I am starting a new week and everything was like a whirlwind as there are so many things that happened. I don't even know what to say... There are so many things that I had done but not sure what I am going to do with my life... I mean... After graduation... What should I do? What am I interested in? I don't even have the answer...

I am thinking that the only answer to that is only God who has the answer for me and I think he understand the most about me and I believe that he has the best plan for me and I will just need to believe him and he will plan out everything for me. I just need to do my best in whatever I am doing now.

Yesterday, I heard Sky's sermon on questions that I want to ask God... I never thought about that... In the past, I kept complaining about my life to God and only thank him when things are going well and bad... I understand that he wants me to be stronger after every obstacle that I had in my life...

Now I think I got so many questions to ask God and I think he will be able to answer me... Why am I in Korea? What am I going to do for him? How can I change people because of my life? I believe God have answers to my life and I just have to try and search for it.. Even though it is hard... I believe that it is possible....

Last week was the most terrible hell for me because I think I lost faith in God because I didn't believe that he will be always there for me. I was afraid. I shouldn't be afraid because I have God but I know now that it is ok to be afraid because I am just a mere human. Well, even when my faith waver... God never leave me... He was with me through the exam. When I was not thinking right, he gave me directions. God is just so amazing... The way that he taught me through the holy spirit was fantastic... I feel safe because I have God. No one in this world is closer to me than him.

I have been thinking about Heejun too... This is so weird... I don't know why... I thought of the songs that he had written and inspired me so much and he contribute to who I am today... I just want to thank him for the songs that he wrote to spur me and gave me hope... Besides my greatest love who is God... Heejun is someone I am always looking up to even though he is human... I love the music that he wrote... It is so touching...

Besides Heejun... My new friend Jeanie... I love the songs that she wrote and it inspires me a lot about relationship with God. It is ok to be weak and run to God or even crawl to him... He will be with us and give us strength. There are so much feeling within me... I don't know what I should do but I believe that God has a plan for me and things will work out for me according to his will.. v(^v^)v

Just blabbering... Hahaha!!


~~~**~~~So Good to be alive for another day, I must treasure it!!!!!~~~**~~~

SOON. SOOON.