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Dreamer's Voice

Slow and Steady.
Slow and Steady.

The Dreamer

Isarandel // Hazel
Cosplayer
1st September Dragon Baby


Dreamer's Life

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- PS - Momohime (Muramasa)
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31.3.09 // 8:02 PM

Male / Female Couples:
- Make love with each other
- Make babies
- Making out
- Hold hands, kiss, hug

Same Sex Couples:
- Make love with each other
- Have babies (Adoption or medical.)
- Making out
- Hold hands, kiss, hug

Hmmm... Seriously I dunno what's the difference between these two. I mean, if you love that person, it means you love that person. What else has to be there?

Male and female coupling
- Because that is what has been passed down from ages ago.
- To produce heirs/offsprings, right?
- Because that is what's written down in the book that it is what we are supposed to be doing.

Same sex couples don't love each other lesser. Just that many times they hesitate because of laws from the countries, because of disapproval from people around them. Just because they have to please someone else, they have to let go of their love? WTH??
Hello!!~~ Does loving someone makes them less human? Makes them lesser than you?
"Oh no, you're just confused." "When you meet the rightful one, you'll know."
Ugh... I hate hearing that or even reading that from articles.
Shouldn't you be glad that at least your child has the ability to love someone?

Spare a thought for your child, your friend or even your sibling. Don't they look happy when they are with that certain person they love?

Sighz... Just a little something I wanna say. Still have more to add, but lazy la. haha. Coz it's really frustrating to keep this inside.



I'm still looking for you.


29.3.09 // 1:08 PM

I feel refresh when I woke up this morning, at 10:30am though.
1. I slept for 8 and a half hours, coz I slept at 2am.
2. I was alone at home, coz the rest of my family went shao mu, and this year better for me not to go.
3. I didn't get woken up by cries.

So since I woke up so refreshed, I decided to make breakfast for myself, partly coz no one's at home. I made omelet with tuna and cheese(which I only remembered halfway thru cooking that there's cheese at home.)

Oh yes, all through that, I was reformatting my computer as well. So now it's new again~ Muahahah~
Yes, I can say I feel much better today. Was even tidying up my room a little. ~_^"



I'm still looking for you.


28.3.09 // 10:31 PM

Am now transferring and compressing files into my thumbdrive.
It's time to reformat the computer again.

A lot of problems. So have to reformat. Hopefully it'll make me feel better also.

Our Rune Factory cosplay~
Hopefully it'll be the first in SG.

I wanna clear my costumes and wigs away!!
Feel like putting them on cosplay.com but i dunno whether i should keep it within SG or allow shipping over to other countries. Coz I also not sure about shipment to other countries. And payment wise also... Hmmm... I'm stupid at these type of things... sobzz..



I'm still looking for you.


27.3.09 // 9:44 PM

Remember those times when I'll just burst out laughing for no reason? Then I'll continue on for an hour or so? Just going haywire and hyper? And keep laughing at any small matter?
Well... I don't get that feeling anymore.

Sometimes when I'm too stressed up, I'll cry at night. Pushing all the tears out so that I'll feel better and able to start again.
But... I don't feel that anymore.

Everyday comes and goes. I don't know what I'm doing. Simply existing and not living.
I eat when I'm supposed to eat. I drink when I'm supposed to drink. I bathe when I'm supposed to bathe. I go to school when I'm supposed to go. I sleep when I'm supposed to sleep.
Yet... I feel that something is missing.

It's like... you're hanging by a rope, but you neither want to pull up or let go. It's like you are left hanging there. And yes, I think that's what I'm feeling.
Left hanging.
What is it that I want to do? What is it that I need to do?
I need to study hard, need to get good grades. For now, it is like that. However, my heart isn't working. My limbs are not cooperating.
I seriously do not know what I am doing anymore.

It's like I completely heck care of everything.

I guess partly is due to...
Emberlynn crying her lungs out when I'm about to sleep.
Emberlynn crying her lungs out in the morning when I'm still asleep.
Then Damien crying his lungs out in the afternoon.

I have many hours of sleep. Supposed to be able to have. But I'm always woken up in the morning 8plus by emberlynn's cries. Or our whole family will be woken up by her in the middle of the night becoz of her cries. '

My friend said I really can endure. But seriously what can I do? Move out? That only solves my problem, not her problem of crying.

I don't know why...
But I'm very halfhearted these few months...

And my aunty hasn't been here for 3? 4 months?



I'm still looking for you.


25.3.09 // 12:46 PM

there are a lot of things to be done. but i dun have the mood to do them. ever since this semester starts with all the courseworks given, i feel that my mind is in a hurricane. i want to sit down and get some things done. but my discipline isn't there. and it's frustrating.

I dunno what i'm doing anymore...

wanna cosplay, but sometimes feel lazy to do all the make-up and everything...

it's like i've just lost my goal in life.
sighz...



I'm still looking for you.


22.3.09 // 9:39 PM

The friday that has just passed...
FL and I went over to a friend's house at East Coast there to discuss our overseas trip, coz we got a BBQ after that also.
Before we went over to the BBQ there, he drove us around to see some rich 'houses'. For goodness sake, they don't look like houses loh. They look more like country club loh. With fountain in the middle somemore...
There is a house near his which rears flamingos. Yes. That pink flamingo. Can you believe it?? 6 of them somemore. With some other birds also and a lot of parrots. Apparently a bird-lover.

I realise I'm just taking each day by each day. It's like I'm not preparing myself for the future.

Crapz... I still wanna cosplay Ritsuka, the red colour version. sobzz...
I wanna have a yaoi shoot. ~_^"



I'm still looking for you.


17.3.09 // 11:48 AM

Argh... boobless mikan... sobzz... lol~
it makes me wanna rethink about Maya liao... Hmmm...

Angel Sanc has been pushed back to 2010. Meaning, I'm currently totally planless this year. Lol~

Anyway, I'm not going to put in anymore new male characters liao. Unless he's cute~ lol~

Male Characters left:
- Setsuna
- Syaoran
- Suzaku
(ehh.... all the "S"s. haha~ )

Female Characters:
- Sakura
- Elwyn
- *Tomo (Zaregoto)

July plans:
- Sakura
- Syaoran

Maybe I'll just chiong Tsubasa this year? lol~



I'm still looking for you.


16.3.09 // 5:44 PM

I realised I've been having a lot of typo errors these days... ~_^"

I know i've been saying this for very long time but...
I'LL REALLY TIDY UP MY ROOM!!!
Next week... ~_^"
Apparently I dun have the energy to do anything at home during weekends.

I'm quite happy with my Mikan, other than the fact that I didn't pose very well. Haha~

Thinking of having my Sakura's shoot on 27th March.... But 28th March got shoot as well... arghh....



I'm still looking for you.


15.3.09 // 10:28 AM

Down with Air Gear shoot yesterday. My expressions are so stern. Arghh... Could be coz I was trying not to roll down the slope ba. It's quite a success, I would say. Need to train up my expressions.

Me 4-weeks vacation is coming. Not really a vacation, coz need to join coursework and everything else.



I'm still looking for you.


12.3.09 // 11:18 PM

Preparing for cosplay event or cosplay photoshoot is frustrating, isn't it?
I know...
But I'm not really the one who organised this. It's actually Usagi-san. And he has been waiting to shoot air gear.

These few days, I always wake up with my body feeling very very tired. Aching slightly also. Dunno why. When I'm in school also a bit listless.

I need a place to study by myself or with my friend. Any recommendations?



I'm still looking for you.


9.3.09 // 10:23 PM

Question: What do you call a Goldfish that has gone bankrupt?
Answer: Fish. Coz no more gold le. (Kekekek~)

Handed up part 1 of one assignment today.
Need to chiong another one tml. After that, chiong another one also. Hopefully can get it down by this week.

Finished watching Ghost Hunt yesterday. Very nice series. It's the first anime that has me covering my eyes as I watched. lol~
Ya, it can be very suspenseful at times. Horrifying at times, and funny at times as well. A really nice show.



I'm still looking for you.


7.3.09 // 9:11 PM

When dear tagged on my taggie and said that she's bored. She wants me to update. lol~

So here goes:

Busy with assignments.
Sometimes when people are busy, they tend to forget that other people are busy as well. Oh well, I don't blame them. Coz I feel that way as well.

Two reports to be handed in on Monday. Both are just half done. One of the report is only part 1 needed to be handed in. 2 more parts to go.

7 assignments on hand. 2 more coming. Due dates are all around end of March to end of April.
Other than the assignments, still need to revise all the things that we have been lectured on.
I think there's a strict need to stay in school after lessons to revise already. *goes and plan the schedule*

Shoot on coming Saturday. Actually still got quite a few things haven't gotten yet. Going to get them on one of the days on coming week.

Sakura's photoshoot~~ Hopefully it won't rain on the day of the shoot. Though I haven't decided on the day yet. Slight drizzle is nice~ but not pouring. HAha~

Eto.... Let's end this with something special...

What do you call a Goldfish that has gone bankrupt?



I'm still looking for you.


5.3.09 // 8:56 PM

I wanna have a Sakura photoshoot liao. Die die wanna have. lol~
coz someone had it and posted it on sgcafe, so i'm tempted to do mine as well...
I'm thinking of a Friday during my vacation.
Dear, will you be my photog?? ^^
Should I get a syaoran as well? OR I just do a solo one? Hmmm~

One of my assignments is going to be completed tml. Muahahahahha!!!



I'm still looking for you.


4.3.09 // 9:54 PM

As you can see, it's a change of blogskin!! I wanted something lively, so here it is. Haha~

I'm starting to feel that the class is now getting separated again.
It's like, during the first sem, they were just testing around. After the results came out, after they have known who are the better ones, many of them suddenly became very competitive.
Immediately walls are built up around them.

I don't know... But I feel quite disappointed... Like I've been stabbed at the back. Suddenly everyone just turns away from each other. Sighz....
I told FL about it and we talked to a few classmates whom we are still quite close to and realise many of them felt the same. Like the class suddenly dislike each other like that...

Cosplay
For cosfest, I think I'll do Tsubasa Sakura for one of the days.
I'm still thinking if I should do maya for event or not... Coz actually I've already got all her things, except for the katana, that is...



I'm still looking for you.


1.3.09 // 10:25 PM

Hmmm... seriously should switch back to female characters liao.

If I manage to dye my tsubasa sakura's wig to a brownish colour, i'll consider doing CCS sakura.
Doing CCS sakura means - have to make the 'staff', have to make kero-chan and have to get the cards... ~_^"

So for cosfest this year, I'm going to do female characters... Hmmm....
Who can I do....
Thinking of doing Sakura? Maybe CCS first day, tsubasa 2nd day. lol~
Shall see how much the costume is... hmmm....



I'm still looking for you.