Hot and Cold

Have been procrastinating to write an entry here. Partly because am too tired to write cause i only go out of the office when the sun is no longer shining. Plus weekends is family outings and movie screenings. Its exhausting but life has to go on right?

Anyways, i have loads to write about but cant seem to figure out which one goes first. So if you find this entry like Rojak, finding it difficult to understand, either you comprehend or you could just click the X button on the top right hand corner of your screen. Hahah.

To a friend, what i can only say to you is that, we can only plan, but whether it happens or not, its up to Him. Yes you are hurt, disappointed so on and so forth, but life has to go on. Whatever that you are really going through, i have been through those stages before. You feel like you are alone in everything, you don't have the mood to do anything. You feel as if everybody doesn't understand you, as if they are all against you.
All it takes is time for all those wounds to heal. Its hard to forget but we only live once right? So lets just make the best out of it.

I've known you since we were in Poly, so its been almost 6 years, and the both of us has gone through alot in life. Still remember the first day when we panicked and got lost looking for the lecture hall. Will never forget that moment. Throughout those 3 years, i have seen how you've grown more confident and mature to a woman you are now. You are strong and i believe that you are able to go through this. Am here to give you support when you need it. :)

Anyways, i just hope that the trip that we are planning will work out. Itching to travel, so i guess this is the best time for both of us. I may not be the best travel partner that you can get, cause most ultimately i could be jet lagged which leads to me being more crankier. Whatever it is, its time to experience a different weather. So lets hope all goes well.

Have just finished watching the Apple Of My Eye, a very nice Taiwanese movie. It also reminds me of that certain someone whom i have been delaying to meet. Will never forget those secondary moments with you. Those extra classes, the basketball games and so on. All the I can say is that you'll always be the apple of my eye. :)

Anyways, here's my current play list addiction;



Meltz..



Till then
Signing out
Finny

PS: Loneliness doesn't mean you have to be with someone to get rid of it.

Raya-ing

Been falling sick this few days. Work has been pretty hectic. Its a Saturday night and am still checking my work mail. Currently am on a 4day leave. But i feel as if its not enough.

Anyways, raya this year has been a fruitful one. Basically, it is a teary raya, where certain families reunite after so long. Am glad i made the slow talk to the family. Time is precious, you never know when you leave, so just appreciate those around you. I received loads of hugs from the aunts. Maybe they are thankful for what I did, or am pretty much huggable. HAHA. Whatever it is, for whatever disputes that we had, family will always be there, as blood ties will never be broken.

And another thing about raya, its a time for asking for forgiveness and forgiving. Some are artificial and some are real. Only god knows. But whatever it is, I am asking for forgiveness for those i have wronged and at the same time, i have forgiven those who have wronged me. Forgiving is one thing, forgeting is another topic. HAHA.

Till then
Signing out
Finny

PS: Peace is all am searching now. :)

Seafood and running combo

Shall update for last week's event.

Saturday itself, had an impromptu Johor outing. Accompanied the mother. I have no single idea where we were heading to, plus i was the so called only "kid" in the van. Haha. The whole van consists of uncles and aunties. So when uncles and aunties get together, questions were aimed at me.

So the first question directed was, "what secondary level are you"? Do i look like a freaking 16 year old. Haha. Idk whether i should be sad or happy by that remark. Upon answering the question, they moved on to the next one. "Got boyfriend already, when getting married"? Well my only answer was to give my biggest smile ever. Haha. Then one of the aunties started her lecture. It started with.. Girl very good no BF. Nowadays all guys useless one. If you think you can handle yourself and be independent, then don't get married. If you can find the right one, the one who can listen and understand you emotionally, physically and financially, then you can get married. And the lectures go on. haha.

I think my ears got alot of wax after hearing their lectures. LOL. Anyways, reached the destination. And then i realised we were at the Johor Premium Outlets. Nothing much there cause I wasnt in the mood to shop. So then headed off to Angsana. Bought some kerepeks, and kurma for puasa. Thinking that this was the last trip and that we are heading back home, i dozed off in the van. When i woke up, we were at a seaside. And infront of it was a restaurant. The name of the place is Senibong i guess.
The seafood was okay not very fantastic. While eating, the mind was pretty occupied by how the heck was i going to run tomorrow. Confirm berat. The scenery was nice as it was by the sea. It was an awesome first experience. Wouldn't mind going back there again though. Reached home aroung 9++. Watched some TV and packed the marathon stuff and headed to bed.

The next morning........
Not a good sign at all. At 2Km, my ankle gave up on me. Severe cramp and i couldn't feel anything starting from the ankle to the feet. Gradually the cramping was gone and i continued the run. And i still couldn't believe it that i finished in 1 1/2 hours. I was planning for at least 2 hours to finish. So yea. Kudos to me. :)

Thanks to the Seafood galore at Senimbong the day before and the 3 hours of sleep plus the perangai ankle, its a miracle that i got to finish the race. Haha.

Am so looking forward for the events ahead.

Till Then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: I want a house at Sentosa Cove. Pretty please.. :)

Feelings Diagram

I don't know what to write, so i draw.. :) Its been a while since i created a diagram. Feelings are feelings, something that sometimes cannot be explained so, i have constructed this 2 scenarios for a very very brief meaning. :)

Scenario 1
 

Scenario 2

Anyways, its been a while since i seen and heard this video. And I just want to say thank you for everything. :)



Till then
Signing Out
Finny

Stuck thoughts...

Haven't had the mood to blog for awhile. Always the same reason again, have been pretty busy with family and work. Alhamdulilah everything is going well. Loads of of things happened. In summary these are the few things that i have done.

Lets see, I completed the 42km Night cycling event. First event through out my life but needlessly i did. Kudos to me. Yay! On another note, we never had breakfast outside, but we broke the record and ate breakfast at MacDonald's, followed by by the avengers movie with the family.

Have been procrastinating on blogging, so this happens. I have no idea what to write when so much things has happened.

Hmm, whatever it is, we, as his servants can only plan everything and HE is the one who decides whether it happens or not. We maybe heartbroken, distraught and disappointed, but HE has greater plans for us. Everything that happens, happens for a reason. With time, we gradually understand why certain things don't make out/happen to us.

Am glad I have stopped questioning myself why. :)

Changing the subject, this song has been on repeat mode, and i really love glee's version of it.


Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn

Till then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: :)

Owling

Been missing for awhile. Missed certain events, but what to do, family comes first.

Anyways, mum has been recuperating. Alhamdulilah. Have been busy with work too, currently parallel running two systems at once. Life has been hectic for the time being. I crave for a holiday though. Please come soon, so i can clear my head, not thinking about work.

Anyways, this may sound very late, but hope you will forgive me and apologies for not being there for the get together. Hmm. Again wishing you a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ASRI!! Wishing you all the best in everything, in love, life and career. XOxo Finny.

On another topic, i should be sleeping by now, but i guess am getting ready for tomorrow's night cycling event. The first time for me to be on night shift mode. So lets hope that i could make it and don't doze off while cycling. Lol, Ambitious but am all out for the experience only. :)

This song has been on replay mode though, okay am not a pedophile. Cheesy but i suka.



On a mature note, this song reminds me of banglas hanging on the phone, but the lyrics are a totally different thing. Meaningful.



Till then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: Its better to choose the less complicated path for now.

To those strangers whom I used to know

Basically when the saying goes, "I guess that this is the end of our relationship BUT we could still remain as friends".. Thats total BS.. hahs.. Loving the cover for this song.. Meaningful lyrics.. :)



You can get addicted to a certain kinda sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make it like it never happened and that we were nothing
I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough

No, you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
Guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

PS: :)

Single, Interesting?

Was browsing through the web when i bumped into this site. Interesting though. 101 reasons to stay single. Well basically the author who wrote this is currently engaged to be married, ironic but i wish them all the best in their future. And i managed to picked 10 of my most favorite reasons as to why its better to be single. Hah..


1) Being single and staying single isn't selfish. It should be seen as putting your happiness first (Where it should be.)

2) Say goodbye to heartache, dumping, and being dumped

3) You decide how long it takes to get ready.

4) A bad relationship is like a lingering knife wound- it continues to ruin your whole day.

5) The longer you wait, the better you know yourself, instead of someone else.

6) There are 6.5 Billion other fish in the sea. That's 6,500 x 1 million. Yeah.

7) There are a lot of lonely and violently psychopathic people out there.

8) It's easier to focus on your career and your dreams.

9) Suddenly, it's okay to look (and flirt).

10) The whole "old maid" thing is so last century.

If you readers would like to read up the other 91 reasons, feel free to visit the link below. :)

http://earlswynn.hubpages.com/hub/101-reasons-to-stay-single

Till then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: :)

The hundreth post but yet..

Oh, its my hundreth post today. Cant believe it that i have been blogging here for almost 3years. To my avid readers, thanks for continuing to support me by reading the entries. LOL.

Anyways, i dislike it when suddenly I feel so sad and depressed about nothing, as if I fathom that something bad would occur.

Oh dear..

Till then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: Sometimes i just dislike this sixth sense.

To a friend

Dearest friend,

We have been friends for quite some time. I have known you for almost 10 years. How time flies. We were the opposite of each other. You being the naughty and talkative one and as for me the quiet one. I don't know how fate works but am thankful that we were brought together. Where I could share everything with you. Am thankful for them. As the years passed, the distance between us grew apart. Me being busy with numbers and you with your responsibility.

I thank you for just being there for me at my most fragile state recently. You thought me to be very careful and not
be extremely naive with people and stuff. You're the only one that can layan my walking hobby.

Whatever it is I really miss you. Okay that sounds very cheesy but whatever lar.

Till then
Signing out
Finny

PS: There are reasons as to why I am like this. But I just hope that you're okay out there.

The Epic friendly match

Its been awhile that i played soccer, so when As asked me whether i would want to join the friendly match, i agreed spontaneously. The legs are also itchy to kick something.

Anyways, met up with my sayang at boon lay. While chasing for the bus, i slipped and twisted my ankle 45 degrees(basically i had a protractor to measure the angle) lol.Anyways, i had no where to hold, so i rested my hand on the bus for balance. And guess what, the bus driver happily honked at me. Oh wth.I quickly hopped and boarded the bus.

We reached early, so we macam faham trained for the match ar. When the opponents came, i was alerted by the "Minah-rep alarm". lol. When the game started i played as per normal, but then came this child minah who just kicked me in the shin. That's when my minah aggressive came out. Lol. Aper lagi, u start, i start ar. In the midst of the game, my shoe came flying out when i kicked the ball. Nasib never kena any body's head. Lol. Till today, am still figuring how the heck my shoe can come out. Lol.

In summary, i got a direct kick on the shin, stepped on my toe etc, but whatever it is all is worth it. At the end of the game, winning or losing doesn't matter cause i realise the mistakes that i have made and the area of improvement.

Points learned;
1) Find space
2) 2 person need not chase for the ball
3) Pass the ball as much as possible to avoid more running
4) Not to hesitate when the ball is with you, as the opponent can just kick it away
5) Tie your shoes very tightly
6) Bring duct tape to secure your shoes.

Till then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: A good warm up for the competition. I like. :)

Futsal buggers

Maybe am worried. Ok am very worried and anxious. Isn't it the same thing? Lol. Anyways, read up on some things about futsal that hopefully could mentally prepare me for the upcoming competition. I pray really hard that the past wont happen again.

Ok reading it is a totally different thing compared to when you are playing. But needlessly hopefully this helps.

Fitness
I really need to buck myself up.. Shoots.. My stamina is pretty bad.. Haiya.. More sprinting action I guess.

Ball control
Practice makes perfect right? Having the trouble to practice though.. Discipline yourself Finny. Hmm..

Communication
Basically the defender witness everything in the game, and i guess calling out for the ball works alot and improves the game. So lets scream for the ball girls. Cause the ball wont be passed to you if you just stay quiet. Lol.

Passing
I practically need a buddy to practice my passing.. Cause it totally shucks.. Any volunteers?

To read more visit the web at http://performance.fourfourtwo.com/technique/improve-your-five-a-side-with-futsal

Till then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: You can do it Finny. :) Like understanding only. Lol.

Updating and updated..

Have been gone for a while. Pretty busy. So here goes the updates.

Had the long holidays due to the CNY. And i badly wanted to go somewhere else. So the nearest trip was to Batam. Basically the weather there was hot and cold and as result i got sick after the trip. But all is worth it cause I got to play in the rain after so long and swim through the "flooded" roads. Lol. Screaming my heart out as the cars passed and splashed water towards me. Ok whatever it is, i was way too hyper for the trip. And by the way, that was the real me. I enjoyed myself and that was the most important thing.

Oh and not forgetting the tons of wedding invitations that i have been receiving. My best friend when i was Primary 3 remembered me when i dont remember her. Lol. Apologies cause my memory is really bad. Anyways, she's getting married this May. Am excited for her. Another friend got married in Feb. And i seriously can't remember him. But anyway, congrats! As a part time fortune teller, i foresee more weddings ahead. Its a wedding galore year!

Anyways, I thank Him everyday for letting me live another day. Alhamdulilah. Insyaallah I have the strength to prepare and start for the new journey.

Till then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: If fate brings us together, then it is fated we are to be together. :)

The beginning

It has been a great start for the year 2012. Spent the new year eve watching the kids play at the swimming pool. Okay don't look at me as if am a paedophile. LOL. There was bowling, but due to an old injury, couldn't force myself to play. Need to prepare for soccer comp in February. Oh and never in my 23 years of life, i counted down loudly for 2012 together with the aunts and uncles. We were beyond crazy, even bought "wine" which is equivalent to sparkling water and so called "toast" for the new year.

Its been a week of not using FB. Am getting used to it. Life without news feeds of people. LOL. Recently saw a FB post. It just saddens me to see you crying again and being depressed about whatever it is. I prayed for your happiness and hoped that you will never shed a tear after everything that has happened in the past. I may not be that important to you now and in the future, but i just feel so down seeing whatever you're going through. Again, i really hope that you would be okay sooner or later.

Whatever it is, i just wish that all have a good 2012. Things happen for a reason, whether it is a good or bad thing. You just have to swallow it whether you like or not. Oh yeah swallow. Lol.

Loads of upcoming events ahead.. Oh yeah.. One of it is.. Hint2 Boyband..

Till then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: :)