Breaking news! my nadal is withdrawing from the tournament because of tendonities in both his knees. although im utterly disappointed, i do understand that he is struggling to regain match fitness and wouldn't want to worsen the injury he is presently carrying. if federer wins wimbledon, he only has nadal to thank. please, don't let wimbledon be another farce like the French Open. i hope someone more deserving wins. guess, i won't be watching wimbledon this year. this leaves me with US open only. if nadal can regain fitness and play then, i would be very, very pleased. hope you get well, you adorable thing you.

you know its funny how ironic the world is becoming. actually, we all know values don't change but people do. since when were people so scared of feedback, especially when its meant to improve? well since they became people of power. the thing about power is that you are supposed to use it for the betterment of the people. but as always, its the laymen that have to tell the people in power how to do their jobs in the first place. when you don't do what you're entrusted to do in the first place, any form of feedback will be seen as a threat. and how do they react to such "threats?" They resort to protecting themselves by giving a host of hopeless excuses and blatantly, at that. this practice is on the ascendancy and is known infamously as "arse-covering." when the people your boss trusts to manage the job screw up, the boss looks bad. and when the boss looks bad, the boss loses face. and in order not to lose face, the boss protects their arse-lickers instead of demanding the best from them. this then develops into favouritism (undisguised btw). and so, begets this vicious cycle of covering each other's arses. maybe they like each other's arses so much that they cannot get enough of it. To think some people have the skewed view that you need to accept bribes in order to be branded as corrupted. its transpiring at places you lest expect...don't be fooled by the noble names of some insitutions especially those that pride themselves on having a conscience as one of their so-called flagship values. these are the very ones that have mastered corruption and moulded it into an artform. as for me, im tired of all this shit and though the old adage goes, "if you can't beat them, join them" i would rather let my dignity and integrity speak through actions rather than a shitloads of useless words and would rather stick to my side of the fence anytime, thank you.

i cannot mask my disappointment of the eventual winner. what a wimp soderling has emerged to be. i knew this would happen. he beat nadal and even gonzales. Yet, he succumbed like a man bitch to federer. i mean federer's tactics and style of play this tournament was evident for all to see. he was playing more drop-shots to kill off the points. and who hasn't heard of his service game prowess? soderling had to maintain his service game and evoke the same fortitude that allowed him to defeat his last two opponents before this game. but the fact is, he didn't. this proves he is nothing but a rotten swedish meatball who got lucky in this tournament. such a disgrace. he should not have even made it to the final. in the pre-match conference, it was evident from his comments that he had already thrown in the towel. federer wasn't at his best, he was just up against a pathetic opponent. soderling shit, was by far his easiest opponent in this entire tournament. things would have been different if gonzales was in the final or if nadal was fit to play this time. now federer thinks he is such a great player having won all four grand slams and having equalled sampras' record of 14 titles. it eats me. i hope nadal regains his fitness and plays in wimbledon to crush federer and his sore loser being once and for all. federer is such a bitch, always crying when he loses, taking away attention from the winner like what he did at this year's Australian Open. have you seen a real man cry this often? always trying to win sympathy with his "poor me" attitude. he can't even bring himself to say he lost to a much better opponent. always subtly arguing that he made mistakes to give the game to his opponent. He has forgotten how many dreams he himself has crushed throughout the years? and when he starts to lose, he cannot accept defeat graciously unlike nadal. and the stupid people vote for him as the most sporting tennis player. they must be more blind than dead bats. I am truly sick of his presence. its time for the changing of the old guards. so nadal, please make a speedy return and show everyone, who is the real pretender to the throne. you have taken defeats graciously so young into your career. you are also a passionate player but never once have i seen you slam your racket or cry like a baby when the going gets tough. for that alone, you deserve so much more respect. i love you nadal, you are the best and will be one of the greatest ever.

so exhausted but am up awake watching my nadal play in the monte-carlo masters, a tournament just before the French Grand Slam. he's as fit as ever and hot too. heard he has a girlfren and a long time one too. shucks, how come i never knew that. am occupied tomorrow and sunday. no respite for me this week:( bleah..so tiring...can't wait to sleep but yet don't want the day to end..wait it just did..its already saturday! entire body is so sticky accruing to the humidity. so annoying. makes me feel like i didn't bathe. awwww...my nadal showed sportsmanship by calling in a shot by his opponent that was ruled out. dat makes him ever hotter for me! btw, did i mention that the monte-carlo tennis stadium that they are playing at, overlooks the sea?...its so beautiful! i love the French Grand Slam coz its the most exciting and passionate event of the year owing to the atmosphere, the crowd, the clay court and the movement of the players. okies its time to go doze off..my head can't take it. will think of nadal before i sleep...hmm...

I still havent found my thumbdrive. i have stopped looking. keep thinking of the pictures i had lost. so many memories that i will not be able to capture anymore. i have stopped looking for it. no mood to do my work at all. been stalling on some of it for some time actually. in any case, ive got more white hair this year...think my stress levels are at an all-time high. how to manage? no choice i guess. so bloody humid. hate the freakin weather on top of everything else. wish i could take a long, long break and never have to sweat the small stuff sometimes. i need some freakin air man.

its so typical of the the "white people." wait for something to happen first and then react like u give a shit. how many more times are we gonna condone this? how many hawker centers in dis country are infected with complacent hygiene standards? and who is supposed to monitor these hawkers? how often do the health inspectors conduct their checks? they share a big part of the blame for what has happened! wat, u get big paychecks to come out and say ure disappointed and that this is unacceptable? surprise, surprise! u mean the people in this country already didnt know dat? govt monitoring and the standards of gd governance is seriously dwindling in a country that at every opportunity, prides itself on being world class! maybe gd standards of service are only reserved for F1 formula events or YoG! day-to-day service standards and the monitoring of such standards are only applicable when such incidents as the current one, erupts in your face. and you always respond like u do, "we will ensure that..." and suddenly a familiar campaign to improve hygiene standards floods the country and then the next day dies down. then this is followed by the all-too-familiar rotten smell of more slacking from "white people"...great job! use tax payers money to build these hawker centers, demolish them, upgrade them but you can't even do a proper quality control. we've been around for 40 over years rite? so stop saying we are clean and green. stop spreading the facade that we are world class and efficient when we are not! seriously! face up to the reality that one day, there will be people to question you and they sure won't wait for a scandal while you rest on your laurels of so-called gd administration. the real scandal is not the rojak, its a "poison" more treacherous and threatening. i pity those people affected by this...

someone stole my thumbdrive. i could have said i lost it but am ever so sure it was blatantly stolen by someone who is an adult from the organisation where i work. its unbelievable if u knew the truth about where i work. its too embarrassing for me to even utter it as i would be so consumed by shame and the irony that something as such could transpire at a place like this. its eating me to say the least. i lost everything i had ever saved in my thumbdrive. all my hard work. all my memories. all my personal information. and each day i live in fear and worry that my personal information could be used for someone else's gain. do i have any leads? guess wat? the bloody security cameras were not even working on that fateful day. only 2 persons had entered the venue that i had left. and only the two persons hold the answer to the question but both claimed they never saw a thing! and one even tried to suggest that there were other younger people who were near the venue. fact is, the other people did not enter the venue. and this was verified by the other person who was in the venue at the time i had left. i reported the matter to my superiors. its a lost cause really. and anyway, its my thumbdrive and so its my fault i guess. coz i left it on a day in which i was so bloody busy. u noe wat, maybe i left it there deliberately to tempt the thief coz i aint got nothing better to do. the impact of the lost is quite damaging i must add. how can i work in peace at my workplace? i am more paranoid about my valuables now. u would think that working in the place that i do, people would be honest and responsible to leave other people's property alone but no...i curse this person. i know that they have a family of their own. who know's what god has in store for them for the pain and injustice they have caused me. if there is justice, god will see to it that this person gets what's due for such a crime. and i won't be at peace until this day comes...i have lost my mood and happiness for now..people keep saying i must move on..yeah...like im 12 years old. though i do know that some of them mean well...but would they act on their own advice if this had happened to them? i seriously doubt it. i cant say more, every word that i type here is acute and the depth of my saddness knows no end at the moment. i know who you are...and though i have no way to prove it and no sincere support to help me prove it...u can't escape hell even though ure safe on earth..for now that is...may u rot in hell for your actions and lack of integrity!