There are some things that I am willing to sacrifice for, some things I am willing to be in pain for, some things I am willing to dedicate my time for and some things that I am willing to work hard for.

In that vein, there are some people I am willing to spend most time with, some people that I am willing to spend a lot of time with, some people I that I am willing to see quite often and some people that I am happy to see once in a blue moon.

Being selective in how I spend my time? Yes. Obviously so anyway, considering the fact that I now spend almost 12 hours working everyday(minus weekends, of which I , I deserve the right to spend time with people whom I'm more than glad to see. Shouldn't us all?

That said, I'm sure everyone's like that too. Have a good week ahead =)

wake me up, when september ends.

september... a turning point, an eventful month.

it taught me the lessons I was told to look for.

deeper friendships

unconditional love

hope

courage

fortitude

It also taught me the frailties of the human mind, and how we worldly human beings need to learn to be of support to one another. It taught me to respect the other and to accept, not judge. It forced me to be a source of encouragement, to be the pillar for another. It taught me to accept the conditions that I've chosen and to learn to be with it.

September made me grow too much, too fast. But I'm guessing the curve will just get steeper from here.
I can only pray, and will pray. for you, for me, for everybody.

When it all seems daunting, fear not, for the Lord is with you and will guide you each step along the way, so long as you keep praying, keep asking for guidance and protection from harm.

A sudden realization of my responsibilities as a 'full-fledged but young-at-heart adult' feels like a 20 tonne weight fell onto me from above. So many things to take care of, but worry not, for everything will happen in its own time, according to plan (fingers crossed!). Just yesterday, I was young and ignorant. Today, I am still young, but can no longer feign ignorance.

But time and time again, I give thanks for all the blessings I've had up till now.


Just package all the worries up nicely into a pimple and let it pop away.

Somehow, this song provided me with much comfort, whenever I think of what the future will hold for me, from the moment I cross that threshold of comfort into reality. It is scary, yet exciting, daunting yet promising. I have been asked many times this month on how work has been, even though I have not started, and somehow, their concern becomes a vibration of worry inside me. I can only pray that it will be good. And it is even scarier, knowing the plans I have for the future, but that will be for the future to worry. I'm just thankful for friends who not only stay supportive of me, and not feed me with worries about work life and future bosses/colleagues/projects, but instead orientate me to focus on the present, on the conquering the mind and on living out my path. As I've said many times before, angels are there to guide us along every single step along the way.


When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth (Voice of Truth)

I am glad, for a soulful smile to brighten up my day, a practice that reaffirms my being, and the solitude that allows me to meditate on my existence.

There are so many things to be thankful for.

I just don't get it when people choose to complain about the smallest worry in the world.

Life is more beautiful than that to be filling our hearts with anger, hate and jealousy. Don't fall into that trap.

Let us be grateful to people who make us happy;

they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.

Marcel Proust

[Love the geometrical symmetry of the pattern.
Feels as though everything is in perfect union, in perfect harmony.]

The success of love is in the loving
- it is not in the result of loving.
Of course it is natural in love to want the best for the other person,
but whether it turns out that way or not
does not determine the value
of what we have done

-Mother Teresa-

Borrowing from my aunt's favourite quote:

“I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can't be helped.”

-Frederick Perls-

How will I remember this year by?

I will remember it by God's heavenly blessings:

for allowing me to spend more time at home instead of slogging away on my thesis project, of which would be energy wasted and eternal regret. So yes, thank God for the beautiful conversation with the angel of my heart;
for letting me make the right choices, not calculated ones, but choices from intuition. I believe they are whispers of God;
for revealing to me friends that were more than willing to cheer me up and to constantly watch over me when I seem to have forgotten about my own needs;
for very wise older friends to remind me of their past mistakes and sound advice;
for the many friends from other professions to provide me with different perspectives, friends without the architecture complex;
for reminding me that our time on earth is temporal and worldly needs are not important;
for allowing me to attain peace within myself and for seeing the light;
for allowing me time to pray, time to play and time to heal;
for allowing me to realize my purpose on earth

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For bestowing me with blessings from a dearly beloved one,
for letting him speak his final words to me,
for turning him into my guardian angel, now and forevermore,
for sending angels in my darkest hours,
for allowing me to have this unconditional love for 26 years, and knowing that nothing would be more beautiful than this precious love

Nothing on earth, is more precious than those words that were uttered to me with great strength and energy. No worldly goods can measure up to those gilded words and love.
And trust me, when you have experienced a love that has no hate, no anger, no jealousy, no fear, no doubt, no insecurity , nothing else will ever worth as much (other that the love of God). This love was pure and unconditional. He was a Godly man, he provided for his family and shunned away material wants. He will always be my role model, for he knows better than to live life on earth chasing worldly riches, but to live life on earth as a blessing to others around him.

Thank you Lord, for giving me this love so beautiful.