Happy Birthday, Dear~
*muacks*
It seems that although i kept saying i'm stressed, i'm still blogging. Well, currently i dun really care if there's any new updates from the tagboard. I'll just write whatever i want. Haha~ But of course, if there's any taggies, i'll be super happy. ^^
Anyway, showed my friend a poem of mine. After reading thru, she corrected my "he" to a "she", but i told her that it is meant to be a "he". And she looked at me with a weird face. haha~
I dunno how many of you read that poem or even know which one i'm talking about, but the "he" is definitely not a typo error. It is meant to be that.
The weather hasn't been good nowadays. Take better care of your bodies. Drink more water. Don't go out into the rain. And the sun during the 12nn-2pm timing.
And ya, i need to focus back to studies. haha~
I'm still looking for you.
was bored last night, so i drew that. it looks way better on the sketchbook. lol~ but i totally sucks at those shirt wrinkles. arghh... and the person on the right looks weird from my drawing...
anyway, after so long of not drawing, u'll have to excuse me for my ugly drawings...
not supposed to be bored though, since i have so many things to do. but... totally no mood for it.
And also, like i said in my previous entry about the discussion with Usagi-san. When i told him that we'll end up doing it in Nov even after a few nights of discussion, he kind of exploded on me. ya, but i dun blame him. it's my bad. I shouldn't have asked him first, until everything is settled. so i've just learnt another lesson. anyhow, he did apologise after that, saying that he got some upsetting stuff also, thus he exploded.
when i stayed back in school to study last few days, i totally couldn't get any information into my head. it's killing me.
I need to calm myself and reorganised myself again. I think the reason why i can't absorb the information is because i'm stressing myself. and when i'm stressing myself, my mind is in a chaos. thus it has totally no place for information. arghh... stupid, stupid.
Cosplay:Was supposed to take my costume on friday. then it changed to today, then it changed to monday. so my costumes are not with me yet. Azuku, from sgcafe, is actually QiuLian's sister, can you believe it?? you know that choir junior, Qiu Lian??? I didn't even know until she told me. Anyway, Azuku wans me to cosplay Misaki with her while she cosplays as Usami for a small Junjou Romantica photoshoot. So currently, i'm looking for a plain white hooded sweater.
I'm still looking for you.
Now i feel so bad... After spending a few days of discussing with Usagi-san abt the AG shoot, i ended up cancelling it with him.
The shoot shall be in Nov and thus, it'll be without him since he's not free during Nov.
Sighz... when i'm starting to feel stress, i'll start to ask a lot of questions for details and everything. Coz i think i started to feel insecure thus all the weird questions. and i think i'm starting to ramble... oh well...
根本完全不能再混日子了。
I'm still looking for you.
Well, as you can see, i'm still blogging almost everyday. Coz I'm still not in the schooling mood yet, which is super bad. Coz i can feel the stress, but i'm still not getting my motor started.... Slack for too long already. Arghh...
I need to drill myself into study mood again soon, if not, i'll die badly. very badly.
Today already third day... the lectures went just like tt. and after it all, i was there with a big question mark above my head. HUH??
I seriously couldn't process anything. arghhh...
And when i dun understand, i dun have questions. coz i dunno what to ask.
*bangs head against the wall* *bang bang bang*
I should go and get a table for studies. Just simple table, like the ones we use in secondary school. I need something school-like for me to be able to study.
Today's third day, and i felt sleepy during lecture already. die....
I'm still looking for you.
Scary... lectures are really just lectures. everything have to be done by ourselves. ugh... and i'm lazy, seriously.
When i was looking through some of my stuff for past year's lecture notes, i came across this poem written in chinese. It was actually for an assignment in secondary school. So i read this chinese book and wrote the poem...
这四面墙的房间，
是我亲手建造的。
这个小小的洞口，
是我加以配上的。
外面的世界这么大，
大到心里好害怕。
外面的危险这么多，
多到怎么躲也躲不了。连续几天收到的这些信，信上写着诗，如要对我告白。
可是，我无法回应你。这里什么都没有。
只是漆黑的一片。几天后，你又来了。
这次开口说话了。
你对我的告白，
使我想狠狠地对你说，“你根本不了解，又怎么能说喜欢呢？”
你却在我回应前走开。
你的话刺痛了我的心。
这房间的洞口好像变大了。一天一天地过去了。
我把事实告诉了你，
你一句话也不说便离开了。我不怪你。
从没怪你。
因为。。。
那个洞是我忽略的，
只能怪我自己把它建了起来，
才会把你拖下水。
全都是我的错。
这房间根本就没有们。
也不需要任何一个。这个洞口，我会补回。
因为就算开了门，
这种感觉，
你不会懂。-END-
After writing it again, with a tiny bit of editing, i realise there's no head no tail. ~_^"
Then i also found some sketches. This was the one where i was trying to draw some expressions into the eyes. It's a i-draw-with-reference pic. ~_^" one eye big, one eye small. ~_^" ugly hand as well. oh well, just focus on the eyes. ~_^"
I'm still looking for you.
First day of school...
- realised that i need to revise back on the maths, esp integration.
- hate the classroom. it sucks. they didn't even let us use the newly renovated rooms.
- realised tt there are a lot of things that i do not know. and time is limited...
- My tutor is cute. lol~ i was quite in a high mood today in school.
After that went to watch Mamma Mia...
- super nice~ totally love all the singing and dancing~
- the thing i love about this type of films, whereby there's singing and dancing(sorta like a musical), is that they just let loose their voice and just sing to their hearts' content. It has a very shiok feeling.
- I am sooo totally gonna buy their OST.
- It's not just the songs and dances that are nice. the plot is nice as well. it's very touching actually. of course every woman likes to have something extraordinary about their lovelife and all.
Life...
Many times in life, i do things because i feel that i am supposed to do it. Many times, i seriously do not know what i'm looking for, for myself in my life.
I think i'm losing myself again...
or maybe, i nv did get myself back...
I'm still looking for you.
Sighz... too bad for my photo, there's distraction. it's the view of outside. sobz...
Anyway, school is starting soon.
Cosplay:I'm having several photoshoots that are coming up.
KKM Photoshoot [Yuuri & Wolfram]
- 12th October
Lamento Photoshoot [Konoe & Rai]
- Not confirmed yet.
DOLLS Photoshoot [Currently Usaki & 2nd Division leader. Looking for more ppl.]
- Not sure yet.
Gundam Wing Photoshoot [Still lacking a Trowa]
- Not sure whether CK and Kenneth can make it or not.
- We have a Relena though.
- And i most probably will be doing the below version.
I'm still looking for you.
Gotten my timetable already. Although it looks like it's quite free, i think it'll not be tt free.
Classes start at 9am, earliest. Ends at 4pm, latest.
It is said that we need 120 credits to pass the year. And the chair director said that 10 credits = 100hours of study. Wahhh~
1 semester = 3 months
in 3 months time, we'll need to do 600 hours of studying. arghhh....
Have to chiong liao. Sorry if i'm unable to meet up for gatherings and such.
Cosplay:
I think that by the time school starts, which is next week, i'll not really have time for small events liao. Maybe I should just concentrate on Cosfest and EOY.
After looking at the plan for next year's trip, I think next year's cosfest, i'll still be able to attend. muahahaha~
I think I'm not going to make anymore costumes, other than the ones that i've decided to cosplay. Coz i still have some costumes that i haven't used yet.
Costumes(Either already planned ones or making ones):
- Yuuri
- Meroko
- Mikan
- Usaki
- Uranus
- Ran
- Maya
- Okita Souji
I kept thinking of cosplaying Vampire Knights. Arghh... Maybe coz i didn't manage to really cosplay them before. Oh well, watever. lol~
Cloud and Saya, i'll be doing. Coz i already has their weapons already. Cloud i'll most probably do his KH version.
I wanna have a Dollfie!!! sobzzz~
If i ever get proposed, i'll want a Dollfie instead of a diamond ring. muahahaha~ lol~
I'm still looking for you.
Coscon this sat!!
Should i cosplay or go in lolita or go in casual or just not go at all?
Lessons haven't started but my friends and i are slightly panicking already. ~_^"
Uni life is so so going to be different. It's like they just throw you into the water and you're to learn to swim on your own.
Anyway, the Ez-link card is still with a big Ngee Ann logo.
But we have two student cards. Kekeke~
One is Ngee Ann student card, the other is Newcastle University, Singapore student card.
I'm still looking for you.
Went for the first day of induction. It's a new feeling, but a bit scary. lol~
Anyway, need to really work hard already. Cannot just flow thru the day like usual liao.
So my plan is that, since the weekdays are studying. either sat or sun, i'll have to go somewhere to revise the week's stuff.
One more important thing!!
I might not be able to go for Cosfest next year, coz i might be at UK during tt period of time. It's said that it's ard our summer vacation, so it's around end of june to august.
I'm still looking for you.
I have to say, although we didn't do much last night. I had a lot of fun.
I think it's only when all of us are together, can I let loose of everything.
Actually the last few days, I've been feeling slightly frustrated at things.
And yesterday, it gave me a chance to forget everything and just get hyper.
Sorry for being so loud last night though. I was like practically just shouting and laughing away. ~_^"
I'm still looking for you.
Been feeling easily frustrated these few days.
Hate being a middle person... sighz....
I'm still looking for you.
I'm so prone to slipping nowadays.
Yes, that day i slipped on a puddle of water. Just now i slipped on water again in the bathroom, this time, i fell. ugh... What's up with me these days???
I'm still looking for you.
Today on my way to the tailor's house, I slipped on a puddle of water. Luckily i didn't fall. But now my feet got one small swollen part. ~_^"
Now need to start preparing for photoshoots. Lamento and KKM. Tenjo Tenge one, I think first. Need to whiten first. ~_^"
Anyway for Maya's shoot, I think I'm going to only allow female photographers. Coz the costume is easily exposable, esp the top.
un.... preview? ~_^" Somehow i think i looked fat there... arghh... partly maybe coz Maya doesn't do tt pose. Wahhh... Challenging, challenging.
Anyway now the most important thing is to whiten, whiten and whiten!!
Feel like buying this japanese foundation and loose powder. IT's real white!! And it doesn't make the skin looks sickly white. It's like very fair~ But the foundation itself costs $40+. sobzz...
The wig is a silver white one - 115cm. I've spent lots of money on her wig.
The first one came too short and too dark. The second one came just the length i want, but colour was wrong.
I'm still looking for you.
NINJA YEAR-END CHALETDate: Unconfirmed. [But will be after EOY(13th Dec), before Christmas(25th Dec).]
Duration: 3D2N
Staying Over: $50
Coming Over: No need to pay. But at least bring something along.
Note: We're most possibly getting ALOHA. Thus if there are more people agreeing to stayover, we can try to lower the cost. But it may also stay as $50, because we still need to buy food and stuff.
I'm still looking for you.
Just cancelled away all my 2010 plans and suddenly kena koped liao. ~_^"
Sukisyo Team for cosfest 2010.
Doing Ran, the pink hair one. Yes, and the blue haired one is Yoru, cosplaying by Sochii.
The worst thing is... i need to be fairer than her and she refuses to go tan herself. sobz...
need to lose all the fats in my arms.
one and a half year to do tt.
I'm still looking for you.
Maybe we should have a pyjamas shoot also. lol~
The new sakura wig looks a bit weird from the side. lol~
the make-up actually looks terrible closeup. haha~
ahhh~~ tired... tired... need to prepare for photoshoot for lamento liao... hmmm~
I'm still looking for you.
Sleepover on 2nd Sept was nice~ Though we didn't do much. Julia and JY came over. Watched movies on the night.
We watched "The Cave" first. Not bad, quite nice. But would be better if they film the creature more. haha.
Then "Anger Management", i feel tat the show is a bit stupid, as in the program for its anger management. It's purposely making people angry. ~_^"
Then we slept at ard 3 plus, i guess. Didn't look at the time, actually. Haha~
The next morning, we woke up at around 10plus. Julia and i went to Mac to buy breakfast.
Came back, but JY's still asleep, so we started watching movies again.
Watched "Kill Bill" and "Kill Bill 2." They definitely spent a lot of money on the blood seh. lol~
Anyway, then it rained heavily and we didn't manage to go anywhere. Sighz...
Gotten my wigs yesterday. But maya's wig is screwed up yet again... ughhh... Am trying to dye it. But it's quality is better, coz it feels thicker.
Anyway, Konoe's wig is here~ woots~ now just need to alter the blue top and make the boot cover, then i'll be able to get it done with liao. Muahahah~
Next year... will be my 21st birthday. Hmmm... Should i make any nice costume for it?
Feel like making chobit's purple costume.
Actually i feel like cosplaying those game characters more liao, or those fantasy characters. As in the warriors those sort.
Still feel like doing dynasty warriors leh... sobzz...
I'm still looking for you.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE~EEE~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO ME~
ahh~ it's a "2" in front already.... noooo.... lol~
Thanks for all the birthday greetings on my phone today~ ^^
Love you all~
It's a year of accessories~ kekeke~
My poly friends gave me a necklace.
My friend/bro's GF gave me a pair of earrings.
Pheliosstar gave me a bracelet. haha~
My 2nd bro gave me money. ~_^"
And most of all, all of you gives me love!!~~
I feel so loved. ^^
Cosplaying...
Many times I've suddenly changed my plans here and there. Ahhh... Coz it's not fun to do it by oneself. It's more fun to do in groups. But if it's with people I don't really know, it's weird...
My Asuka cosplay will go on. lol~ Will be doing her other versions as well.
Most probably for Winter Matsuri, I'll be going as Christmas Asuka. kekeke~
Anyway, next year's rikku... If i pass off well as her, I might start focusing on her as well. Rikku's personality is quite easy to portray ba. Coz she can be bubbly, she can be confused, she can be sad. lol~
Anyway, once school starts, I might not be able to go for small events. The good thing is... It's holidays during the major events - Cosfest and EOY. muahahah~
Heard from Hal that my wigs are sent out last week. So should be able to get it soon. After gotten the wig, will have to prepare photoshoot for Maya(hopefully the colour is right) and Konoe.
Recruiting!!Tenjou Tenge Photoshoot- Well, I'm doing Maya. Hoping for an Aya, if possible.
Peacemaker Kurogane Cosfest 2009 Day 1(Sat event)- Okita Souji and Tetsunosuke are taken.
Angel Sanctuary EOY 2009- Hoping for more ppl.
- Alexiel, Jibriel and Michael are taken.
I'm still looking for you.
was bored last night, so i drew that. it looks way better on the sketchbook. lol~ but i totally sucks at those shirt wrinkles. arghh... and the person on the right looks weird from my drawing...
Sighz... too bad for my photo, there's distraction. it's the view of outside. sobz...
un.... preview? ~_^" Somehow i think i looked fat there... arghh... partly maybe coz Maya doesn't do tt pose. Wahhh... Challenging, challenging.
The worst thing is... i need to be fairer than her and she refuses to go tan herself. sobz...
