There are some things that I am willing to sacrifice for, some things I am willing to be in pain for, some things I am willing to dedicate my time for and some things that I am willing to work hard for.

In that vein, there are some people I am willing to spend most time with, some people that I am willing to spend a lot of time with, some people I that I am willing to see quite often and some people that I am happy to see once in a blue moon.

Being selective in how I spend my time? Yes. Obviously so anyway, considering the fact that I now spend almost 12 hours working everyday(minus weekends, of which I , I deserve the right to spend time with people whom I'm more than glad to see. Shouldn't us all?

That said, I'm sure everyone's like that too. Have a good week ahead =)

wake me up, when september ends.

september... a turning point, an eventful month.

it taught me the lessons I was told to look for.

deeper friendships

unconditional love

hope

courage

fortitude

It also taught me the frailties of the human mind, and how we worldly human beings need to learn to be of support to one another. It taught me to respect the other and to accept, not judge. It forced me to be a source of encouragement, to be the pillar for another. It taught me to accept the conditions that I've chosen and to learn to be with it.

September made me grow too much, too fast. But I'm guessing the curve will just get steeper from here.
I can only pray, and will pray. for you, for me, for everybody.

When it all seems daunting, fear not, for the Lord is with you and will guide you each step along the way, so long as you keep praying, keep asking for guidance and protection from harm.

A sudden realization of my responsibilities as a 'full-fledged but young-at-heart adult' feels like a 20 tonne weight fell onto me from above. So many things to take care of, but worry not, for everything will happen in its own time, according to plan (fingers crossed!). Just yesterday, I was young and ignorant. Today, I am still young, but can no longer feign ignorance.

But time and time again, I give thanks for all the blessings I've had up till now.


Just package all the worries up nicely into a pimple and let it pop away.

Somehow, this song provided me with much comfort, whenever I think of what the future will hold for me, from the moment I cross that threshold of comfort into reality. It is scary, yet exciting, daunting yet promising. I have been asked many times this month on how work has been, even though I have not started, and somehow, their concern becomes a vibration of worry inside me. I can only pray that it will be good. And it is even scarier, knowing the plans I have for the future, but that will be for the future to worry. I'm just thankful for friends who not only stay supportive of me, and not feed me with worries about work life and future bosses/colleagues/projects, but instead orientate me to focus on the present, on the conquering the mind and on living out my path. As I've said many times before, angels are there to guide us along every single step along the way.


When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth (Voice of Truth)

I am glad, for a soulful smile to brighten up my day, a practice that reaffirms my being, and the solitude that allows me to meditate on my existence.

There are so many things to be thankful for.

I just don't get it when people choose to complain about the smallest worry in the world.

Life is more beautiful than that to be filling our hearts with anger, hate and jealousy. Don't fall into that trap.

Let us be grateful to people who make us happy;

they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.

Marcel Proust

[Love the geometrical symmetry of the pattern.
Feels as though everything is in perfect union, in perfect harmony.]

The success of love is in the loving
- it is not in the result of loving.
Of course it is natural in love to want the best for the other person,
but whether it turns out that way or not
does not determine the value
of what we have done

-Mother Teresa-

Borrowing from my aunt's favourite quote:

“I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can't be helped.”

-Frederick Perls-

How will I remember this year by?

I will remember it by God's heavenly blessings:

for allowing me to spend more time at home instead of slogging away on my thesis project, of which would be energy wasted and eternal regret. So yes, thank God for the beautiful conversation with the angel of my heart;
for letting me make the right choices, not calculated ones, but choices from intuition. I believe they are whispers of God;
for revealing to me friends that were more than willing to cheer me up and to constantly watch over me when I seem to have forgotten about my own needs;
for very wise older friends to remind me of their past mistakes and sound advice;
for the many friends from other professions to provide me with different perspectives, friends without the architecture complex;
for reminding me that our time on earth is temporal and worldly needs are not important;
for allowing me to attain peace within myself and for seeing the light;
for allowing me time to pray, time to play and time to heal;
for allowing me to realize my purpose on earth

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For bestowing me with blessings from a dearly beloved one,
for letting him speak his final words to me,
for turning him into my guardian angel, now and forevermore,
for sending angels in my darkest hours,
for allowing me to have this unconditional love for 26 years, and knowing that nothing would be more beautiful than this precious love

Nothing on earth, is more precious than those words that were uttered to me with great strength and energy. No worldly goods can measure up to those gilded words and love.
And trust me, when you have experienced a love that has no hate, no anger, no jealousy, no fear, no doubt, no insecurity , nothing else will ever worth as much (other that the love of God). This love was pure and unconditional. He was a Godly man, he provided for his family and shunned away material wants. He will always be my role model, for he knows better than to live life on earth chasing worldly riches, but to live life on earth as a blessing to others around him.

Thank you Lord, for giving me this love so beautiful.

Thank you, for introducing me to the beautiful Hail Mary, and I will recite it in remembrance of you.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee; blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Making the right choice

Have you ever made a choice, and was told that the choice you made was right? How did it make you feel?

I'm glad I made the choice, lived up to it, prayed hard for God's guidance on the unfamiliar path that I took and never regretted a single moment of it. When I told myself that I will live this year differently, I had to go with great faith, but not without constant reminders from people and divine signs that God will always keep watch over me.

You want to know what my choice was? You've gotta ask me for that ;P

I can't remember days when I felt pure joy like this. I had such a good day, meeting and eating with old friends, some whom I've not met since I got busy with thesis. It feels good just hanging out and catching up.

I'm all excited for tomorrow. Looking forward to the Muji sales@ Suntec (huge grin). I could use a few new tops ;) Plus the exciting lineup in the afternoon and evening after shopping... it has been so long since I looked forward to tomorrow. For the past few months, it used to be ' I don't want today to end, for tomorrow is a new day, which means that it's a day nearer to submission'. If you want to meet me in a fantastic mood, it should be tomorrow.

Anyway, I'm glad to be doing what I love doing most. I've got a ginormous pile of books waiting to be gobbled up and an exciting Bali trip coming up next week. Will probably do some tea shopping while I'm there. Teehehehe. Need to set up my cameras next! Found someone who'll help me load film into the slr. Probably won't be taking that to Bali though. Too risky for a beginner like me.

Anyway, yes, Praise God for everyday.

Alice and the caterpillar

"An anonymous text from the Tradition says that, in life, each person can take one of two attitudes: to build or to plant. The builders might take years over their tasks, but one day, they finish what they’re doing. Then they find they’re hemmed in by their own walls. Life loses its meaning when the building stops.

Then, there are those who plant. They endure storms and all the many vicissitudes of the seasons, and they rarely rest. But unlike a building, a garden never stops growing. And while it requires the gardener’s constant attention, it also allows life for the gardener to be a great adventure.

Gardeners always recognize one another, because they know that in the history of each plant lies the growth of the whole World."

Brida, Paulo Coelho

I definitely want to be the gardener.

Who looks outside, dreams;
Who looks inside, awakes
~Carl Jung~

Don't you wish you could disappear through the looking glass?

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I'm beginning to see God's plan, always on hindsight, but lately I'm catching up.
I just need to notice the signs fast enough.

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Bumped into an old friend today, and although he was on the phone, he held me back to finish up his conversation (instead of waving me off) before turning to me and said,
'Where have you been? I've really missed you.'

It takes some pure sunshine to break a gloomy day.

A little love really goes a long way, especially when it's said from the bottom of the heart.

Life the Queen of Hearts, we all have that little bit of insanity in us.
Anyway, I thought this frame was beautifully modeled. Love Alice's dress.





Anyway, finding peace cadding at home and producing my drawings. Think I need to hole myself up at home till I'm ready to go back to work in the studio. It's a mad mad environment out there. Jia you everyone else! Will keep everyone in prayer.




Credit for pic

Either the well was very deep,
or she fell very slowly,
for she had plenty of time
as she went down to look about her,
and to wonder what was going to happen next

Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, 1866







Credit for pic: More Alice pics

The sheep recently discovered that:

emotional people are time bombs

when I sink into the pain, I discover a new realm beyond it

it is a personal right to be happy despite negativity around

God has given her one of the greatest gifts ever

Honestly, I do not know how to response when the world becomes bizarre.

Michelle Tumes - Center of my universe

You're the sweet dreams that soothe me

When I can't fall asleep

You're the field in the middle of the city

When I'm rushing by at the speed of light

You're the strong resolution when I find no peace

You're the church bells ringing in the evening

When all is quiet

You whisper comfort

That lifts my heart I get so weak

Chorus:

Ooh You're lovely, lovely

You're the center of my universe

A thousand times I look around me and I find

Ooh You're lovely, lovely You're the center of my universe

A million ways could not explain

You're lovely

You're the soft words that touch me

When I just can't speak

You're the breeze on the ocean in the morning

Reminding me to greet the day

You're the flowers I remember seeing in Italy

Colors through a golden haze

Bright and radiant, soft and fragrant

In the noon day sun, it makes me sing chorus

I understand there may be grief

And there may be pain

But I'm aware You blind the darkness

With Who You are

Because...

Never Forget (by Take That)

Been on this path of life for so long
Feel I've walked a thousand miles
Sometimes strolled hand in hand with love
Everybody's been there
With danger on my mind I would stay on the line of hope
I knew I could make it
Once I knew the boundaries I looked into the clouds and saw
My face in the moonlight
Just then I realised what a fool I could be
Just cause I look so high I don't have to see me
Finding a paradise wasn't easy but still
There's a road going down the other side of this hill

Never forget where you've come here from
Never pretend that it's all real
Someday soon this will be someone else's dream

Been safe from the arms of disappointment for so long
Feel each day we've come too far
Yet each day seems to make much more
Sure is good to be here
I understand the meaning of "I can't explain this feeling"
Now it feels so unreal
At night I see the hand that reminds me of the stand I make
The fact of reality

Never forget where you've come here from
Never pretend that it's all real
Someday soon this will be someone else's dream

We've come so far and we've reached so high
And we've looked each day and night in the eye
And we're still so young and we hope for more
But remember this
We're not invincible, we're not invincible - No
We're only people, we're only people
Hey we're not invincible, we're not invincible
So again I'll tell you

Never forget where you've come here from
Never pretend that it's all real
Someday soon this will be someone else's dream


We've come so far and we've reached so high
And we've looked each day and night in the eye
And we're still so young and we hope for more
But remember this
We're not invincible, we're not invincible - No
We're only people, we're only people
Hey we're not invincible, we're not invincible
So again I'll tell you