random thoughts of life

Monday, December 20, 2004

in chicago now
school's starting in like 8 hours from now ..

i should have never went on this stupid trip
i lost her
i think i realli did

i'm going back to singapore tomorrow ..
i'm not a christian
but if she comes back into my life, i'll thAnk God all He wants me to

pls .. zz .. pls ..
crying every single night is .. painful
i can't even cry in the rain .. .. my heart realli aches ..

9 days of hell

Don't let a boy cry

If a boy cries in front of you,
it means that he couldn't take
it anymore.
If you took his hand,
he would stay with you for the rest of your life;
If you let him go, he couldn't go back to being himself
anymore.

A boy won't cry easily,
except in front of the person who he love the most,
he becomes weak.

A boy won't cry easily,
only when he love you the most,
he put down his ego.

Girls, if a boy cried bcoz of you,
please hold his hands firmly,
he's the one who would stay with you for the rest of
your life.

Girls, if a boy cried bcoz of you,
please don't give him up,
maybe bcoz of your decision,
you ruin his life.

To my friends...
Ponder this message seriously.
Don't do this to a boy,
You may regret for the rest of your life.
Maybe in your life,
he's the only one that love you the most.
Remember this lesson...

zz i'll love you forever .. i gave alot of thought to us in these 9 stupid days .. i realli can't live without you .. pls come back ..
-XBB-

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if my life is meant to be this screwed up .. why do i exist then

Ж 7th.the0ry Ж
Ж male Ж
Ж b+ Ж
Ж free-thinker Ж
Ж 172cm Ж
Ж 59kg Ж

Ж Application Consultant Ж
Ж 35th singapore combat engineers (bridging) Ж
Ж boatman Ж
Ж ORD 060208 Ж

Ж flawed Ж
Ж cynical Ж
Ж hypocritical Ж
Ж extreme self hatred Ж
Ж liar Ж
Ж indecisive most of the time Ж
Ж is a mother flower Ж

wish list
---------
- money
- general fitness
- travel the world
- someone to love

a normal family
~~-my diploma~~
-ORD !!!
-part time job
-no more injuries
-caffeine addiction to be cured (this is going to be damn hard..)
~~coke is my poison, why should i cure it? what am i thinking ..

-class 2b license
-honda SP-150 (FY Plate preferred, 2nd hand, stock colour)
~~-won't tio guards in army~~
~~got posted to combat engineers

-t shirts with funny messages
-black formal suit with pants
-black plain button shirts
-new jeans
-new boxers !!!
~~-leg weights~~
~~run can liao
~~-wrist guards~~
~~-knee guards~~
~~-silver for NAFPA~~
~~-MotoRawR V3 Black~~
~~~~has access to a MotoRawR V3i now~~
~~using iphone 3GS now, i dun even like it, bleh

-new desktop/laptop ?
.P4 duo-core 3.2ghz
.2gb RAM
.any mid range PCI-E card will do
~~.750 gig HD !~~
~~1 TB HD
.router ..
~~-everyone to complete their FYP/IPP/Academic semester smoothly~~
-people around me to feel be happy.. ^^

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