back in taipei.. again.

monday morning got back from singapore not too long a go. touched down at about 2130hrs. i must say, the flight was great. expensive or not, SIA always does it for me. the service and the food was great. add to that the fact that the take off and landing was smooth, it was the near-perfect flight for me.

but that's besides the point. the past couple of days were a good break away from all things taiwan that i've grown to loathe (to a certain extent). of course the main objectives for going back were fulfilled. i've got most things sorted out and got a clearer picture of what else i need to prepare before i head for canberra.

other than school and work, it was a tad disappointing that i was unable to meet a certain few people (oh yes.. you know who you are..). but well. it was a pretty bad time to be back. exams for some of my uni friends, msk for some of my army and police friends, the usual what-nots that just crop up and spoil all the plans made in advanced. hah! oh well.

so yeah. back in taipei again. i feel that little bit more refreshed and energized. unfortunately, i have a naggy feeling it wouldn't last long. we'll see..

WFD!

sunday morning to the person who stole my newly bought creative mp3 player. please drop dead and die. else, i curse you WFD aka whole family die. i spent a good $199 on it and now you've taken it for free. f- you.

Easter!

sunday morning Easter mass was different. very different. but only in the hymns sung and the way things were done. other than that, what stood out today was the welcoming of first-timers to the church. so we all stood. that few of us. from all over the world. mexico, slovakia, united states, africa, india and yours truly from singapore. it was fun in some weird sense. but yeah. haha..

misplaced enthusiasm.

sunday morning it's not wrong to be enthusiastic about something. really, it isn't. admittedly though, i have a problem with people who are enthusiastic about something at the wrong time. but anyway, i'm too lazy to further explain what i mean.

much as i want to stay focused on work, it is getting increasingly difficult considering the time left is only so much. essentially i won't be in taipei for two weeks in april. so that leaves me with roughly 3 weeks worth of working days before i fly out of here. i must reiterate though, i will be back and i plan to be back in december or next january for a couple of days to visit some friends.

it's massively upsetting to be leaving a country you've been staying in for a year plus and leaving your friends behind. so i think coming back once in a while is the right thing to do. of course it all comes down to money - if i can afford it. hah.

but! on a brighter note. back in a couple of weeks, 6 to be exact.. can't wait.

and like how vincent put it, i should have an EOT celebration - i thought of it as a farewell party but okay. i guess EOT celebration works too. by the way, EOT means end of tour. hah!

吳克群 - 為你寫詩

愛情 是一種怪事 我開始全身不受控制
愛情 是一種本事 我開始連自己都不是
為你 我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是 為你寫詩

為你寫詩 為你靜止 為你做不可能的事
為你 我學會彈琴寫詞 為你失去理智
為你寫詩 為你靜止 為你做不可能的事
為你 彈奏所有情歌的句子 我忘了說 最美的是你的名字


愛情 是一種怪事 你的笑容是唯一宗旨
愛情 是一種本事 我在你心裡什麼位子
為你 我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是 為你寫詩

為你寫詩 為你靜止 為你做不可能的事
為你 我學會彈琴寫詞 為你失去理智
為你寫詩 為你靜止 為你做不可能的事
為你 彈奏所有情歌的句子 我忘了說 最美的是你的名字


為你寫詩 為你靜止 為你做不可能的事
為你 我學會彈琴寫詞 為你失去理智
為你寫詩 為你靜止 為你做不可能的事
為你 彈奏所有情歌的句子 我忘了說 最美的是你的名字

我什麼都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的名字
我什麼都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的樣子
我什麼都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的名字
我什麼都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的樣子

so close.

monday 39 more working days and i'm home for good. can't believe that a year has gone by so fast. before i know it i'll be off to canberra frying my brains again..

computer science and political science. what a combination. what a vast difference. and i'm wondering if i should still go for the double degree or just stick to computer science. hmm..

our greatest fear.

wednesday i posted this back in october 2006.. at least the version that was recited in the film coach carter... so here's the full one. written by marianne williamson.

--

our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
we ask ourselves,
who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented fabulous?

actually, who are we not to be?

you are a child of God.
your playing small doesn't serve the world.
there's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
we are all meant to shine, as children do.

we were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
it's not just in some of us
it's in everyone.

and as we let our light shine
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

as we're liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

assumptions.

tuesday afternoon i hate it when people make assumptions. like the tongue-in-cheek retort.. assumptions make an ass out of you and me.

i'm a bit put off by something that happened in the office just yesterday. a certain someone decided to make adidas windbreakers for everyone in the office because we had excess funds just before the closure of the financial work year here. so that's fine. but what i'm put off with (and i'm sure i'm not alone) is the fact that we were made to fork out NT$92 (about S$4) once the sizes and confirmation was all done. yes, it's only S$4. but it's our money after all. i think it's only fair that if we are to fork out money, we should be told in advanced and let us make up my minds as to whether or not we want to buy whatever the item may be. who are you to decide that i must pay the NT$92? it's irrelevant that someone higher gave the go ahead. the point is, information was withheld and you're making people pay money that they may not want to pay.

secondly, i'm a bit irritated with people asking me to run all over the place to help them buy this and that. yeah so what if i'm coming back soon? i've still got work to do and these two months are the busiest in the entire year. tough luck if i'm not able to get whatever it is for you. worse still, i hate those of you who put it as if i owe you that favor. well i don't and i never will. so don't try to msn or email me your requests. i'm not in the mood to entertain them.

and if you can't already tell, i'm highly annoyed today. so don't push your luck. i'll give you the most sarcastic of answers and i'll make sure they hurt. i'm sick and tired of being nice to everyone when clearly there are a lot of people who don't deserve being treated nicely.

ass.

1 year and 2 days

sunday evening it's been a very miserable week. came down with tonsillitis again. 3 days straight of high 39 degrees fever. i think miserable is an understatement. went to see the doctor twice, got 2 injections on the 2nd visit - one to bring down the fever and the other was an antibiotic. so today's day 5. recovering but not quite fast enough.

in any case. i spent my 1 year anniversary in bed. how pathetic is that? so yeah. that's it for the first week of march. spent most of it in bed. quite a blah way to start a month if you ask me.

and yes. home flight this month has been confirmed. will be back at some unearthly hour as is always the case with chartered flights but i'm not complaining. better than not at all. will have to draw up a list of things to do again. apparently i've got a lot of loose ends to tie up once again. not a very good thing to have if i'm going to spend a good part of the next 2 years (at least) overseas.

thinking about it, i've only been in singapore for not more than a month the past 1 year plus. add to that the fact that i'll be off for studies in canberra, i wonder how much time i'll actually get to spend in singapore at all. hmm.. but anyways, back to my porridge. sigh.

chill pill.

monday morning key word for the week: 忍

i can feel the frustration building up within me. for things beyond my control and purely for the fact because some people think i (and the rest of us) have nothing else better to do. it doesn't help that this week and next are the most crucial of the month due to the closure of the financial year. as it is, we're already neck-deep in work and now we've got unnecessary meetings to due with.

my goodness! time is better spent doing proper work rather than discussing things that are pittance! the government isn't paying us to meet and meet and talk. that's what people with nothing better to do do. they meet and talk just to pass time! aargh!

right. chill. yes.. i need to chill before i lash out on someone. or many someones for that matter.

忍!