YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MINE. Yes,Baby,you will always be.
SHASHA. 04101991 I am just a human being. -Listen if you care. THE PEOPLE I READ. Allure.Zilah Grace.Hamidah Initiation.Salihah Blossom.Nisah Rose.Namirah Lily.HeartFelt Hibiscus.Hanis Rare.Ken MY PAST. August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 October 2012 November 2012 December 2012 February 2013	Tuesday, February 5, 2013 Appreciate Knowing that he didnt see me the best in his eyes, im still hanging on. Its a gd qns, why? Im matured enough to knw whats best for me, right? Sunday, December 9, 2012 Its all abt him and himself He went bowling with his dad.. Hmm..ya right..from 6 till 12am. Selfish attitude. You think he bothers abt me?? He never have any fucking initiative..He only thinks of me when he in need..i better off to bed. Whatever to him. Nothing new between us. Just a damn shit luck having to love someone like him. :) Saturday, December 1, 2012 My life I am always a burden to him..thats how he sees me.. Nothing but just a bruden.. Im good for nothing..im always at fault..nothing come out from my mouth seems making any sense to him.he said he has always been the one giving in,it seems he is the only one putting so much effort to everything and i did nothing. I dun seem to worth anything in whatever i do..did he ever think and wonder why i left previously.. He never makes me feel worthy at all. He was never there for me..he never sees me special.instead i was blamed..i have no rights to feel hurt, upset, jealous, etc. My feelings are just meaningless to him. He dont consider my feelings one bit.. I have to understand his life, situations, feelings..thats how it has to be..its just seems to be a curse for me.. A life with a broken family and a partner who dont see me worthy..what a life..no doubts why he can scold or curse me in public.. Thats how much i worth, rubbish.. Worst than whore.. Wednesday, November 28, 2012 2nd day Today is my second day kicking arse training with Cali Fit trainer Ikhsan.. Tdy was slightly better than my first.. I could bare with it and i repeat, SLIGHTLY.. Gosh! My legs are extremely, disappointingly WEAK! i was told its not a good thing for the ladies, especially for labours.. Thinking about it really upset me.. I thought i was a fine lady, but... Friday, November 23, 2012 Ddemoralized Ladies,  who wouldnt wanna be pretty, fair, gorgeous?? Who wouldnt wanna be pretty in her partner's eyes, having to hear him say how beautiful you are. I knw where i stand in his eyes, nothing, just a saviour for him financially.. Never had he say how sweet or pretty i am but just critics that he never fail to blabber.. Sometimes i wish to just walk away and let him have his own cup of tea. Im not his type, far and beyond..when walking by his side, i have the tendacy to feel he's ashame of me.. And having to see other gorgeous ladies, he deserves, I will look down on myself. N take a step back..Currently my situation is so bad, that i have difficulty to walk or sit, having to train myself so hard, being in such a torturous way, to get myself fit in his category of ladies. I can't tell how hurt I feel cos it's just a stupid jealousy to him and it seems that I don't have the right to be one.. Saturday, October 13, 2012 dreams Dreams. everyone has dreams. either dreams to achieve or just dreams that just playing in our sleep. I have dreams. i dun have a specific ambitious dream but a dream to further my studies in anyways and experience life overseas. that has always been my dream when i was a little girl. some see it as just a silly dream but i see an ambition to achieve it. in anyways, and with God's will, i will make it happen. I will never stop praying and working hard to achieve my dream. Alhamdulillah, im taking tiny steps right now to where i wanna be in the future. Yes, there's always obstacles to face and to solve but thats just how life is. challenges are what we need to stay determine in our life. Monday, October 1, 2012 am i ready? yesterday was the worst day ever. dad came home, i got one of the hell lecture from him and at night i had a quarrel with my mum. for goodness sake, what the hell do they expect from me?? how much longer can i do this? how much longer can i be strong? no one is perfect, so am i. at times i just feel like giving up, and just shut myself from this life, world. where are my siblings when i need them? why am i standing alone facing this? why am i to hear all this shits all alone. why am i the only one to think? why cant they have sympathy on me and change? why arent we together as one? dont i have my own point of views? cant i have every right to feel what i feel? cant i have my own point of view? i am who i am. im not you, im not others, im not! Im just me, this is who i am , this is how i was brought up. this is how i choose and lead my life. this me. Monday, July 16, 2012 appreciate Today is that boy 2nd week working. Alhmdulillah, that boy has been doing well and early for work.. Psa has sponsor him to take driving license only for psa, courses, etc. Im truly proud of that boy. Loving him much. Alhamdulillah theres a lil gd change in him. Im glad to experience it somehow. May he be the best in his life. :) #prays ;) Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.6 Friday, June 29, 2012 appreciate it I appreciate knowing that I do still lingers in your mind. :) We had awesome time together, I wont deny that. I never regret having you in my life nor do I regret to lose/leave you. :') Everything happen for a reason. Maybe its best for both of us. All the best to you alright. Stay awesome and healthy always. Please take good care of yourself. Like the time keeps ticking forward, so shall we move forward with our own lives. :) See you around. :) Saturday, June 23, 2012 Short trip with colleagues. AWESOME! 15/06/2012-18/06/2012 As per title, I went to Terengganu with my colleagues. I had loads of fun. I went alone as in without my mum this time round. It was a great experience. And having people around so concern about me.. hahaha! when they shouldnt be. cos "Its Cool, I Got It, I Got It." I shared my room with the tour guide, Elly. I would say it was truly a long, long bus ride to Terengganu. Damn! my butt ached. ;p We went skinny dipping in the chilling, breathe taking Waterfall at Sekayu. AWESOME!! they do some little shopping over at some markets. Wasnt my interest though. its a NORM! just bought some little snacks for myself and some key chains for others. the resort was awesome too, the Angullia Beach Resort. so obviously by the beach. Then we went to Cotton Island (Pulau Kapas). We snorkeled and canoed! I loved it! under the hot beaming sun.. then we went for some sightseeing. :) we had BBQ on our last night! FOOD!! DELICIOUS!! hehehe!
But baby, please do stay. STAY BY MY SIDE.