Needa work on my expressions. lol~ I look so ... ugh... hhahaha.
The good thing about that area at NP is that, it has old trees with big roots like the above photos. lol~ The other areas are too full of flowers liao.

Gonna start camwhoring with my red lens soon, before it expires. And i'll need to get another pair because i haven't do my Saya. sobzz... I think i'll start searching for her cloth liao.

I need to revise which type of characters will i suit more... hmmm...

SOY is over~
Hmmm... a little boring, coz the concerts are inside the room. so after a while, we all went out of the LT to take photos again.
Thanks dear for being my personal photographer~ haha~ ^^
Waiting for the photos to come out~

Next up will be EVANGELION PHOTOSHOOT which will most likely be during end of Feb.

Need to save money for Maya's costume and her everything. I haven't ordered her wig!!! Ahhh!!

Sobzz... everything supposed to finish today... but things got pushed back.
Another two presentation next week. And one report.

Preview for Saturday~ Was trying the make-up... The lens is wrong, coz i haven't opened my brown lens. Don't wanna open too early. haha. Need to learn how to pose... Seriously dunno how to pose. sobz..

Blogging fast again. Two presentations tml. 2 assignments due on friday. Another presentation and report next tuesday.

My room is in a huge mess right now. needa clean them out before chinese new year le. gonna do that after SOY. Coz currently there're a lot of needles, threads and cloth in my room. lol~ not yet done with my Konoe's costume though.. arghh..

Btw dear... i realised after every EOY, there will be something of urs with me. lol.
2006 EOY, i brought home your eyeliner without knowing until quite late into 2007.
then 2007, i brought home your hair net without knowing AGAIN, until today. lol.

Cosplay costume to buy:
- Maya's costume (In making) [around $70?]
- Ritsuka's costume [Around $40]
- Quatre's costume [Around $100]
- Uranus's costume [Around $100]
- Usaki's costume [Around $200]
- Tenou's costume [Around $100+]
- Yuuri's top [Around $50?]

I've just gotten my wigs from Sochii... The pale blonde wig was what i initially wanted... it can suit Quatre and Uranus' hair colour. But it's darker, more to Uranus' hair colour than Quatre.
Which means... if i use my current blone wig for quatre, and the new wig for uranus, I'll need another blonde wig for Usaki.. arghh...
but i like sochii's wig supplier's wig. it's more smooth and won't end up spiking like my tooru's wig.

Wigs needed:
- Snow Purple wig for Maya
- Blonde short wig for Usaki
- Black short wig for Yuuri
- Dark Brown short wig for Tenou

That should be all. haha.

Cosplay cosplay and cosplay again...
Sewing and sewing again... currently i'm sewing my Konoe's 'apron' part and the armguard...
Dear~~ I ended up using up all your cloth. so sorry.
I've trimmed the wig already, it looks better right now.
I'm meeting Stellar at 10:30am at Clementi MRT station on Saturday. Anyone wanna meet there??

The apron thingy... this is how it looks like before i do anything to it, the plain apron. below photo taken without make-up, tt's why it's so ugly. lol~
After around 3 to 4 hours of hard work, the apron looks like this: ack.. crapz.. i sew it too close to the thing. arghh..
Below is the pic of the character. compare the apron.. hmm.. i only lack the round lines at the bottom. adding them tomolo. might be drawing it on.
the armguard... it looks like a bug from here. lol~

Think i'll be camwhoring with my costume tml to see how it'll turn out to be.

Things to be done:
- The other armguard
- Boots cover

Forgot to say... but...

FYP is officially over!!!!!
YAY!!!~~

Suddenly feel like re-doing Tsubasa Chronicles again... Maybe for a photoshoot? ^^
Anyone on for it?
But won't be doing Tomoyo this time ba. Should be doing Subaru, most probably. Should be finding my Kamui from sgcafe if it's confirmed. haha.
But no lui le. sobzzz....

Hmmm... I looked through all my camwhore photos and i realised i really look uke... ugh...
bad thing. sobz. unable to get the seme mood/atmosphere.

This year's cosplay plans...

Cosfest (July):
- Maya [Only costume is in-progress]
- Quatre [Only wig is with me]

Streetfest:
- Ritsuka [Haven't gotten any yet] (June)

Coscon:
- Uranus [Haven't gotten any yet] (August)

Photoshoot:
- Tenou [Haven't gotten any yet] (Not sure)
- Usaki [Haven't gotten any yet] (July)

EOY:
- Yuuri [Haven't gotten any yet] (Dec)

I wanna do Subaru from Tsubasa Chronicles~ The vampire twins~ Dunno whether my passion to cosplay him will fade or not. lol~
anyway, the above ones are all the confirmed ones...

Ahh, still need to confirm with Daphne about Full Moon. Hmmm...
Let me deal with my coming super busy week first... wan die liao. sobzz...

After reading the Tsubasa Chronicles manga from onemanga.com, feel like redoing tsubasa again.
The plot gets more and more complicated. tt's all i can say, dun wanna give spoilers.

Either gonna do Chii or Subaru from Tsubasa. Hmmm... If i can get a Kamui, then maybe can do The Vampire Twins for PS. lol~

sighz.. i'm bored... sobzz...
and got a lot of stuff haven't do yet... ahhhh.

FYP is officially over!!
My toe has a big blister there from all the standing and walking today.

Upcoming:
- CAD3 test
- MQE Quiz and Presentation
- WISP Reflection
- ME Presentation
- MB Presentation

Sianz... still got so many things to do... feeling super tired right now though....

I feel that i'm getting weaker since last year... My body has been falling sick easily nowadays. sobzz... But i'm feeling better now... and i've gained weight... nowadays when i'm sick, i feel more hungry. lol~ and can eat more. hahaha.

Tml's the exhibition day~ Arghh... hope tml rains heavily. lol~

Angel Sanctuary Photos below...







Coz the top is already very complicated, thus the bottom part is very plain. ^^

Today...I had a very serious and painful stomache. It's different from normal stomaches because it doesn't come and go, come and go. It went into a painful state, like somebody is trying to dig something outta you, and stay at that type of pain. Seriously for a moment there, I tot i was gonna die...
I came back home enduring the pain, painkillers doesn't work. I lay on my bed and tried to sleep but couldn't coz the pain is unbearable. I tried to curl into myself, since most of the time that works... but it doesn't work.
Oh ya, when i gotten home, no one was home, I actually tot of just eating the pill and sleep it off. But the pain is so great, i called up my mom. She was at Vivo city with my big brother and sis-in-law and niece. She then tried to call my dad coz he's closer since he's at Tuas(company at tuas), he'll be nearer and will be able to get home sooner. But he got meeting... So they have to rush back home...
Went to see doc... Gotten a MC for tml... But tml there's an important presentation which is 40% of the module... So if i dun go, i'll need to retain another sem just for this unimportant module... sobzz...
Was diagnosed with "Stomach inflammation（肠胃发炎）" ? er... ya...something like tt, i guess...
The doc is afraid i might get Appendicitis'typhlitis（盲肠炎）, coz the more painful side is the right side... and ya... after he presspresspress, now the right side indeed is painful more obviously.. ~_^"
Then my mom told me that actually if really gotten it, just need to operate to get rid of it, then can le. coz that thing also useless one...
most probably is i run/jump/dash after meal, so something went over to it... and ya... really tot i was gonna die... 哈哈。。。

Most of the time I'm bloggin here and repeating things is because i got nothing to do online. sighz...

Angel Sanctuary photos below. Some only. Btw, YJ, the dark red hair one is Michael, the one with the dragon on the face one.

Went to tailor today and tried my costume liao.
It looks weird with my hair. lol~
The blue part needs to redo... sobzz..
The cape is nice~~ and the hood also. ahhh~~

I think for my Uranus one, i ordering online ba. quoting from Tessie. Hmmm...

Still have Quatre's vest, Ja-dou's costume, DOLLS costume and Yuuri's costume to make for this year.
And will be making Meroko's costume if Daphne is really gonna do Full Moon for PS. Haha~

Wanna watch The Mist.

Hmmm... sometimes i get worried over very small things. sighz...

My CNY clothes~ I'm gonna look so kiddy for my 2nd outfit for newyear. ~_^"

Was damn tired last few days. Finally managed to somehow catch up with my sleep this morning. HAha. Though didn't really sleep that long, but at least I slept until I woke up myself instead of from the clock.

Going to take my konoe's costume later on. Hope it looks ok. *prays hard*

Gonna quit punk fashion and focus on cosplay instead le. my CNY white dress has a stupid stain at the back of the dress... dunno where it came from! coz when i bought it, i've checked and there's nothing on it. But after washing and dried, i notice this stain which looks a but like ink at the back. And no just one line of ink, it's three lines!! and it kindda spreads out so there's a pale brownish blotch of it on the back of the dress... AHHH!!! NOOO!! sobzzz....
My another outfit looks a bit lolita-ish. HAha. taken a few photos le, but dun wanna show here. kekeke~

Next week's exihibition... I dunno why, but from three days it became one day for our project exhibition. o.0 ya. i know... dunno why also. sobzz..

Dollfie is expensive and not really necessary... though i really want one. So i'm gonna work first. The first few months of pay will go to clothes, cosmetic, shoes, etc... those more needed stuff... After that, if i dun have any other stuff to buy, then i'll save it up for Dollfie~~

Hmmm... today's presentation has been postponed to next tuesday due to the lack of time... arghhh...

10th Jan - Marine Business Presentation
15th Jan - WISP Presentation
17th - 19th Jan - NP Open House (Project Exhibition Days)
23rd Jan - Marine Engineering Presentation

Alright ppl, I found something frustrating yet funny. 4 videos to be exact.
Title is the hardest self-customised mario-liked game. See how the 'mario' goes through all the unexpected and most stupid traps ever. kekeke~
Only watch it when you really have the time. Haha~ Me and my friend watched until very tired. lol~

Alright... guess what?
three days of choinging, of emo-ing, of missing training... all for what?
a 10% assignment... what the crap!!
I saw the marks allocation just last night at around 10+pm when I was still chionging my report and when i saw the 10%, i nearly wan to flop down and just sleep away. crapz..

Then i got a presentation tml also. I tot everything's gonna end after tml, then suddenly i heard someone talking about the presentation on thursday!! wahh!! *bangs head against the wall*

I need to warn you guys about my mood these few weeks. It's super unstable, alright. One moment, I can just stare into the distance. One moment, I can start to emo. Another moment, I might just go crazy with laughter. Yea... dangerous period of time. lol~

SOY, hope my wig will be here. and my costume be ready by then.
Meeting a few ppl there~
Alucard will be meeting me there so that he can bake me in the sun as i take him on a tour around NP. lol~ he's going "gaygay" about my character since i'm gonna do konoe from lamento, which is a BL game. lol~
Clara will be coming as well~ long time didn't see her liao. Hope she's gonna dress up for it. ^^

Thanks for the encouragement and hugs~ those are really what i need these days. :)

Sorry ppl, that i wasn't at Training today.

Am supposed to be at training today. But my stupid report isn't finished yet. The bloody lecturer said it has to be 2000 words and own words at that. siao.
Then I found the information yesterday...Today was supposed to just put them in and ta-da~ done. But halfway through, i realised that i did something a bit wrong. the information are all of the hull and my topic is about sea water systems.
So actually I'm real blur about it. Sea water systems... does it apply to the hull and propeller or just the pipelines?
So I'm super stuck now.

I'm not even supposed to be blogging right now, coz the due date is tml. and tuesday i still have another presentation which i haven't started on. arghh...
I'm now trying to use my own words and 'twist' stuff to my favour. it actually needs book references, but... i didn't go lib so er... well, heck la. needa chiong le.

After graduation, I shall go work for some shipyard or marine company for 2 years then I'll decide whether I wanna further studies or not, or just continue working, etc..

Gonna sell away my punk clothes and turn to lolita liao. Gonna start lolita after getting my Tooru's dress. Since most of their costumes are lolita, so I might as well.
Well, it's more of, I'm focusing on cosplay costumes than punk/loli fashion. haha.

Yea... saving money to get the dress and wig and shoes for tooru.

Hello
playground school bell rings again
rain clouds come to play again

has no one told you she's not breathing?
hello i'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
hello

if i smile and don't believe
soon i know i'll wake from this dream
don't try to fix me i'm not broken
hello i'm the lie living for you so you can hide
don't cry

suddenly i know i'm not sleeping
hello i'm still here
all that's left of yesterday

It was raining heavily earlier on and is still raining right now. Kindda reflects what I'm feeling.
Was emo-ing all the way from home to PS and back home. Ya... emo-ing alone. ~_^"
Anyway it isn't that big of a matter. It's just normal to emo once in a while. haha.

Well, this is an EMO post, so if you dun wan me to affect u, then dun read further. I mean it.
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Well, you're chosen your fate, don't blame me... Here goes...

Sometimes I feel that I'm cosplaying partly to escape from reality. Sighz... Aren't I a coward?
But when I'm too far from reality, I want to come back to this cruel reality. Then I scare myself when I feel myself losing grip of this reality. Aren't I just stupid?
Only stupid people will do such things. Throwing themselves into the ocean, then when they swam to the middle of nowhere, they start to panic. It's just so stupid.
It's the same as you throwing yourself into a situation you know will never happen as you want it to. You knew in the beginning that this is the consequence and you've prepared yourself for it. But when it actually comes, it still stings. No matter how much you've prepared yourself for it, it still stings.
But it shows me that I'm still human, that I'm still able to feel.
I can't believe I'm washing my eyes again just at the beginning of the year.
I still remember last year, the East Coast Park incident... The one with my cousins... So fast, it's been a year.
I'm a damn emotional person, alright. I can cry when I see people cry. That's why sometimes to prevent myself from crying, I have to distant myself from the images that I'm seeing. Meaning, purposely make myself not to feel anything for it.
In simple, I cry easily.
Anyway, I can get emotional over simple and small things.
Am not crying now.. But tears are still rolling down.
In truth, I don't know why, but it feels kindda empty right now. I feel kindda empty right now.

I'm not supposed to be emo-ing now... Coz we're celebrating my niece's birthday today. If we're not, then I would be in my room, staring into space for hours. And I still have to rush out a report due Monday. 2000 words and own words are expected.
My 2nd brother is quite sensitive... well it was last time already, but I stupidly looked him in the eyes after I finished crying in the bathroom when I was bathing. And ya, he came and asked me about it some days later, if I'm not wrong... Haha...
The other time I cried in front of my family was secondary 2. That time was the only time I broke down at the dining table. But that time was mostly coz of the monitress stuff. Stupid me...

ahh... feels better now... haha..
Anyway I'm going to play game with my brother liao. :)
If you managed to read until here, thanks for your time. :)
*bows*

Needa rush out a 2000-words report by Monday. Lucky my topic has lots of information from the internet. Phew...
My exhibition is on the 17th, 18th and 19th Jan 2008, the NP Open-House~ Do come down if you're free. ~_^"
Phew~ tt means it doesn't clash with SOY. muahaha~ ahhh!! Have to go buy cloth for the arm guard for Konoe...

Apparently Light Purlish Blue is too light to be Tooru's hair... *crys* Needa get another colour liao. Sianzz...

Now waiting for my Konoe's costume and Maya's costume and the schoolboy jacket. Then will be making Quatre's vest and Uranus and Yuuri's costume. Will be altering Tooru's dress after i get it from Alison.
Then will most probably be starting with some of Tooru's other dresses ba. keke~

I'm bored... It's once again the boring lesson of the week, marine business..
Too many things due next week. sobzz..

Needa chiong work liao...
This coming sat, we're having buffet for my niece. we're only calling a few ppl.
So... i hope everything can be done by Sunday, if not, I might have to skip training liao. ~_^"

After i gotten the dress from Alison, i'll be going to alter the back of the dress. And then, i'll start doing his other versions as well.
I'm thinking of not throwing in more characters, but instead concentrate on the different versions for the characters that i've done. Unless i really really wanna do him/her. Haha~

Btw, dear, Coscon 2008 confirmed le hor? If confirmed, then after u take ur saturn costume le, then i go make my uranus one. coz i need to see the colour of ur blue parts. mine have to be more blue. ~_^"

Will be doing ja-dou with Hal for PS. Hmm~ But haven't decided on the version yet, coz she haven't finished reading them. haha~ ahhh~

I think i might be getting new wig for tooru, i know what colour to get liao. it's light purplish blue. lol~ coz actually tooru's hair in the images isn't blue, blue. lol~

Then i go wash the current tooru's wig, then if can fit ur characters, Chie kuan u can use it. haha~ save lui~

First day of school, and I didn't bring notes to school. Lol~
Need to finish a report which is supposed to due today, but i haven't touched it yet. So i guess i have to hand in on friday instead liao, coz dun feel like doing it today. lol~
My project exihibition seems to be next week... o.0

Gonna get the tooru's dress from Alison after SOY and CNY when i got the money. Then will need to get the maryjanes and wig liao. the contact lens, i'm gonna get one year one, since maya needs it, quatre needs it, tooru needs it and even asuka needs it... all the blue-eyed character. hahaha~

This is the pattern that i'll be getting. ^^
after getting the wig and shoes, most probably, i'll be doing the different types of dress for Tooru ba. haha~
alright, let me finish with what i've already decided on first. lol~

CNY coming!!! Havent go buy new clothes yet. ~_^"

Arigatou, dear, for those nice photos~~

Tired right now... It's been so long since i've felt so tired before. Like wanna just lie down and nv wake up again. ~_^"

Anyway, we had our Princess Princess Photoshoot at Chjimes today. Don't know how to pose... sighz... And actually i'm not happy with my tooru's wig... It's too stiff, partly coz i put a lot of wax. gonna wash it and put softener and see if it'll be better.
I realised all our wigs were very bright. ~_^"

Ahh~ I wanna do Tooru's female version~ Below is a cute one, but the thing is i dun hav the full view of the dress... sobzz..


Oh yes, when i went over yesterday to the tailor's house to take Jasline's uniform, i brought my Asuka uniform over as well to shorten the skirt a bit and to wider the hip area.
I wanna do the christmas version for Asuka also... haha~
Are we gonna have a photoshoot for EVA? ^^

Hmm~ Wanna sleep liao.... eyes closing le...