Resurrection

Humming a song in mind...

Life is but a dream.

Whatever happen to the bright sparkles in the eyes?

Only to see them dull and battle weary.

Whatever happen to the fiery blazes of love inside?

Only to find the heart bled and died.

Life is but a dream.

Of princes and princesses; of ladies and gentlemen.

Of spring and summer; of dazzling stars and mesmerizing moonlight.

The heart be strong, the mind be ready, the spirit be right.

They shall be as well, heartbreaks and imperfections.

Withering and stagnancy; uncertainties and disappointments.

Do not be naive, do not be deceived.

Awoke to yet another cycle...

The heart is still bleeding.

Time be the healing.

Journey

A blink.

Heart tugging.

A tear drop.

Thought triggering.

Let what was sown not be left wasted.

Though dead, they will live again.

By the hand whose power is supreme.

From the heart whose love is infinite.

Of weaknesses, strength shall emerge.

Of poverty, riches shall overflow.

He who cause the eyes to see.

Shall provide for the vision.

Dream a lil dream come true.

Reflections...

Sang Hosanna...

I felt the tug in my heart.

Don't want to be a Christian by name.

Don't want to fulfil religious duties.

I just want to...

*Heal my heart and make it clean*

Have clean hands.

And a pure heart before you.

*Open up my eyes to the things unseen*

know You.

Not just about You.

And there must be much more than what the world can offer.

*Show me how to love like You have loved me*

Let my life be a vessel of Your love.

Simple pure love.

I want to walk with You for eternity.

"Hosanna in the highest"

Chronicles of life

God is the strength of thy heart.

No more...

No more...

No more...

Let go and fly up way.

Turn aside and move ahead.

A broken and contrite spirit.

You will not despise.

God is the strength of thy heart.

Mixed feelings...

In moments like these...

I wonder why.

To know that e years...

It will never justify.

Your actions have told me...

You want to draw e line.

I will never understand perhaps...

Stil thank you from e btm of my heart.

Mixed feelings I have...

But still, give praises anyway.

The walk of faith.

Never easy.

Someday, I guess.

...

Why does she even have to try so hard to fight for attention?

Trying not to go back to the past to compare.

Is she really expecting too much?

Maybe it is true that once it is in possession, it becomes taken for granted.

Perhaps the value of what needs to be fought n pursued is truly significantly higher than the value of what is already possessed.

Out of the abundance of her heart, the mouth speaks.

So many doubts.

Tears welling up...

Like an intruder.

Barriers within e four walls.

Left to be...

Independently alone.

What an irony.

Love.

In all things, the best is being done to the best that I can.

Yet sometimes, it still falls short of people's expectations.

Not everything is understood by others.

Not all things are being appreciated.

Still, I will keep doing what is right.

To love even when I feel vulnerable.

To love even when it is not reciprocated.

To love even when it hurts.

Help me, Lord.

I will continue to sow.

The seeds of love.

Despite my imperfections.

Despite my limitations.

At least today, I know out of the many seeds...

one has blossomed.

Thank You Jesus.

Help me, Lord.

When sometimes, it really feels bad on the inside.

I will continue to love.

It is Your Love.

Sometimes...

Sometimes all she just want is...

Some fun.

Some excitement.

Some spontaneous moments.

And she wonders.

Maybe it is just wishful thinking.

A smack of reality.

...

Trying to ignore the ache.

Having a hole in the heart.

Time will heal and perhaps strengthen.

Nothing is ever permanent but His love.

...

Heart aches again.

Silent cries, quiet sniffs.

Only You Lord understand.

In moment like these...

I sing You a song.

...

Feels restricted and limited.

The thot of idealism.

I want to fly.

Up, up and away.

Rarely has it been...

Rarely has it been...

The ache in the heart beats rhythmically.

Rarely has it been...

Since the many days behind and now a revisit.

Once again...

The boomerang thought comes and goes.

Once again...

The lousy inadequate mentality tries dictating.

Till now...

No sound, no word.

Only cordiality.

Till now...

No reason, no answer.

Only uncertainty.

What should be said?

For the words might disappear like wind as it passes.

What should be done?

For the actions might be belittled like specks of sand along the shore.

Time & Prayer.

God & Faith.

The rarely has been...

Brought me to see You in it.

He has made everything beautiful.

Singing this song for the past 1 week...


There is none like You
No one else can touch my heart like You do
I could search for all eternity long and find
There is none like You


And I asked the Lord for another word to encourage me and for the cg...


Ecc 3: 1-15, NLT
(Extracted from www.biblegateway.com)


A Time for Everything

 ¹ For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven. 

² A time to be born and a time to die. A time to plant and a time to harvest.

³ A time to kill and a time to heal. A time to tear down and a time to build up.

⁴ A time to cry and a time to laugh. A time to grieve and a time to dance.

⁵ A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones. A time to embrace and a time to turn away.

⁶ A time to search and a time to quit searching. A time to keep and a time to throw away.

⁷ A time to tear and a time to mend. A time to be quiet and a time to speak.

⁸ A time to love and a time to hate. A time for war and a time for peace.

⁹ What do people really get for all their hard work? 

¹⁰ I have seen the burden God has placed on us all. 

¹¹ Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. reminding me of a painting that is made up of  an assortment of colors. The existence of the dark colors (i.e.our dark moments, challenges and trials) accentuates the presence of the brighter colors (i.e. our victories, the blessings and the enjoyment of the fruit of our labour) Every moment in our lives is not wasted at all. He gathers all the moments to make a beautiful painting of our individual lives. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end. God is sovereign, only Him alone is in control. He is the Alpha and the Omega.

¹² So I concluded there is nothing better than to be happy and enjoy ourselves as long as we can. 

¹³ And people should eat and drink and enjoy the fruits of their labor, for these are gifts from God. To appreciate what the Lord has given.

¹⁴ And I know that whatever God does is final. Nothing can be added to it or taken from it. This is it. Period. God’s purpose is that people should fear him. 

¹⁵ What is happening now has happened before, and what will happen in the future has happened before, because God makes the same things happen over and over again.

I felt Him reminding me to be thankful for every season that He allowed me to go through. 

No doubt, there were many tough times where I wish I hadn't gone through.

But He knows what is best for me to make me a better person.

And not just better, but to be more like Him.

When all other words fail to say, may these lyrics relate...

"My life is Your song.

There is none like You.

You make all things possible, You reign victorious."

Like Joshua and Caleb...

Enter into the new season with faith.

And I will...

Enjoy the new day with love.

Random thoughts...

I realized the wee hours do have an effect on me...

The standstill and the smell of night breeze....

Tend to trigger raw emotions out within.

Many things have happened over the past months...

Shocking moments; unbelievable truth.

Still, out of everything that has been revealed...

I hang on to this belief.

To keep my heart pure and right before Him.

People will fail us.

People will let us down.

People will disappoint us.

But God will not fail us.

But God will not let us down.

But God will not disappoint us.

If our focus is on how people have failed, let us down and disappointed us...

Our hearts can become broken, cold and bitter.

If our focus is on how that God can extend His grace, mercy and love upon us...

Our hearts can be spared from hardening.

And to maintain that tenderness of our hearts.

To feel how God would feel.

To sense how God would sense.

To see how God would see.

To love how God would love.

While sitting there listening to Pst Paul Scalon's message...

I felt the Lord spoke to me - to condition my heart with His love once again.

While sitting there listening to Pst Tan's message...

I was reminded a verse - not to conform to the ways of the world but be transformed by the renewing of the mind.

I don't believe that we should excuse ourselves from logic and reason because we're Christians.

I believe the origin of logic and reason comes from God Himself.

But I do believe that in times of the many whys that we have in our journey of life...

There will be moments where our simple obedience to God's word and trust in Him should supercede the whys in our lives.

This is the moment for me...

To just trust and obey.

Emphasis in Red & Thoughts in Blue

Extracted from www.biblegateway.com

2 Timothy 2-4 (The Message)

2 Timothy 2

Doing Your Best for God

^1-7So, my son, throw yourself into this work for Christ. Pass on what you heard from me—the whole congregation saying Amen!— to reliable leaders who are competent to teach others. When the going gets rough, take it on the chin with the rest of us, the way Jesus did. A soldier on duty doesn't get caught up in making deals at the marketplace. He concentrates on carrying out orders. (The need to be focused) An athlete who refuses to play by the rules will never get anywhere. (The need to be disciplined) It's the diligent farmer who gets the produce. (The need to be hardworking) Think it over. God will make it all plain.

^8-13Fix this picture firmly in your mind: Jesus, descended from the line of David, raised from the dead. It's what you've heard from me all along. It's what I'm sitting in jail for right now—but God's Word isn't in jail! That's why I stick it out here—so that everyone God calls will get in on the salvation of Christ in all its glory. This is a sure thing:
   If we die with him, we'll live with him;
   If we stick it out with him, we'll rule with him;
   If we turn our backs on him, he'll turn his back on us;
   If we give up on him, he does not give up—
      for there's no way he can be false to himself.

^14-18Repeat these basic essentials over and over to God's people. Warn them before God against pious nitpicking, which chips away at the faith. It just wears everyone out. (Totally agree. I would rather conserve energy to build on unity. It does get very tiring having to hear people insist on who is right and who is wrong. A reminder for me to stay humble, quick to forgive and always remember to exercise Christlikeness. There are way more important things to do than just the fervent actions of defending one’s ego) Concentrate on doing your best for God, work you won't be ashamed of, laying out the truth plain and simple. Stay clear of pious talk that is only talk. Words are not mere words, you know. If they're not backed by a godly life, they accumulate as poison in the soul. Hymenaeus and Philetus are examples, throwing believers off stride and missing the truth by a mile by saying the resurrection is over and done with.

¹⁹Meanwhile, God's firm foundation is as firm as ever, these sentences engraved on the stones:
   god knows who belongs to him.
   spurn evil, all you who name god as god.

^20-21In a well-furnished kitchen there are not only crystal goblets and silver platters, but waste cans and compost buckets—some containers used to serve fine meals, others to take out the garbage. Become the kind of container God can use to present any and every kind of gift to his guests for their blessing. (Cool translation of saying be useful for the Master!)

^22-26Run away from infantile indulgence. Run after mature righteousness—faith, love, peace—joining those who are in honest and serious prayer before God. Refuse to get involved in inane discussions; they always end up in fights. God's servant must not be argumentative, but a gentle listener (Be relational) and a teacher (read the word, study the word, teach the word) who keeps cool, working firmly but patiently with those who refuse to obey. You never know how or when God might sober them up with a change of heart and a turning to the truth, enabling them to escape the Devil's trap, where they are caught and held captive, forced to run his errands.

2 Timothy 3

Difficult Times Ahead

^1-5Don't be naive. There are difficult times ahead. As the end approaches, people are going to be self-absorbed, money-hungry, self-promoting, stuck-up, profane, contemptuous of parents, crude, coarse, dog-eat-dog, unbending, slanderers, impulsively wild, savage, cynical, treacherous, ruthless, bloated windbags, addicted to lust, and allergic to God. They'll make a show of religion, but behind the scenes they're animals. Stay clear of these people.

^6-9These are the kind of people who smooth-talk themselves into the homes of unstable and needy women and take advantage of them; women who, depressed by their sinfulness, take up with every new religious fad that calls itself "truth." They get exploited every time and never really learn. These men are like those old Egyptian frauds Jannes and Jambres, who challenged Moses. They were rejects from the faith, twisted in their thinking, defying truth itself. But nothing will come of these latest impostors. Everyone will see through them, just as people saw through that Egyptian hoax.

Keep the Message Alive

^10-13You've been a good apprentice to me, a part of my teaching, my manner of life, direction, faith, steadiness, love, patience, troubles, sufferings—suffering along with me in all the grief I had to put up with in Antioch, Iconium, and Lystra. And you also well know that God rescued me! Anyone who wants to live all out for Christ is in for a lot of trouble; there's no getting around it. Unscrupulous con men will continue to exploit the faith. They're as deceived as the people they lead astray. As long as they are out there, things can only get worse.

^14-17But don't let it faze you. Stick with what you learned and believed, sure of the integrity of your teachers—why, you took in the sacred Scriptures with your mother's milk! There's nothing like the written Word of God for showing you the way to salvation through faith in Christ Jesus. Every part of Scripture is God-breathed and useful one way or another—showing us truth, exposing our rebellion, correcting our mistakes, training us to live God's way. (One must have the willingness, the humility, the readiness to let the Word scrutinize us thoroughly, we do not let the Word condemn us or others but we abide the Word to transform us into better people i.e. more like Jesus) Through the Word we are put together and shaped up for the tasks God has for us.

2 Timothy 4

^1-2I can't impress this on you too strongly. God is looking over your shoulder. Christ himself is the Judge, with the final say on everyone, living and dead. He is about to break into the open with his rule, so proclaim the Message with intensity; keep on your watch. Challenge, warn, and urge your people. Don't ever quit. Just keep it simple.

^3-5You're going to find that there will be times when people will have no stomach for solid teaching, but will fill up on spiritual junk food—catchy opinions that tickle their fancy. They'll turn their backs on truth and chase mirages. But you—keep your eye on what you're doing; accept the hard times along with the good; keep the Message alive; do a thorough job as God's servant.

^6-8You take over. I'm about to die, my life an offering on God's altar. This is the only race worth running. I've run hard right to the finish, believed all the way. All that's left now is the shouting—God's applause! Depend on it, he's an honest judge. He'll do right not only by me, but by everyone eager for his coming.

^9-13Get here as fast as you can. Demas, chasing fads, went off to Thessalonica and left me here. Crescens is in Galatia province, Titus in Dalmatia. Luke is the only one here with me. Bring Mark with you; he'll be my right-hand man since I'm sending Tychicus to Ephesus. Bring the winter coat I left in Troas with Carpus; also the books and parchment notebooks.

^14-15Watch out for Alexander the coppersmith. Fiercely opposed to our Message, he caused no end of trouble. God will give him what he's got coming.

^16-18At my preliminary hearing no one stood by me. They all ran like scared rabbits. But it doesn't matter—the Master stood by me and helped me spread the Message loud and clear to those who had never heard it. I was snatched from the jaws of the lion! God's looking after me, keeping me safe in the kingdom of heaven. All praise to him, praise forever! Oh, yes!

^19-20Say hello to Priscilla and Aquila; also, the family of Onesiphorus. Erastus stayed behind in Corinth. I had to leave Trophimus sick in Miletus.

²¹Try hard to get here before winter.

   Eubulus, Pudens, Linus, Claudia, and all your friends here send greetings.

²²God be with you. Grace be with you.

My prayer – To raise up more laborers for the harvest field; those who read the Word, study the Word, know the Word and can teach the Word.

An awesome time with Jeanie and our cellgroups!
2011 will be the best year yet to be :)

 

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Btw I’m married for 2 months now.

“So, how’s married life?”

“Haha, need to do more housework loh!”