Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Sorry mum..
A note from a daughter to mom:
A mother passing by her daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bedwas nicely made and everything was picked up.Then she saw an envelope propped up prominently on the center of the bed.It was addressed,"Mom."With the worst premonition, she opened the envelope and readthe letter with trembling hands:
Dear Mom,It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had to elope with my new boyfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Dad and you.I've been finding real passion with John and he is so nice-even with all his piercings, tattoos, beard, and his motorcycle clothes. But it's not only the passion mom, I'm pregnant and John said that we will be very happy. He already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. He wants to have many more children with meand that's now one of my dreams too. John taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone and we'll be growing it for us and trading it with his friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we'll pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so John can get better; he sure deserves it!!
Don't worry Mom, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself.Some day I'm sure we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grandchildren.
Your daughter,Judith
PS: Mom, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbor's house. I justwanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that's in my desk center drawer. I love you! Call when it is safe for me tocome home.
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Haha.. Good one! i found this and i think its interesting... hehe.... :)
Sorry mum..
A note from a daughter to mom:
A mother passing by her daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bedwas nicely made and everything was picked up.Then she saw an envelope propped up prominently on the center of the bed.It was addressed,"Mom."With the worst premonition, she opened the envelope and readthe letter with trembling hands:
Dear Mom,It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had to elope with my new boyfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Dad and you.I've been finding real passion with John and he is so nice-even with all his piercings, tattoos, beard, and his motorcycle clothes. But it's not only the passion mom, I'm pregnant and John said that we will be very happy. He already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. He wants to have many more children with meand that's now one of my dreams too. John taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone and we'll be growing it for us and trading it with his friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we'll pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so John can get better; he sure deserves it!!
Don't worry Mom, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself.Some day I'm sure we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grandchildren.
Your daughter,Judith
PS: Mom, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbor's house. I justwanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that's in my desk center drawer. I love you! Call when it is safe for me tocome home.
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Haha.. Good one! i found this and i think its interesting... hehe.... :)
Love, Shandy.
5:52 PM
5:52 PM
Sunday, August 29, 2004
another weekend....
yesterday went to band... but didn't get play my flute.. sad.. coz the nite b4 i was toking to xinni till 5 in the morning.. then didn't manage to wake up.. reach band aroung 12.30pm. when i went into the band room.. wahaha i saw everyone keeping their insrumment le... funny huh?? everyone started to scold mi... saying wow... band finish then come... worst actually i meet yaying 11 at the bus stp which was actually very late. coz band prac start at 8... so i tell yaying wow.. meet so late... i wanna go earlier leh... then she said she scared she cannot wake up... in the end... i am the one extremely late!!! hahaha.....
after band finish mi yaying tanny nicholas wilson vivien and shujun went to jurong entertainment for lunch... i wasn't at any bit hungry but seeing all of them eat.. got no choice but joined in... hahaha... we ate in a small chinese restuarant... (something like crystal jades)... nice nice i like the beef hor fun... hehez.. then mingwei called. we tok for a while... haiz.. actually i got something to tell him but didn't know how to phrase it...
after lunch we went down to city hall... went to esplanade... go there walk walk talk talk.. we indeed had lots to catch up... esp with yaying... kekeke... tanny brought us to the esplanade library... hehez... we went there wow... so many musical scores... i got very excited with tanny toking and browsing all the scores sheets... hehez.... band is still my life... music is my everything... then we hang there around till 5 plus... then proceed to the convention hall.. the comez fair... wa lao... like free gifts given out like tat... it was so packed.. we went to look for aihui as she is working there... actually uncle tee also working there... but i didn't manage to see him...
after the fair we went to millienium walk for some drinks and desserts session... hehez... while waiting for weiqiang... in the end tat weiqinag got lost... he didn't noe how to walk from the train station to millienium walk. wahaha.. he funny lo... walk walk in the end he was lost.. then we went to look for him instead... after tat actually wanted to watch movie but tanny was tired and he said he is hungry... so went to han's for dinner... notice wat we did for the whole day??? we eat and eat and eat!!!
after han's dinner tanny and nicholas went home... only left mi yaying and weiqiang... we went outside esplanade sat down and tok... can see te whole day we are busy using our mouth either tok or eat... hahaha... then mingwei called again... we chat for a while... but my hp low batt le... then tat stupid weiqiang dun wanna lend mi!!!! shit him... ya toking bout wq... had been quarrelling with him the whole day... hahaha.. but i think it was fun!!! kekeke...
then we went back to jurong entertainment ard 9 plus... met weishan wenxiang jasmine nanwei and wilson... tok and tok... gossip and gossip... again like wat we used to do last time after band prac... we would stay at entertainment and tok till 11 plus at nite... hehez... i was dead beat... imagine the whole day i slept for like only 4 hrs... then uncle tee called... quarrelled with him. and yes yesterday is actually our 6 months anniversary if we didn't break up... but yesterday become a full stop to our story.. we had tok things out.. all... everything... clear cut le... we end nicely with a 6 month.... i cried and cried... the whole nite... sudden;y felt weird weird one... coz its like someone close to u.. suddenly leave u... i didn't really get into sleep... this morning got a bad headache...
then morning mingwei message mi mayb i also bad mood u see.. so i tell him i'm very fan... i tell him a number of things also... actually regretted telling him... coz i didn't wanna add stress on him... haiz... then worst... he didn't reply... so i tot he is gonna ignore mi again... avoid mi again... so i msg him say " u wanna avoid again? dun wanna reply??" think i'm quite irritating.. ha... in the end he called mi... he told mi he juz got caught for charging his hp... and he might not book out this weekend... oh my tian.... i was rather upset.... coz actually we intend to go to my biaoge's chalet together this weekend one... shit now nobody company mi go le... sianz!!! haiz....
didn't study at all for these 2 days... juz got home... went to pray pray... then went to have streamboat with my family members... coz my auntie strike lottery.. hehez.. but my hair really stinks man... coz of the smoky steamboat.... then now so tired.. dun have any mood to study... how??? help mi!!!!
this is mi and my best friend tanny... and i manage to eat this strawberry when i was at esplanade....
tat's mi suddenly very vain in my dad's car... hehez...
another weekend....
yesterday went to band... but didn't get play my flute.. sad.. coz the nite b4 i was toking to xinni till 5 in the morning.. then didn't manage to wake up.. reach band aroung 12.30pm. when i went into the band room.. wahaha i saw everyone keeping their insrumment le... funny huh?? everyone started to scold mi... saying wow... band finish then come... worst actually i meet yaying 11 at the bus stp which was actually very late. coz band prac start at 8... so i tell yaying wow.. meet so late... i wanna go earlier leh... then she said she scared she cannot wake up... in the end... i am the one extremely late!!! hahaha.....
after band finish mi yaying tanny nicholas wilson vivien and shujun went to jurong entertainment for lunch... i wasn't at any bit hungry but seeing all of them eat.. got no choice but joined in... hahaha... we ate in a small chinese restuarant... (something like crystal jades)... nice nice i like the beef hor fun... hehez.. then mingwei called. we tok for a while... haiz.. actually i got something to tell him but didn't know how to phrase it...
after lunch we went down to city hall... went to esplanade... go there walk walk talk talk.. we indeed had lots to catch up... esp with yaying... kekeke... tanny brought us to the esplanade library... hehez... we went there wow... so many musical scores... i got very excited with tanny toking and browsing all the scores sheets... hehez.... band is still my life... music is my everything... then we hang there around till 5 plus... then proceed to the convention hall.. the comez fair... wa lao... like free gifts given out like tat... it was so packed.. we went to look for aihui as she is working there... actually uncle tee also working there... but i didn't manage to see him...
after the fair we went to millienium walk for some drinks and desserts session... hehez... while waiting for weiqiang... in the end tat weiqinag got lost... he didn't noe how to walk from the train station to millienium walk. wahaha.. he funny lo... walk walk in the end he was lost.. then we went to look for him instead... after tat actually wanted to watch movie but tanny was tired and he said he is hungry... so went to han's for dinner... notice wat we did for the whole day??? we eat and eat and eat!!!
after han's dinner tanny and nicholas went home... only left mi yaying and weiqiang... we went outside esplanade sat down and tok... can see te whole day we are busy using our mouth either tok or eat... hahaha... then mingwei called again... we chat for a while... but my hp low batt le... then tat stupid weiqiang dun wanna lend mi!!!! shit him... ya toking bout wq... had been quarrelling with him the whole day... hahaha.. but i think it was fun!!! kekeke...
then we went back to jurong entertainment ard 9 plus... met weishan wenxiang jasmine nanwei and wilson... tok and tok... gossip and gossip... again like wat we used to do last time after band prac... we would stay at entertainment and tok till 11 plus at nite... hehez... i was dead beat... imagine the whole day i slept for like only 4 hrs... then uncle tee called... quarrelled with him. and yes yesterday is actually our 6 months anniversary if we didn't break up... but yesterday become a full stop to our story.. we had tok things out.. all... everything... clear cut le... we end nicely with a 6 month.... i cried and cried... the whole nite... sudden;y felt weird weird one... coz its like someone close to u.. suddenly leave u... i didn't really get into sleep... this morning got a bad headache...
then morning mingwei message mi mayb i also bad mood u see.. so i tell him i'm very fan... i tell him a number of things also... actually regretted telling him... coz i didn't wanna add stress on him... haiz... then worst... he didn't reply... so i tot he is gonna ignore mi again... avoid mi again... so i msg him say " u wanna avoid again? dun wanna reply??" think i'm quite irritating.. ha... in the end he called mi... he told mi he juz got caught for charging his hp... and he might not book out this weekend... oh my tian.... i was rather upset.... coz actually we intend to go to my biaoge's chalet together this weekend one... shit now nobody company mi go le... sianz!!! haiz....
didn't study at all for these 2 days... juz got home... went to pray pray... then went to have streamboat with my family members... coz my auntie strike lottery.. hehez.. but my hair really stinks man... coz of the smoky steamboat.... then now so tired.. dun have any mood to study... how??? help mi!!!!
this is mi and my best friend tanny... and i manage to eat this strawberry when i was at esplanade....
tat's mi suddenly very vain in my dad's car... hehez...
Love, Shandy.
7:44 PM
7:44 PM
Thursday, August 26, 2004
Stressed... and bored!!
got too bored of studying... and studying... actually haven't did much studying... cannot concentrate... haiz..... juz come online browsing thru friendster... kpo kpo a while... then saw most of my friends got blogs... so link link link and manage to read quite a number of blogs.... hehez... i noe i'm a kpo queen... but i'm juz too bored.. hate studying!!!
i came across one of my friend's blog... haiz... dunno wat to say... its kinda weird when i see her... or tok to her... i dun deny the fact tat i used to get so jealous over her... coz thoughts kept flooding my mind... "is she really tat good?" i juz felt she is too good to be true... on the other hand the fact is i can't really find anything tat is negative about her... so contridicting huh!? after so many yrs... no doubt we can only be very surface friends.. but i really find her to be someone nice.. in her blog she mention something like she didn't want to go back for alumni band... coz of something we dun understand... juz guessing i think its something gonna do with him..... i felt its a pity that both of them, their relationship turned out this way.... coz i mean even after breakup still can be friends ma... juz dun understand how he feel... she did mention in her blog also... she wanted to wish him b4 he go into NS... but still she didn't... haiz.. coz she thinks they better stay a distance... haiz... why?? why is god always fooling pp around??? why do pp's relationship and friendship had to turn out this way??? very often life is so contridicting... if u asked mi i would tell u... yes i dun wish to see them back in contact... but on the other hand i dun wanna see them this way too.... i mean isn't it equally bad when they have to purposely avoid each other?? when he/she really can let go of someone they will not avoid but instead able to face each other.....
he had been calling mi every night since he go into NS... it is the first time i felt he really started to feel for mi... and he really gave mi all the attention..... but somehow... things is never like last time... god is always playing a trick on pp... if all this happen 1 yr ago... i would have no second thoughts of being with him... but right now i became so terrified... in fact its kinda a phobia to get back together with him... and she have grown to be a big obstacle between us... i dun blame anyone... in fact i'm more kinda of the thrid party in the ist place... haiz..
moreover i have met someone who is definitely better than him... this someone never fail to be by my side... everything he did really touched my heart... i wouldn't deny i do feel for him... tat's y everything become so confused for mi... i keep saying i will let nature takes its course... coz i dun wanna be troubled... again i think i am juz avoiding the matter... coz i really dunno how to face it, how to solve it... but the more i hang on the more i drag the harder i can make my decision...... every now and then this problem come back to mi.... i so sickening of everything.... haiz... when can i get over this matter???? debbie also tell mi... to be realistic u dun usually end up with the person u love most but perhaps the person who love u most... or the person who suits u most....
Stressed... and bored!!
got too bored of studying... and studying... actually haven't did much studying... cannot concentrate... haiz..... juz come online browsing thru friendster... kpo kpo a while... then saw most of my friends got blogs... so link link link and manage to read quite a number of blogs.... hehez... i noe i'm a kpo queen... but i'm juz too bored.. hate studying!!!
i came across one of my friend's blog... haiz... dunno wat to say... its kinda weird when i see her... or tok to her... i dun deny the fact tat i used to get so jealous over her... coz thoughts kept flooding my mind... "is she really tat good?" i juz felt she is too good to be true... on the other hand the fact is i can't really find anything tat is negative about her... so contridicting huh!? after so many yrs... no doubt we can only be very surface friends.. but i really find her to be someone nice.. in her blog she mention something like she didn't want to go back for alumni band... coz of something we dun understand... juz guessing i think its something gonna do with him..... i felt its a pity that both of them, their relationship turned out this way.... coz i mean even after breakup still can be friends ma... juz dun understand how he feel... she did mention in her blog also... she wanted to wish him b4 he go into NS... but still she didn't... haiz.. coz she thinks they better stay a distance... haiz... why?? why is god always fooling pp around??? why do pp's relationship and friendship had to turn out this way??? very often life is so contridicting... if u asked mi i would tell u... yes i dun wish to see them back in contact... but on the other hand i dun wanna see them this way too.... i mean isn't it equally bad when they have to purposely avoid each other?? when he/she really can let go of someone they will not avoid but instead able to face each other.....
he had been calling mi every night since he go into NS... it is the first time i felt he really started to feel for mi... and he really gave mi all the attention..... but somehow... things is never like last time... god is always playing a trick on pp... if all this happen 1 yr ago... i would have no second thoughts of being with him... but right now i became so terrified... in fact its kinda a phobia to get back together with him... and she have grown to be a big obstacle between us... i dun blame anyone... in fact i'm more kinda of the thrid party in the ist place... haiz..
moreover i have met someone who is definitely better than him... this someone never fail to be by my side... everything he did really touched my heart... i wouldn't deny i do feel for him... tat's y everything become so confused for mi... i keep saying i will let nature takes its course... coz i dun wanna be troubled... again i think i am juz avoiding the matter... coz i really dunno how to face it, how to solve it... but the more i hang on the more i drag the harder i can make my decision...... every now and then this problem come back to mi.... i so sickening of everything.... haiz... when can i get over this matter???? debbie also tell mi... to be realistic u dun usually end up with the person u love most but perhaps the person who love u most... or the person who suits u most....
Love, Shandy.
1:35 PM
1:35 PM
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
From Yizhen's blog...
Am i so boring???? wats the meaning of life??? with everything at such low percentage??? rubbish... and most ridiculous.... wahaha... I AM TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE??? biggest joke of the day if my friends ever read this... :)
From Yizhen's blog...
Am i so boring???? wats the meaning of life??? with everything at such low percentage??? rubbish... and most ridiculous.... wahaha... I AM TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE??? biggest joke of the day if my friends ever read this... :)
Love, Shandy.
10:25 PM
10:25 PM
Monday, August 23, 2004
studying hard??
juz had my test today!! finally i decided to give myself a break.. at least pamper myself with a good rest plus tv night... heez... some pics to show... hehez.. some steal from yizhen blog... :)
look everyone is busy studying..... but hey look at tan yizhen with her sitting position so ugly hor? and look at her... everyone studying only her busy eating!!! hehe...
my xi nu ai le....
xi= happy.............................nu=angry
ai=sad...................................le=delighted
we are addicted to act like a bunny.. wahhaha..
studying hard??
juz had my test today!! finally i decided to give myself a break.. at least pamper myself with a good rest plus tv night... heez... some pics to show... hehez.. some steal from yizhen blog... :)
look everyone is busy studying..... but hey look at tan yizhen with her sitting position so ugly hor? and look at her... everyone studying only her busy eating!!! hehe...
my xi nu ai le....
xi= happy.............................nu=angry
ai=sad...................................le=delighted
we are addicted to act like a bunny.. wahhaha..
Love, Shandy.
8:14 PM
8:14 PM
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Band Practice..
finally after like dunnno how many months i got a chance to play my flute again.. hehez.. was happy but yet sad... coz i played like shit!!! its shit!!! u noe how terrible i sound?? oh my tian... its so airy.. so awful... gosh... i miss the times in shuqun band.... miss the times when i played my flute i feel i'm flying... its soooo sooo enjoyable.... but fortunately the school is coming back with the alumni band again... its held on every sat afternoon 1pm to 5pm... oh yea.. somewhere i can forgo all my worries all my thoughts all my problems... juz enjoy and fly with the music..... can't wait to have band practice...... :) and since it is held on sat noon.. mingwei can go for band practices... he had been calling mi since he was enlisted into army.... glad to hear tat he is doing fine..... at least till now.... the worst has not yet come... haha... i think coz the real training haven't start.... they are still doing all the admission stuffs.
yesterday morning wake up at 7.30am.. to prepare and went for band meeting and practices. got to play a song..... it is not a hard song yet i can't really play... sad.... :(
then we went for lunch at our usual coffee shop.... got to meet up some of my frenz... so long nv see some of them... pp like yaying, vivien.... miss u pp... miss the times toking to yaying.. hey next sat if u all wanna go see movie juz let mi noe lo.... got lotsa things to tell u... to update u... heez... :) wanna hear ur stories as welll... heez... i'm still the kpo mi... rem how we 2 used to gossip? haha... fun yeah?
then i actually intend to go city hall for lunch with meiria junel they all.. already on my there but my sandals strap suddenly snap.... and shit ended i took a cab home instead... can anyone imagine? i juz bought this sandals like less than 2 months.. and i torn it!!! haiz.... no sandals to wear to work le... wat shld i do??? no money no time to buy also... tml having my practical tests.... 2 prac and 2 theory tests.. stress...
i went hm straight and then came out again to meet jasmine and aihui at westmall to study but ended up u noe la... 3 girls together is juz like a market..... haa... stayed at coffee bean till ard 10 plus at night... then uncle tee came down and bring mi home... so nice of him rite? i was touched and happy... but things didn't turned out nice...... he took my hp and see the messages inside my hp... he saw the msgs mingwei send mi... and initially i didn't realise coz i was busily taking pics with his hp... but when i saw he sudden expression change...... i knew something is wrong... i pestered him to tell mi wats wrong.... when he finally said.... i'm at a loss of words... juz stared at him blankly..... my heart breaks when i see him almost in tears... suddenly have the urge to give him a big hug...... but i noe i can't... coz things is no longer like last time... who do i really like???
he juz called mi again... asking mi if everyday i'm waiting for mw's call...... i didn't noe wat to reply him...... i kept very quiet..... i told him to gimme a break.... he is always adding stress on mi... no doubt u always u dun.... u dun wanna stress mi... and ask mi to go study for my tests.... but yet u still kept asking mi all the questions... u had been affecting my mood my studies do u noe tat??? i noe i'm being so selfish to say all this.... but i really feel very fucked up!!!! can't u juz gimme a break? let mi concentrate on my studies??????? pls!!!!!!!!!!! i beg u!!!!!!!!!! leave mi alone for this 3 weeks can??????? i really cannot take it.... i'm gonna flung all my exams. its fucking irritating!!!!!!!!!!
Band Practice..
finally after like dunnno how many months i got a chance to play my flute again.. hehez.. was happy but yet sad... coz i played like shit!!! its shit!!! u noe how terrible i sound?? oh my tian... its so airy.. so awful... gosh... i miss the times in shuqun band.... miss the times when i played my flute i feel i'm flying... its soooo sooo enjoyable.... but fortunately the school is coming back with the alumni band again... its held on every sat afternoon 1pm to 5pm... oh yea.. somewhere i can forgo all my worries all my thoughts all my problems... juz enjoy and fly with the music..... can't wait to have band practice...... :) and since it is held on sat noon.. mingwei can go for band practices... he had been calling mi since he was enlisted into army.... glad to hear tat he is doing fine..... at least till now.... the worst has not yet come... haha... i think coz the real training haven't start.... they are still doing all the admission stuffs.
yesterday morning wake up at 7.30am.. to prepare and went for band meeting and practices. got to play a song..
then we went for lunch at our usual coffee shop.... got to meet up some of my frenz... so long nv see some of them... pp like yaying, vivien.... miss u pp... miss the times toking to yaying.. hey next sat if u all wanna go see movie juz let mi noe lo.... got lotsa things to tell u... to update u... heez... :) wanna hear ur stories as welll... heez... i'm still the kpo mi... rem how we 2 used to gossip? haha... fun yeah?
then i actually intend to go city hall for lunch with meiria junel they all.. already on my there but my sandals strap suddenly snap.... and shit ended i took a cab home instead... can anyone imagine? i juz bought this sandals like less than 2 months.. and i torn it!!! haiz.... no sandals to wear to work le... wat shld i do??? no money no time to buy also... tml having my practical tests.... 2 prac and 2 theory tests.. stress...
i went hm straight and then came out again to meet jasmine and aihui at westmall to study but ended up u noe la... 3 girls together is juz like a market..... haa... stayed at coffee bean till ard 10 plus at night... then uncle tee came down and bring mi home... so nice of him rite? i was touched and happy... but things didn't turned out nice...... he took my hp and see the messages inside my hp... he saw the msgs mingwei send mi... and initially i didn't realise coz i was busily taking pics with his hp... but when i saw he sudden expression change...... i knew something is wrong... i pestered him to tell mi wats wrong.... when he finally said.... i'm at a loss of words... juz stared at him blankly..... my heart breaks when i see him almost in tears... suddenly have the urge to give him a big hug...... but i noe i can't... coz things is no longer like last time... who do i really like???
he juz called mi again... asking mi if everyday i'm waiting for mw's call...... i didn't noe wat to reply him...... i kept very quiet..... i told him to gimme a break.... he is always adding stress on mi... no doubt u always u dun.... u dun wanna stress mi... and ask mi to go study for my tests.... but yet u still kept asking mi all the questions... u had been affecting my mood my studies do u noe tat??? i noe i'm being so selfish to say all this.... but i really feel very fucked up!!!! can't u juz gimme a break? let mi concentrate on my studies??????? pls!!!!!!!!!!! i beg u!!!!!!!!!! leave mi alone for this 3 weeks can??????? i really cannot take it.... i'm gonna flung all my exams. its fucking irritating!!!!!!!!!!
Love, Shandy.
2:38 PM
2:38 PM
Thursday, August 19, 2004
Story telling time
when do we thoroughly follow our heart? as in when do we actually follow watever our heart says without considering other factors? who will always live without regrets? we are all human beings... at times in this realistic world we have no choice but to do things against our wish.... when can we really leave everything aside and juz do watever we want to do... we can't! if we really can juz follow our heart... i believe most of us wouldn't be studying so hard now... burning mid night oils to study or even to complete projects and assignments... we will be out playing all the times... hehez... life is so stressful... all the projects all the tests all the exams... all the stress on us... feeling so tired nowadays... but yet i dun want my life to be stress free... i'm so contradicting... haiz... i mean if life is totally stress free... then wat is the meaning of life?? rite?? :)
love life and relationships are even more complicated... pp fall in love and fall out of love so easily nowadays... i wonder why... even i myself is doing tat... *pp if u found a faithful guy or partner pls cherish them... coz i guess they are the rare species left over nowadays...* haha... life is so unpredictable.. pp are fickle minded... someone might suddenly tell u how much he love u today... and tomolo he will tell another person the same thing... and after some time this person will come back to you again telling u the person he likes is actually u... so confusing huh? i juz dun understand... god is always playing a trick on pp.. like u nv noe how impt the thing is until u lose it... why must it be so??? ~haiz~
haha... wow... when the hell did shandy become like this? telling big things of life?? wahaha... juz read and forget... or can ignore watever i say... i'm juz trying to act great... muhahaha...
Story telling time
when do we thoroughly follow our heart? as in when do we actually follow watever our heart says without considering other factors? who will always live without regrets? we are all human beings... at times in this realistic world we have no choice but to do things against our wish.... when can we really leave everything aside and juz do watever we want to do... we can't! if we really can juz follow our heart... i believe most of us wouldn't be studying so hard now... burning mid night oils to study or even to complete projects and assignments... we will be out playing all the times... hehez... life is so stressful... all the projects all the tests all the exams... all the stress on us... feeling so tired nowadays... but yet i dun want my life to be stress free... i'm so contradicting... haiz... i mean if life is totally stress free... then wat is the meaning of life?? rite?? :)
love life and relationships are even more complicated... pp fall in love and fall out of love so easily nowadays... i wonder why... even i myself is doing tat... *pp if u found a faithful guy or partner pls cherish them... coz i guess they are the rare species left over nowadays...* haha... life is so unpredictable.. pp are fickle minded... someone might suddenly tell u how much he love u today... and tomolo he will tell another person the same thing... and after some time this person will come back to you again telling u the person he likes is actually u... so confusing huh? i juz dun understand... god is always playing a trick on pp.. like u nv noe how impt the thing is until u lose it... why must it be so??? ~haiz~
haha... wow... when the hell did shandy become like this? telling big things of life?? wahaha... juz read and forget... or can ignore watever i say... i'm juz trying to act great... muhahaha...
Love, Shandy.
5:13 PM
5:13 PM
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
same old problem again...
haiz... make mi upset again... my friends ah.... wat the hack??? they went out without even asking mi again... asshole!! mingwei juz sms mi... said they went out yday... still have the cheek to tell mi... damn it.. they left mi out again... worst of all... i even sms liting in the evening yday telling her to take care coz it has been a week plus since we last meet up... she didn't even bothered to reply..... haiz... saw weiqiang on msn yday also... tok to him a while... then to think they go out he nv even ask mi at all....!!!! arhz.... friends.... they always assume i'm busy i'm studying etc.... but when did they ever assume i'm free.... never! have they spare a tot for my feelings?? even juz ask only i also happy lo...... it means a lot ma... can u imagine pp u think are ur best'est' group of friends, they go out without even asking u.... and not once but many many times!!!!!! friends friends friends??? wat are friends actually? moreover mingwei is going into NS tml le.. no more chance for our "foursome" gathering le... :(
same old problem again...
haiz... make mi upset again... my friends ah.... wat the hack??? they went out without even asking mi again... asshole!! mingwei juz sms mi... said they went out yday... still have the cheek to tell mi... damn it.. they left mi out again... worst of all... i even sms liting in the evening yday telling her to take care coz it has been a week plus since we last meet up... she didn't even bothered to reply..... haiz... saw weiqiang on msn yday also... tok to him a while... then to think they go out he nv even ask mi at all....!!!! arhz.... friends.... they always assume i'm busy i'm studying etc.... but when did they ever assume i'm free.... never! have they spare a tot for my feelings?? even juz ask only i also happy lo...... it means a lot ma... can u imagine pp u think are ur best'est' group of friends, they go out without even asking u.... and not once but many many times!!!!!! friends friends friends??? wat are friends actually? moreover mingwei is going into NS tml le.. no more chance for our "foursome" gathering le... :(
Love, Shandy.
1:48 PM
1:48 PM
Monday, August 16, 2004
Happy Birthday Yizhen!!!
today is yizhen birthday... hehez... but poor her still have to go for attachment and have to teach tuition after work... but still HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN YIZHEN!!!
very stressed ah!!! all the tests and stuffs coming up... so stress.. my mid sem paper is within 2 weeks time... and next week is my tests week for cath lab... arhz... suck it man!! hate to be stress... and all my presentation due also... sianz man...
yesterday i went to see fireworks with uncle tee.. hehez.. wow... was so nice.. i'm like a bit of mountain tortise.. keke... all the kids in front was like ""wow!!" i join them also.. muhaha.... like so amazed.. but i think it was nice.. :)
and some pics taken on fri... heez... wat ugly pic mi and junel got..
playing peeping tom game?? my turn to peep... heez..
Happy Birthday Yizhen!!!
today is yizhen birthday... hehez... but poor her still have to go for attachment and have to teach tuition after work... but still HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN YIZHEN!!!
very stressed ah!!! all the tests and stuffs coming up... so stress.. my mid sem paper is within 2 weeks time... and next week is my tests week for cath lab... arhz... suck it man!! hate to be stress... and all my presentation due also... sianz man...
yesterday i went to see fireworks with uncle tee.. hehez.. wow... was so nice.. i'm like a bit of mountain tortise.. keke... all the kids in front was like ""wow!!" i join them also.. muhaha.... like so amazed.. but i think it was nice.. :)
and some pics taken on fri... heez... wat ugly pic mi and junel got..
playing peeping tom game?? my turn to peep... heez..
Love, Shandy.
8:19 PM
8:19 PM
Saturday, August 14, 2004
friday 13!!!
spend fri the 13 very uniquely... haha.. early in the mmorning when we goes to work mi and yizhen was being scheduled to be at the operating theatre... it was an eye opening for the 2 "kuku" us.. so we got very excited b4 we went there.. we changed into sterile clothes b4 entering the operating theatre. however the excitment soon susided when we saw the whole OT was so crowded... can u imagine there are almost 20 of us in a small OT?? so many doctors crowded around the bed.. so many surgeons so many nurses.. so many technicians so many staff.... oh my tian... we ended standing by the side couldn't even see anything.... haiz..... then we went back to cath lab... and we make the whole afternoon revising our work... hardworking yeh? but within 10 mins we 2 fell asleep... wahaha.....
the specki mi...
look at tat harworking tan yizhen.. and our ugly junel... wahaha...
after attachment we went for a spooky magic show.. i really enjoyed myself man... it was nice.. it was enjoyable and it was amazing!!! this magic show was held at suntec city convention hall... wow.. never been to the hall b4... it was real big man.... and sooo scary.... it was so crowded tat we were being pushed by the queue once we entered the hall it was so dark... and of no where there were "ghosts" wandering around.... i didn't see was walking to find some good seats when suddenly one of the ghosts with white painted face and bloody eyes standing beside mi. initially i tot it was one of the audience searching for places like mi... when i turned and looked... wa lao!! oh my tian... i got a shock shouted and hold tight to biling's arms... wahaha... i think it was embarassing... then i went out to bring yizhen in... she oh man... screamed like nobody's business... wahaha..... but we had fun screaming rite yizhen?? keke...... the magic show started... i think its similar to those of david copperfield... it is really amazing..... wonder wat is happening.... so hard to describe... it was only those who had been there understand.... like the atmosphere like the show... :)
after the show i went off to meet uncle tee... he broke a promise... i was so angry with him... but now okie le la..... mayb its mi who is too petty and unreasonable ba...
mingwei juz msg mi... oh my tian... he said he is going to the hospital now.... he had been having high fever for more than a week le... he seen 3 doctors... but the fever diarrhoea vomiting doesn't seem to stop..... so he decided to go nuh for consultation... oh my... hope he is fine... i had a dream tat day... i dreamt tat he was admitted to the hospital... and this stupid him msg mi today saying :"hey i think ur dream is coming true le... i'm going to the hospital now... hehe.. lets see if i will be admitted..." he is really very crappy rite? sick still always tok rubbish......
*hope its nothing serious.. hope he gets well soon... coz he is going into NS next thur.... this is his last week outside le... so hope he can get well faster and enjoy b4 he goes in...
friday 13!!!
spend fri the 13 very uniquely... haha.. early in the mmorning when we goes to work mi and yizhen was being scheduled to be at the operating theatre... it was an eye opening for the 2 "kuku" us.. so we got very excited b4 we went there.. we changed into sterile clothes b4 entering the operating theatre. however the excitment soon susided when we saw the whole OT was so crowded... can u imagine there are almost 20 of us in a small OT?? so many doctors crowded around the bed.. so many surgeons so many nurses.. so many technicians so many staff.... oh my tian... we ended standing by the side couldn't even see anything.... haiz..... then we went back to cath lab... and we make the whole afternoon revising our work... hardworking yeh? but within 10 mins we 2 fell asleep... wahaha.....
the specki mi...
look at tat harworking tan yizhen.. and our ugly junel... wahaha...
after attachment we went for a spooky magic show.. i really enjoyed myself man... it was nice.. it was enjoyable and it was amazing!!! this magic show was held at suntec city convention hall... wow.. never been to the hall b4... it was real big man.... and sooo scary.... it was so crowded tat we were being pushed by the queue once we entered the hall it was so dark... and of no where there were "ghosts" wandering around.... i didn't see was walking to find some good seats when suddenly one of the ghosts with white painted face and bloody eyes standing beside mi. initially i tot it was one of the audience searching for places like mi... when i turned and looked... wa lao!! oh my tian... i got a shock shouted and hold tight to biling's arms... wahaha... i think it was embarassing... then i went out to bring yizhen in... she oh man... screamed like nobody's business... wahaha..... but we had fun screaming rite yizhen?? keke...... the magic show started... i think its similar to those of david copperfield... it is really amazing..... wonder wat is happening.... so hard to describe... it was only those who had been there understand.... like the atmosphere like the show... :)
after the show i went off to meet uncle tee... he broke a promise... i was so angry with him... but now okie le la..... mayb its mi who is too petty and unreasonable ba...
mingwei juz msg mi... oh my tian... he said he is going to the hospital now.... he had been having high fever for more than a week le... he seen 3 doctors... but the fever diarrhoea vomiting doesn't seem to stop..... so he decided to go nuh for consultation... oh my... hope he is fine... i had a dream tat day... i dreamt tat he was admitted to the hospital... and this stupid him msg mi today saying :"hey i think ur dream is coming true le... i'm going to the hospital now... hehe.. lets see if i will be admitted..." he is really very crappy rite? sick still always tok rubbish......
*hope its nothing serious.. hope he gets well soon... coz he is going into NS next thur.... this is his last week outside le... so hope he can get well faster and enjoy b4 he goes in...
Love, Shandy.
11:56 AM
11:56 AM
Thursday, August 12, 2004
the clubbing pictures!!
the clubbing pictures!!
Love, Shandy.
9:40 PM
9:40 PM
love matters are irritating!!!
juz read debbie's blog.. girl ah.. dun think so much k? wat can u do? i mean u couldn't possibly break up with alvin now and give him back to xiuhui rite??? when u chose ur path, u should be expecting all this to happen.. u can't do anything now except to be brave, u gotta face xiuhui, face zhiwei and whoever comes.. it is juz an obstacle u and alvin have to go thru.... c'mon u r very happy and comfortable with alvin now isn't it?? sometimes love is like tat... u cannot handle too many things at a time... its actually a simple thing... u make a decision le.. u want to be with alvin.. isn't it? u do not have extra time to be bothered by xiuhui's feelings, zhiwei's feelings and pp views of you rite now.... if u are gonna think of so many things u will never be happy...... why not make use of the time enjoy and cherish ur moments with alvin now? take care and be happy always my girl okie???
haiz... only know how to tell pp things like a great god... wahaha... but when it happens to myself i became so lost... haiz.. am i really another bitch?? i know i shouldn't be hanging in the middle... its so unfair to everyone.. so unfair to uncle tee (esp since he dote mi so much).. haiz...
anyway mingwei have been sick this whole week.. he is having fever, diarrhoea, vomiting for almost a week le... i was so worried, worried if he had dengue fever... oh my tian.. the fever doesn't seem to subside... it has been going like at 39.9 degree.. scary huh!? and this silly him still can joked saying "wow.. heng ah... 1 more degree and i might get brain damage cannot even recognise u later..." he so sick still likes to talk rubbish.. haiz..
*wonder how he is feeling now.. hopefully better ba...
juz read debbie's blog.. girl ah.. dun think so much k? wat can u do? i mean u couldn't possibly break up with alvin now and give him back to xiuhui rite??? when u chose ur path, u should be expecting all this to happen.. u can't do anything now except to be brave, u gotta face xiuhui, face zhiwei and whoever comes.. it is juz an obstacle u and alvin have to go thru.... c'mon u r very happy and comfortable with alvin now isn't it?? sometimes love is like tat... u cannot handle too many things at a time... its actually a simple thing... u make a decision le.. u want to be with alvin.. isn't it? u do not have extra time to be bothered by xiuhui's feelings, zhiwei's feelings and pp views of you rite now.... if u are gonna think of so many things u will never be happy...... why not make use of the time enjoy and cherish ur moments with alvin now? take care and be happy always my girl okie???
haiz... only know how to tell pp things like a great god... wahaha... but when it happens to myself i became so lost... haiz.. am i really another bitch?? i know i shouldn't be hanging in the middle... its so unfair to everyone.. so unfair to uncle tee (esp since he dote mi so much).. haiz...
anyway mingwei have been sick this whole week.. he is having fever, diarrhoea, vomiting for almost a week le... i was so worried, worried if he had dengue fever... oh my tian.. the fever doesn't seem to subside... it has been going like at 39.9 degree.. scary huh!? and this silly him still can joked saying "wow.. heng ah... 1 more degree and i might get brain damage cannot even recognise u later..." he so sick still likes to talk rubbish.. haiz..
*wonder how he is feeling now.. hopefully better ba...
Love, Shandy.
8:38 PM
8:38 PM
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Happy National Day (9/8) And Happy birthday to Alvin (10/8)!!
Time really files huh? we celebrated our 39th national day yesterday... it was rather sad that our prime minister Goh Chok Tong step down... and guess wat our beloved tan yizhen actually do? she felt so sad tat she teared for him... wow... so touching hor? we had such a young passionate singaporean... muhaha....
before i forget today is alvin's birthday... happy birthday alvin... dunno if he will see anot... anyway i wish him face to face today le... hehez...
today took a number of pics again... pp let u see this pic.... i went to orchard on sat and i actually went into a toilet with this...
i saw this and immediately i wanted to rush out of the toilet coz i tot i went to the gents instead... hahaha..... i think its mayb for mothers to allow their kids to pee and stuffs ba...
we took a number of pics today...
c'mon pp... lets look at the scariest pictures ever taken... look at the last pic... i think its very very scary lo..... but its actually mi... do i really look so scary?? oh my tian!!!
the hardworking mi in class..... (no is pretending to be hardworking haaz..)
at cath lab.... look at tat ah lian tan yizhen... and tats mi the commando shandy yap..
Happy National Day (9/8) And Happy birthday to Alvin (10/8)!!
Time really files huh? we celebrated our 39th national day yesterday... it was rather sad that our prime minister Goh Chok Tong step down... and guess wat our beloved tan yizhen actually do? she felt so sad tat she teared for him... wow... so touching hor? we had such a young passionate singaporean... muhaha....
before i forget today is alvin's birthday... happy birthday alvin... dunno if he will see anot... anyway i wish him face to face today le... hehez...
today took a number of pics again... pp let u see this pic.... i went to orchard on sat and i actually went into a toilet with this...
i saw this and immediately i wanted to rush out of the toilet coz i tot i went to the gents instead... hahaha..... i think its mayb for mothers to allow their kids to pee and stuffs ba...
we took a number of pics today...
c'mon pp... lets look at the scariest pictures ever taken... look at the last pic... i think its very very scary lo..... but its actually mi... do i really look so scary?? oh my tian!!!
the hardworking mi in class..... (no is pretending to be hardworking haaz..)
at cath lab.... look at tat ah lian tan yizhen... and tats mi the commando shandy yap..
Love, Shandy.
8:12 PM
8:12 PM
Sunday, August 08, 2004
Clubbing nite
i kept telling myself to put all the love matters aside and get on with my life.. with all my tests coming up.. where got time to think so much... have been enjoying myself these few days... i told myself to start studying after national day... haha.... so must enjoy myself!!!
juz went clubbing at chinablack yday nite.. went there with dimas meiria renee and junel's 8 frenz.. 3 from japan one from malaysia 4 from sp one... i was telling them hey it looks like we are a group of multi-national. coz meiria is from indonesia.. haha... fun we had a great dance.... no doubt we didn't dance well but who cares as long as we enjoy!!! i perspire like nobody's business... my whole hair was wet... and when i dance the "perspiration droplets fly" around.. wahaha... so damn disgusting... my body was so bloody sticky.... haha... met quite a no of incidents... i was at the dance floor dancing, this guy suddenly hold my hands.... think its by mistake... he got the wrong person.. muhaha.. when he turned and looked at mi he gave mi a embarrassed smile and let go of his hands... i didn't really care and continue dancing... haha... dimas was worst... the guys trying to get funny with her.... dancing at her back doing funny things... but u think she care? she dun give a damn to these guys... haha... then i was toking on the phone with kelvin and i went to a corner beside the bar i was squating down facing the floor using the phone... i was wearing a tube and dunno wat the hack the guys trying to do?? they put ice on my back... damn it! it was cold lo... i gave them a pissed off look but they continue laughing... and then this guy juz come squating beside mi and when i was messaging he lean over trying to see wat i'm doing... wat the hack man!!! anyway worst i think this disgusting guys are malaysians.. suck it rite???
i really like junel's jap friend sandy... she is cute man.... but heard she went back to japan today... after clubbing i went down to entertainment to meet liting mingwei weiqiang jianhao jianwen ailun... erm... was rather tired... but again they were having their billard session... and mi and liting talk talk lo... we had supper also... reach hm ard 5 plus.... sooo damn tired......
Clubbing nite
i kept telling myself to put all the love matters aside and get on with my life.. with all my tests coming up.. where got time to think so much... have been enjoying myself these few days... i told myself to start studying after national day... haha.... so must enjoy myself!!!
juz went clubbing at chinablack yday nite.. went there with dimas meiria renee and junel's 8 frenz.. 3 from japan one from malaysia 4 from sp one... i was telling them hey it looks like we are a group of multi-national. coz meiria is from indonesia.. haha... fun we had a great dance.... no doubt we didn't dance well but who cares as long as we enjoy!!! i perspire like nobody's business... my whole hair was wet... and when i dance the "perspiration droplets fly" around.. wahaha... so damn disgusting... my body was so bloody sticky.... haha... met quite a no of incidents... i was at the dance floor dancing, this guy suddenly hold my hands.... think its by mistake... he got the wrong person.. muhaha.. when he turned and looked at mi he gave mi a embarrassed smile and let go of his hands... i didn't really care and continue dancing... haha... dimas was worst... the guys trying to get funny with her.... dancing at her back doing funny things... but u think she care? she dun give a damn to these guys... haha... then i was toking on the phone with kelvin and i went to a corner beside the bar i was squating down facing the floor using the phone... i was wearing a tube and dunno wat the hack the guys trying to do?? they put ice on my back... damn it! it was cold lo... i gave them a pissed off look but they continue laughing... and then this guy juz come squating beside mi and when i was messaging he lean over trying to see wat i'm doing... wat the hack man!!! anyway worst i think this disgusting guys are malaysians.. suck it rite???
i really like junel's jap friend sandy... she is cute man.... but heard she went back to japan today... after clubbing i went down to entertainment to meet liting mingwei weiqiang jianhao jianwen ailun... erm... was rather tired... but again they were having their billard session... and mi and liting talk talk lo... we had supper also... reach hm ard 5 plus.... sooo damn tired......
Love, Shandy.
3:44 PM
3:44 PM
Saturday, August 07, 2004
Things juz come together...
haiz... recently everything juz come together... love stress, study stress, work stress..... and its not for mi alone.. all my friends are feeling down now... wat happen??? is it really true tat a trend is coming?? friends relationship all got on rocks.... but i am glad some found new love and can see she is really happy.... when can i get over the cross junction of my relationship?? i dun wan to make any decision... i dun wan to hurt anyone.. but can i? i had a tok with kelvin yday... he is scaring mi... coz he did a lot of paranoid stuffs... it actually breaks my heart to see him doing all tat. i felt guilty.... but on the other hand i felt angry when he said i'm such a kind of girl. i know i'm a fucking bitch..... someone who hold 2 guys on.... i really dunno wat to do... seriously i wan neither now... gimme a break.... arhz....
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btw yesterday went to sentosa and then to city hall pacific coffee with yizhen.... we had a long talk... felt very relieve and felt better after this long tok.. we sat there for 6 hrs.. can u imagine how burning hot the seats are? sitting there for a long chat... while we saw a lot of pp...
pictures taken at the cath lab..
look at alvin's back.. its the technician's artistic decoration... haha.. but hey is tat his underwear?? haha...
pictures taken at the pacific coffee..
yizhen and mi (i look like some kind of zombie isn't it?), tan yizhen in thoughts, our drinks...
Things juz come together...
haiz... recently everything juz come together... love stress, study stress, work stress..... and its not for mi alone.. all my friends are feeling down now... wat happen??? is it really true tat a trend is coming?? friends relationship all got on rocks.... but i am glad some found new love and can see she is really happy.... when can i get over the cross junction of my relationship?? i dun wan to make any decision... i dun wan to hurt anyone.. but can i? i had a tok with kelvin yday... he is scaring mi... coz he did a lot of paranoid stuffs... it actually breaks my heart to see him doing all tat. i felt guilty.... but on the other hand i felt angry when he said i'm such a kind of girl. i know i'm a fucking bitch..... someone who hold 2 guys on.... i really dunno wat to do... seriously i wan neither now... gimme a break.... arhz....
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btw yesterday went to sentosa and then to city hall pacific coffee with yizhen.... we had a long talk... felt very relieve and felt better after this long tok.. we sat there for 6 hrs.. can u imagine how burning hot the seats are? sitting there for a long chat... while we saw a lot of pp...
pictures taken at the cath lab..
look at alvin's back.. its the technician's artistic decoration... haha.. but hey is tat his underwear?? haha...
pictures taken at the pacific coffee..
yizhen and mi (i look like some kind of zombie isn't it?), tan yizhen in thoughts, our drinks...
Love, Shandy.
10:56 AM
10:56 AM