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Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Night duty

After 3 months in pfizer, i finally did a night duty. surprising i was rather excited and looking forward for this shift. i know it sounded silly..

i worked from 8pm to 8am. it would be 12 dreading hours if i am there jus for work. but when your colleagues became your friends, things are different. :) i am rather elated or i would say i actually preferred night duties. no managerial personnel, freedom, less hectic, more heartfelt conversations and more sleeping time.

nights can be extremely lonely, or extremely exciting. i dunno why but when the sky is dark and when night falls, it makes pp more at ease and more emotional. perhaps cos night is quiet, it gave people the urge to talk about feelings and emotions. night can be a good time to share genuine thoughts.

it was my first night working duty in my 22 years. there were only 4 of us in the unit. dear came around 12am and drove me out for supper at river valley. yummy pratas! i bought food back for the rest, we had some good laugh while indulging in the supper. around 3am, the 4 of us went to sleep comfortably on the vacant beds. 5am the alarm went off. we have work to do! time passed rapidly. then i see the morning staffs coming one by one.... soon... its time to go home. i had glutinous rice as breakfast before i headed home. nice!

one other reason i love night duties is it makes me feel i have many off days.

another dear colleague of mine is leaving. sad. :(

Love, Shandy.
5:13 PM

Saturday, June 16, 2007
random thoughts

angel and devil. who is which?

i am confused. i dunno who to believe and how to judge.

i have decided to forgive everybody. The liar, the actor and the not genuine. whatever it is, i take it as they have their own reasons. i am giving you that vulnerable trust of mine. if you have to break it again, don't blame me for walking away. mistakes are forgivable. but if your intentions are evil, stay away from me.

that nite, i met up with them, planning to resolve the issue. i realized i was so wrong. i shouldn't have raked the already buried matter up. but they say i am not the culprit. somebody's intention was never to let the matter rest. gosh.. sounded terrifying. i see both the angel and devil in all. so tell me, who should i believe?

many asked me to stay out of the matter. i cant. especially not when one of them is preying on me. it became more intimidating when you have no idea who is the predator.

on the other hand, i may be just overloaded with my imaginary thoughts. i hope it turned out this way too..

anyway back to some little updates, i went to watch fantastic 4 with anne, serene, beng, kishan, li hsing and alan. the girls find the show good, but the guys think otherwise..... fine. its the girls and guys thing. haha..

work was pretty busy. but i was kinda glad i was occupied to keep me away from my silly thoughts. i shared with dear the other day regarding all that was in my mind. he gave me his advice and that consoled me a little. i took the whole night trying to get my unjust feelings right.

mahjong sessions on weekends are as usual. band concert is just around the corner. and i still dunno the pieces well. gosh. i feel lousy when i cant play. sighz..

Love, Shandy.
3:17 PM

Monday, June 11, 2007
Battled

It comes in a package- exams and stress.

This inevitable stress strained us to read and read, understand and write, then learn by heart. Finally, it is time to battle. We attacked the booklet of answer script, competing for writing speed, with nothing but dead memorized information. Craps. But yes this is what exams are for. At the end of the paper, ask me what is the structure of fluorenylmethyloxycarbonyl. I have no idea!

Fine.. perhaps its jus me who think this way. Haha…

Whatever it is, I had finally battled the war. I had an entire week off, to be specified, a straight 9 days off, supposedly for me to mug for exams. note the word "supposedly". :P

Astonishingly, I missed work. To be frank, I missed my lovely colleagues. Though I am away from work for the entire week, I was kept updated by –

beng who flooded my vulnerable brain with some issues. Gosh. He totally defeated me. I am lost, confused, and upset over the incident. People whom I trusted, people whom I believed and people whom I adored. They are contradicting and they are not genuine.
kishan expressed his concern for my progress of revising. How nice. But then the conversation continued with all the updates of work. Hurmp. They were complicating but he was really kind to inform me cos at least I know what to expect when I am back.
Anne threw a big news to me. She tendered her resignation. Oh god. I am really really gonna miss her. She is such a sweetheart that I believed everybody will miss her badly.

To summarize this entry, I wanna talk about the get-together with kin wai and ah ber. That darling kinwai is still as adorable. The only change is she is a grown beauty now.

Love, Shandy.
11:19 PM