i think i have kidney failure..
it's jus a hunch
but i won't give much thought unless there are alot of signs (obvious to me)

right now not enough sleep
last caffeine shot is a few sips of coke at night
with funny-tasting maggi mee

then 1 can of pepsi in south canteen
and before that, the main source of caffeine, the cup of heavenly coffee from sch FJ ..


oh well .. that's what got me into this kidney failure mess anyway
i hope it's jus some false alarm

for the past .. 6 months or so, i was drinking very very little plain water
95% coke/caffeinated drinks everyday

about 1 week ago, i noticed that my urine is totally clear, transparent .. white .. which means healthy rite !
but the problem is that i drink almost nothing but coke !

every morning i will finish 1 can of coke
on average i drink like 3 cans everyday

i'm finishing my 3rd carton of coke soon.. (in .. weeks? lol)

the urine was a warning sign to me
cos i'm kinda of paranoid
then my legs became damn weak
for no reason pain .. which is rare lor
and today i went to toilet to release water like 10 times

i dunno ..
the reason i'm posting it here is to prevent me from forgetting when i started noticing the signs and what the signs are..

i really hope that it's a false alarm sia ..
my left knee's hurting now

i need to sleep

stupid coke

i dun wan to take money from the NKF .. cb
)*#)$&*@#)@&$(*#@)*

arghh




feel so depressed
so fat
so ugly
haiz ..
worst thing is
i'm incapable of loving anyone
all i do is hurt them
i'm a motherfucker


eye pain
go sleep le ..
nitez  ¶ 10:11 PM (0) comments

  hmm .. after reading the post with 2 ghostly encounters .. i suddenly got reminded of a few recent ones ..

and omg i updated my blog 3 times in 2 days !!!! personal record sia .. i like didn't update for 7 months that time ..

hmm.. holding a sales job at nike paragon and wheellock now .. have to quit soon, cos of attachment/FYPJ

the lights in the storeroom (paragon) and changing room (wheellock) get brighter after 9.30pm ..

as in .. brighter .. seriously .. i was in the storeroom taking shoes for customer when the lights around me seemed to .. glow more ..

nearly freaked out .. hahz .. *shrugs* .. o.O

maybe it's the power box or something .. but to change it at a certain time seems stupid (it happens regularly according to my supervisor .. the guy messing with the power box very free hor .. -.-"" )

and the lights for the changing room at wheellock get brighter everyday at 9.30pm ~ .. i can testify to that cos i worked the weekend last week .. crazy rite? then my fellow colleague saw a pair of legs in the storeroom earlier that week .. (we only have the upper half body parts for mannequins, no legs)


watched suzaka ep 6 jus now .. well .. i cried (i cry easily .. i hate that).. lol .. the guy in the show was jus like me .. poor thing ..


arghh, have to take my usb cable (V600) for repair soon ..
idiot

PS so far

going causeway watch 7 swords .. jiao wei better treat me ..
omg .. blogging seems .. meaningless ..
i probably won't update it for a while ..

tk care ppl
ciaoz
buaiz  ¶ 5:54 PM (0) comments

  specs broke - $35
tailor long pants - $50
watching 7 swords (stupid movie!!) with friends later - $6.50

the feeling of going broke? - priceless






ahhhhhhhhhhhh
sian
sian





i .. .. .. don't want to hurt her anymore
i really don't

she has done NOTHING wrong
except to fall in luv with me
and i .. responded in the worst possible way

.. my feelings for her .. faded



i'm sorry
i'm really sorry

jus look for another guy k?

u're a very nice girl

i do not deserve u


goodbye  ¶ 12:49 PM (0) comments

  yawn
1am le

come, let's post what i have to do this week (week 12)

idiot

tuesday
-study for XML (ch 4 - 6)
-3179 mobile proj
-security assignment 2
-tailor pants
-think of answers for interview questions (com skills)

wed
-take XML quiz
-3179 mobile proj
-security assignment 2
-think of answers for interview questions (com skills)


thur
-3179 mobile progress presentation
-learn how to ride bike
-security assignment 2
-think of answers for interview questions (com skills)


fri
-security assignment 2 deadline
-com skill interview .. (formal)


siannnnnnnn ahhhhhhhh
nike .. like cannot take extended leave wor ..

i feel like shit  ¶ 1:28 AM (0) comments