Saturday, July 28, 2007
the incident
though i am on official day off for thur and fri, i went back to my workplace.
reason being: the incident.
sometimes you just cant help but wonder, "why me?" it took me a couple of hours before i finally accepted the reality. i did a mistake, i have to face it, learn and improve from it. it was a hard hit. really. just imagine... the HR finally gave u the long awaited call one week ago (after 2 months since i sent in the application to be converted to perm staff with a little pay increment). totally overjoyed, you suddenly felt the day was exceptionally good, the sun is smiling at you, the birds are singing to you, the trees are waving at you. ok fine exaggerated. but that was near to how i felt on the particular minute when i received the call. jus simply elated. you went to work with pp congratulating you whenever the news got to them. you felt good though. nevertheless one week of good days have to come to a nasty end. things have to happen. abruptly, you felt yourself being slapped hard on the face and woke u up from a beautiful dream. things changed tremendously then. nightmares began haunting you. You dragged your feet to work after the incident. many occasions, you almost turned and headed back home, to hide in the little shelter.
somehow, i did not do that. the word "RESPONSIBILITY" rang in my ears. i know i have to face them, face the problem and face him. apologies will not make the situation better but i felt i have to do it. we learned better the hard way. and i am sure this will stay vivid in my brain for life.
this incident did pull me down, but somehow it enlightened me on other aspects. in times like this, you see a clearer picture of the loved ones you have. umpteen of smses, words of encouragement, hugs of comfort, and genuine smiles to keep me going. i realised i am not only blessed with a grp of good colleagues, but friends.
1. dark kor kor was really thoughtful to bring me out for dinner jus to cheer me up, jokes from him to put a smile on my face, calls at nights jus to check how am i doing, and smses to encourage me. i really appreciate that. thank you dark kor kor. =)
2. many smses from beng, words of encouragement and assurance.. he heard my ugliest cries and was there when i needed someone badly. i remembered one his 6 pages long sms ended with "nobody will be affected, so you shouldnt as well. we have all been thru that in a way or another. it is just an experience. you are our youngest bao bao, so bao bao jia you oh." how nice....
3. tzyy yuin who stood up and defended me. she called for a meeting and speak up for me. i dunno how to show my gratitude to her. she is simply great!
4. shirlyn gave me the most reliable advices.
5. adeline, mitchell, rachael, lavi, CK, Cat.....
6. Dr Chong... she is simply marvelous. thank god she was the physician in charged, otherwise i dunno how to pull myself from the shit.
to sum it all, i just encountered the worse bump with regards to work, but i have met the nicest grp of colleagues in my life. in additional, i have learned a lot and have grown from the mistake. thank you pp..
the incident
though i am on official day off for thur and fri, i went back to my workplace.
reason being: the incident.
sometimes you just cant help but wonder, "why me?" it took me a couple of hours before i finally accepted the reality. i did a mistake, i have to face it, learn and improve from it. it was a hard hit. really. just imagine... the HR finally gave u the long awaited call one week ago (after 2 months since i sent in the application to be converted to perm staff with a little pay increment). totally overjoyed, you suddenly felt the day was exceptionally good, the sun is smiling at you, the birds are singing to you, the trees are waving at you. ok fine exaggerated. but that was near to how i felt on the particular minute when i received the call. jus simply elated. you went to work with pp congratulating you whenever the news got to them. you felt good though. nevertheless one week of good days have to come to a nasty end. things have to happen. abruptly, you felt yourself being slapped hard on the face and woke u up from a beautiful dream. things changed tremendously then. nightmares began haunting you. You dragged your feet to work after the incident. many occasions, you almost turned and headed back home, to hide in the little shelter.
somehow, i did not do that. the word "RESPONSIBILITY" rang in my ears. i know i have to face them, face the problem and face him. apologies will not make the situation better but i felt i have to do it. we learned better the hard way. and i am sure this will stay vivid in my brain for life.
this incident did pull me down, but somehow it enlightened me on other aspects. in times like this, you see a clearer picture of the loved ones you have. umpteen of smses, words of encouragement, hugs of comfort, and genuine smiles to keep me going. i realised i am not only blessed with a grp of good colleagues, but friends.
1. dark kor kor was really thoughtful to bring me out for dinner jus to cheer me up, jokes from him to put a smile on my face, calls at nights jus to check how am i doing, and smses to encourage me. i really appreciate that. thank you dark kor kor. =)
2. many smses from beng, words of encouragement and assurance.. he heard my ugliest cries and was there when i needed someone badly. i remembered one his 6 pages long sms ended with "nobody will be affected, so you shouldnt as well. we have all been thru that in a way or another. it is just an experience. you are our youngest bao bao, so bao bao jia you oh." how nice....
3. tzyy yuin who stood up and defended me. she called for a meeting and speak up for me. i dunno how to show my gratitude to her. she is simply great!
4. shirlyn gave me the most reliable advices.
5. adeline, mitchell, rachael, lavi, CK, Cat.....
6. Dr Chong... she is simply marvelous. thank god she was the physician in charged, otherwise i dunno how to pull myself from the shit.
to sum it all, i just encountered the worse bump with regards to work, but i have met the nicest grp of colleagues in my life. in additional, i have learned a lot and have grown from the mistake. thank you pp..
Love, Shandy.
2:25 PM
2:25 PM
Friday, July 27, 2007
defeated
tears were whelming in my eyes. slowly they flowed uncontrollably over my cheeks. i finally broke down and cried my lungs out. i jus couldnt hold them any longer.
it had been quite some time that these detesting emotions took the run in me. i tried to put a strong front throughout the entire incident. it is god damn hard though. it is a mistake. a mistake bad enough to put my career at stake. i really mean it. i've prepared for the worst. i may be asked to leave any time. yesh this is how tough and risky to work in medical healthcare industry. a little mistake may cause the life of another.
defeated
tears were whelming in my eyes. slowly they flowed uncontrollably over my cheeks. i finally broke down and cried my lungs out. i jus couldnt hold them any longer.
it had been quite some time that these detesting emotions took the run in me. i tried to put a strong front throughout the entire incident. it is god damn hard though. it is a mistake. a mistake bad enough to put my career at stake. i really mean it. i've prepared for the worst. i may be asked to leave any time. yesh this is how tough and risky to work in medical healthcare industry. a little mistake may cause the life of another.
Love, Shandy.
1:16 AM
1:16 AM
Thursday, July 26, 2007
learn the hard way
i made a sill'iest' mistake at work. and i am pretty affected by it. it just made me feel incompetent. not life threatening though. but somehow it does created a hassle for my physician. argh.. i absolutely hate this feeling. ~pouts~ i was sharing with my colleague and i appreciate the words of advice from her. "it happens, to everyone. tats how we learn and hopefully rem. try to let go of the lousy feelings, it only make us worse. take it as a good learning experience for ourselves as well as for others." her words were comforting particularly at that moment. however i still need time to forgive myself and shake that awful feelings off. sad to say the ugly truth is -humans learn better the hard way.- =(
i have promised to shed off some weight, but it became a little hard, especially tough when i have a huge appetite dearie. gosh. i had supper for the past 3 days. pls enlighten me on better weight losing tactics. i need them badly.
back to work, i had quite a number off days accumulated from my nite duties. my schedule was pretty loose this week. i did some housekeeping and helped my sister with some modeling for her new business. i realized it can be quite fun. =) lets look at some of the shots.
Interested in any bags let me noe yea? =)
learn the hard way
i made a sill'iest' mistake at work. and i am pretty affected by it. it just made me feel incompetent. not life threatening though. but somehow it does created a hassle for my physician. argh.. i absolutely hate this feeling. ~pouts~ i was sharing with my colleague and i appreciate the words of advice from her. "it happens, to everyone. tats how we learn and hopefully rem. try to let go of the lousy feelings, it only make us worse. take it as a good learning experience for ourselves as well as for others." her words were comforting particularly at that moment. however i still need time to forgive myself and shake that awful feelings off. sad to say the ugly truth is -humans learn better the hard way.- =(
i have promised to shed off some weight, but it became a little hard, especially tough when i have a huge appetite dearie. gosh. i had supper for the past 3 days. pls enlighten me on better weight losing tactics. i need them badly.
back to work, i had quite a number off days accumulated from my nite duties. my schedule was pretty loose this week. i did some housekeeping and helped my sister with some modeling for her new business. i realized it can be quite fun. =) lets look at some of the shots.
Interested in any bags let me noe yea? =)
Love, Shandy.
2:58 AM
2:58 AM
Sunday, July 22, 2007
online wonders
I am recently quite into online shopping. its just cool when you can purchase things u like while parking your bottoms on the comfy seat at home. how nice. i dun usually spree at work, but many of my friens do. how great isnt it? ok fine we have a good reason to accumulate those undesirable fats.
By the way ladies, this is a cool website for bags. =)
http://cassis-room.blogspot.com/
online wonders
I am recently quite into online shopping. its just cool when you can purchase things u like while parking your bottoms on the comfy seat at home. how nice. i dun usually spree at work, but many of my friens do. how great isnt it? ok fine we have a good reason to accumulate those undesirable fats.
By the way ladies, this is a cool website for bags. =)
http://cassis-room.blogspot.com/
Love, Shandy.
3:20 PM
3:20 PM
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Random
Finally i received the call from HR. =) this kept me a little assured and gave me the motivation to work harder.
work load and responsibilities multiplied. :x
good friends companion can be really enjoyable and appreciated. but when confession of feelings sets in, things changed. when rejection followed after confession, things became a little ugly. when can the good enjoyable friendship revitalize???????????????
new school term started. i feel the reluctance to bring my brain out.
my room is really in a mess. i need days to be home to do the necessary.
i love him. he is such a sweetheart sometimes. =) and i appreciate everything he have contributed to the relationship.
what a random entry. haha.
Random
Finally i received the call from HR. =) this kept me a little assured and gave me the motivation to work harder.
work load and responsibilities multiplied. :x
good friends companion can be really enjoyable and appreciated. but when confession of feelings sets in, things changed. when rejection followed after confession, things became a little ugly. when can the good enjoyable friendship revitalize???????????????
new school term started. i feel the reluctance to bring my brain out.
my room is really in a mess. i need days to be home to do the necessary.
i love him. he is such a sweetheart sometimes. =) and i appreciate everything he have contributed to the relationship.
what a random entry. haha.
Love, Shandy.
3:21 AM
3:21 AM
Monday, July 02, 2007
genting highlands
jus came back from genting highlands. i went on a short vacation with dear, leefong jie, james and ming's mum. ooo.. just love the cooling weather esp in days where sg is extraordinary humid and warm.
it was a nice trip. relaxing yet fulfilling. fulfilling cos i've make my stomach exceptionally satisfied. haha. i guessed i've put on weight these 3 days.
despite the chilling nites, dear kept my heart warmed throughout. i jus loved the way he embraced me. you will not locate me more than 5 mins without him holding to me. how sweet. perhaps he is jus afraid the blur me will lose my way. haha. anyway we had a good laugh at a 'highly confidential' joke. muhahah... ~winks~
we were on our way back when dear and me were looking at our passports. :) i realized we have travelled to malaysia together quite a number of times. dun you jus love it dear? haha... loving you.
by the way i bought snacks and food for my beloved colleagues! i actually miss work. gosh. something is not so right yeh? keke....
genting highlands
jus came back from genting highlands. i went on a short vacation with dear, leefong jie, james and ming's mum. ooo.. just love the cooling weather esp in days where sg is extraordinary humid and warm.
it was a nice trip. relaxing yet fulfilling. fulfilling cos i've make my stomach exceptionally satisfied. haha. i guessed i've put on weight these 3 days.
despite the chilling nites, dear kept my heart warmed throughout. i jus loved the way he embraced me. you will not locate me more than 5 mins without him holding to me. how sweet. perhaps he is jus afraid the blur me will lose my way. haha. anyway we had a good laugh at a 'highly confidential' joke. muhahah... ~winks~
we were on our way back when dear and me were looking at our passports. :) i realized we have travelled to malaysia together quite a number of times. dun you jus love it dear? haha... loving you.
by the way i bought snacks and food for my beloved colleagues! i actually miss work. gosh. something is not so right yeh? keke....
Labels: genting highlands
Love, Shandy.
12:57 PM
12:57 PM