"Happiness to me is when you appreciate the things you already possess in life. i love my family and i love my friends." -fern.
Sunday, April 03, 2011
This is a Sunday afternoon, and i'm finally chilling in my JB room listening to random songs shud transported into my hard disk, resting my mind (before i start doing work again)
but 5 x 10 is still the best. never get sick of it.
it's april already, and that means that in one to two month's time shud and sying will be back and we will be happy family forever and ever! i'm looking forward to the future. i can see all our careers bustling with glow and energy. we'll be doing things we like, and stressing out but achhieving our sense of satisfaction doing things we're passionate about.
then we'll meet for dinner at my place to cook, or we'll go to rosewood playground to chill with buddy, and have occasional JB slumbers. Good to have friends who stay by your side no matter what happens. Time management will be a challenge when everyone starts working though. i'm already having a hard time now, with targets to meet, not being able to reply instantly, and reaching home dead tired to go on msn, but i'm confident we'll be fine :)
looking at perth photos make me happy :) right now as i'm typing i'm listening to beautiful days slow piano version. i miss:
1) having heart to heart talk at king albert's park, rolling down the slope (not carefree for me because i am cowardly and hesitant).. having tofu chill with us, while we take unglam photos and soaring our pretty legs up to face the sky
2) passing bell tower umpty times that i pity sying, but she's so magnanimous she even gave the GPS a name - bell.
3) shivering under bell tower, and feeding the black swan
4) driving to fremantle, listening to love rainbow monster KOE lotus troublemaker, and all the new songs i do not remember the titles yet, but shuduan will jot down in her BB haha
5) taking self timer photos at fremantle but being the only one in the picture posing because sying and shud kindly played me out by running away all the time so you'd see one girl posing in the centre, with two girls at her side in a hurry to dash away, ALL CAUGHT IN ACTION HAHAHAHA.
6) watching yankee at night, learning how to say "atashi ni wa shinagawa kun no kimochi sugoku wakarimasu" and "nani wo iten dayo!"
7) sying about to pick up the pizza and when it was halfway into her mouth she saw a baby cockroach in the box and she got super emo and depressed she can't eat the pizza. she even asked me if she can have a little bit of the cheese and i said NOOO??!!! she sadly placed it back. i thought that was so funny, like a little girl's expression when her mummy forbade her to have her sweet
8) running to chase after random girl with arashi bag at shud's uni
9) playing games at the shore, shud suggested we run to leave a footmark at the furthest we possibly can reach before the current rushes towards the shore. we also drew "sistas" on the sand, and sying served her punishment to re-do her "Z" to an "s" and she looked like a worker touching up the floor with cement.
10) panicking about supernatural existence when our thumbdrive was no where to be found. well, i panicked. grrrrr
11) trying to guess the wheel of fortune in casino, whether it was cherry or orange.
12) daily breakfast, thank you shud for your ingredients, thank you sying for preparing breakfast!
13) shopping around admiring aussie teenage girls' legs, and having sushi in the sushi bar a.k.a rest stop.
14) playing that see-saw thing at the playgfround and being slammed to the ground several times when my dear sistas stood up and let go (unintentionally... right?!)
15) reading about different kinds of shit in the world in the bookstore, and this nonsense book for you to try doing crazy things.
16) being super full after so much pizza, and almost forcing ourselves to eat cake in that cafe full of white bulbs. fortunately we ended up not choosing a cake for the sake of it, so we just chilled for 5 mins.
17) being super excited when we saw so many human beings in harbour mmm boat mmm forgot the name. ok i googled. hillary's boat harbour!!! yes that's the place where everyone in perth will be showing up at, on labor day. no one will be in the city for you. no one will be in the supermarket for you so please stock up before labor day. it was thriving with energy and it was so alive, we were fortunate shud thought of this place before we headed back home to have a ronery labor day night, one night before shud's birthday haha. still rmb calling the restaurant at HBH to ask if they'd be open and she said "ermmm yea i should think so" in a friendly but matter of fact tone, like it's some town that never had an off-day :)
(shud just bbmed me to ask if i'm blogging. she smart)
18) libing dont worry you're definitely always on our minds wherever we went. when we saw loan sharks clothes we thought of you, when we saw harajuku clothes, we thought of you. i think we even saw baby clothes that you will make your daughter wear. heeheeheeeee!
these happenings i'm penning down now are not in chronological order, quite obviously. haha i just typed as i remembered a certain funny scene. mmmm memories are amazing stuffs. when i'm old and senile i wanna be able to remember old things :)
I MISS YOU SISTAS. i'll never be the first to reply bbm, if i'm at work or when i'm out with friends or when i'm crossing custom or with family. so do forgive. but my rove for you all is like hountoni huge. i love to see the heart shape notification though, so nice we have such a chat group. jiemeihaoku <3
and even if we ever (touchwood) quarrel one day, i hope we patch. like when domyouji quarrel with rui, the other two characters will help, by giving domyouji an apple for him to just throw to rui and all will be sunny again. how cool's that? winks* almost 10 years already our friendship. 10 years anniversary we must sing 5 x 10! SHIAWASE means happiness hee hee okay byebye!
screamhigh&upwego; 2:55 PM (:
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Because I cherish, I fear loss
screamhigh&upwego; 4:18 AM (:
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Family and friends, love you all very very very much and i can never say enough, that i really have led a very happy and meaningful life.
PA, MA, KOR, love love love and endless love!
sistas, we jie mei hao ku o forever and ever!
Merry Christmas, and happy new year! forget all bad things if any, and remember all the meaningful things.
Let's walk together into a brand new year!
i am a happy girl!
screamhigh&upwego; 3:31 AM (:
Friday, December 24, 2010
i love my work place. i love my colleagues. i really really do!
today is the first time i am celebrating Christmas as a working adult, and Christmas eve happens to be on friday, so i got to celebrate it at work! And i must say i was really looking forward to sharing such a joyous moment with this people who always have been very sweet to me, and when the party finally happened, I ENJOYED EVERY SINGLE MOMENT of it. We did stupid things, sang silly songs, had far-fetched ideas, and it was just hell lot of fun partying with your work mates! It was so happening through out the party, and lots of gifts. I really wanna say thank you to SDU and leaders and managers for your gifts :) and also, MAE gift exchange was really cool!
The party ended with everyone hugging each other wishing each other merry christmas and happy new year. awwwww..... <3
MAE team!
Log Cake!
Anyway, this is something priceless and something i am really grateful for.
and i couldnt have done it without Jason, Teck Hwee and Binny. As well as the help of fellow mentors, neighbours and colleagues.
I still remember staying back after work to do research, and Teck Hwee seeing my troubled face and my not-so-good performance, tried his best to coach me.
Binny also gave me all the support and help i needed. Mentor and teacher and a good friend who is always there to help you. And where can you find a team leader who you can talk nonsense to? <3
work bff jolene janis binny HEHE see you guys nx yr! jasmin join the gang! TH Jason, see u guys nx yr! Vani juju bawani phiwip janling delphine, see u nx yr!!!
Thank you for making my second half of 2010 such a meaningful one!
screamhigh&upwego; 11:51 PM (:
Saturday, December 11, 2010
i havent blogged in a while, but today i find a very very very strong urge to blog. i can type forever and ever because i'm gonna blog about band, and usually when i blog about band, there are just so many emotions running inside me!
Libing YeeLu Rohai Shud's spirit and I, went back to Riverside to watch RSS 2010 batch's concert, and i must say seeing them in those blue uniforms, even though the uniforms have changed, conductor has changed, band members have changed, songs are different, we still felt like they are somehow our off-springs and we were somewhat their ancestors. a girl actually called us "ancestors" and i was honestly very pleased to hear that. Like we're blood related. Band is a family, and we are all related by music blood. YES! hahahha i'm starting to sound like a band freak again!
CHANT: ONE BAND ONE SOUND! CHANT: RSS BAND, WHERE MUSIC UNITES US!
hahhahahhaa i really don't mind sounding like a 16 year old girl. i miss it so badly!
back to the performance. they played classic pieces as well as up-beat latest hits, like nobody nobody but you, and billie jean, but i'm not that interested in those, i think what really made my hair stand, were Korean Folk Song, and SPIRITED AWAY :( i wanted to break down, melt away, and transport myself back to 5 years ago, so that i will be in that blue uniform, i will be holding my french horn on my lap, i would be positioning my horn and and getting prepared to adjust my lips to buzz into my mouthpiece, i will be following mr neo's cue, i will be producing music together with the whole band. i will be gazing left and right to take glances at friends heehee to see how they're doing, and turn around to smile at fellow horn peeps nervously.
Sigh. What a bitter feeling, to not be able to return to the past. But Rss band 2010 juniors, i must say i really appreciate your effort and dedication because from how you sounded during the concert when you played Spirited Away, the music just seeped right through to our souls and made us all ecstatic and emotional at the same time.
Everyone was so high, and so impressed, that we shouted encore for the next 8 minutes. Then we proceeded to the band room to wait for their grand arrival, and we sorta introduced ourselves to some of them. Yeelu found her horn and GOSH we took turns to play it, THAT FEELING IS THE BEST! After so many years, finally! and we could all still play! Libing had her dosage of BassiClari also! She was ecstatic as well. We visited the store room, and i took photo with the cupboard which kept all the scores. Relive the librarian days. Libing and Yeelu tried to relive their Drum Major and Assitant Band Major roles while rohai and i tried to relive our librarian and QM roles. OMG!!!!!
Also re-enacted our ro-and-fern-scares-yeelu-by-threatening-to-throw-horn-down-3-floors scene, which shud drew a comic version of! we wanna place the comic and our photo side by side!
After having some fun chatting about starting up a band with our 'bare hands" (quote yeelu), we made a trailer/promo video to extend our invite to all interested parties o join our new upcoming low budget band! Yeelu was miss smiley, and i was fierce woman forcing pple to join. HAHA. the video ended with me saying "don't wait" and yeelu saying "please call us now", then libing adding "SPAM LA! SCAM LA!" hahhahahha had the juniors bursting into laughter too. I'm so glad the juniors get along with us. they look very dedicated too. but they are also alumni now that they've graduated. Time flies, sec 1 newbie Michelle is now an Alumni....
We haerd the new DM shouting "band fall in!", how nostalgic... So we made our way down and out also, walking behind some band juniors, and in front of some band juniors. What i'm saying is, we were surrounded by the new band juniors, but we sang Blue Ridge Saga and Singapore Rhap as we marched and hopped out of Riverside. I saw them stealing glances, smiling, and i think they must be very glad to have passionate and energetic and BANDFREAK seniors like us MUAHAHAHA.
I AM A BAND FREAK AND I AM PROUD TO BE ONE! I AM A FRENCH HORN PLAYER AND I'M PROUD TO BE ONE! I MISS BAND AND I WANT THE WHOLLLEEEE WORLD TO KNOW!
We went to starbucks to chill after that and talked about rss band memories. i miss mr neo.... mr er... his animation medley ringtone, and all the helpers like Nicholas XiuLing, Ding Xiang, Kokyong, Eric, Wilson omg everyone! and the band exchanges, and so many more ahhhhhh i will never finish typing.
My greatest 4 years of my life, are the band band days.
screamhigh&upwego; 6:16 AM (:
Sunday, November 07, 2010
teow me how would you ever get sick of such a sweet song!
<3
anyway i'm really happy that i had enough rest during this weekend. in MACAU! although it's not really a life i enjoy. casino casino casino the whole place is all about casino and i think i was giddy and bored after a while. i wanted to visit hidden lanes and sip coffee and snap photos! i wanted to eat street food! BUT oh well what was MOST important was i got to spend a lot a lot of time with my dad mum and brother and it's her birthday weekend! holding her hand walking in the streets of macau, i felt thankful and had a very warm sensation running through me. ahhh! family!
2 weeks from now, i mean, 1.5 weeks from now, IT'LL BE SISTAHOOD TIME and i cant wait to hang out! i dont have anything in mind though. sec 4 days it was always esplanade and VCH :) then we moved to slumbers! now i think it's still slumbers! then once in a while bbq and steamboat and some sport like swimming and cycling. libing wont do cycling again but now she has something new to learn which is FROG STYLE SWIMMING. cheh, have to think of ways to pull her back to cycling. then we will be introduced to a lot of new arashi songs! I WANT SONGS LIKE NIJI AND LOVE SO SWEET AND BE WITH YOU AND 5X10 AND ONNNNEEEE LOOVVVEEEE. oh i know what we gonna do, we must karaoke! sying and shud can totally sing all the songs but i can boast my one love! i still remember the lyrics, wont go rusty one MUAHAHAHA!
and can u all pwease pwease pwease come swumber at my pwace! CANNOT WAIT!!!!! i will try try try my hardest and work my extra hardest at work this week n next week to get alot alot alot of leads so that when u all come back, can get off work early to hang out! this is to make up for not being online all the time. please forgive me! i am also pretty upset that i've been missing out and i might not have been there when you needed me. shud replied me on fb to say "what should i do?" and i missed that message bcos i would check my fb at work at 8.20am and once the leader walks in i would quickly close it, so i didnt even know that she replied and her problem was solved already. shoot me! this will not happen again!! and i cant reply sms quickly in my office environment becos the boss will come up and walk around the call centre to see if you're diligently making phone calls and will sit behind you to monitor your calls to see if you're selling well, so sometimes when i'm replying halfway and i see someone coming i have to quickly put it back down. AHHHHH! really feel like screaming. but still, please continue to sms and fb and tweet me bcos if not, i'll be bored to death and my whole day will only be work. i love it when i receive vibration on my phone to be honest. knowing that there is still someone out there who cares for me, and that i have something to look forward to after work. well i still like my work and all my work mates, but work is not my entire life. when i die, i'll miss my family and friends, and feel regretful about not having the privilege to spend the rest of my life with them, and not feeling regretful about not having the chance to generate more leads. but anyway, to all my sistas, gomen nasai and please understand nasai! dont hate me nasai! and i will put in more effort nasai!
ON A HAPPIER NOTE, SYING'S COMING TO MEDIACORP WITH MEMMEMEMEMEME! CANNOT WAITTT!!! must take a lot of photos! sorry sying i'm not working in japan's tv station or music record station SIGGGHHH HOW NICE IF IT WAS! and shuduan's going to japapapapapannnnnnnnnnnnnn CAN WE ALL GO THERE AND VISIT HER! sying should stay there from 16th nov all the way to 21st dec. she should, she should! YES she should! then we can come back to celebrate libing's gnome party. GASP you see so many happeningssss nov and dec!!!!!
screamhigh&upwego; 11:29 PM (:
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
it's been way too long since the last time i spoke to shud and sying! :(
i still see libing once every fortnight haha.
my life now is wrapped up in work and leads and conversions and dollar value to the company and leads and conversion and leads and conversion and sourcing for company bcos if i dont do that i think boss would not think highly of me and if boss doesnt acknowledge my strength/talent/effort i will be very upset. but at the same time i'm also sad that i have no time to msn with my sistas anymore :(
screamhigh&upwego; 1:57 AM (:
the loved.
Fern. 12 0ctober 89. libra. love band. love cafes. love shopping. love tyra banks show.