LIFE

The disasters around the world may last over 2-4 months.

Disaster of fire will break out soon.

Tremors will either be next or before the fire.

Disaster of the wind is already starting.

The life on this planet will be disrupted.

Wonder when will the 5 guardians stop.

true

there was a time when i was young..

i was always rushing in the front lines
each time i was badly injured
i never gave up
i con't forward to reach you
no matter how painful, how resentful i am
how many times my heart aches
how many time i shed tears
because it's u
i tried harder for u
even if i never succeed
or even a short term victory
it used to worth dying for

but as times goes by,
each time my heart break into pieces,
i try to form it back again
but pieces of it
bit by bit is loss
never to be found
it was then time to return in defeat
hoping it rains
to hide a man's tears
a river to wash away any hope and regret left.... to be con't

Never let go

I have found a temporary vessel to integrate my heart in.
I will leech off its life force to prolong mine a little.
That would last maybe for a month or so and I shall look for another.
Wonder if there would be another golden cross that has awaken.
I will not be the guardian with the shortest life span.

I wish to go look for you and get things back together but I don't think I would want it again. Our personalities have a very crucial difference that pull us apart.

unforgivable

Baby.. I am very confused, I don't know what to do.
In fact my condition only got worse but never improve. I just don't want you to worry about me and slowly forget me. I don't want to see you being sad for me anymore. I cannot bring myself to keep being harsh to you as I will end up apologizing to you and explaining.

I really don't want to continue this anymore, I just want you to lead a normal life.

wandering

These few days, my condition is seriously unstable.

I can no longer breathe normally. My legs are also not moving the way they should be.
With my breathing problems, it becomes really hard to catch my breath.
I am also having asthma attacks and symptoms during my sleep every night for over a month already.
I am afraid that one day I could not wake up when an attack happen and that would be the day I would not wake up to see this world again.
There are still so many things that I need to do, so much things that I have not had a chance to say.
I am writing everything that I want to say on a notebook and hope it would clear things up.

Wish that every one will be happy. I love all my friends.

Not ready

Guess that I am not ready to face it. I still get the cold rush today. Happen to saw her twice.

why why why?

I want to go speak to her but I can't, afraid that I will irritate her again. Seeing her so happy with her friends, I am sort of relieved.

Now all that is left is to slowly hide my existence for now. Things are becoming more and more dangerous, she would be safe though since now she doesn't hold it anymore.

Best wishes..

trembling

I just got my heart back yesterday. I've never felt such cold rush before, it made me tremble for a long long period of time. She told me that she was happy when she saw me, I was really happy too.

I still did not manage to ask about her, I am worried about her wound, her condition and the situation she is in.

Yesterday was our important day but I have failed to hold us together and we fell a month before that day. I have always been looking forward to the day 21st of June and now it's the past, at least I get to see her on that day.

I don't know.

I am forcing myself to leave you alone and let all you thoughts be there and I don't want to make it clear or whatsoever. It would be better this way, this way you won't be sad anymore.

Hope nothing goes wrong this time. Think of me as anything you want but it alright. You will not be sad and forget about me.

unfulfilled

I just wanted to have a normal conversation with her but I don't think it's possible already.
I've missed the last chance and I am going, sooner than I thought.
Everything is fine I guess, wish her well for her school work and life.

Good bye my friends, it has been a great time being with you guys and thank you for giving me love =D

letting go

Since it was her final decision, I think I shall not continue hanging onto her already.

I told her not consider everything I tell her about my condition as crap and rubbish.
she will be safer this way too.

I feel so sad when I want to let go, guess I should stop worrying already. You can take care of herself now, there are still friends with her and keeping her company. To me you are the perfect person and I didn't cherish you, I don't deserve you anymore. I have hurt you too much. I won't be woo-ing you back.

For this 2 months you gave me, I am extremely grateful and I will live well and enjoy this time. Everything is fine now, I will not irritate you anymore. Slowly stepping out of your life.

I love you, my girl.

With tears.

missing

wondering around aimlessly.

I want to hug you so tightly like how we were before but I can't do it already.
I am still deeply in love with you, wondering if we can ever be together again.

I want to let go of you but I am afraid that you will get cheated and play with again. I don't wan you to get hurt from being cheated again. I may be wrong. But I will always stay by your side no matter what happen and will be with you whenever you need me. I am always a phone call away.

There is no way for me to know how you are from now on so I cannot protect you like how I use to. Recently I am just getting over jealous with the amount of contact you have with him but it is all alright already. I really miss all those time, I want to be with you till we are old.

I am too over protective and I know it, I should learn to not over worry too much. If I can live on normally, I am grateful to you and in your debt. Thank you for letting me live through the time of happiness.

With loves, always.