad that ethan's out of survivor. However, i kinda expected such fate considering he had won the million bucks..TO SC AND HUIMIN...WAH LAO EH, U 2 SPOILERS man...NOW I CAN NO NEED WATCH FAME AND FOR MONEY OR LOVE LIAO LO...WITH RESULTS...SPOILERS!! *throw eggs on min and sc**nevertheless, thanks for telling result lah, i'll prob check it out from net if you never tell. BUT I'M DARN IMPRESSED BY CHAD LO~~~=O

Ok, i shall go and watch the channel u show "love is beautiful".

Ps: Sarah McLachlan's Fallen does not portrays the state of well-being that i've right now. It's just one of my many favourite song.

Friday, March 19, 2004

Was going GAGA over XB's pictures of guys in her school. If only YJ has sucha good lookers, i'll be so damn motivated to go school man! Hopefully, after first three months, more good looking J1s fill up YJ and they must have raymond-like potential...HOOTZ*

Okay, i suddenly feel so han sup(cheeko in dialect). Maybe this has gotta do with myself being so single for so long...so so long...and not having any crush for at least half a year(not including raymond cos' he's an eye candy)! Hahaha, suddenly having this outburst of energy telling myself to loosen up a lil, and go out and meet more great guys like i used to...Hahahaha..=)... but again, the harsh reality doesnt really permits me to go out and be so opened about making friends and stuff lahz...

Anyway, was really happy that Leah's out from ai3. How she actually got chosen by Paula Abdul to be in the finals still remains as a mystery to me. Watched Fame and i really really like ALEX. He's so GORGEOUS with all that bad boy attitude. Okay, if you dont know, FAME is like an american idol series but the diff is that all the contenders must be able to sing and dance and be a great performer, something like a triple threat. Though not all the contenders can croon as well as those on AI, Fame is nevertheless nice and exciting. Ya can all catch it on channel i at 9pm.

ALso watched For love or money on channel i after ai3. Hahahaha, i'm such a reality tv freak lahz. I dont really like erin and i really hope that the guy she chosed in the end will dump her for the money...Wootz...Evil me~

Okay, shall stop typing to watch Survivor now...Hope that Jerri be out tonight~

Thursday, March 18, 2004

A certain schoolmate died very recently and it set me pondering that there goes a young and bright person, with wishes unfulfiled and hopes dashed. Although i do not personally know that schoolmate, i still feel kinda morbid and sad that he's gone. Life's just too short and unpredictable. We just wont know when we would be gone. It's very cliche to say this, but still i will do a shout-out to those reading my entry...Cherish your life and live life to the fullest. You just wont know when you'll be gone. And once you're gone, you even have the chance to sit and mope about those missed opportunities that had come your way...

Anyway, this is holiday week and i am pretty much stoning and bumming around at home. That's kinda unlike me. In the past(just last year), i am always out like 27-7. However, since the start of this year, i'm so much more toned down than last year. I kinda miss my old life style which i cant really afford monetarily and physically(due to school and cca commitments) and emotionally(cos i cant afford to screw up and be retained again). It's quite a harsh and sad reality that i'm facing now. I have confirmed the truth judging on my past 2 months plus of time and this holiday...I HAVE INDEED NOT MUCH A LIFE! That's so sad cos'i really miss hanging out with my pals...Haiz...I guess i have yet to master the art of time management. Enough of moping already...

Well, this week worth of AMericAn Idol rocks. Especially today's episode. WHY? CLAY IS COMING!!!! ANd He WILL MOST PROBABLY PERFORM. Hahahahahahaaha, darn happy man. I'm a bloody claymate, though i often accuse mum to be a bloody claymate. But Clay's simply irresistable! He's a truly world class performer man...Still remember how my mum beam when Ryan said that Clay will be on tonight's show. Hahahaha, shiok man. I'm rooting for Jon Peter Lewis and Latoya to win! I love Jon man, maybe cos' he sounds like Elvis and because he has this clay-aikeness air around him. Wootz~ And he dances as badly as i do. Hahahahahaha! Hope Leah will be out today. I think that her voice is not even special or unique or power at all. What's the point of being a pretty face when you're on American Idol...

Anyway, was out for dinner with Ernie and Min yesterday. Was glad to see them after so long.*hugs*

Was out today with Bao for a little while. *HUGS* How long did we last met...i'm afraid it's 17th Jan...Hahahaha..Been about two months since we met...Really glad to meet ya and tok so much cock with ya...Hahahaa, Bao saw 2 of my school people whom she reckon both are cute..hehehehe! YJ guys aint so bad after all...

PS: Live life to the fullest. Watch as much TV as possible...Catch AI3 tonight and hopefully see Leah being kicked out...and WATCH CLAY PERFORMS(hopefully) and join mx to be bloody claymates~

Friday, March 12, 2004

Last night, i had a bad dream. In my dream, i dreamt that i was in the old st.margs compound, in the small and narrow canteen. I was with a fellow pal though i cant remember who was that. Then, i saw a thin and wiry looking snake and the both of us started running in the opposite direction, screaming and shouting to fellow magaretians about the snake. Just when i thought i had escaped the snake, i was once again confronted by another snake. This time round, it was huge and thick. Then i started running again and then another long and thin snake suddenly appeared and followed me. I was freaked out. My nightmare of my life! I HATE SNAKES!!!!

When i woke up, i immediately checked on the dream decoder and realised that there are 2 different meanings regarding my dream. The negative one is the someone is jealous of me lah...But who on their right mind will be jealous of me, dumb man... The positive one is that i receive a spiritual awakening. Seriously, i think i'm awoken. WHy? Because first three months(slacker's months) are finally over. I must now be serious about my school work and acheive good grades...Yeah man..so i hope that my dream signify for the better one.

Thursday, March 11, 2004

Yesterday, YJ tennis team went down to SR for match. Thankfully, it rained very heavily so match was postponed. At least now, i can spend more time practising with my partner, Kar Lu, and build bonds. Next week is school holiday. Cant wait to rest and go out with friends. Miss all of them Lots. tomorrow there'll be the uncut version of ai3. Looked forward to it man...think i saw the aj guy on mrt. Just pretended not to see him and continue playing my hp...hahaha...today i have so many breaks until i sian...cant wait for tmr cos' last day of school!

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

Was reasonably stressed out nowadays cos of tennis commitment and school. Actually, i think i've evolved into a tennis fanatic, as what my mum said. I do nothing else but talk about tennis, play tennis, think about tennis and etc. I was quite oblivious to my mum naggings until very recently, i realise i care nothing else but tennis. Oh man...i shant go into details lahz, cos most people will just treat it as some lame excuses. From now on, i shall be commited to my school work(since i cant afford to be retained once again) and be commited to my cca all together. Then, i can say that i'm a worthy college student(sounds very Garnesh...)

Anyway, yesterday, Yj has half day, went to school for two hours (basically only for 1 econs lec). That's thanks to the improvement of our school's a level result. Nevertheless, i have a feeling that YJ will still rank the last this year... Anyway, went to watch korean horror flick, acarcia, with kutu and qi. Kao, the three of us felt so cheated. It's not even anywhere near scary. Wishing stairs was definitely loads better. Went town to meet huimin. Miss her man. *hug*(if ya were to read this). Well, spent quality time with her, indulged in taking gross pictures of myself on her hp. We watched Butterfly Effects. Man, it's dead gd, definitely much much better than acarcia. Wow, i was impressed by Ashton Kutcher. He can act lo! But sometimes, you can see him acting his usual fucked up goofed up self in the film...Was still overwhelmed by how good the movie was. So people, consider watching Butterfly Effects.

anyway, this is day 4 of me being vegetarian. i promised God that if i get B and above for chinese, i'll be vegetarian. Well, seriously thought this would never come true cos' i was expecting d7 or c6 type of grade. Going on fine...I miss eating meat at times though...Sadz...Haiz, what to do, way to go girl~

Friday, March 05, 2004

Today is definitely one of the happiest day! I got a B4 for my mother tongue. That's quite an unlikely result considering the fact that my chinese has deteriorate after coming YJ. At first, i thought that when i enter YJ, my chinese will confirm improve considering that YJ is quite a cheena school. However, i am quite wrong. It's not that YJ aint a cheena school, it's just that my class aint a cheena class la. So, from my lucky A2 that i achieved in chinese O's, i current get a B4. I am really damn proud of myself! I expected an E8 as i never really study chinese last year. Was like stoning and talking rubbish with Kat during chinese lesson last year. Copied most of the homework and failed most of the tests and stuff... So B4 is definitely a worthy grade...worthy achievement.

COme to think of it, i was actually slacking at north point, watching matrix revolution with kitty, kutu, zhihung n sootz the day before my chinese paper. Then after the movie, i went home to sleep. hahahahaha. And i remember seeing HamHam, bibi and yang yang in front of me in the cinema...hahahhaha...*still overwhelmed

To all my pals there, if you're pleased with your results, keep up the good work. We can just dump chinese forvever. J1 will be shiok without PW and Chinese this year! Hootz. To do who aint too please with their results, chinese is just small fry, heck it, if not, retake chinese loe.

Anyway, i am kinda overwhelmed with happiness with my chinese result. Really didnt expect myself to get B. Hohohohohohohoho... For those who always tease me for speaking bad chinese, Hahahahahahhaahahaha! I shall continue to speak chinese as and when i like, may it be good or bad cos' right now CHINESE ROCKS! Hahahahahahahaha...Madness wah...

Tomorrow me, xpr, kutu n kitty will be going yck for tennis. Looking forward to extra training and the fun with my dearest pals. Kat pang seh us loe... And to those going tomorrow, u all still own me 4.80 and xpr owns me urm...6.80? yeah...O$P$...(copy from those Ah Longs who spray it on the wall)

In all,Chinese Rocks. Tennis Rocks more!

Thursday, March 04, 2004

Okay, tennis rocks yesterday. Trained all the way till 7. So tired. CCA started at 2 loe. I had tennis for about 5 hours...Really tired. Nowadays, i am so tired that the only thing i do when i go home is watch Nezha, eat dinner and then sleep. What a pig...=(

Today, supposed to play tennis during my first two breaks with xpr. Stupid shit, pe department didnt allow us to use the court...*dunno what to say...but seriously, it's a considerable policy to change...
Went YCK stadium to book tennis court for saturday. I need to train man. Surprisingly, my servings improved a lot. Can get almost all the balls in lahz...though there's a particular 1/4 spot that i suck at. I am quite pissed with my forehand, everytime i hit, i will hit out of the court. Sad man, so i must train more. Tennis rocks still...N ONE VERY IMPORTANT THING-->>> I must not stone during competition. It seems like i'm always dreaming loe... WHY???

ANyway, tomorrow getting back chinese result. I hope i get above B4 lahz. My school did an analysis for us due to the new policy that students just need to pass chinese and do not need to count in chinese grades in the A's. Apparently, my school analysed that unless you get A1 (not A2), it's not worth adding on your grades due to some negative results that you will get. So, for face(mian zi), i hope i can get B4, hopefully B3(which seemed so far...) so that i can at least laugh at those who deems my chinese like shit...hahaha, gals ah, you know who u're... (just kidding). Sekali i get C or fail...hahahahhaha...that's like, quite possible in my case...Hootz~

Got 12/15 for GP response writing. Wah, so proud of myself. Content - 8/10, Language - 4/5. Hahahaha..so happy. Yes mx, keep up the good work, do not be over confident! Must work hard for your subjects and not screw GP like before...Learn from your past lessons...

ps: i think i'm talking cock in this entry so pardon me...Hootz

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it for the first time, and vices floated around and were bored, not knowing what to do.

One day, all the vices and virtues were gathered together and were more bored than ever. Suddenly, Ingenious came up with an idea: "Let's play hide
and seek!"

All of them liked the idea and immediately Madness shouted: "I want to count, I want to count!" And since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek
Madness, all the others agreed.

Madness leaned against a tree and started to count: "One, two, three..."

As Madness counted, the vices and virtues went hiding. Tenderness hung itself on the horn of the moon... Treason hid in a pile of garbage... Fondness curled up between the clouds...and Passion went to the centre of the earth.... Lie said that it would hide under a stone, but hid at the bottom of the lake... whilst Avarice entered a sack that he ended up breaking.

And Madness continued to count: .... "seventy nine, eighty, eighty one..."

By this time, all the vices and virtues were already hidden - except Love. For undecided as Love is, he could not decide where to hide. And this should
not surprise us, because we all know how difficult it is to hide Love.

Madness: "...ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven..."

Just when Madness got to one hundred.........Love jumped into a rose bush where he hid.

And Madness turned around and shouted: "I'm coming, I'm coming!" As Madness turned around, Laziness was the first to be found, because Laziness had no energy to hide. Then he spotted Tenderness in the horn of the moon, Lie at the bottom of the lake and Passion at the centre of the earth. One by one, Madness found them all - except Love.

Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love. Envious of Love, Envy whispered to Madness: "You only need to find Love and Love is hiding in the rose bush."

Madness grabbed a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the rosebush. Madness stabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry made him stop.

Love appeared from the rose bush, covering his face with his hands. Between his fingers ran two trickles of blood from his eyes.

Madness, so anxious to find Love, had stabbed out Love's eyes with a pitch fork. "What have I done! What have I done!" Madness shouted. "I have left you blind! How can I repair it?"

And Love answered: "You cannot repair my eyes. But if you want to do something for me, you can be my guide."

And so it came about that from that day on, Love is blind and is always accompanied by Madness

Went to school early today. I'm very excited now cos' i have tennis later. Yeah man. My friends and i are in the library now, using the comp. Mumu is now on irc, trying to fake people that he's a female...hahaha..what rubbish...One guy he chatted to even send him a picture of his own dick. Goodness, he showed to me and xpr. Both of us were freaked out. I, for one, think that it looked like a bottle...just a bottle...

Anyway, i've decided to start savinbg money for stuff as listed below...
1) Buy myself the olympus digi-camera budget: around 350bucks
2) Save money to settle my monthly hp bill
3) If possible, buy the Basement Jaxx album, really like the club track, good luck
4) Save money for the future...

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

The Story of Me and The AJ guy who takes the mrt at Newton

This morning, i was hurrying my journey to school, my ultimate aim is to avoid seeing the AJ guy. Felt uncomfortable basically. Just as the bus reached the Newton Mrt stop, i saw the mrt just arriving. Too bad, i miss the earlier train. I went right to the end of the station and sat down, waiting for the next train to arrive. I was looking at the signboard, trying to see how long i still have to wait for the arrival of the mrt when i saw the AJ guy. Man, i immdediately felt a little embarrassed and uncomfortable. I stoned in my usual position, making sure that he didnt notice me. Suddenly, he came up to me and apologised for his actions, "Sorry for yesterday if i had made you felt uncomfortable." I wanted to say "Ok, it's all right." But i ended up saying nothing but just nodding my head, in a way, kinda accepted his apology. Then he walked away to the other side. Then i was left sitting and pondering upon my actions and whatsoever happened yesterday......

Just yesterday, i was on the mrt stoning away. Come to think of it, i only have 5 expressions on the mrt...
1) Listen to fm and sleep
2) Listen to fm and stone (looking at people's shoes)
3) Listen to fm and indulge in sms and stone while waiting for reply
4) Listen to fm and be in deep thoughts, mostly worrying (that's stoning too)
5) Listen to fm and pretend to study when i'm stoning in the first place
I was indulging in number 2. Anyway, was stoning halfway when the AJ guy approached me and asked for my number. As i was listening to my fm, i took off the earplugs and asked him to repeat himself. Then he asked me for my number again. I was like, "you want my number for what?" Then he was like, "be friends" By then, almost everyone in the cabin was looking at us. Felt kinda scared and confused and mainly, pressurized. Didnt know what to do. In the end, i said, "Nah, it's all right" and rejected him...Then he walked away. Man, i felt stupid for adding on It's all right. Seemed kinda lame loe. Felt bad rejecting him cos' it's just not nice. It's not like he's ugly or what lahz...he's actually quite decent looking with good complexion.Haha! Told xpr and pals(kutu n co, min, sc) They all pitied him.

They kinda admire his courage for daring to walk over from other cabin to ask me lo. XPR kept thinking that the AJ guy is sincere and stuff lahz..Haiyahz...

It's been long since i've been troubled by matters of the heart. Haiz...I've no comments lahz. Maybe i'm mean, but seriously, i think i am a very friendly person, but only aloof to guys lahz...it takes time for me to start talking to them (but that's not the point). Only Zebutt supported my action. The rest were like...oh man, you should at least say hi to the guy even if you dont wanna give him your number...

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