3 more days!

yup..
it will be my last year of 20's in 3 days time!
haha..
old liao hor..

but i guess life is like that..
blink blink 30 yrs passed...
haha...

well... i think after i talk to alicia..
it kind of scare me off a bit..
haha...
well.. shouldnt i take the next step..
but alicia say about all the considerations..
that is true la..

why everytime when i wan to take a step out..
someone is there to tell me..
think it twice..
a gentle reminder...and i will pull back..

damn..
i still the old me of cannot make up my mind..
but i dont wan to go back to the old side...
i need to be firm..

quarrel with my ah ma again..
haix...
and i dont wan to share this matter now..
shouldnt i have the power of making my own decision...
why...
why you guys have gone through that path..
but why i cannot give it a second try???
maybe i will do it much better then you all???
maybe i really can change things around???

this year.. i wan to do myself proud.. i wan to prove to everyone that i can do it...

listening to Jordon Chen song these few days..
coz they are doing a short reunion trip for ba ba jue na 5!
i can see my xiao xiao chuan again!!!
Muacks...
so much love..
actually i feel that Jorden Chen have gone through a lot in his life too...
really...
specially what a faithful guy and a terrific dad... :)

Happy New year everybody! :)

my first post in 2018!!
haha..

and i wish for good wealth, health and fortune to everybody..
i want to have a good year ahead with my progression on career, love relationship and family! :)

hehe..
i guess i am just a very homey person..
family and love ones are my priority....

as for the love and relationship..
i wan to have a good relationship ahead..
not one that everyone is looking forward to..
but i wan someone to understand me and know what i wan..
i am just who i am..
so cant really expect me to change much..
but i guess just need to find one that suit me instead of changes...

as for my career...
i am looking forward to a new start..
hehe.. :)
will update more later.. :)

and definitely more travelling time. .
hehe..
i wan to complete my wishlist before i am 30 as i have planned...
hehe... :)

as such..
i wish all those that are having birthday in Jan like me to have a great and fantastic month..
i finally found out that my grandpa and grandma are in the same birthday month as me.. hehe.. :)
see that is what i called family loves.. :)

not forgeting all my friends that having birthday in Jan.
hehe..
of coz first is angela 1 Jan.. my super loves.. but i am not able to celebrate with her this year..
dont worry..
there is always next year.. hehe.. :)
den of cos Chief and long long....
which birthday is 1 day difference..
and of coz YW mum..
coz she is in the same birthday as chief..
haha.. :)

his parents are actually having very very close birthday sia...
which is acutally very good..
coz their character will be same.. haha.. :)

but bi birthday is so far from me..
haix..
but i think can not la..
if close birthday i think my wallet will burn a super big hole..
haha

i need to plan for chief and long long birthday liao..

this year birthday should i go oversea??? herm....
let see..

i will contiune later..
working time now..
hehe.. :) 

well.. christmas, end of year, birthday and wedding..

Well..

christmas is just a holiday festival..
happy that we can meet up for exchange and really happy that we are still staying strong together as friends.. :)

let have more meet up kay..

fast forward to ytd,,,
it is hui zhen Birthday! :)

actually this month all the birthday crash together sia..

27 is Hui Zhen one..
28 is YW daddy one..
29 is KT mum birthday...

well i wish all of them a happy brithday!
and of coz i wish them good health, wealth and fortune.. :)

dont ask me whyi remember YW dad birthday..
maybe coz we had always celebrate in the past..
so it kind of mark on me..
i still wan to wish him good health and have a fruitful  life ahead.. :)

can not imagine it is KT mummy birthday tomorrow..
big celebration sia..
haha..
dont even know she will like what i had got for her a not.. :)

den it is fanni wedding on 31 Dec ....
but i cannot go..
coz i am going oversea..
 but i still wish her a blissful marriage! :)

all my friends are getting married..
am i the left out one..
haha.. :)

erm.. and let me wish every one a happy new year in advance.. :)

totally holiday mood le..
dont wan to work.. haha.. :)

it is going to be a long post..

yeah..
MIA so long..

coz i was really really very busy...
as such that i need time to re-think what i have done the past few weeks..
haha...

well..

one of the week...
we went batam..
as in a whole family..
yeah..
another week..
we went out to celebrate my cousin birthday..
and just yesterday..
i went out with my ah ma for a movie.. .
they love him a lot..
but it also make me realize that why i have to find someone that my family like instead of following my own heart?

dont i deserve someone that i love instead of just finding someone to let my family love him instead..
i think i will always be in a dilemma..
he loves kids..
i dont..
he love me..
no doubt..
but i felt that there are still many things that he is not telling me..
i continue to act blur???
if he can not open to me..
i will find it super hard to open up to him also..
really..
i told him once that f i ever caught him being unfaithful...
i will never give a second chance..
why leh..
coz if a guy can do this one to you..
confirm the second wave will come..
hahaha..
so for this i got no second chance..

i need my space..
i wan my "alone" time..
haha..
i nv understand why..
it always make me feel depressed when it is toward the end of the year...

i wan to be single again..
haha..
but the stress from every corner..
it is make me going back to my own bubble dream..

and the number of weddings i have to attend..
i wish i am out of that friend list..
 haha..
but i still have to go..

well.. the next one to look forward to???

is there a life that i can live on how i wan to live instead of ppl telling me how i wan to live...

it doesnt seem to make sense..

yes.. 

but  i guess i will need to be more firm in my decision..

when you do not have the two worlds and you have to give up one..

friends or BF.. 

choosing one.. 

everyone is telling me i am not young anymore..

that is true..

and to be frank..

after a certain age... you wun even thgt of getting marry..

haha.. 

screw up!!! total Screw up...

what kind of shit job is this man...
in the face..
dont point finger..
behind their tai chi style super powerful..
what kind of shit man...

SCREW YOU!

yup..
cannot stand back stabber..
and you are the pro of it!! very pro.. :)

back from a week of weddings..

most of my friends are getting married this year or next year..

so my hong bao keep going out...

but dont know when it will come back to me..

haha.. 

went to thomson one in the afternoon..

den go to alicia one in the evening...

i will say i am very happy for the two of them to found their true love.. :) 

thomson one is the best..

he waited 18 yrs for the gal!

he definitely worth my respect..

18 yrs of waiting before they got married..

well for alicia..

i am really happy for her!! 

coz she finally found her Mr. Right after all the bad ones.. 

and i guess it is just fate for two person to get together ba..

who will know that bi and me will get together..

since we both are not each other first choice.. 

haha

as age get bigger..

standard also drop rite..

hehe.. 

ya ya..

that one i agree...

den went K-box with the rest of the group....

easy going i will say.. 

but that is not my best day la..

the funny thing is..

my Ex's Ex added me back on facebook.. 

i was like WOW..

that is fast..

haha...

so is it to confirm.. ^.^ 

hai...

kids play.. :) 

it really dont bother me anyway..

hehe.. 

i am a very neutral person..

if you are good to me..

i will be good to you..

mutual respect.. 

so if you talk to me..

of coz i will talk to you la..

not so xiao qi one leh..

beside..

all these are already in the past.. :)

让过去留在过去

we will have to move on with our life.. :)
well as for my ex.. 

i guess we are just stranger le.. 

no longer friends as he wish.. :) 

but i still wish him good and all the best for his this relationship.. :)