I got this really crazy idea... Hmmm... If I ever wanna go on stage and perform again, should do some fighting scene. Or wat i wanna see... For example, 1) Syaoran Vs Clone Syaoran 2) Cloud Vs Sephiroth [Woots!! I think Sephiroth will have a lot of problem with the hair. muahahah~ Enact either the final battle from the game or from AC] 3) er... haven't thought yet. hahaha
okie... i looked sleepy for sheryl. lol~
Wanna cosplay Final Fantasy!!! Ever since I've started cosplaying, I haven't do any FF characters yet.. Arghhh... Waiting for YJ. Will be doing Lenne with her. Feel like doing Rikku also~ Ahh~
To a certain person on FB, who doesn't know this blog anyway: Having a DSLR doesn't make you a pro. You have to learn. Just taking photos with a DSLR doesn't make the photo nice. Coz from the album that I saw, there's totally no focus in your photo. There's nothing from your photo. You're doing a night shoot which is not easy due to lighting but still can be extremely beautiful if you know how to manipulate them. So please, go and learn and listen to people when they are advising you.
Just wanna express something. Haha.
Arghh... Suddenly feel like turning into a photographer than a cosplayer. *bangs head against the wall*
I'm still looking for you.
Stupid me, went to do what system restore... the problem still exists and now my game cannot play... arghhh... need to uninstall it and reinstall again. it better be playable.
When i msged the tailor this morning to ask about the Ellis's costume, she told me to go and get it on Sunday. o.0 So i replied that I need it for Sat, and she called and I'll be going on Friday morning. ~_^"
Most probably going Textile Center later to get Ellis's buttons and chain. Coz I suddenly thought that I'm not very sure if spotlight has it. Haha~ Arghh.. but it's so far away... sobzz...
I'm still looking for you.
29.6.09 // 3:46 PM
Alright... Just received my Sheryl's costume. The top is loose!!~ Arghh... Around the chest area.
I think I don't really have the Sheryl's feel. Hmmm... Haven't made the mike yet, I realised... ARghhh...
Went to take the flu-prevention jab... Will have fever.. So now waiting only. ~_^"
I'm still looking for you.
28.6.09 // 10:06 PM
MUAHAHAHHA~
I'M BACK WITH RYL2!!~
Yes, that game I've been talking about. I'm playing it again~
Coz I couldn't remember my highest characters' account, I have to restart again. sobzz.. Chionged a sorcerer from lvl 1 to 47 today. muahahaha~
Going to take my flu-prevention jab tml. It's said that one will have fever after taking it... So ya... sobzz... My Sheryl's costume is still somewhere. Dunno where. Sighz...
Waiting for photos from Julia. It's totally not Sakura anymore, it's more of Isarandel trying to be Sakura. ~_^" The weather made me mood very very bad. So ya...
But anyways, I've decided to keep it as Cosfest still, since we can just hop into a shelter. Just need to dye my Sakura's wig... Hmmm... Maybe I should try the other dye. Hmmm....
I'm still looking for you.
27.6.09 // 11:13 PM
Details on what happened during the CCS shoot are on Neir's blog and I'm lazy to type them out so ya. HAha~
One fact is... it was damn damn hot. arghh....
I'm thinking of shifting that from Cosfest to Eoy or something like that. At least to an event where we'll have air-con through out. Partly coz it was super hot. Anything was that I don't really like the wig... Sighz... Maybe I should go and get copic marker and colour my TRC sakura's wig.
I like the style of my TRC sakura's wig much much better than this dark brown one which I managed to cut a few days before the shoot. ~_^"
Going to try out a game. So I'll end it here first. haha~
I'm still looking for you.
25.6.09 // 8:05 PM
Although women crash down all the time, a man who has crashed down finds it hard to climb back up.
Yes... Although us women have a lot of problems and often break down and everything, somehow we have gained the knowledge on how to deal with it. But men who always keep up their strong front... when they plunge down, most of them just stay down. Don't you agree with me?
I've stated in my previous previous post that Xiao Hei has gone on to a better world. My brother said he got no appetite. He said he very slow reaction these few days. Emotional strain. To me, it may seem very heartless or something, but I'm trying not to think too hard about it. I mean... Yes, we can drown in sadness for a while. But the world ain't gonna stop for you. No matter what you still have to move on.
You can say, cosplay is my escape. Haha~ But I feel that it's real. It is indeed my escape. I won't deny it.
So in short, I've been escaping reality since I cosplayed. HAhahahaha~ But ya, sometimes reality just slams into you hard and you have no choice but to get back to life. ~_^"
I'm still looking for you.
Boo!
Below are the upcoming cosplay plans (If nothing goes wrong):
Photoshoot 26/06/09 Card Captor Sakura Isar as Sakura Neir as Syaoran
Photoshoot 30/06/09 Macross Frontier Isar as Ranka Tsukihami as Sheryl Event TGX Day 1 04/07/09 Rune Factory Isar as Ellis W Neir as Ellis B Event TGX Day 2 05/07/09 Macross Frontier Isar as Sheryl Photoshoot 20/09/09 Macross Frontier Isar as Ranka Suki.luna as Sheryl Event EOY 26/12/09 Card Captor Sakura Isar as Sakura Neir as Syaoran Rest of the plans:
Macross Frontier (Ranka) Pokemon Gijinka (Lugia)
I'm still looking for you.
24.6.09 // 10:13 AM
Next time you all come to my house, you'll realise one less member of the family.
I just woke up to the news that Xiao Hei has passed away. It seems that she had gone off in the night. When my brother saw her this morning, her body was already hard. We are now finding a place so that we can bury her. She had been with us for around 6 years, i believe, since we bought them at around 2003, if I'm not wrong. It is considered long...
Rest in Peace, Xiao Hei.
I'm still looking for you.
23.6.09 // 2:31 PM
Below are the Pokemon Gijinka. Cute, aren't they?? Hahaha~ Below are the ones that I like. Keke~
Actually Clara and I decided to do Leafeon and Glaceon. But after seeing some, or rather one, cosplayer who did that, I really really don't like the costume. Coz Glaceon's costume looks like Suzumiya Haruhi's uniform...
Glaceon Leafeon
Jolteon Umbreon Espeon Plusle + Minun
Gastrodon
Latios Latias After thinking it through, I was thinking that since it's just the two of us. Why not we do some legendary pokemons instead? hahaha~ You wan try doing Latios and Latias? Though, I can't do Latios. Haha~ The armor thingy we can try using craft form.
Gastrodon looks cute. and it's definitely something we can wear out whenever we want. lol~
Still analysing... hmmm...
I'm still looking for you.
22.6.09 // 12:47 PM
Randoms
One purpose of living in this world is to be able to make an impact in someone's life.
Always, always... Whenever there's a huge drain in front of me, I'll retreat and take another path. I don't wanna risk anything. And becoz of that, I feel that I'm still living in my own world. I'm not outside enough.
Been playing Perfect World International. Hmm... Feel that I wasn't as sociable as I was when I played RYL that time.
Bought a webcam yesterday and a laptop cooler. Haha.
Dyeing my Sakura's wig... but the colour doesn't seem to be 'attached' to the wig... arghhh... noooooo..... Thinking of trying with normal hair dye. lol~~
I'm still looking for you.
21.6.09 // 7:36 PM
Ignore the bluriness and the act-cute... and the pimple. ~_^" This is a rushed make-up, coz i need to send them the pic, but it was cancelled. hahaha. ~_^" Hmm.... Should do a shoot for Ranka... When should I do it... Hmmm... And where... hahaha... And also... this was the wig i was trimming when i cut my finger... ~_^" that's why the right side is slightly longer, coz haven't finished trimming. ~_^"
If nothing goes wrong, CCS shoot should be on Friday. Haven't really found photogs though. Arghhh... Dear is tentative photog, still need to confirm with her.
I wanna do Final Fantasy!! Getting Noctis wig... Hmmm... It's only the weapon that is the main problem...
Actually feel like doing CCS Sakura's last battle version in the series. The yellow/white/red one. Tot of doing dothack also. But no one to do with. Dun wanna open a group on SGcafe, coz I feel that my passion might diminish. ~_^"
I'm still looking for you.
19.6.09 // 11:40 AM
Don't know what's up with me these days.
i get frustrated easily. i wanna go somewhere then suddenly dun feel like going. wanna stay at home yet wanna go out. i feel like i'm floating on the surface of my mind. where i'll slide to each side of a topic all of a sudden.
I'm sorry peeps. i guess i'm not in my right mind nowadays. pardon me pls.
I'm still looking for you.
17.6.09 // 3:40 PM
Was browsing through some cosplay skits on youtube and came across one that is super funny.
Am thinking of a short video of something like this. More of a skit. Hahaha~ I seriously wonder where they got the idea from. hahahah~
I'm still looking for you.
16.6.09 // 10:25 PM
I'M PISSED!! I DUNNO WHY... I THINK IT'S COZ THE THING IS COMING, THAT'S WHY I'M SO MOODY RIGHT NOW. AND I HATE PEOPLE TO CALL ME BY MY FULL NAME.
HELLO~~ YOU CAN JUST EXPRESS YOURSELF ANYTIME YOU WANT. SHOUT AND EXCLAIM ANYTIME YOU WANT. I'VE ALREADY TOLD YOU WHEN I WOULD BE FREE THIS WEEK. REMINDED U AGAIN YESTERDAY AND YET YOU HAVE TO KEEP ASKING ME FOR IT. MIS-CALLED ME TWICE AND SAID I'M DIFFICULT TO BE CONTACTED??!?!!?
HELLO!!~~ I'M SORRY, BUT I'M NOT 24/7 AT MY PHONE, ALRIGHT?!?!
ANOTHER... I EMAILED U ABOUT IT, U THREW IT BACK AT ME AND YOU STILL DARED TO SMS ME AND ASKED ME HOW WAS IT???
I'M PISSED!! I'M NOT IN A GOOD MOOD!! I WAS!! BUT NOW I'M NOT!!
SO PLEASE THINK!!! BEFORE YOU SMS ME OR ANYTHING!
At times like this.... it feels like I'm crashing down all by myself again. It is so difficult to blend in. So difficult to really open oneself up and enjoy. Suddenly it feels like we're people of different worlds. It's like i'm constantly in my own world...
This is bad.. I must have overused my energy.....
I need to blanko the mind again...
I'm still looking for you.
Currently I'm having this crazy idea of participating for AFA's competition as Ranka. Need to get a Sheryl and we'll lip-sync the Nyan Nyan service medley. Or I do Sheryl and get a Ranka. Since I got Sheryl's that costume liao. Kekekek~
I'm still looking for you.
Long day today.
Firstly, walked to tailor's house with Clara at about 2pm. Then she came over to my house. [Walked back to my house]
Around 4plus, we walked over to Pioneer MRT Station to get something from a guy there whom we ordered some items from. Then Clara went off, and I walked home.
Then dinner went out with Juan, FL and YT, coz Juan need to return to China urgently. Then went airport to send her off. Then catch train and just reached home.
Yay!!~ Gotten my Ranka's wig~ It's so nice~~ Ahhh~~ I think I prefer to do Ranka than Sheryl, though I haven't cos-ed yet. lol~
I'm still looking for you.
14.6.09 // 5:30 PM
Went Streetfest yesterday. It was a super humid day. Lucky I didn't cosplay.
For the Code Geass team, the shoot has been postponed to July which I won't be attending coz I'm not in SG. Went to Orichi's house today to deal with his wig and to discuss about it and finally decided on that.
Next up is most probably the CCS shoot. Need to do up the bear...
Need to do Sheryl's mike also... Hmmm.... Hopefully my ranka's wig will come really on monday or tuesday.
20th June, I'll be free, hopefully... Coz it's father's Day - week. Not sure when they'll be celebrating. Hahaha~
The CG group is having their practice at Cityhall... am thinking whether should go there and see see or not... Hmmm... But seriously I should do the mike first. Haha... Then dye Sakura's wig also...
I've walked so long I can't remember - where was my home? Their distant faces fade away I'm always on my own. I can show a smile It's not hard to do. I can have the strength to go on But sometimes I wanna let go of everything.
When thoughtfulness is not their game I teach by giving love. High mountain seems higher endlessly when they're pebbles at your feet. And if you should still fall into despair, there is one thing left to believe I lie in your heart always.
(Spoken) Nothing is braver than honesty My life is your faith in me.
I'll be there when you need you don't have to hide from me. What you are feeling now I fill your soul. We will seek together destiny troubles have an end. we'll carry on hand in hand you're not alone.
People searching desperately outside themselves caught up in thinking of whatever helped. And I'd forgotten too that love exists inside me as in those I wanted from I feel you now.
I'll be there when you need we will live together. Nothing is in our way with trust in our soul. We will seek together destiny troubles have an end. We will carry on hand in hand We won't forget we have each other.
Never!
Love is in the hearts of all men you're not alone.
Ahhh... This was the song I kept listening to during Secondary school times... Hmmm... I think it was Dear who intro-ed me to Escaflowne, right? This song is from there anyway. ^^
I'm still looking for you.
10.6.09 // 11:04 PM
I've been blogging and blogging and blogging since dunno when. Coz i'm seriously rotting at home. Sighz... Like a lot of things to do, yet like nothing to do also. Stay at home also dunno do what. Wan go out also dunno go where.
There's this filming thingy at Jurong Point which needs 30-50 cosplayers. Yes, Jurong Point. I'm still thinking if I should go. But seriously although they are paying $30 for 3 hours, I feel that it's no point. Not very keen to go actually. Coz if photos, i still can handle, if video, then can't liao. Coz my concealing skills not so good yet. it's on 1st july, 1pm to 4pm. So... see first la. Coz i'm free anyway... If Alison really wanna go, then I go with her loh.
Wanna have a mini-shoot for TRC Sakura, at Japanese Garden. Need to go and get the contact lens first. Sighz... Money going out again.
I'm still looking for you.
9.6.09 // 9:45 PM
I always say I wanna focus on one character only. But always end up doing so many... ~_^"
Well mostly is coz no partner...
Plans: - Ranka [Gonna do most of her casual ones first] - Sheryl [will slowly slowly get] - Chobits [still thinking] - Ellis [For events and PS, then... maybe sell?] - Sakura TRC [Thinking of doing other versions of her as well] - Sakura CCS [Pending... If can, then should be doing more versions of her] - Elwyn [Need to tailor it once i get back from europe] - Suzaku [After the KOR shoot with Rinya, will sell liao. Then last of Suzaku is most probably next year's NewType version]
Clamp has such beautiful and expensive costumes... sobzz...
Streetfest: - none... sadly saying...
TGX: - Ellis W [Haven't gotten quite a number of things, esp the white socks] - Sheryl [Hopefully the costume got here in time]
Cosfest: - Sakura [Need to get the socks and shoes]
Sept Event: - er... ranka maybe?
AFA: - Ranka [Thinking of cosing her for one of the days] - *Syaoran [Initial plan. Might cancel. not sure yet.]
EOY: - Sakura
I'm still looking for you.
No cosplaying for me this saturday. Although I really really really feel like cosplaying.
Went to tailor to tailor my Ranka's costumes. Told her that i need it for September. Hmmm...
Went to try the sakura's dress. Though it's only the red outer one, love it~
I'm still looking for you.
7.6.09 // 9:41 PM
Hmmm... Tml will be going to school to hand in the FYP form, which was supposed to be handed in on friday but was postponed. Then I'll be going over to Bugis.
Tuesday, I'll be going over to the tailor.
Wednesday, I think i got dinner with a few friends at IMM.
Thursday, hopefully #15 is here and i can go get it on this day.
Friday, IT fair. Need to msg julia about it again.
Saturday, Streetfest. Going over to meet Rinya for the Enma Ai's costume. Meet Sochii for the black wig. Then meet the CG ppl for a while. Then meet Suki.luna and Zermine/Krisage.
I'm still looking for you.
Although I'm still doing what I really like (Cosplaying), I feel that there's something missing. I wanna have someone to cosplay with. Like... constantly or most of the cosplays together.
So I'll be doing MF with suki.luna, but because her mom doesn't like it, she's retiring also.. Sighz.... It's no fun cosplaying by urself. I dunno la... it's like... i'm in my own world like tt. then it feels a bit 'out'. And sometimes i dunno what to talk about also. coz everything that comes out of my mouth is about cosplay, cosplay and cosplay. Then i also very reluctant to meet sgcafe ppl during outings. coz I cannot handle big groups of ppl. i'll feel like they have zapped all my energy away.
I'm still looking for you.
6.6.09 // 11:04 PM
My sheryl nome's lion op costume will only be able to come end of june. My other costumes will only be ready next week. But... I wan PS!!!
Next week is Streetfest. I most probably will not be cosplaying. If I cosplay.... I can do... - TRC Sakura - Suzaku Casual [Need to borrow wig though.]
But if cosplay need to bring a lot of stupid stuff.... arghhh wanna cosplay, but scare troublesome. sighz...
I'm still looking for you.
4.6.09 // 11:14 PM
It is times like this that... I realised once again that not everyone can understand why people cosplay. That not everyone can accept cosplaying as a part of life. It was another tight slap to me... But it's fine. Since now I get to know the people better. I'm a bit emotional right now as well... Thus this... But when people keep picking on sensitive things to 'poke' into, it is very irritating... Thus I'm removing most of the cosplay photos away from FB. Not everyone can understand why we are doing certain things. I truly don't blame them. No, they didn't say anything bad about my cosplay or anything. But they have to pick on things inside the photo... like saying "the panties are just behind" when it's just clothes. and no matter what i say, they still wanna say it's panties. This is really the first time that I just shut them out. I immediately removed that photo, with most of the others as well. I feel that there's no point putting things up and i have to suffer for it. It's my choice to put them up, meaning it's my choice to suffer, it's my feelings that got irritated. Since it's my choice, I'll choose to take them down and stop this once and for all. I seriously dunno what i've written up there, coz i'm lazy and pissed off to read it thru again. maybe when i'm not calm down, i'll read thru and laugh. but currently, i'm quite irritated. somemore i need to hand in my FYP proposal tml. And I got nothing right now to put in.
I'm still looking for you.
Today's... oops... i meant yesterday's paper was great!! I finished it in 1 hour and 15 minutes. Muahahahah!! it was the best paper that i've done. knew everything so just throw everything in. the most i'll give him back 8-9 marks. kekekeke~
oh well so... exams are over... need to come out with the project title. then should be able to really slack around liao. hahahha~
I'm still looking for you.
3.6.09 // 1:15 AM
In fifteen hours from now, I'll be seated in the examination room, waiting for my final paper to start. And in seventeen hours from now, I'll be coming out of the examination room, maintaining calmness, but within the heart, I'm already jumping with joy.
But~ I still have to quickly come out with the title for my final year project. Arghhh....
Saturday: - Meeting Suki.luna at somerset mrt at 2pm to discuss about MF shoot
I'm still looking for you.
2.6.09 // 1:24 AM
Costumes need to tailor: - Syaoran's goggles' costume - Elwyn's Costume - Ranka's Casual - *Ranka's Uniform
Arghh~~ Suddenly feel like cosing Chobits again... sobzz...
Costumes on the way: - Sheryl's Lion Op - Ellis W - Ellis B - Suzaku's Pilotsuit - Sakura 'lolita'
Leafeon
Jolteon
Umbreon
Espeon
Plusle + Minun
Latios
Latias
