Sunday, October 31, 2004
saturday fun.....
yesterday which is sat i went for band prac in the afternoon.. actually it starts at 10.. but i overslept.. coz the day b4 i slept very late... in fact for the entire day i slept for only like 4 hours... i slept at 6am and ard 9am tanny called trying wake mi up coz i've been sleeping like a log that i miss the morning practices.. i went back to sleep ultimately.. haha.. went for band prac ard 12.30pm.. and it ended at 3.30pm..
then mi, yaying, jianhao, peiyan, weishan, alfred and leslie we went to imm.. the 7 of us squeeze inside weishan's car... and we all are not skinny pp... (ops... haha) it resulted alfred to stand all the way... i think it was funny... hahaha... then we went to band world and stayed there for ard 1 hr.. i think... then went for lunch... after that weishan lend us his car... coz he needs to take the whole band to the concert by train... so hao illegally drive us to pick mw up... heez.. and his driving was.. erm... no comments... all i can say is we were lucky... haha...
then mingwei drove us mi, yaying, hao and py to nanyang academy of fine arts theatre for a brass band concert... and we lost our way!!! we were driving in circle!!! we got so close to the place in fact we saw the theatre but it was a one way road and we can't stop or u turn... hao was saying we were like playing game... haha... then while we were trying to figure out the way.. mingwei was saying he got an instinct he should turn right and his instinct was correct! we stop at a traffic light.. still thinkin which way to go.. then suddenly hao saw weishan and the whole band walking.. about to cross the road... and he shouted.. can u imagine we were like shouting across the road... wahaha.. so funny... and we were late for the concert by 30 mins.. the concert was good.. the music the sound of each individual player really impressed mi... they were so good... oh my tian... really terrfic!!
no doubt it was frustrating getting lost a lot of times yday but i still enyed myself.. hao is always full of craps... sometimes makes mi laugh like siao... haha.. i used to always quarrel with him... but with him ard it is always fun!! peiyan looked quite depressed thru out the journey... haiz.. she went off striaght after the concert... she actually tell mi she is feeling down coz something to do with her and her ex bf... haiz... another dumb girl... guys are always shit... girls are always stupid... debbie would definitely agree with mi... yea?? :)
actually i still feel a bit uneasy with mingwei peiyan and mi ard.. initially without mingwei ard.. i dun feel anything as in i really sincerely treat her as a friend.. in fact i quite like her as a friend.. but somehow when the 3 of us are present.. it is kinda a weird feeling.. but i'm getting better each time.. i should and i have to overcome this type of situation.. and in order not to make peiyan feels awkward thruout e day i kept talking to her.. wats more i can really see she is feeling down... again all guys are bad!!
then after the brass band concert we went to boon lay for supper.. then dunno how fishing strike hao's mind.. and we went fishing at such late nights. we went to westcoast... i need to emphasize it is illegal fishing.. heez... but our fishing trip was wasted coz we didn't catch anything.. only got lots of mosquitoes bites... my legs are still itchy now!!! arhz!!! really thanks yaying for accompanying mi coz she actually didn't want to go with us... but i persuaded her.. ;) hehez... the more the merrier ma... so mi yaying hao ailun jianwen and mingwei went... after the fishing it was already 4 am.. then mingwei drove each of them back.. i reached home ard 5.30am..
juz went to meet mingwei for lunch at jurong point... hey che peixian... guess wat we eat??? hahaha... we ate the delicious crystal jade xiao long bao... it was so nice man... the gravy the sauce oh my tian... its really nice pp.. then he went to but the things he need and we headed home.. but i think i'm going to accompany him to pasir ris coz today nobody drive him there.. anyway i got nothing to do at home... coz exams are over!!!!! heez... tml i'm starting work at tanglin mall... i feel a bit excited but a bit sian also... haiz...
saturday fun.....
yesterday which is sat i went for band prac in the afternoon.. actually it starts at 10.. but i overslept.. coz the day b4 i slept very late... in fact for the entire day i slept for only like 4 hours... i slept at 6am and ard 9am tanny called trying wake mi up coz i've been sleeping like a log that i miss the morning practices.. i went back to sleep ultimately.. haha.. went for band prac ard 12.30pm.. and it ended at 3.30pm..
then mi, yaying, jianhao, peiyan, weishan, alfred and leslie we went to imm.. the 7 of us squeeze inside weishan's car... and we all are not skinny pp... (ops... haha) it resulted alfred to stand all the way... i think it was funny... hahaha... then we went to band world and stayed there for ard 1 hr.. i think... then went for lunch... after that weishan lend us his car... coz he needs to take the whole band to the concert by train... so hao illegally drive us to pick mw up... heez.. and his driving was.. erm... no comments... all i can say is we were lucky... haha...
then mingwei drove us mi, yaying, hao and py to nanyang academy of fine arts theatre for a brass band concert... and we lost our way!!! we were driving in circle!!! we got so close to the place in fact we saw the theatre but it was a one way road and we can't stop or u turn... hao was saying we were like playing game... haha... then while we were trying to figure out the way.. mingwei was saying he got an instinct he should turn right and his instinct was correct! we stop at a traffic light.. still thinkin which way to go.. then suddenly hao saw weishan and the whole band walking.. about to cross the road... and he shouted.. can u imagine we were like shouting across the road... wahaha.. so funny... and we were late for the concert by 30 mins.. the concert was good.. the music the sound of each individual player really impressed mi... they were so good... oh my tian... really terrfic!!
no doubt it was frustrating getting lost a lot of times yday but i still enyed myself.. hao is always full of craps... sometimes makes mi laugh like siao... haha.. i used to always quarrel with him... but with him ard it is always fun!! peiyan looked quite depressed thru out the journey... haiz.. she went off striaght after the concert... she actually tell mi she is feeling down coz something to do with her and her ex bf... haiz... another dumb girl... guys are always shit... girls are always stupid... debbie would definitely agree with mi... yea?? :)
actually i still feel a bit uneasy with mingwei peiyan and mi ard.. initially without mingwei ard.. i dun feel anything as in i really sincerely treat her as a friend.. in fact i quite like her as a friend.. but somehow when the 3 of us are present.. it is kinda a weird feeling.. but i'm getting better each time.. i should and i have to overcome this type of situation.. and in order not to make peiyan feels awkward thruout e day i kept talking to her.. wats more i can really see she is feeling down... again all guys are bad!!
then after the brass band concert we went to boon lay for supper.. then dunno how fishing strike hao's mind.. and we went fishing at such late nights. we went to westcoast... i need to emphasize it is illegal fishing.. heez... but our fishing trip was wasted coz we didn't catch anything.. only got lots of mosquitoes bites... my legs are still itchy now!!! arhz!!! really thanks yaying for accompanying mi coz she actually didn't want to go with us... but i persuaded her.. ;) hehez... the more the merrier ma... so mi yaying hao ailun jianwen and mingwei went... after the fishing it was already 4 am.. then mingwei drove each of them back.. i reached home ard 5.30am..
juz went to meet mingwei for lunch at jurong point... hey che peixian... guess wat we eat??? hahaha... we ate the delicious crystal jade xiao long bao... it was so nice man... the gravy the sauce oh my tian... its really nice pp.. then he went to but the things he need and we headed home.. but i think i'm going to accompany him to pasir ris coz today nobody drive him there.. anyway i got nothing to do at home... coz exams are over!!!!! heez... tml i'm starting work at tanglin mall... i feel a bit excited but a bit sian also... haiz...
Love, Shandy.
3:40 PM
3:40 PM
Saturday, October 30, 2004
Exams are over!!!
thursday... i had my last paper.. finally... exams are over!!! hurray... after the paper on thur we went out as a class.. or i should almost the whole class other than weiling and alvin... :( the chinese girls.. we went down to bugis for shopping... and ard 6 we meet up the malay girls who actually went to geylang pasa malam... :) together with beeling, joachim and janis... we went to arab street and had dinner... was fun hanging out with my cardiac class.. juz love them so much.. anyone and everyone who belongs to the cardiac class... they are terrific!!! we were making so much noise in the muslim shop.. and worst mi and janis started eating even b4 the malays actually can break fast... i shared my food with xinying.. we tried the mutabak ayam and briyani ayam... it was spicy!!! but still i enjoyed myself... we even took pictures in the shop... we were so noisy everyone's attention was on us?? coz when mi and janis start eating we notice pp were looking at us.. is it very rude to eat b4 the time to break fast in a muslim shop where the entire shop consist of only malays??? but i guess it is also too late to stop eating... :) so we carried on...
after dinner we went down to esplanade... we bought some alcohol and we sat outside esplanade... we chat and cheered for everyone and of coz our beloved junel coz she is going back to NHC.. ~grin~ we cheered for all the doctors as well.. of coz not forgetting my sugar daddy which is yizhen's husband... Dr lim soo teck.. he is really a nice man... a succesful person coz to mi he has eveything.. he has got career, wealth, status, erm.. looks??? (ops.. heezz..) and most importantly character and personality.. its hard for someone to gets to the top but still maintaining respect for others and being humble.. we cheered my lover boy chin chee tang and nel's loverboy Paul chiam too... when u go into working society u will realise there are so many diff kind of pp in the world.. mr nice man, mr hypocrite, mr hardworking, mr efficient, mr slow motion, mr smart ass, mr lazy cum mr eat snake... haa...
we drink we talk... mi lydiana and nitha got a bit high... coz we drank the most... we look crazy... haha... but i enjoyed myself.. the day itself i went home i felt bloated... didn't sleep well anyway..
friday morning... i went to meet aihui jasmine and gerald to orchard.. i didn't buy anything... we had dinner at a jap restuarant... i was so full... then we went to jasmine house.... we bought raw clams or sea cockles.. it was so nice having girls talk while enjoying the clams with chillies..
and finally i manage to meet mingwei... :) i was so excited b4 i meet him haha... coz it has been like 2 weeks since i see him... i miss him so much... we went to catch the midnite show the cellular.. i think the show is pretty nice... the main role is handsome... hehez... then we went for supper... we talked and talked we walked home slowly from westmall to my place... we sat down here and there once we get tired... he got lots to tell mi and i had tons of things to update him also.. coz it has been 2 weeks since i see him ok... by the time we realise it was getting late and we need to get home.. it was already 4 in the morning.. we didn't even realise time passes so quickly.. i reached home ard 5 am... and i can't into sleep.. so i'm here blogging... tml i'm having band prac at 10 am.. can u imagine i still awake... oh my...
Exams are over!!!
thursday... i had my last paper.. finally... exams are over!!! hurray... after the paper on thur we went out as a class.. or i should almost the whole class other than weiling and alvin... :( the chinese girls.. we went down to bugis for shopping... and ard 6 we meet up the malay girls who actually went to geylang pasa malam... :) together with beeling, joachim and janis... we went to arab street and had dinner... was fun hanging out with my cardiac class.. juz love them so much.. anyone and everyone who belongs to the cardiac class... they are terrific!!! we were making so much noise in the muslim shop.. and worst mi and janis started eating even b4 the malays actually can break fast... i shared my food with xinying.. we tried the mutabak ayam and briyani ayam... it was spicy!!! but still i enjoyed myself... we even took pictures in the shop... we were so noisy everyone's attention was on us?? coz when mi and janis start eating we notice pp were looking at us.. is it very rude to eat b4 the time to break fast in a muslim shop where the entire shop consist of only malays??? but i guess it is also too late to stop eating... :) so we carried on...
after dinner we went down to esplanade... we bought some alcohol and we sat outside esplanade... we chat and cheered for everyone and of coz our beloved junel coz she is going back to NHC.. ~grin~ we cheered for all the doctors as well.. of coz not forgetting my sugar daddy which is yizhen's husband... Dr lim soo teck.. he is really a nice man... a succesful person coz to mi he has eveything.. he has got career, wealth, status, erm.. looks??? (ops.. heezz..) and most importantly character and personality.. its hard for someone to gets to the top but still maintaining respect for others and being humble.. we cheered my lover boy chin chee tang and nel's loverboy Paul chiam too... when u go into working society u will realise there are so many diff kind of pp in the world.. mr nice man, mr hypocrite, mr hardworking, mr efficient, mr slow motion, mr smart ass, mr lazy cum mr eat snake... haa...
we drink we talk... mi lydiana and nitha got a bit high... coz we drank the most... we look crazy... haha... but i enjoyed myself.. the day itself i went home i felt bloated... didn't sleep well anyway..
friday morning... i went to meet aihui jasmine and gerald to orchard.. i didn't buy anything... we had dinner at a jap restuarant... i was so full... then we went to jasmine house.... we bought raw clams or sea cockles.. it was so nice having girls talk while enjoying the clams with chillies..
and finally i manage to meet mingwei... :) i was so excited b4 i meet him haha... coz it has been like 2 weeks since i see him... i miss him so much... we went to catch the midnite show the cellular.. i think the show is pretty nice... the main role is handsome... hehez... then we went for supper... we talked and talked we walked home slowly from westmall to my place... we sat down here and there once we get tired... he got lots to tell mi and i had tons of things to update him also.. coz it has been 2 weeks since i see him ok... by the time we realise it was getting late and we need to get home.. it was already 4 in the morning.. we didn't even realise time passes so quickly.. i reached home ard 5 am... and i can't into sleep.. so i'm here blogging... tml i'm having band prac at 10 am.. can u imagine i still awake... oh my...
Love, Shandy.
5:27 AM
5:27 AM
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Can't believe wat i did...
i consoled someone i should hate. i care for someone i should dislike... can't believe i did that...
anyway had another paper today... so that means only 1 more to go... yea!!! and thur we will be going out together after the paper... u guys better keep ur promises.. dun back out last min.. for those who have already back out... i got nothing to say... :(
Can't believe wat i did...
i consoled someone i should hate. i care for someone i should dislike... can't believe i did that...
anyway had another paper today... so that means only 1 more to go... yea!!! and thur we will be going out together after the paper... u guys better keep ur promises.. dun back out last min.. for those who have already back out... i got nothing to say... :(
Love, Shandy.
6:55 PM
6:55 PM
Sunday, October 24, 2004
study!!!
Saturday woke up in the morning and watch the meteor garden again.. and then went out to meet tanny at westmall. we went for lunch ist... then headed to mac to study... and we were like stoned for more than 1hr b4 we actually realli begin to study... and i'm so proud of myself.. we studied for 1 and 1/2 hrs continuously without talking to each other at all!! hehez...
and we set ourselves something to look forward to... dinner time... we set it at 7pm.. but ard 6.30 we were like kinda restless so went to to hav dinner.. and after dinner we decided to self declare a short shopping at westmall b4 we start eating all the notes again.. and we shop till ard 8.30 then we went back to mac to study.... and we did stunts.. we were changing places all ard mac.. i think we changed about 5 times... haha.. pp must be thinking we r mad... but we juz wanna find a "feng shui" place so we could concentrate well.. haha.. all craps actually.. then ard 11pm we went off to liting's place.. went to meet her for some catch up.. long time nv see her lo... so had a good chat till ard 2 and took a cab home with tanny.. but now i still can't get into slp.. i juz dunno why... haiz... perhaps too stress?? or love sick?? wahaha... sianz... when can exams be over?? ~sigh~
study!!!
Saturday woke up in the morning and watch the meteor garden again.. and then went out to meet tanny at westmall. we went for lunch ist... then headed to mac to study... and we were like stoned for more than 1hr b4 we actually realli begin to study... and i'm so proud of myself.. we studied for 1 and 1/2 hrs continuously without talking to each other at all!! hehez...
and we set ourselves something to look forward to... dinner time... we set it at 7pm.. but ard 6.30 we were like kinda restless so went to to hav dinner.. and after dinner we decided to self declare a short shopping at westmall b4 we start eating all the notes again.. and we shop till ard 8.30 then we went back to mac to study.... and we did stunts.. we were changing places all ard mac.. i think we changed about 5 times... haha.. pp must be thinking we r mad... but we juz wanna find a "feng shui" place so we could concentrate well.. haha.. all craps actually.. then ard 11pm we went off to liting's place.. went to meet her for some catch up.. long time nv see her lo... so had a good chat till ard 2 and took a cab home with tanny.. but now i still can't get into slp.. i juz dunno why... haiz... perhaps too stress?? or love sick?? wahaha... sianz... when can exams be over?? ~sigh~
Love, Shandy.
2:18 AM
2:18 AM
Friday, October 22, 2004
Mingwei going outfield...
erm.. tml mingwei going outfield le.. :( so bored... that means another 7 days cannot see him, no calls and no sms from him. kinda like he is out of my life.. erm.. well but luckily i'm busy with my studies also... gotta study hard!! coz all my previous papers buang le... that includes today's. basically i juz went into the examination hall and bullshit! and i mean its real BULLSHIT! haa.. the exam papers held in hospital and in SP are totally different... its not a test of how much u memorise or how hard u studied but more of ur general knowledge and wat u have learn during attachment.. so the all time lazy and restless mi never pay much attention during attachment and i juz bluff my way thru... ya but ultimately the whole cardiac class still manage to pass.. regardless of how much u dunno..
erm.. ya toking bout mingwei's outfield juz now. he is going to like some kind of real life war.. hehez.. i tink it would be fun.. firing at ur "so called" enemies.. :) but of coz some torturing moments like shitting on mud holes digged by urself.. sleeping with all sand files, mosquitoes all kind of insects and i heard even scorpions.. resting on muddy grounds.. not bathing for 7 days and yes with all the green camou cream on ur face... all the mud and sand all over u but u juz can't clean urself for 7 days... yeeks... and tat mingwei face is like super sensitive.. can u imagine even my hair can make his face grow pimples.. let alone those dirty muds... oh man.. can't imagine the next time i see him.. wat will he be like? oh my tian.. some kinda blacky skinny pimple"lish" man??? i juz couldn't imagine... lets pray for him.. alrite?? haa...
today had actually tot of going to heeren marche for a birthday celebration with nanwei.. but the lazy mi decided to stay at home.. sorry jasmine last min back out.. anyway i stayed at home and then tat mingwei suddenly called mi at 5.30pm!! got a shock! coz he dun normally called mi at tat hour... he told mi he had a hair cut.. strange huh?? a botak having a hair cut?? hehez... and then at nite he called mi again.. we had a 1 & 1/2 hours talk.. he told mi to take care of myself b4 he hung up.. and he sounded like we are parting for life and death.. haha.. quite funny.. but when he hung up i realli got kinda erm... bored and lonely..
alrite.. take carez pp... study hard all my dear friends..
Mingwei going outfield...
erm.. tml mingwei going outfield le.. :( so bored... that means another 7 days cannot see him, no calls and no sms from him. kinda like he is out of my life.. erm.. well but luckily i'm busy with my studies also... gotta study hard!! coz all my previous papers buang le... that includes today's. basically i juz went into the examination hall and bullshit! and i mean its real BULLSHIT! haa.. the exam papers held in hospital and in SP are totally different... its not a test of how much u memorise or how hard u studied but more of ur general knowledge and wat u have learn during attachment.. so the all time lazy and restless mi never pay much attention during attachment and i juz bluff my way thru... ya but ultimately the whole cardiac class still manage to pass.. regardless of how much u dunno..
erm.. ya toking bout mingwei's outfield juz now. he is going to like some kind of real life war.. hehez.. i tink it would be fun.. firing at ur "so called" enemies.. :) but of coz some torturing moments like shitting on mud holes digged by urself.. sleeping with all sand files, mosquitoes all kind of insects and i heard even scorpions.. resting on muddy grounds.. not bathing for 7 days and yes with all the green camou cream on ur face... all the mud and sand all over u but u juz can't clean urself for 7 days... yeeks... and tat mingwei face is like super sensitive.. can u imagine even my hair can make his face grow pimples.. let alone those dirty muds... oh man.. can't imagine the next time i see him.. wat will he be like? oh my tian.. some kinda blacky skinny pimple"lish" man??? i juz couldn't imagine... lets pray for him.. alrite?? haa...
today had actually tot of going to heeren marche for a birthday celebration with nanwei.. but the lazy mi decided to stay at home.. sorry jasmine last min back out.. anyway i stayed at home and then tat mingwei suddenly called mi at 5.30pm!! got a shock! coz he dun normally called mi at tat hour... he told mi he had a hair cut.. strange huh?? a botak having a hair cut?? hehez... and then at nite he called mi again.. we had a 1 & 1/2 hours talk.. he told mi to take care of myself b4 he hung up.. and he sounded like we are parting for life and death.. haha.. quite funny.. but when he hung up i realli got kinda erm... bored and lonely..
alrite.. take carez pp... study hard all my dear friends..
Love, Shandy.
11:40 PM
11:40 PM
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
oh my tian!!!
juz had our echo paper today.. it was so hard! the mcqs are bloody difficult.. i'm gonna fail.. confirm.. damn it... but i'm happy... 2 papers down... 3 more to go.. yea!! and on our last paper that's thur.. my whole cardiac class we are going out for a celebration.. hehez.. and i think joa is driving?? hopefully everything will go on fine... nobody would back out last min...
yday i had a nightmare.. i dreamt i saw mw and her together. the feeling was... one word.. F***... and ya so i woke up in the middle of the night and i sms him.. my msg goes like this.. "i had a nightmare.. i saw u and __ together... arhz!! fuck.." and.. then.. he scolded mi... he said he actually on his hp wanted to sms mi tell mi he miss mi alot and then all he see is FUCK!!! :( i got scolded... and the half asleep mi quickly apologised.. that was early in the morning ard 6 plus..
then now i juz reach home after a disastrous paper and i sms him trying to "tean" with him... haha... i said," dear no good nv console mi still scold mi..." then.. yes.. i got scolded again... he said, "wa a nightmare only must fuck?? so vulgar!! u r a gal leh!!!" and yes the stupid mi got myself into trouble again.. :( ~sob sob~
but i guess he scold mi for my own good ba.. oh my tian.. i really have no mood to study at all.. ~sigh~
oh my tian!!!
juz had our echo paper today.. it was so hard! the mcqs are bloody difficult.. i'm gonna fail.. confirm.. damn it... but i'm happy... 2 papers down... 3 more to go.. yea!! and on our last paper that's thur.. my whole cardiac class we are going out for a celebration.. hehez.. and i think joa is driving?? hopefully everything will go on fine... nobody would back out last min...
yday i had a nightmare.. i dreamt i saw mw and her together. the feeling was... one word.. F***... and ya so i woke up in the middle of the night and i sms him.. my msg goes like this.. "i had a nightmare.. i saw u and __ together... arhz!! fuck.." and.. then.. he scolded mi... he said he actually on his hp wanted to sms mi tell mi he miss mi alot and then all he see is FUCK!!! :( i got scolded... and the half asleep mi quickly apologised.. that was early in the morning ard 6 plus..
then now i juz reach home after a disastrous paper and i sms him trying to "tean" with him... haha... i said," dear no good nv console mi still scold mi..." then.. yes.. i got scolded again... he said, "wa a nightmare only must fuck?? so vulgar!! u r a gal leh!!!" and yes the stupid mi got myself into trouble again.. :( ~sob sob~
but i guess he scold mi for my own good ba.. oh my tian.. i really have no mood to study at all.. ~sigh~
Love, Shandy.
5:11 PM
5:11 PM
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
1 month anniversary??
i was asking him if today is considered our 1 month anniversary?? haha.. we were so in a confusion state.. coz he never offically ask.. and when he did i didn't reply.. so grabbing my hands when i'm cold and we are together??? ya watever.. so on this special day 19/09/04 we patch up after almost a year.. the last time we broke off was 09/09/03. looks like we are going on and off for quite a long time.. haiz... but ultimately we still got together. for him, i learn to be more independent, i learn that not everything i want does belong to mi, i learn to forgive and forget, i learn to give and take, i learn to cherish and appreciate, i learn to be more gentle.. haha.. for him i cried countless of times.. but the happiness he gave mi are priceless.. come to think of it we have been thru a lot before we finally got together.. love him forever?? be together forever?? nah... forever?? too strong a word to use.. coz we never know wat is going to happen in future. i dun expect too much.. we'll juz let nature takes its course..
oh joa pass his driving on the ist attempt... congrats to him.. but when is my turn?? :( sob sob.. perhaps juz waiting for pp to drive mi ba... :)haha...
1 month anniversary??
i was asking him if today is considered our 1 month anniversary?? haha.. we were so in a confusion state.. coz he never offically ask.. and when he did i didn't reply.. so grabbing my hands when i'm cold and we are together??? ya watever.. so on this special day 19/09/04 we patch up after almost a year.. the last time we broke off was 09/09/03. looks like we are going on and off for quite a long time.. haiz... but ultimately we still got together. for him, i learn to be more independent, i learn that not everything i want does belong to mi, i learn to forgive and forget, i learn to give and take, i learn to cherish and appreciate, i learn to be more gentle.. haha.. for him i cried countless of times.. but the happiness he gave mi are priceless.. come to think of it we have been thru a lot before we finally got together.. love him forever?? be together forever?? nah... forever?? too strong a word to use.. coz we never know wat is going to happen in future. i dun expect too much.. we'll juz let nature takes its course..
oh joa pass his driving on the ist attempt... congrats to him.. but when is my turn?? :( sob sob.. perhaps juz waiting for pp to drive mi ba... :)haha...
Love, Shandy.
11:47 AM
11:47 AM
Sunday, October 17, 2004
sunday.. tml is my exam!!
yesterday went to westmall to study with aihui and jasmine at ard 8.30 after rotting at home for the whole day. then he come find mi.. so nice of him coz he is sick and we are studying so its like he is kinda extra when he is there. basically he got nothing to do.. hehez.. we left around 11 when burger king shut down all the air con. it was so warm.. then we head to jp.. and took a cab home ard 2 plus... he sent mi back but from his face i knew he doesn't want to go home yet.. i was already at my door.. i put all my books back in my room.. then we went out again.. went to canal sit down and talk till ard 5am... i guess he doesn't want to go home coz he is going for a field trip le.. which means he won't be coming out for 2 weeks.. and also means i won't get to see him for 2 weeks.. :( haiz... but luckily i'm busy with my exams also.. so at least something to keep mi occupied..
actually had a promise not to meet him today so that i can study.. coz i haven't done any studying yet... but in the end we still meet up... but only for a short while.. we meet up for lunch at our place here... before he left to book in around evening time he actually wanted to meet mi.. but he never insisted and i didn't noe so i juz rejected him coz i'm watching tv and having my dinner.. now regretted.. should have meet him ma.. haiz... coz 2 weeks won't get to see him.. and worst 7 days cannot even contact him when he is outfield... sianz... haiz...
okok.. gotta get back to my room to gobble all my notes le... -_- wish mi luck for tml paper man... hey everyone... junel, da bi, zhen, weiling, xinying, alvin, joachim etc... all my cardiac classmates.. study hard... lets persevere together... ;)
sunday.. tml is my exam!!
yesterday went to westmall to study with aihui and jasmine at ard 8.30 after rotting at home for the whole day. then he come find mi.. so nice of him coz he is sick and we are studying so its like he is kinda extra when he is there. basically he got nothing to do.. hehez.. we left around 11 when burger king shut down all the air con. it was so warm.. then we head to jp.. and took a cab home ard 2 plus... he sent mi back but from his face i knew he doesn't want to go home yet.. i was already at my door.. i put all my books back in my room.. then we went out again.. went to canal sit down and talk till ard 5am... i guess he doesn't want to go home coz he is going for a field trip le.. which means he won't be coming out for 2 weeks.. and also means i won't get to see him for 2 weeks.. :( haiz... but luckily i'm busy with my exams also.. so at least something to keep mi occupied..
actually had a promise not to meet him today so that i can study.. coz i haven't done any studying yet... but in the end we still meet up... but only for a short while.. we meet up for lunch at our place here... before he left to book in around evening time he actually wanted to meet mi.. but he never insisted and i didn't noe so i juz rejected him coz i'm watching tv and having my dinner.. now regretted.. should have meet him ma.. haiz... coz 2 weeks won't get to see him.. and worst 7 days cannot even contact him when he is outfield... sianz... haiz...
okok.. gotta get back to my room to gobble all my notes le... -_- wish mi luck for tml paper man... hey everyone... junel, da bi, zhen, weiling, xinying, alvin, joachim etc... all my cardiac classmates.. study hard... lets persevere together... ;)
Love, Shandy.
9:48 PM
9:48 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2004
Stupid exams.. making mi so sianz...
still no mood to study.. actually tot of going for band prac today.. but in the end still didn't go.. coz a lot pp not going. my "gang" all not going coz preparing for exams.. and actually i was awaken by tanny's morning cal, bathe and changed le then called mw. but then in the end the 2 lazy us decided not to go.. haha... stupid i got changed and stuffs le but my mood was a bit not right today... i dunno why.. perhaps juz another mood swing again.. or i didn't sleep well?? haiz... so sian.. he is at home sleeping now.. wanted to meet him but he was so lazy.. he reluctantly agree to meet mi but from his voice i knew it so decided to stay home.. anyway he is down with flu ma... arhz... really no mood to study at all... how??? i told myself to study but ended up watching tv, sleeping, online'ling' and cooking maggie for myself when i wasn't even hungry juz feel like doing something except for studying... arhz...
juz read my friend's blog toking about appreciation.. yes i think everyone should appreciate and cherish watever we have now. never take anyone for granted coz u nv know when u will lose it... regardless of friends, boyfriend, parents, siblings or even pet.. talking bout pet i've return my puppy to the original owner coz we find it too troublesome to take care. now it is gone i'm starting to miss it... every morning i will disturb the stupid puppy play with it and stuffs.. now it is gone... haiz.. oh man.. think i gotta go back to study again... perhaps i should join yizhen in her mountains??? (zhen.. do u welcome mi to stay with u?? hahaha...)
Stupid exams.. making mi so sianz...
still no mood to study.. actually tot of going for band prac today.. but in the end still didn't go.. coz a lot pp not going. my "gang" all not going coz preparing for exams.. and actually i was awaken by tanny's morning cal, bathe and changed le then called mw. but then in the end the 2 lazy us decided not to go.. haha... stupid i got changed and stuffs le but my mood was a bit not right today... i dunno why.. perhaps juz another mood swing again.. or i didn't sleep well?? haiz... so sian.. he is at home sleeping now.. wanted to meet him but he was so lazy.. he reluctantly agree to meet mi but from his voice i knew it so decided to stay home.. anyway he is down with flu ma... arhz... really no mood to study at all... how??? i told myself to study but ended up watching tv, sleeping, online'ling' and cooking maggie for myself when i wasn't even hungry juz feel like doing something except for studying... arhz...
juz read my friend's blog toking about appreciation.. yes i think everyone should appreciate and cherish watever we have now. never take anyone for granted coz u nv know when u will lose it... regardless of friends, boyfriend, parents, siblings or even pet.. talking bout pet i've return my puppy to the original owner coz we find it too troublesome to take care. now it is gone i'm starting to miss it... every morning i will disturb the stupid puppy play with it and stuffs.. now it is gone... haiz.. oh man.. think i gotta go back to study again... perhaps i should join yizhen in her mountains??? (zhen.. do u welcome mi to stay with u?? hahaha...)
Love, Shandy.
5:26 PM
5:26 PM
no mood to study...
went to meet him today at ard 1. we got lotsa things to do.. ist company him to make his contact lens, then went to pay his insurance money, then went to NHC to return my lab coat and log book. we were at outram so i suggested bringing him to chinatown for my fav beef horfun. but didn't really manage to bring him there smoothly coz i dun remember the way.. but still ultimately we reached our destination. i was so bloody full after tat. after lunch we went down to bugis went to sim lim coz i need to shop for my hard disk and some computer stuffs. then we went to parco bugis for some window shopping also. i was so tired and decided to head home. but he was saying it is soon dinner time so it wasn't appropriate for mi to go home. but we weren't at any bit hungry yet. so headed to his house. rot there and then he digged out all his photos when he was young which made mi burst into laughter. hahaha... some were so damn funny...
then we watched "xi ling men 2" together... and also s'pore idol results before we went down to jurong east for dinner. then we went to meet jianhao and ailun for midnite movie sammi's and andy lau's new movie. they also had a few games of billard before the show start. erm... the movie kinda a dissapointment.. juz reached home and realised i haven't start any studying yet... oh my god... i'm gonna fail!!! shit... but i really got no mood to study at all... arhz... wat can i do???
went to meet him today at ard 1. we got lotsa things to do.. ist company him to make his contact lens, then went to pay his insurance money, then went to NHC to return my lab coat and log book. we were at outram so i suggested bringing him to chinatown for my fav beef horfun. but didn't really manage to bring him there smoothly coz i dun remember the way.. but still ultimately we reached our destination. i was so bloody full after tat. after lunch we went down to bugis went to sim lim coz i need to shop for my hard disk and some computer stuffs. then we went to parco bugis for some window shopping also. i was so tired and decided to head home. but he was saying it is soon dinner time so it wasn't appropriate for mi to go home. but we weren't at any bit hungry yet. so headed to his house. rot there and then he digged out all his photos when he was young which made mi burst into laughter. hahaha... some were so damn funny...
then we watched "xi ling men 2" together... and also s'pore idol results before we went down to jurong east for dinner. then we went to meet jianhao and ailun for midnite movie sammi's and andy lau's new movie. they also had a few games of billard before the show start. erm... the movie kinda a dissapointment.. juz reached home and realised i haven't start any studying yet... oh my god... i'm gonna fail!!! shit... but i really got no mood to study at all... arhz... wat can i do???
Love, Shandy.
2:10 AM
2:10 AM
Thursday, October 14, 2004
OC Group Presentation..
i had my oral communication presentation yday... fun fun fun... hehez.. we did all the stunts again... because of the projects we have been to yizhen, junel and my hse.. see the little secrets of each other.. (as in how messy our rooms are.. haha..) went to yizhen hse on tue.. did our presentation all the way till 10 plus at nite. by the time i reach home it was already 12 plus.. so tiring.. but yet pp.. i think we did a great job despite our "spooky" presentation become a funny one, our preplanned "ghostly makeup" turn out to be like chinese opera, priest and zombie, and our little skit supposingly romantic and touching become a joke.. haha.. i still think we are more into comedy line than spooky ones.. keke..
OC is a module where we all really have fun.. play and play everyday go to lessons without bringing brains... haha... now this OC module is coming to an end. the teacher says in this module she thinks we teach her more than she teaches us.. she says all of us did very well... how true is it.. we still have to wait for our results to be out..
i really love my cardiac class.. had so much fun with them... and we are definitely closer after the attachment...
well... now look at the pics for presentation...
during rehearsal at yizhen's place.. the little zombie weiling and the opera singer mi..
our ghostly presentation... oo... did we scare dimas out???
and... can u guys see i actually change from a ghost to a village girl with 2 pony tail?? and look at junel she is my loverboy in the skit.. and tan yizhen who is a rich man ah beng.. haha..
the groups...
oh he juz called mi he said he is sick, down with fever but he is very happy.. haha.. coz tat means he can book out early and attend for medical leave... hehe...
yday nite went to meet aihui at jurong point. went for a short shopping.. coz she needs to buy things for her chalet. aihui is so excited for the chalet coz she is going with her lover solely... only 2 person and they even want a barbecue... so loving hor... haha.. we didn't manage to buy much.. coz i meet her only at ard 9. the shops are already closing. so she came to my place... to grab watever she couldn't get like slippers and bag... then uncle tee and wilson come find mi below my block.. mi and aihui went down had a talk with them as well as bring my puppy for a stroll... so tired... i reach home around 1.30am... still feeling tired now... ~yawn~
OC Group Presentation..
i had my oral communication presentation yday... fun fun fun... hehez.. we did all the stunts again... because of the projects we have been to yizhen, junel and my hse.. see the little secrets of each other.. (as in how messy our rooms are.. haha..) went to yizhen hse on tue.. did our presentation all the way till 10 plus at nite. by the time i reach home it was already 12 plus.. so tiring.. but yet pp.. i think we did a great job despite our "spooky" presentation become a funny one, our preplanned "ghostly makeup" turn out to be like chinese opera, priest and zombie, and our little skit supposingly romantic and touching become a joke.. haha.. i still think we are more into comedy line than spooky ones.. keke..
OC is a module where we all really have fun.. play and play everyday go to lessons without bringing brains... haha... now this OC module is coming to an end. the teacher says in this module she thinks we teach her more than she teaches us.. she says all of us did very well... how true is it.. we still have to wait for our results to be out..
i really love my cardiac class.. had so much fun with them... and we are definitely closer after the attachment...
well... now look at the pics for presentation...
during rehearsal at yizhen's place.. the little zombie weiling and the opera singer mi..
our ghostly presentation... oo... did we scare dimas out???
and... can u guys see i actually change from a ghost to a village girl with 2 pony tail?? and look at junel she is my loverboy in the skit.. and tan yizhen who is a rich man ah beng.. haha..
the groups...
oh he juz called mi he said he is sick, down with fever but he is very happy.. haha.. coz tat means he can book out early and attend for medical leave... hehe...
yday nite went to meet aihui at jurong point. went for a short shopping.. coz she needs to buy things for her chalet. aihui is so excited for the chalet coz she is going with her lover solely... only 2 person and they even want a barbecue... so loving hor... haha.. we didn't manage to buy much.. coz i meet her only at ard 9. the shops are already closing. so she came to my place... to grab watever she couldn't get like slippers and bag... then uncle tee and wilson come find mi below my block.. mi and aihui went down had a talk with them as well as bring my puppy for a stroll... so tired... i reach home around 1.30am... still feeling tired now... ~yawn~
Love, Shandy.
1:04 PM
1:04 PM
Monday, October 11, 2004
monday blues?? monday rush...
i had a test today.. and guess wat? i didn't study and i was late!!
i set my alarm this morning at 6am.. so tat i could wake up and study for the test at 9am.. and who knows.. damn it... i overslept... i woke up at 8.30am.. shit man.. should have ask him to call mi.. haiz.. then i rush my way down... get changed and stuffs rushed down to take a cab... i was so pissed off... i was late already and had been hailing for a cab for the pass 20 mins... when a cab finally come a lady juz walked in front of mi took the cab and left... i was so damn angry coz i'm really late!! then.. while i was waiting for another cab... another lady walked in front of mi trying to hail a cab.. i was so furious... i walked up to her and said, "hello.. excuse mi... i've been waiting for a cab for more than 25mins.. can u dun juz come in front of mi trying to jump into queue??" then she tried to find excuses, "eerr... i didn't see u wat.... how i know u also waiting for cab??" i was so pissed off.. wat kinda lame excuses contradicting herself anyway.... i juz cannot be bothered... and i said, "i dun care watever excuses u have... its none of my business... i want to board this cab!" i took the cab and juz left... hahaha... i think i was damn unreasonable and fierce but cool... hahah... but i was really angry... but come to think of it... i'm quite mean ah??? aiya but my test more impt.. but in the end i spend 13 bucks for a 10 min test. the test was shortly only 10 mins... and i went back home after tat... haaa... luckily in the cab i manage to read the notes and the test was easy... so shouldn't fail ba... everything was in such a rush... i felt i was dreaming thruout... haha...
why didn't i have time to study yday??? coz i have a new puppy at home... it is soooo cute... it is onyl 3 months old... i like it... i was playing with it till 2 plus in the morning... blame my sis for bringing the puppy home...
monday blues?? monday rush...
i had a test today.. and guess wat? i didn't study and i was late!!
i set my alarm this morning at 6am.. so tat i could wake up and study for the test at 9am.. and who knows.. damn it... i overslept... i woke up at 8.30am.. shit man.. should have ask him to call mi.. haiz.. then i rush my way down... get changed and stuffs rushed down to take a cab... i was so pissed off... i was late already and had been hailing for a cab for the pass 20 mins... when a cab finally come a lady juz walked in front of mi took the cab and left... i was so damn angry coz i'm really late!! then.. while i was waiting for another cab... another lady walked in front of mi trying to hail a cab.. i was so furious... i walked up to her and said, "hello.. excuse mi... i've been waiting for a cab for more than 25mins.. can u dun juz come in front of mi trying to jump into queue??" then she tried to find excuses, "eerr... i didn't see u wat.... how i know u also waiting for cab??" i was so pissed off.. wat kinda lame excuses contradicting herself anyway.... i juz cannot be bothered... and i said, "i dun care watever excuses u have... its none of my business... i want to board this cab!" i took the cab and juz left... hahaha... i think i was damn unreasonable and fierce but cool... hahah... but i was really angry... but come to think of it... i'm quite mean ah??? aiya but my test more impt.. but in the end i spend 13 bucks for a 10 min test. the test was shortly only 10 mins... and i went back home after tat... haaa... luckily in the cab i manage to read the notes and the test was easy... so shouldn't fail ba... everything was in such a rush... i felt i was dreaming thruout... haha...
why didn't i have time to study yday??? coz i have a new puppy at home... it is soooo cute... it is onyl 3 months old... i like it... i was playing with it till 2 plus in the morning... blame my sis for bringing the puppy home...
Love, Shandy.
11:00 AM
11:00 AM
Sunday, October 10, 2004
meeting him...
finally get to meet him today... actually really kinda miss him.. this stupid him got into some offence.. he was caught charging his hp. then gotta do guard duty 24 hrs... till today then he booked out...
i woke up early in the morning.. at 9.. then went all the way down to pasir ris to meet him.. hehez.. so thoughtful of mi hor?? haha.. but ultimately we went to city hall.. had lunch at kenny rogers.. we shared a course for 2.. ok la not bad la... quite nice.. i like the ribs. we bumped into his sister at suntec. it was funny. coz he was actually smsing his sis... didn't noe his sis was actually outside the shop we were in... we didn't see each other till his sis purposely hide at the glass entrance.. and we got a shock! haa.. then we went for some shopping... he bought this insect repellent which stinked my bag thruout the entire movie.. omg.. the smell.. he still claim that it smell like tom yam lo!! i wanted to watch white chicks.. so we went to catch the movie at suntec. erm.. i find the show funny but a bit lame... quite boring in the beginning but overall average lo..
after the show it was only 4.40pm.. and he had to rushed off to pack his things and booked in... haiz... ~sian~ and he did something which made mi unhappy. his hp rang.. i tot it was his sis.. so i sort of like stretch my head over to see the msg... coz i juz merely wanted to see wat his sis says after a funny meet up.. as in we jump into his sis along the way juz now... and know wat he did.. HE SHOVED MI ASIDE.... so i hit him.. he juz continue to move away from mi... then i asked him.. why can't i see?? guess wat he said?? he said "why my msg u must see? ur hp rings i also nv see ma.." oh my tian... i was so upset by his words.. i never want to interfere his privacy.. i juz merely really wanted to his sis msg.. then i walked off ist.. i'm not angry... juz upset why did he shoved mi away??? then he come "hong" mi... he show mi his hp.. his sis msg.. then i purposely dun wanna see.. then he purposely read loudly for mi to listen... i use my hands to cover my ears... and i move away from him... i was mad at him all the way till we go separate ways.. then in sms he apologised and said he really never meant not to let mi see.. he was juz teasing mi.. he was juz playing with mi... he said "pls lo.. wat else u cannot see? i was trying to disturb and make fun of u only leh.." then i think... "so its my fault la? i myself petty??" he said "u think too much la... " haha.. come to think of it.. i really a bit childish hor?? hahah... so "xiao qi"... wat a stupid misunderstanding.. making fun become really angry.. haha... so bo liao leh mi...
kk la.. gotta go study le!!! tml got pacemaker test and i've not even started reading anything!!!
meeting him...
finally get to meet him today... actually really kinda miss him.. this stupid him got into some offence.. he was caught charging his hp. then gotta do guard duty 24 hrs... till today then he booked out...
i woke up early in the morning.. at 9.. then went all the way down to pasir ris to meet him.. hehez.. so thoughtful of mi hor?? haha.. but ultimately we went to city hall.. had lunch at kenny rogers.. we shared a course for 2.. ok la not bad la... quite nice.. i like the ribs. we bumped into his sister at suntec. it was funny. coz he was actually smsing his sis... didn't noe his sis was actually outside the shop we were in... we didn't see each other till his sis purposely hide at the glass entrance.. and we got a shock! haa.. then we went for some shopping... he bought this insect repellent which stinked my bag thruout the entire movie.. omg.. the smell.. he still claim that it smell like tom yam lo!! i wanted to watch white chicks.. so we went to catch the movie at suntec. erm.. i find the show funny but a bit lame... quite boring in the beginning but overall average lo..
after the show it was only 4.40pm.. and he had to rushed off to pack his things and booked in... haiz... ~sian~ and he did something which made mi unhappy. his hp rang.. i tot it was his sis.. so i sort of like stretch my head over to see the msg... coz i juz merely wanted to see wat his sis says after a funny meet up.. as in we jump into his sis along the way juz now... and know wat he did.. HE SHOVED MI ASIDE.... so i hit him.. he juz continue to move away from mi... then i asked him.. why can't i see?? guess wat he said?? he said "why my msg u must see? ur hp rings i also nv see ma.." oh my tian... i was so upset by his words.. i never want to interfere his privacy.. i juz merely really wanted to his sis msg.. then i walked off ist.. i'm not angry... juz upset why did he shoved mi away??? then he come "hong" mi... he show mi his hp.. his sis msg.. then i purposely dun wanna see.. then he purposely read loudly for mi to listen... i use my hands to cover my ears... and i move away from him... i was mad at him all the way till we go separate ways.. then in sms he apologised and said he really never meant not to let mi see.. he was juz teasing mi.. he was juz playing with mi... he said "pls lo.. wat else u cannot see? i was trying to disturb and make fun of u only leh.." then i think... "so its my fault la? i myself petty??" he said "u think too much la... " haha.. come to think of it.. i really a bit childish hor?? hahah... so "xiao qi"... wat a stupid misunderstanding.. making fun become really angry.. haha... so bo liao leh mi...
kk la.. gotta go study le!!! tml got pacemaker test and i've not even started reading anything!!!
Love, Shandy.
9:43 PM
9:43 PM
Friday, October 08, 2004
last day @ NHC!!
today is my last day of attachment.. dunno how to describe the feeling.. happy? sad? i dunno.. haiz.. actually have been looking forward for this day.. but when it finally comes.. i actually felt a bit kinda sad.. starting to miss working at heart centre le.. :(
no more working.. no more attachment... meaning
1. no more alarm ringing @ 6.30 in the morning.
2. no more formal wear.
3. no more dozing off in NHC LT.
4. no more scoldings from unreasonable patients.
5. no more free labour.
6. no more responsibility.
but all this also means
1. no more havoc messing up in room 35.
2. no more gossiping of techs, patients n doctors.
3. no more potluck celebrations.
4. no more lazing at the roof top.
5. no more picture taking sessions at work.
we had a small celebration... a small potluck and pictures taking... fun!!! let's look at the food we have... we are really hungry..
all were busy eating...
then we had pictures taking for the class..
then khoo kiong is up!!! haha...
followed by zhenling..... heez...
then... :( its mi..... well.. it felt like some kinda big idol.. with pp cheering u carrying u high up and lots of camera and flash in front of u... hahaha..
hey pp look at our beloved Dr Lim ST.. he is so happy juz by a small rocher as a token of appreciation from us with a thank you "paper card"..
oh.. he juz msg mi. think he will be calling mi. he keep asking did anybody says my tuna roll is awful?? haha.. seriously i hav nv succeed making any pastry cakes or food... but debbie and zhenling say my tuna rolls are nice!! no doubt they didn't manage to finish even half of it... haiz...
last day @ NHC!!
today is my last day of attachment.. dunno how to describe the feeling.. happy? sad? i dunno.. haiz.. actually have been looking forward for this day.. but when it finally comes.. i actually felt a bit kinda sad.. starting to miss working at heart centre le.. :(
no more working.. no more attachment... meaning
1. no more alarm ringing @ 6.30 in the morning.
2. no more formal wear.
3. no more dozing off in NHC LT.
4. no more scoldings from unreasonable patients.
5. no more free labour.
6. no more responsibility.
but all this also means
1. no more havoc messing up in room 35.
2. no more gossiping of techs, patients n doctors.
3. no more potluck celebrations.
4. no more lazing at the roof top.
5. no more picture taking sessions at work.
we had a small celebration... a small potluck and pictures taking... fun!!! let's look at the food we have... we are really hungry..
all were busy eating...
then we had pictures taking for the class..
then khoo kiong is up!!! haha...
followed by zhenling..... heez...
then... :( its mi..... well.. it felt like some kinda big idol.. with pp cheering u carrying u high up and lots of camera and flash in front of u... hahaha..
hey pp look at our beloved Dr Lim ST.. he is so happy juz by a small rocher as a token of appreciation from us with a thank you "paper card"..
oh.. he juz msg mi. think he will be calling mi. he keep asking did anybody says my tuna roll is awful?? haha.. seriously i hav nv succeed making any pastry cakes or food... but debbie and zhenling say my tuna rolls are nice!! no doubt they didn't manage to finish even half of it... haiz...
Love, Shandy.
9:09 PM
9:09 PM
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Singnet is down!!
oh i was so pissed juz now... coz singnet was down... i wanted to do my case study de.. then the stupid network was down for around an hour.. or mayb even longer i've no idea but i started connecting from 6 to 7pm still invalid. i called the singnet service many many times too but the line was busy. arhz.. the worst thing was it stated invalid username or password. and so i tot i lost my password again hence i change the password but still clicking on the "save password" icon. i didn't noe it was the singnet down till my friend tell mi. damn it... instead i really lose my password... shit!!
before i forget i would like to mention this incident.. it was terrifying lo.. i was perspiring while trying to kill it!! haha... i was shiting inside the toilet juz now.. i brought along a newspaper with mi to read.. while reading it, i heard a "psst.. psst..." sound coming from somewhere near mi. i took a glance around. nothing within the vicinity... then there it comes again.. the "psst.. psst.." sound.. i can rather be sure it is somewhere near mi.. then to my horror.. there is this stupid big cockroach lying inside the pail juz beside mi with its eyes fix on mi... oh "ta ma de!!" was wat comes into my mind.. i quickly threw the newspaper over the pail.. while i tried hard to complete my "business" asap. but u know the faster u want it to be, the more u panick, the longer and the more it is... then i rushed out of my toilet straight to the living room yelling for my mum!!! she got a shocked and scolded mi siao char bo.. then the 2 of us went sneaking into the toilet hoping the cockroach will not hear us.. none of us dare to flip the newspaper over.. we slide open the toilet door a little.. took a bamboo which is used for drying clothes to flip the newspaper.. come to think of it.. it looks comical.. before we actually manage to turn over the newspaper we shouted.. then "TA DA!!" the hero came... wahaha... my dad appear... wow suddenly he seem like the only glimmer of light as he bravely turned the pail over and hit the "target" with the newspaper.. it is obviuosly dead.. haha... wat a comical moment... keke...
yesterday went to celebrate my sis's 21st birthday. we actually wanted to book a chalet for her but in the end she rejected coz she wants to go havoc with her friends crashing somebody's house. so we went for a dinner yday then went for a short shopping session.. bought quite a no of things like all sort of snacks, some household stuffs and i helped my little brother to choose a $5 present for my sis. hehez..
today had my attachment as usual... work with ping ping and murni.. it was so damn busy. i had 80 over patients in the morning.. was so busy then met this "perverted" patient. we didn't realise he is taking advantages of mi and murni till ping ping shouted at us! eeekkss... come to think of it.. it is disgusting man... then i was doing admin in the afternoon. i called up this patient. her daughter answered the call and she was telling mi she has no money.. she will only get her pay tml afternoon so she hope she can like on loan ist.. so sad to hear tat rite? life is full of more tragedies and misery we never know. so pp be satisfied contented and happy with everything you have nw!!! :) after work zhenling drove mi and nitha home... hehe... thanks to her.. she juz stayed opposite my block..
oh yea i reached home and start making my tuna and bread rolls.. for tml potluck!! they look cute.. hehez.. but can they be kept overnight? will they still taste nice?? yea we have a "farewell" celebration for ourselves tml... its our last day working at NHC. but come to think of it i actually kinda miss it... :(
Singnet is down!!
oh i was so pissed juz now... coz singnet was down... i wanted to do my case study de.. then the stupid network was down for around an hour.. or mayb even longer i've no idea but i started connecting from 6 to 7pm still invalid. i called the singnet service many many times too but the line was busy. arhz.. the worst thing was it stated invalid username or password. and so i tot i lost my password again hence i change the password but still clicking on the "save password" icon. i didn't noe it was the singnet down till my friend tell mi. damn it... instead i really lose my password... shit!!
before i forget i would like to mention this incident.. it was terrifying lo.. i was perspiring while trying to kill it!! haha... i was shiting inside the toilet juz now.. i brought along a newspaper with mi to read.. while reading it, i heard a "psst.. psst..." sound coming from somewhere near mi. i took a glance around. nothing within the vicinity... then there it comes again.. the "psst.. psst.." sound.. i can rather be sure it is somewhere near mi.. then to my horror.. there is this stupid big cockroach lying inside the pail juz beside mi with its eyes fix on mi... oh "ta ma de!!" was wat comes into my mind.. i quickly threw the newspaper over the pail.. while i tried hard to complete my "business" asap. but u know the faster u want it to be, the more u panick, the longer and the more it is... then i rushed out of my toilet straight to the living room yelling for my mum!!! she got a shocked and scolded mi siao char bo.. then the 2 of us went sneaking into the toilet hoping the cockroach will not hear us.. none of us dare to flip the newspaper over.. we slide open the toilet door a little.. took a bamboo which is used for drying clothes to flip the newspaper.. come to think of it.. it looks comical.. before we actually manage to turn over the newspaper we shouted.. then "TA DA!!" the hero came... wahaha... my dad appear... wow suddenly he seem like the only glimmer of light as he bravely turned the pail over and hit the "target" with the newspaper.. it is obviuosly dead.. haha... wat a comical moment... keke...
yesterday went to celebrate my sis's 21st birthday. we actually wanted to book a chalet for her but in the end she rejected coz she wants to go havoc with her friends crashing somebody's house. so we went for a dinner yday then went for a short shopping session.. bought quite a no of things like all sort of snacks, some household stuffs and i helped my little brother to choose a $5 present for my sis. hehez..
today had my attachment as usual... work with ping ping and murni.. it was so damn busy. i had 80 over patients in the morning.. was so busy then met this "perverted" patient. we didn't realise he is taking advantages of mi and murni till ping ping shouted at us! eeekkss... come to think of it.. it is disgusting man... then i was doing admin in the afternoon. i called up this patient. her daughter answered the call and she was telling mi she has no money.. she will only get her pay tml afternoon so she hope she can like on loan ist.. so sad to hear tat rite? life is full of more tragedies and misery we never know. so pp be satisfied contented and happy with everything you have nw!!! :) after work zhenling drove mi and nitha home... hehe... thanks to her.. she juz stayed opposite my block..
oh yea i reached home and start making my tuna and bread rolls.. for tml potluck!! they look cute.. hehez.. but can they be kept overnight? will they still taste nice?? yea we have a "farewell" celebration for ourselves tml... its our last day working at NHC. but come to think of it i actually kinda miss it... :(
Love, Shandy.
8:27 PM
8:27 PM
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Another Presentations day...
hey hey.. juz came back from school.. had our presentations again... but today is not mine... is my other classmates... they presented and of coz as audiences we had lots of goodies today... we had roses, sunflowers, paper box, sardines roll, milk chocolates, dark chocolates and of coz many additional general knowledge to bring home.. hehe... like how to make sardines bread rolls, how to interpret one's personailty thru handwriting, how to do a proper make-up, different types of ang baos and also to make a beautiful box with juz a small piece of paper.. hehez... it was fun... more like a hands-on workshop than a presentation. :)
the flowers...
i'm juz in love with these beautiful flowers... it brightens up my day... hehez..
really like my cardiac class.. can we all juz dun graduate?? let's fail and repeat the whole cardiac course again... hehez... well ya... dream on... might turn out to be i'm the only one taking the same module again next sem... better not play play... must study hard!!! exams coming again in a week time... oh no~ oh my tian... how am i gonna survive thru the exams period again... ~sigh~ -_-
suddenly had some thoughts... debbie listen up here also... sometimes juz suddenly wonder.. why do i have to live under someone's shadow?? why do i have to keep worrying and felt inferior to her?? who is she to control my life? i have no idea wat kinda person she is.. all i know is i'm unique and rare in my own ways.. so why do i have to keep raking up the past?? why can't i juz move on?? why can't i have the life of my own?? well... who dun have a past?? i think its really time to move on... not to look back... watever is in the past doesn't concern mi anymore... so wat even if he used to be confused between mi and her? so wat even if he did chose her over mi? so wat even if we did broke off because of her?? it doesn't matter now because ultimately he still come back to mi... and wat matter most is the present state... presently he gave mi all the assurances, he gave mi all i want... and i'm happy with him rite now... i do have my past too... he can forgive my past and love mi with his everything now.. why can't i do it??
i remember dimas saying she is never bothered by the past wat she cares is the present... and she is always happy and contented because she live the way she wants to with no regrets... i must learn from her... i want to be happy... :)
wat if he leave mi for her again? this question i have been pondering for a very very very long time... but now i asked myself it is not even happening and i'm already thinking of it... wat a waste of time! if it realli happen then by tat time then i think still not too late... if it realli happens then i have to resign to fate le ba... hahaha...
Another Presentations day...
hey hey.. juz came back from school.. had our presentations again... but today is not mine... is my other classmates... they presented and of coz as audiences we had lots of goodies today... we had roses, sunflowers, paper box, sardines roll, milk chocolates, dark chocolates and of coz many additional general knowledge to bring home.. hehe... like how to make sardines bread rolls, how to interpret one's personailty thru handwriting, how to do a proper make-up, different types of ang baos and also to make a beautiful box with juz a small piece of paper.. hehez... it was fun... more like a hands-on workshop than a presentation. :)
the flowers...
i'm juz in love with these beautiful flowers... it brightens up my day... hehez..
really like my cardiac class.. can we all juz dun graduate?? let's fail and repeat the whole cardiac course again... hehez... well ya... dream on... might turn out to be i'm the only one taking the same module again next sem... better not play play... must study hard!!! exams coming again in a week time... oh no~ oh my tian... how am i gonna survive thru the exams period again... ~sigh~ -_-
suddenly had some thoughts... debbie listen up here also... sometimes juz suddenly wonder.. why do i have to live under someone's shadow?? why do i have to keep worrying and felt inferior to her?? who is she to control my life? i have no idea wat kinda person she is.. all i know is i'm unique and rare in my own ways.. so why do i have to keep raking up the past?? why can't i juz move on?? why can't i have the life of my own?? well... who dun have a past?? i think its really time to move on... not to look back... watever is in the past doesn't concern mi anymore... so wat even if he used to be confused between mi and her? so wat even if he did chose her over mi? so wat even if we did broke off because of her?? it doesn't matter now because ultimately he still come back to mi... and wat matter most is the present state... presently he gave mi all the assurances, he gave mi all i want... and i'm happy with him rite now... i do have my past too... he can forgive my past and love mi with his everything now.. why can't i do it??
i remember dimas saying she is never bothered by the past wat she cares is the present... and she is always happy and contented because she live the way she wants to with no regrets... i must learn from her... i want to be happy... :)
wat if he leave mi for her again? this question i have been pondering for a very very very long time... but now i asked myself it is not even happening and i'm already thinking of it... wat a waste of time! if it realli happen then by tat time then i think still not too late... if it realli happens then i have to resign to fate le ba... hahaha...
Love, Shandy.
3:21 PM
3:21 PM
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
sick...
finally i talk things out with him le.. and this time round.. i felt he is quite serious bout mi... he gave mi all the assurance... he showed he really care and love mi now... but again we never know.... haiz... perhaps i think too much.. well.. can't really be bothered to tink anymore..
i'm having tat stupid sore throat and flu again!!! its so irritating... i hate it... my throat is pain... my flu is annoying... and so i didn't go for work today... actually yday we went off early.. all of us went off early... let mi emphasize ALL of us went off early except for 1.... he didn't go off with us coz he is those kinda studious hardworking ones.. but do u think we care... we juz go off... and then a call from alvin came when i was juz few blocks away from my place... he said "hey Lay Kian want all of us to go back now!!" oh my god... we are in deep shit... but do u think we will go back ... of coz not... none of us went back... we are prepared to get scoldings today. but i didn't go... hehez... i was on MC.
but still gonna do my project later... gonna do on the scary topic again.. THE RED HOUSE!!
i was toking to my cousin online yday.. then she tell mi sonething which i think was true... "you can't be holding his hands while thinking of another person ma... you can never be happy.. so juz follow ur heart.." then was toking to des online also... his nick says.. do u rather be with someone you love or someone who realli love you?? haha... this question i've been asking myself.. but still its a question to mi.... but now perhaps i think i would choose to be with the person i love.. hehez... i dunnno...
some pics to share...
The Siao Char Bos....
Our group logo... ha.. too bored in class...
Stupid cartoon...
sick...
finally i talk things out with him le.. and this time round.. i felt he is quite serious bout mi... he gave mi all the assurance... he showed he really care and love mi now... but again we never know.... haiz... perhaps i think too much.. well.. can't really be bothered to tink anymore..
i'm having tat stupid sore throat and flu again!!! its so irritating... i hate it... my throat is pain... my flu is annoying... and so i didn't go for work today... actually yday we went off early.. all of us went off early... let mi emphasize ALL of us went off early except for 1.... he didn't go off with us coz he is those kinda studious hardworking ones.. but do u think we care... we juz go off... and then a call from alvin came when i was juz few blocks away from my place... he said "hey Lay Kian want all of us to go back now!!" oh my god... we are in deep shit... but do u think we will go back ... of coz not... none of us went back... we are prepared to get scoldings today. but i didn't go... hehez... i was on MC.
but still gonna do my project later... gonna do on the scary topic again.. THE RED HOUSE!!
i was toking to my cousin online yday.. then she tell mi sonething which i think was true... "you can't be holding his hands while thinking of another person ma... you can never be happy.. so juz follow ur heart.." then was toking to des online also... his nick says.. do u rather be with someone you love or someone who realli love you?? haha... this question i've been asking myself.. but still its a question to mi.... but now perhaps i think i would choose to be with the person i love.. hehez... i dunnno...
some pics to share...
The Siao Char Bos....
Our group logo... ha.. too bored in class...
Stupid cartoon...
Love, Shandy.
11:52 AM
11:52 AM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
i was like a fool!!! help mi!!!
yday went for band prac... from 10 in the morning till ard 2.. coz i left early to meet nel and gang to do project at my place.. they came to my house didn't really do project juz come here explore explore..
after project i went to enter to look for him.. i was like a fool like a fucking stupid idiot!!! i hate myself!!! i felt so terrible... i felt so awkward... i felt like an idiot... but worst i stayed there thruout making myself even more like an idiot... i dunnno wat to do... seeing him and her together... i dun even belong there... i was like an outcast juz like a fool... wat else can i think of... i dunnno.... i dunno how long can i take it??? why has god always been so cruel... making me madly in love with him??? sometimes i tot of leaving his world completely but how to??? i dunno... i dun have the courage to be with him... i dun have the courage to leave him either... why am i such a useless bimbo??? juz tok to jh online... i can also tell jh how i felt but juz can't tell him... i dunnno why!!! i'm fucking upset... i am really lost... jh told mi py felt equally uneasy as well yday... i understand... i've nv dislike her coz in fact i find her to be a very nice gal as well... but i juz dunno how to face her... worse to face her and him together... sometimes juz cried myself to slp... coz i dunno wat to do... who to tell... who to confide in... no one!!! nobody can understand how i feel... can anybody pls help mi!!!!! i'm losing appetite losing sleeps... dunno is it cz of all this... but i'm juz fucking sick of my life!!!
he juz called mi... actually i send him like about 8 sms in a go... tell him how i felt and stuffs... took the whole morning to type the sms... and god again playing a prank on mi... he called and tell mi he said he didn't receive my msg... and worst it was not saved in the unsent items in my hp coz my msgs were full... haiz... mayb really not meant to be together... trying so hard finally manage to send him msg and it was not sent!!! wat the fuck is going on???
i was like a fool!!! help mi!!!
yday went for band prac... from 10 in the morning till ard 2.. coz i left early to meet nel and gang to do project at my place.. they came to my house didn't really do project juz come here explore explore..
after project i went to enter to look for him.. i was like a fool like a fucking stupid idiot!!! i hate myself!!! i felt so terrible... i felt so awkward... i felt like an idiot... but worst i stayed there thruout making myself even more like an idiot... i dunnno wat to do... seeing him and her together... i dun even belong there... i was like an outcast juz like a fool... wat else can i think of... i dunnno.... i dunno how long can i take it??? why has god always been so cruel... making me madly in love with him??? sometimes i tot of leaving his world completely but how to??? i dunno... i dun have the courage to be with him... i dun have the courage to leave him either... why am i such a useless bimbo??? juz tok to jh online... i can also tell jh how i felt but juz can't tell him... i dunnno why!!! i'm fucking upset... i am really lost... jh told mi py felt equally uneasy as well yday... i understand... i've nv dislike her coz in fact i find her to be a very nice gal as well... but i juz dunno how to face her... worse to face her and him together... sometimes juz cried myself to slp... coz i dunno wat to do... who to tell... who to confide in... no one!!! nobody can understand how i feel... can anybody pls help mi!!!!! i'm losing appetite losing sleeps... dunno is it cz of all this... but i'm juz fucking sick of my life!!!
he juz called mi... actually i send him like about 8 sms in a go... tell him how i felt and stuffs... took the whole morning to type the sms... and god again playing a prank on mi... he called and tell mi he said he didn't receive my msg... and worst it was not saved in the unsent items in my hp coz my msgs were full... haiz... mayb really not meant to be together... trying so hard finally manage to send him msg and it was not sent!!! wat the fuck is going on???
Love, Shandy.
1:15 PM
1:15 PM