random thoughts of life
yeeeeeeeee, Arsenal win .. muahahaha
father jus woke up .. i watching tv sia .. first thing he do, switch off the TV.. what's his problem
ar, don't care
what to do for the next 2 hours huh.. go cycle? or run? or sleep? or do push up/chin ups ..
the skin over the blister is now
-hard
-black
-jagged
-HARD
wth .. what to do huh .. hmm..
i take tissue go wipe
then wipe too hard
now a bit tear ..
then the RED pus come flowing out ..
Omg
it's red
ok running's out of the question.. i think
she's sooooo cute..
assignment become assi .. =) =)
anyway, since when i update blog so much de huh ..
sian
yishan created blog .. worldofpiglets.. what's with her and piglets huh ..
good thing i dun have tag board .. .. or it'll be filled with angry comments .. .. ..
sorry to ppl reading
this blog's me, all me
it's a reminder of how f*cked up i was in the past
so ya..
wah, comp lagging .. i wonder why..
arhh.. why cannot burn suzuka de ..
later go try again
i think i go watch FF7: advent children ah ..
sian
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Arsenal VS ajax NOW !!!!!
ON STAR SPORTS
BUT MY STUPID TV CANNOT WATCHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
..
what, the heavens want me to cycle down to jackson ah?
ediot..
nvm.. i walk down to the nearby kopitiam see they showing channel 23 or 24 ..
maybe i shui bian go running ba ..
drink too much ribena le ..
eat bread for a whole meal too often le ..
no money buy coke/food ..
not feeling well ah...
Woot !
Arsenal SCORED !!!!
2nd minute
freddie ljungberg..
^_^ ~~~
ahahaha.. i too lazy to go down run .. haiz..
i will go later ..
then play basketball in the morning at CC..
hmm... wonder why sl cannot know .. ..
but then again .. it'll be good if not many ppl knew about it.. i think she would get irritated if the whole world knows about it.. .. zzzzz .. arrr
hahaha.. as i chat with her day by day .. she's getting more and more cute to me .. ^_^ ..
but .. when i think of the fact right now, that i don't even have a chance with her .. i get quite saddened .. =(
haiz..
go watch soccer le .. hahaha .. nitez
i cried on the bus today
a couple beside me was looking and were laughing at me softly
why must it hurt so much ..
why ..
i dun even know her that well
why does it hurt so much ..
why ..
why must her rejection hurt so Much ..
it really hurts ..
i hate myself
i HATE MYSELF
why is my face so scarred?
WHY?
it hurts ..
it hurts ..
since when have i been so emotionally dependent on her???
..
i don't know
but i love her
i want her to give me a chance
but when i look in the mirror, i would rather she avoid me, scold me, ask me to fuck off ..
i dun know ..
she's still my reason to fight , to do things
and that she will be .. till the end of the world
i want you to know
that i will never give up
till the day that u personally ask me to
and even then
u will always be in my heart
cos you are my dream girl
u really are
this is how i feel about you
i like the way you smile
i like the fact that you go help ur parents
i like the way you go about doing ur things
i like the way that you apologise, asking if i feel bad
i like the way that you act when you are with ur friends
i like the way that you help people without any reservations
i like everything about you
i will do anything to make u smile
anything at all
if u will give me a chance
i'm sorry if me feeling this way will make things hard for you
so for now
i will be a friend who wants to know you better
and nothing more
thank you for being in my life
i was looking for a reason to fight
a reason for me to do the crazy things that i do
and here you are
thank God i found you
and i will never let you go
u rejected me
and i feel sad
u said that you do not think like me
it's ok
i will wait
and my life is so much more happier cos u still talk to me
i'm glad
today i asked if u wan to go for a movie treat on sat..
u said no
i didn't know what to say
but it's ok ..
tk care k
from that day in year 2 onwards, my whole life is about you
-7the0ry
i'm a idiot
i'm a fucking mother fucker
i don't deserve anything more in life
i'm sorry zhen zuan .. i am really sorry
but no, we cannot be together anymore..
i'm sorry for doing this to you
you wanted to marry the guy who took ur virginity
and i'm jus a selfish motherfucker who only wanted you for ur body
i did love you
alot
i hope that you never get to read this
i don't know how can i act so heartless..
i still cry after i hear Ge Qian by jay ..
i still need you, in certain ways
but u'll be the reason for me to fight
to do the things that i need to do in my life
cherish ur boyfriend .. i think he will treasure u alot too
don't say things like i don't like him at all, etc
cos i really hope that you will ..
jus forget me
move on
i know that may be impossible
but jus treat me as a guy who never deserved your respect and trust at all
i'm sorry
really sorry
and the jas thing
i like her, somewhat
she's really quite cute
but i don't deserve anything, anyone
i do want to be with her
=)
but no, i'm a stupid motherfucker who should be shot or something
i feel so despicable ..
i feel like shit
i hate myself so much
ahhh
nvm
3179
wish me luck for 2b
i want to be of use to ppl
then at least i won't be a useless person ever again
"everybody knows that it's impossible to please everybody, so why not jus please *most* of the bodies?"
-7the0ry
LOL
tk care ppl
