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I raced and lost again...
I hate you and hate myself more...
I will not be nice anymore...
Coz no matter what i do the outcome is still the same even tou i wasn't expecting anything...
BWHZXNL

12th day

Update of ma life...

I am single for 6 months+ after 6 years. Bx and i did not work out still.

Left SI imb after 7.6 years. Now officially jobless ha taking a break.

Bff is slowly drifting out of my life. Somebody that i wish i could hold on to forever and not be a stranger is getting more "stranger" each day. haiz

Recently i know of a stranger at a Wine Shop. Really funny how we know each other at a small shop had Gin tonic there lol. Pretty funny as i know him more i realised the qiaoness we shared.

Life is good so far...i wish for better...
Better sales if not i going to eat grass..
Time to find some part time...

你无法叫醒一个装睡的人,
也无法感动一个不爱你的人。
世上不爱的理由有很多:
我很忙, 我很累, 我都是为你好。。。
而爱的表现只有一個, 就是想和你在一起 ♡

静静看着你

有一种旅行没有目的
有一种对话稍无声息
有一种等待不是等待
有一种曾经了无痕蹟
有一种眼泪淌在心底
有一种痛楚就像呼吸
有一种守候仅是守候
有一种故事没有结局

隔着远远冷冷的空气
静静看着你挂著
轻轻浅浅的笑意
兜著圈找不到那种距离
不是你就是我那些刻意
你手心的温度是犹豫

:)

http://thoughtcatalog.com/nicole-tarkoff/2015/10/10-signs-you-mightve-been-in-love-but-didnt-know-it/?utm_content=bufferf5980&utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook.com&utm_campaign=buffer

All these 10 signs I had for him & to the ppl I love & cherish. I always think I just need to be nice I do not need anything in return. Why ppl keep saying I fren zone him is the other way round ok.
But I'm contented being his shadow :)

So true

So true!

You’re worth someone who wants you to know how much they crave you.

when someone is interested in you they will absolutely make time for you, no matter what is going on in their lives.
You will know they care.
You will never have to wonder whether they are interested, even if you have some self-doubt from time-to-time, which is healthy.

http://thoughtcatalog.com/madison-moore/2015/06/read-this-if-youre-wondering-whether-hes-into-you/?utm_content=buffere9c49&utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook.com&utm_campaign=buffer

习惯

http://www.jimmyfans.com/3/70037/%E7%BF%92%E6%85%A3.html

To my BFF

看了很有感触! This is the reason why..

http://thoughtcatalog.com/mary-mcmahon/2015/06/why-you-cant-let-that-one-person-go-no-matter-how-hard-you-try/?utm_content=bufferf3a39&utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook.com&utm_campaign=buffer

My bdae

This year birthday was very touched by 6803! Compared to da bf who heckcare about everything.

He even made reservation for our buffet dinner at Park Royal beach road on 6 August. Really appreciate the sweet gesture, he is always so Xi Xin all these while. Nowadays if we out for dinner, we hardly drinks coz he wana make a point to send me back. So sweet.

We both reached home shocked! The same day i also passes him his bdae present. why shocked is so Qiao we both gota each other a watch lol! omg i really din expect anything from him. Felt so guilty, this year he prepared a bdae gift for me 感动！感恩！The last time he got me something was a pooh n a bag when I was 19! Haha! I still have the pooh with me :D

7 Aug my actual bdae I met him again coz he forgot to pass mi the cough syrup that he got. He ask me to try Chinese medicine coz I have been coughing more than a month. So nice of him!

8 Aug my bdae celebration with my colleagues at white bar! He came as a surprised guest I was shocked! Idol jiu shi idol always so sweet! 

First bike experience

Unexpected dinner today with 6803!
First time riding pillion with him haha!
Had Thai food at Siam society! Nice place food to us still ok only haha!
Happy April Fools Day!~

11 years n counting

Today was a short dinner. 6803 wanted grandma's but sadly closed down le.
Can see he was very sad n emo when he found out grandma's closed coz he have been having cravings for it. He looked really sad sia when I sad him outside grandma's old shop waiting for mi haha! Classic look.
Meet him at 8+ ended up we had dinner at Siam kitchen but not nice one.

He sent mi home after that..10pm I'm home! Haha very quick dinner! He drove lorry  first time n send mi back so glad his license is back.. Cheers to our 11 years of friendship...he is one guy that nv fail to brighten up my day! Really cherish this friendship!

Merlion

Yst was embarrassing first time I Merlion in front of my idol.

Yst their badminton team mates was at Toa payoh Safra beer alley celebrating for him he finally uplift his ban and to celebrate he passed his driving once again..

I was the only gal..initially din wana go coz abit extra.. I really can't drink on an empty stomach n drinking skill getting worst suddenly I just can't stop vomiting. First time he brought mi to the toilet..2nd time i puke again..His fren got to send mi home. This is the 2nd time he left me alone..kinda disappointed..coz was feeling helpless yet he wasn't around..

Heard he also quite there liao. But he said he went to look for a fren instead. His fren quarrel with the wife n wife nv go back so fren very angry n sad. He said he was sorry & felt paiseh. 

Tml I'm meeting him again coz he left without saying forgot to pass him his stuff. 

Tml mark the 11 years we known. :)

...

Been feeling very down these days. Got this 力不从心 for everything.
Nothing seems to excite mi, work, side line and relationship is kinda become stale.
There has been alot of changes at work i feel..things r different now n i feel like im in the outer circle
even tou the ppl in cc is getting smaller. I feel like a loner at work.. 

Suddenly i just feel like a loner..nobody understand mi i wants to speak to somebody yet i duno who.

Happiness is ... talking to a fren who makes you feel that everything's going to be ok
6803 falls in this type. Talking to him simply just makes my day :)

But recently i feel very distant with him too. i know he is busy just that we never update each other like how we used to baz. Only found out today that he got his license! he retook BTT, FTT and TP liao! Ou xiang jiu shi ou xiang amazing he passed everything so fast!!! Glad that he got his license back. He passed TP twice liao i still have not gotten my license. >.<  im such a failure haha. Act this is something that is incomplete in my life.  i should carry on right. i still rem the promise :p

真心在乎一个人是这样，
他难过是你和他一样难过。
他开心时，你比他更开心。
这样的人很难遇到，能遇上就很幸福。。。

No love isnt an emotion or even a noun. Its a verb. Better defined as giving. As putting someone else's needs above your own. :)