After a long long time, I decided to rant

Sometimes, when you see everything is calm and you wish it is calm, there are roaring waves of anger and uncertainty beneath it. It ruins your expectation. Why does everything have to be so complicated? Why everyone makes life difficult? Why is there no tolerance between people? Luckily I 退出江湖 already, don't want to dwell in this 江湖 already, at least until I am prepared to face these problem

Laugh, Smile, Mask

It's been long since we graduated from high school, we all miss that life, though not all of it.
That time, I used to laugh a lot. And you know I always say I can't control my laugh, I can only suppress it if I want, I cannot control it to happen at will.

Nowadays I find myself laugh really rarely, but rather, I smile quite a lot. I thought it's because there's nothing can make me laugh anymore. However, I found the real reason recently.

My laugh is come from my true happiness, whereas my smile is just a mask to let other people think I'm happy.

For those who let me laugh a lot around you, I would like to thank you for making me really happy, and believe me, I really been true to you all. We will be friends forever.

Although I seldom laugh nowadays, I already got myself a mask, I don't need to show others my true feeling anymore. I have grown, and every grown ups need a mask. But to my true friends, don't wear your mask when we gather. Let's just be normal childish people when we gather.

Christian

The reason I don't want to be a christian, is whatever things they encounter, either good or bad, they like to relate it to god, which makes no sense to me.

不如一枪打死我

Go visit the following link, (only for those who can read chinese)

http://forum.ucpro.my/viewthread.php?tid=78102&extra=page%3D2

Something I copy from somewhere(有趣的分手信）

> > ~~ 寫信跟回信都很有創意~~
> > 男生提分手
> > Dear：
> > 想向你辭去情人的職務，
> > 任職一年多來，在崗位上我努力學習，克盡職守，
> >
> > 對你噓寒問暖，小心翼翼，揣測你的需要，滿足你各方面需求。
> > 在感情提供你慰藉，讓你有被愛的感覺；
> > 在行動上，等待、接送、陪伴、更只是基本工作。
> > 雖不經手財務，卻要負起所有買單重責；
> > 三不五時還要送禮討你歡心。
> > 一個稱職的情人要溫柔體貼，還要心胸寬闊。
> >
> > 聽你提及對別的男人的大方及讚賞，不可以醋勁大發。
> > 剛任職之時不知如何拿捏，犯了幾次錯誤竟敢與你鬧情緒
> >
> > 幾度你想把我開除，後來在我保證不再犯的前提下，
> > 你勉強再給我觀察期。
> > 這些時日以來，幾經思索，感謝你給我這次機會。
> >
> > 但我確實不適任此職位，想向你申請調回朋友部門。
> > 看你對那部門同仁有說有笑，三不五時還會請他們小聚一番，有點羨慕他們：
> >
> > 上班時間彈性，不用隨call隨到，不用接送，
> > 不用買單，不用送禮，不用面對你冷漠一面，
> >
> > 可看到你陽光似的笑容，聽到你幽默言談。
> > 而我雖佔了情人的缺，除了責任加重卻沒任何特殊待遇；
> >
> > 沒有甜言蜜語，沒有多一點關心，沒有禮物，沒有...
> >
> > 決定辭去這職務，至於你是否願讓我調部門，
> >
> > 一切尊重你的裁決.....
> > 一個盡心盡力的員工敬上





> > 女生的回覆

> > Dear:
> > 關於您轉調部門的提議，經過董事家長會開會討論，以下決議事項向您說明:
> >
> > 因您當初面試時的職務為情人，標準與要求一開始就跟朋友不同，
> >
> > 雖然試用期間你的表現不好差點被開除，
> > 但念在你苦苦哀求且信誓旦旦的說明你可以改進與昇任，才予以留任。情人屬於正職工作，與兼職的朋友部門不同，當然責任與工作相對也比較多，
> >
> > 但是薪資及福利保證優於朋友部門，
> > 情人有按摩、親親、抱抱及陪同參予家庭聚會與煮宵夜的紅利與福利，
> > 還有很好的升遷管道，可以升為老公、爸爸、阿公...等，這些絕對都是朋友部門所沒有的。
> >
> > 最後，因目前朋友部門沒有職缺，情人又是重要職務，
> >
> > 因此在未尋獲新人或職務代理人並完成交接前，
> >
> > 先將您轉調到備胎部門，這個部門的人員不需要每天面對老闆，應該可以暫時讓您的責任跟壓力不那麼大。
> >
> > 等情人職務有人可以交接時，可再將您轉調到地下情人部門，
> >
> > 當然若屆時朋友部門有缺也可轉調到朋友部門，或是您要離職也可以，當然自動離職是沒有遣散費的。
> > 謝謝您一年多來的努力...
> > 董事會成員代表敬上