arghhss
I think i wanna buy D Gray Man costume. ~_^"""
Jialatt... have been spending money on cosplay stuff le.
digging out my comics which i think i'll not be reading again to sell le. hmmm...

and i feel that my wardrobe is being filled up with punk tops le. acks! no bottoms. sobsobz. ~_^"

coperita is having batch orders for cosplay shoes~~
anyone wan??
Go here and take a look: http://sgcafe.com/showthread.php?t=32569

Hmmm...
I've just changed my Friendster profile and suddenly, i got two person adding me to their msn.
Hmmmmmm.... hahaha. ~_^"

Anyway, I wan go seoul garden eat~~
I think i can help u all pay half or 3/4 of the bill. ^^
Coz i also know it's damn ex.

JY, u wan to celebrate ur birthday this early?
I dun mind though. :)

Attachment ending soon~~
My project for the attachment is a big mess. Suddenly the things were said to be wrong and we have to redo that part again and i have to understand that part again. Coz my groupmates are from china, they have to have me explain things to them.
One of them need me to script it all out for her. ~_^"
Ahhh~~ Stress~~ Stress~~
LOL

Girls' Outing in two weeks time!!
Between 6th April and 14th April~~
Which day u all wan???~~

Actually i got the crave for Seoul Garden~ Muahahaha~
Too long didn't eat liao. ^^
Am thinking should i go punk or should we all wear dresses for our girls' outing. ^^

Today, i took a scary car ride and i nearly burst into tears. oh gods...
I'm still young, pls. I still got a long way to go.
sobsobz.

We went out for lunch today. 6 ppl in a car, meaning 4 have to sit behind. Since it isn't really a big car, we have to sit, one in, one out.
I was sitting the "out" one and was the second from the left. So practically, i can see the road clearly. The driver is a girl, who is the daughter of the boss of PPL, tt's what i heard.
Her driving skills damn cool! So cool, u dun wanna sit in the car when she's driving ever.

I think i got used to my dad's benz which is heavier in weight. So when i took her car today, it feels like it's flying. oh gosh...
Then she was driving along this road...
U know that part of the expressway where there's a road out to the smaller roads?
She was driving on the middle of two roads where there'll be a sign board and barrier waiting for her and she was looking at other things out of the window!!!
When she turned back, it was so close and she just swerved. Tt's the first shock.
Next after the swerve, she went for the circle at clementi but she didn't slow down, the car was like flying, man. Then cars came speeding from the right and she sudden-braked, ending with a little head of the car out of the line.
Oh gosh, at that moment, i nearly cried. Then one of my friend pulled my shoulder and made me lay back a little.
Oh mine... my life... my precious life. sobsobz.
Then when she stopped at the bus stop to let us alight, she began driving off before everyone really gotten off the car.
crap seh.
Oh gosh... the importance of safety belts and safety first on the road. gosh...

my life... my life... sobsobz...

Chorus:
 Follow your star
 Shining it's light all through your life
 Guiding you on, giving you strength
 For living in perfect harmony
 Getting it right, keeping it strong
 And learn to let our troubles die
 Don't be afraid, you'll have the faith
 If you just follow, follow your star

 Sometimes you're feelin' all alone
 And you're needing somewhere to turn
 You've got to seek inside your soul
 When there's no-one else around.

 Just hold your head up
 Don't let it get you down
 (If) its too high to climb
 You can always go around

 Bridge

 'Cos there's always more than one way
 To get you through a bad day
 If you only have faith in yourself

 When you think you've hurt someone
 And their sorrow you can't overcome
 Feel like you're heartless and don't care
 You need someone to help you out

 Just hold out your hand
 And you'll be amazed
 What you can get through
 If you just communicate
 (Bridge)

 Mid-8
 It's all about your star
 Your guardian, your charm
 Your eyes, when you walk through the darkness.

 (Half-chorus, then full chorus)

been buying a lot of clothes and stuff from Sgcafe. Am digging out some of the stuff that i'm not wearing anymore or dun wanna wear anymore to sell... ~_^"

no money liao. sobsobz.
Think i'll be digging out some of the comics to sell also le. sobsobz.

tired...
wanna sleep...
sleeepp..
sleeepppp...

*snores*

I've lived for more than 18 years already, yet there are so many things that i do not understand.

First,
Is it really fun to make other people guilty, sad or depressed? Do you feel joy in the sadness of other people? Do you enjoy making people feel guilty?

Second,
If it isn't fun to you in the first place, why the hell are you doing that for? For revenge? Because you're selfish?

Come on, people. I mean... if you don't feel joy in it, then why are you doing it and hurting both you and that other person? Can't you step back a little sometimes? Talk it over. Communication is important. Do you think by ignoring a person, it would solve all the stupid problems??

Talk! Communicate!! Come on!!

Now i feel like whacking people. Arghhh....

Sighz... something seems to be breaking apart. Arghh... Must tighten the strings.

Now whenever i see or hear my mentor from work laughed, i feel like whacking him. ~_^"

Today I went back to PPL Shipyard coz there's a naming ceremony for one of the rigs there.
We were called there to help as ushers.
Oh gosh, i realised it's the boring-est job ever!
I was situated outside the living quarter 1, telling ppl to go upstairs to living quarters two. But then the place where i'm stand has a staircase that leads down to the main deck.
There's supposed to be a route for the guests to walk. So no one is supposed to come up to my side by the stairs that's going down from my area to the main deck. They should be coming from the living quarter 1, and then i'll tell them to go upstairs to living quarter two.
But then, suddenly everyone started going everywhere.
Finally, the safety person-in-charge, Ivan, came and said, "nvm la, let them go as they want. That time they want us to make a fixed route, then now they just walked anywhere they like, dun care le."
Another thing is, the living quarters are air-conned mah. But then the door which i was standing by is to be opened. So i opened it and stood at the stairs to prevent ppl from coming up. Suddenly i think someone on the ventilation system and immediately the door slowly moved to be closed. Wah! I ran to it and held it open seh.
Then throughout the few hours, i was using my left hand to hold the door open, while my right hand gestured the people to go up. ~_^"
Tired seh.
That Ivan was walking around then he came up by the stairs and coz i was looking at him, then he said, "Wah... my legs are breaking le."
Then later, after everything almost done when many of us were so hungry, we were called to gather at an area while Ivan went to check the places.
When he was coming down the stairs, i looked at him with a "so how?" look and my friend was doing so too. Then he said, "wah lau, dun give me that look leh. I'm the first one who wanna go down de leh."
Hahahaha. ~_^"

Hmmm... Been buying stuff from SgCafe. ~_^"
Think i'll be digging out stuff that i'm not wearing le, or i dun wan le and sell it off at sgcafe. muahahaha. ~_^"

Photos~
First off~
Bdae girl!!



Was doing starjumps.
But failed a couple of times as the camera wasn't fast enough to catch.

Breathless liao...

Yea!!



I look like i'm defying gravity, don't i?

Dead...

And lastly~
Photo of the moment!!!

I realise that talking to my mentor in chinese seems to lighten up the atmosphere. ~_^"
I think English is too formal le. haha

Finally i started AutoCad today. He gave me something to try. He opened a file and asked me to change some stuff. I looked at the thing and tried to do it.
After a while he came over and stood beside me, i turned to him and said, "I think if you give me a blank page, i can do it out better," in chinese. ~_^" Then he laughed.
My friend commented that my mentor and her mentor and another friend's mentor look like bad guys. ~_^"

I'm going very punk this year. ~_^"
Let's go watch The Messenger next week?
It's coming out on the 15th of March, if i'm not wrong.
Friday? Saturday??

Took a whack! to the head.
Can feel a dent on the skull, don't know whether have been there since birth de or not. ~_^"
Pardon me if i start talking rubbish.

Hmmmm...
Should i go and find a Fye from Sgcafe?
Feel like working with/knowing more people who has the same interests as you.
Heehee.

So, should i?
?_?

People around you have a very big effect on you. If you're born the eldest, or have been taking care of your siblings, you know well how to take care of other people whether they are older than you or not.
But when you've been under other people's care since young, you feel that you're always being taken care of.
Though I'm so-called the eldest girl in Ninjado, most of the time, or should I say all of the time, I feel that I'm the one being taken care of, than I taking care of them.

I got a question here for all of you. Whether you wanna answer anot is your own choice. :)
When you have a lot of things in mind, where do you go or what do you do to clear your mind or to think about it?

For me...
1) When bathing, I would sit on the floor with the shower spraying cold water onto me while I try to either think about things one by one or just blank my mind.
2) I'll sit on my bed and throw my blanket over my head to form a tent around me and just clear my mind.

I'm just curious. :)

Something I found on fictionpress.com. I realised that it isn't easy to find happy or hopeful poems on fictionpress.com. For me, i wrote sad poems is to let it out.
Oh here it goes:

Shine my light

Verse One

You think you’ll never be good enough

Each day you fight to stay alive

Living off of false hope

Living for someone else and not for yourself

Tears flowing down your face

With a knife held above your wrist

Chorus

Don’t give up now

You were the one who taught me how to be different

Don’t give up now

You were the one who was always there for me

Don’t give up now

Because if you aren’t there who will be there?

Let me shine on you the same light you shone on me

Verse Two

Though it seems that I’ve never cried the same tears

I have (and you wiped them away)

Always hoping to wake up someone else

And living in a false reality

I’m here to wake you up from this bad dream

Chorus

Don’t give up now

You were the one who taught me how to be different

Don’t give up now

You were the one who was always there for me

Don’t give up now

Because if you aren’t there who will be there?

Let me shine on you the same light you shone on me

Bridge

Can’t imagine life without you

Don’t think I could face the day alone

I need you by my side

Chorus

Don’t give up now

You were the one who taught me how to be different

Don’t give up now

You were the one who was always there for me

Don’t give up now

Because if you aren’t there who will be there?

Let me shine on you the same light you shone on me

Verse Three

If life wasn’t hard

It wouldn’t be a journey

So I’m singing this song to you now

So you’ll know how much I care

And that I’ll always be there

Chorus

Don’t give up now

You were the one who taught me how to be different

Don’t give up now

You were the one who was always there for me

Don’t give up now

Because if you aren’t there who will be there?

Let me shine on you the same light you shone on me

time is important. ~_^"

Oh well, actually i wanna say i need time to get used to the attachment life. Inside the office is so damn cold seh. My lips kept drying up fast.
Hmmm... And i'm bored staying inside. sobsobz.
I should have chosen production seh. I'm cheated by Keppel seh. ~_^"

tired these days. slept at 10+pm every night. ~_^"
Seems to be going back to my secondary school bedtime. lol

Something cool!!
Don't miss it!!
http://sgcafe.com/showthread.php?t=31888
Wait patiently for it to load finish. It's worthwhile. ^^