Monday, July 31, 2006
updates
little updates for the past week.. lets see what i can remember.
mon: i went for facial with weishan. it was good.
fri: met my cardiac girls, celebrated weiling's bday at forum, before i rushed down for band prac at shuqun. had supper at boonlay market. then mahjong at min's place.
sat: met cardiac girls again, celebrated xinying's bday @ hilton hotel - high tea buffet. then i went to meet yanting before we headed down for the makeover shoot. it was fun and exciting. and definitely a good experience. :) thumbs up.
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we headed down to chinatown for yanting to get her holiday travel things done. then we went over to ting's place for mahjong. the usual players. me, dear, jeff, hui, min, ting, ting's mum and yanting. after mahjong we headed for supper at boonlay. then dear stayed over.
i think i need to stop mahjong for a period of time.
it has been long since i'm genuinely happy. i hate the shandy now. the petty, short tempered and rude me. arghz. i dunno when all these started taking place. suddenly i realised i just need some self reflections. i need to stop taking friends for granted. i need to stop feeling easily irritated. i need to control my temper. i need a change!
sun: dear and me went down to orchard. cos i wanted to purchase the anna sui lip gloss. :) we did some shopping, had a good lunch then went to meet his family for dinner at batok. then after dinner, we sent dear's family back home while the 2 of us went to giant to get some neccesities. then home sweet home le.
updates
little updates for the past week.. lets see what i can remember.
mon: i went for facial with weishan. it was good.
fri: met my cardiac girls, celebrated weiling's bday at forum, before i rushed down for band prac at shuqun. had supper at boonlay market. then mahjong at min's place.
sat: met cardiac girls again, celebrated xinying's bday @ hilton hotel - high tea buffet. then i went to meet yanting before we headed down for the makeover shoot. it was fun and exciting. and definitely a good experience. :) thumbs up.
>we headed down to chinatown for yanting to get her holiday travel things done. then we went over to ting's place for mahjong. the usual players. me, dear, jeff, hui, min, ting, ting's mum and yanting. after mahjong we headed for supper at boonlay. then dear stayed over.
i think i need to stop mahjong for a period of time.
it has been long since i'm genuinely happy. i hate the shandy now. the petty, short tempered and rude me. arghz. i dunno when all these started taking place. suddenly i realised i just need some self reflections. i need to stop taking friends for granted. i need to stop feeling easily irritated. i need to control my temper. i need a change!
sun: dear and me went down to orchard. cos i wanted to purchase the anna sui lip gloss. :) we did some shopping, had a good lunch then went to meet his family for dinner at batok. then after dinner, we sent dear's family back home while the 2 of us went to giant to get some neccesities. then home sweet home le.
Love, Shandy.
12:34 AM
12:34 AM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Prevention exercise
ttsh is having this bird flu prevention exercise.
i wore this the whole 2 days at work. oh my tian. its rather warm. and ugly. thanks.
fri: after work, i headed over to dear's place and had a kfc feast with leefong jie. just the 3 of us. we ordered alot. however we merely managed to finish half of everything. haha. i'm yet to recover completely actually. argh. i just didn't bother. ;p
anyway after dinner, dear and me went to catch the movie "pirates of the carribean II" at westmall. erm.. it was not as nice as we expected. then dear stayed over at my place.
sat: i woke up with dear at 6am. hurmp. i needed to crawl up for work. sigh. after work, i went over to dear's place. we had lunch at his place then i took a nap there. then together with his family, we went to queensway for dinner. dear drone daddy's car, thus we left earlier to hillview area for a barbecue. it was a celebration for our gold award. :) we took many pictures. i'm still waiting for min to send me. after the barbecue, many of the band members went over to min's place for second round of food. hehez. we had a good time together. nevertheless we had mahjong session while the rest chill out in the living room. we left min's place ard 6am. yawn. we were all dead beat.
sun: i went over to dear's place while waiting for weishan to pick us up. then the few of us represented our band for the band diplay at victoria concert hall. woo.. the japan band were good. the whole concert ended ard 8.30pm. then the 8 of us headed to clementi for the branded chicken rice. it wasn't fantastic i tot. well..
Prevention exercise
ttsh is having this bird flu prevention exercise.
i wore this the whole 2 days at work. oh my tian. its rather warm. and ugly. thanks.
fri: after work, i headed over to dear's place and had a kfc feast with leefong jie. just the 3 of us. we ordered alot. however we merely managed to finish half of everything. haha. i'm yet to recover completely actually. argh. i just didn't bother. ;p
anyway after dinner, dear and me went to catch the movie "pirates of the carribean II" at westmall. erm.. it was not as nice as we expected. then dear stayed over at my place.
sat: i woke up with dear at 6am. hurmp. i needed to crawl up for work. sigh. after work, i went over to dear's place. we had lunch at his place then i took a nap there. then together with his family, we went to queensway for dinner. dear drone daddy's car, thus we left earlier to hillview area for a barbecue. it was a celebration for our gold award. :) we took many pictures. i'm still waiting for min to send me. after the barbecue, many of the band members went over to min's place for second round of food. hehez. we had a good time together. nevertheless we had mahjong session while the rest chill out in the living room. we left min's place ard 6am. yawn. we were all dead beat.
sun: i went over to dear's place while waiting for weishan to pick us up. then the few of us represented our band for the band diplay at victoria concert hall. woo.. the japan band were good. the whole concert ended ard 8.30pm. then the 8 of us headed to clementi for the branded chicken rice. it wasn't fantastic i tot. well..
Love, Shandy.
10:33 PM
10:33 PM
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Disheartened... but...
how would you feel??
you fell sick and you were on medical leave for 2 days.
when messages from your dear colleagues whom you see them as friends came..
were not words of concern but words of sacarsm.
"hi MC queen"
"hey you got so many leave to clear ah?"
"u sick? i think i am too. i should see a doc and get a MC jus like u." followed by a evil smile.
"u fell ill after a day of annual leave?!"
i beg your pardon. this year i've took MC the second time. this time though consists of 2 days. 17th monday and 18th tuesday. well, monday, which i had took a day off as annual leave. in the end i fell ill. so i converted the annual leave to medical leave. i didn't have to announce this to everyone. do i? but that doesn't mean pp can jump into conclusions.
nah... i was just dissapointed with them. haiz.
humans are superficial. so am i. i hypocritically gave them a pleasant smile as a reply.
thank god. love is still in the air. my darlings were there to care for me. at least sms from them were words of sincere concern. they understood my absence in today's gathering. i appreciated that.
and of cos my dear ming. early in the morning he wished me happy anniversary.(it was not the actual date) but he does it monthly on this special day. love him. :P
Disheartened... but...
how would you feel??
you fell sick and you were on medical leave for 2 days.
when messages from your dear colleagues whom you see them as friends came..
were not words of concern but words of sacarsm.
"hi MC queen"
"hey you got so many leave to clear ah?"
"u sick? i think i am too. i should see a doc and get a MC jus like u." followed by a evil smile.
"u fell ill after a day of annual leave?!"
i beg your pardon. this year i've took MC the second time. this time though consists of 2 days. 17th monday and 18th tuesday. well, monday, which i had took a day off as annual leave. in the end i fell ill. so i converted the annual leave to medical leave. i didn't have to announce this to everyone. do i? but that doesn't mean pp can jump into conclusions.
nah... i was just dissapointed with them. haiz.
humans are superficial. so am i. i hypocritically gave them a pleasant smile as a reply.
thank god. love is still in the air. my darlings were there to care for me. at least sms from them were words of sincere concern. they understood my absence in today's gathering. i appreciated that.
and of cos my dear ming. early in the morning he wished me happy anniversary.(it was not the actual date) but he does it monthly on this special day. love him. :P
Love, Shandy.
7:07 PM
7:07 PM
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
National BAnd Competition
finally the band competition is over!
we were awarded gold medal. yuppee. though we were fifth out of six bands, we were contented. with only less than 2 months of prac, and less than 2 weeks of practising the march piece, we were glad with the results.
alright pictures will be up soon. waiting for my darlings to send me....
anyway i fell sick. i was down with fever, upper respiratory tract infection (sore throat, flu). during the com i was like sneezing and having chills. sigh. though i pull thru the competition, the following day, i became a zombie. i dragged myself to see the doc. 38.7 degree. oh my tian. i think i'm lack of sleep.
National BAnd Competition
finally the band competition is over!
we were awarded gold medal. yuppee. though we were fifth out of six bands, we were contented. with only less than 2 months of prac, and less than 2 weeks of practising the march piece, we were glad with the results.
alright pictures will be up soon. waiting for my darlings to send me....
anyway i fell sick. i was down with fever, upper respiratory tract infection (sore throat, flu). during the com i was like sneezing and having chills. sigh. though i pull thru the competition, the following day, i became a zombie. i dragged myself to see the doc. 38.7 degree. oh my tian. i think i'm lack of sleep.
Love, Shandy.
7:24 PM
7:24 PM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
naive
i was naive to believe it will be resolved.
i was naive to think communications is the solution.
i have to see things i hate most everyday. its really irritating.
i wanted to get out of this badly.
can anyone give me a helping hand?
in the ist place, i should have chose to suffer in silence.
leave me alone.
naive
i was naive to believe it will be resolved.
i was naive to think communications is the solution.
i have to see things i hate most everyday. its really irritating.
i wanted to get out of this badly.
can anyone give me a helping hand?
in the ist place, i should have chose to suffer in silence.
leave me alone.
Love, Shandy.
8:15 AM
8:15 AM
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Cute...
hey.. just something cute i thought.. :)
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a little update before i head towards my bed. :p
i had been very ocuppied with band practices cos the competition is just around the corner. we went for practice today as well. but i'm frustrated with myself cos i sounded terrible. i'm simply not concentrating. anyway after band practice, 12 of us headed to westmall for dinner. dear and me then left earlier cos we're meeting his family. next week, the practies will be held on tue, wed, fri, sat and sun. erm.. we are working hard. so hopefully hard work pays off. ~god bless~
Cute...
hey.. just something cute i thought.. :)
Want one? Go to www.geocities.com/testiflash
a little update before i head towards my bed. :p
i had been very ocuppied with band practices cos the competition is just around the corner. we went for practice today as well. but i'm frustrated with myself cos i sounded terrible. i'm simply not concentrating. anyway after band practice, 12 of us headed to westmall for dinner. dear and me then left earlier cos we're meeting his family. next week, the practies will be held on tue, wed, fri, sat and sun. erm.. we are working hard. so hopefully hard work pays off. ~god bless~
Love, Shandy.
10:00 PM
10:00 PM
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Revived
finally i see the rainbow after the storm.
i've recovered from the melancholy mood.
yuppee! though at times life can be disheartening with no particular reason but when one straightened out the thoughts, life can be beautiful again.
simultaneously, i realised i've been dwelling over nothing.
my dear boy. i gave him a cold shoulder the past few days. not that i wanted to be nasty or to provoke him. i'm just mentally exhausted with him for no good reason. its me. again. however when his msg came abruptly, "is someone wooing u?"
it was enough. enough to make me elated. enough to show his concern. yup i'm easily contented. ;)
my darlings. the 5 of us did meet up last week. we had some confession. confessed for neglecting her. we apologised and of cos she didn't hold it to heart. forgiving is the greatest beauty and also the major factor that held our friendship. so i hope yanting can see her rainbow soon. jia you oh..
followed by my dearest friend. liting. suddenly, i realised our friendship improved tremendously these few days. though we were already close but even nearer this time. we shared some heartfelt conversations a couple of days back. it was warm and relieving. we mused over the inconceivable friendship we shared. the quantity of fights, quarrels and misunderstandings were sufficient to turn us into sore enemies. this is how amazing our friendship can be. no matter what happened, we forgave and we compromised. sometimes when we brought the same old story up, we laughed at our immaturity. she was my ist friend in shuqun sec. and she is my lifetime bestie now. one i can totally be myself with. i can fume her, ignore her or scream at her. cos i knew she will understand. ops. i'm taking her for granted too. ;p but i can assure friendship will still be strong. she is my pillar of support. i depended so much on her, that even little things like crossing the road, i jus expect she will keep a look out for me. oh gosh. thats terrible!.. hah.
on tue after the orchard shopping trip with ting n min, on the the way back, min n i started the topic on "the good old memories". it was kinda sweet and definitely a good way to end a day. but the contents.. erm.. we're supposed to keep it confidential. hehz. :)
ok so where's my darling hui? i miss her. hurmp.
well, work was fine. at least no longer as hectic as before. it was a good sign. meaning many won the battle. however, there are still few who were not as blessed. he was only 26. with hepatitis then deterioriated to liver cancer. he was having treatment with us. and everytime he comes, he'll bring food for me. how nice. today, he came in, looking fragile. nevertheless he still brings food for me. i felt his hands on chances. they were chilled. and he gave me a weak smile. i'll be praying hard for him from now. i really hope.............. lets pray with me, alright?
Revived
finally i see the rainbow after the storm.
i've recovered from the melancholy mood.
yuppee! though at times life can be disheartening with no particular reason but when one straightened out the thoughts, life can be beautiful again.
simultaneously, i realised i've been dwelling over nothing.
my dear boy. i gave him a cold shoulder the past few days. not that i wanted to be nasty or to provoke him. i'm just mentally exhausted with him for no good reason. its me. again. however when his msg came abruptly, "is someone wooing u?"
it was enough. enough to make me elated. enough to show his concern. yup i'm easily contented. ;)
my darlings. the 5 of us did meet up last week. we had some confession. confessed for neglecting her. we apologised and of cos she didn't hold it to heart. forgiving is the greatest beauty and also the major factor that held our friendship. so i hope yanting can see her rainbow soon. jia you oh..
followed by my dearest friend. liting. suddenly, i realised our friendship improved tremendously these few days. though we were already close but even nearer this time. we shared some heartfelt conversations a couple of days back. it was warm and relieving. we mused over the inconceivable friendship we shared. the quantity of fights, quarrels and misunderstandings were sufficient to turn us into sore enemies. this is how amazing our friendship can be. no matter what happened, we forgave and we compromised. sometimes when we brought the same old story up, we laughed at our immaturity. she was my ist friend in shuqun sec. and she is my lifetime bestie now. one i can totally be myself with. i can fume her, ignore her or scream at her. cos i knew she will understand. ops. i'm taking her for granted too. ;p but i can assure friendship will still be strong. she is my pillar of support. i depended so much on her, that even little things like crossing the road, i jus expect she will keep a look out for me. oh gosh. thats terrible!.. hah.
on tue after the orchard shopping trip with ting n min, on the the way back, min n i started the topic on "the good old memories". it was kinda sweet and definitely a good way to end a day. but the contents.. erm.. we're supposed to keep it confidential. hehz. :)
ok so where's my darling hui? i miss her. hurmp.
well, work was fine. at least no longer as hectic as before. it was a good sign. meaning many won the battle. however, there are still few who were not as blessed. he was only 26. with hepatitis then deterioriated to liver cancer. he was having treatment with us. and everytime he comes, he'll bring food for me. how nice. today, he came in, looking fragile. nevertheless he still brings food for me. i felt his hands on chances. they were chilled. and he gave me a weak smile. i'll be praying hard for him from now. i really hope.............. lets pray with me, alright?
Love, Shandy.
9:55 PM
9:55 PM
Sunday, July 02, 2006
i'm the one.
i am frustrated with myself.
i couldn't express my genuine feelings jus cos i wanted to portray a bubbly me.
actually i do have the vulnerable me.
life had been rather dreadful.
though...
i have mingwei.
i have 4 wonderful friends.
i have a happy family.
i have my soulmate.
i have my buddy at work.
i have a good boss.
but somehow... i still feel dejected.
boyfriend whom i thought could give me happiness. he did not.
friends whom i thought understand me. they didn't.
soulmate whom i thought i can rely on disappeared.
confidant whom i thought i could rest my heavy head on was solely imaginations.
suddenly friends seemed to be the eradicator. the murderer to my happiness.
to confuse the situation..
eventually...
i realised the only problem lies with me.
i am exceptionally sensitive.
i am awfully paranoid.
i am narrow minded.
i neglected friends but expecting them to stand by me.
i never understand them, yet i demanded them to comprehend me.
i absconded when friends need me yet i stipulated them to listen to me.
i vent frustrations at them insisting they should tolerate.
birthdays were dates i can rightfully forget.
text messages on msn or sms were simply matters i can ignored. rude!
how lousy can a friend be?
just look at me.
i'm the one.
i am frustrated with myself.
i couldn't express my genuine feelings jus cos i wanted to portray a bubbly me.
actually i do have the vulnerable me.
life had been rather dreadful.
though...
i have mingwei.
i have 4 wonderful friends.
i have a happy family.
i have my soulmate.
i have my buddy at work.
i have a good boss.
but somehow... i still feel dejected.
boyfriend whom i thought could give me happiness. he did not.
friends whom i thought understand me. they didn't.
soulmate whom i thought i can rely on disappeared.
confidant whom i thought i could rest my heavy head on was solely imaginations.
suddenly friends seemed to be the eradicator. the murderer to my happiness.
to confuse the situation..
eventually...
i realised the only problem lies with me.
i am exceptionally sensitive.
i am awfully paranoid.
i am narrow minded.
i neglected friends but expecting them to stand by me.
i never understand them, yet i demanded them to comprehend me.
i absconded when friends need me yet i stipulated them to listen to me.
i vent frustrations at them insisting they should tolerate.
birthdays were dates i can rightfully forget.
text messages on msn or sms were simply matters i can ignored. rude!
how lousy can a friend be?
just look at me.
Love, Shandy.
9:16 PM
9:16 PM
Saturday, July 01, 2006
silly
the beautiful portrait i used to dream..
the fairytale story i used to believe..
i realised...
they were only my imaginations.
silly
the beautiful portrait i used to dream..
the fairytale story i used to believe..
i realised...
they were only my imaginations.
Love, Shandy.
8:33 AM
8:33 AM