tuesday morning won the game on saturday 4-3. literally put my body on the line. 1 injury per period. now that's what i call sacrifice. haha! 1st period got smacked in the mouth. got whacked in the eye in the 2nd and the 3rd almost sent me to the hospital. a straight whack to the adam's apple while blocking a slap shot. grr. high stick foul la ref! -_- next 4 games are killer games. hope i don't die. haha

prom's getting nearer. lots more to do and somehow everyone seems lethargic. even myself. i hate this limbo between graduation and NS. on the other hand it seems to be a good time for me to catch up on much needed sleep.

have to admit now i'm getting worried for friday's pilot test. hope i'll make the cut. psychomotor test and some other stuff. otherwise known as the "play computer game" test..

friends. how shitty it is when they ignore you most of the time only to come to you in their time of need. i'm not a charity. i can be very nice yes. but do not mistake that for me being easily manipulated and made use of. i hate it when people try to do that..
some people never change. hah. first they blame me for everything wrong and then the next thing you know it, they're attached again. wow. amazing. haha. grudges? nah. i just feel piffed about it. what a way to cheat peoples' feelings don't you think? two can play that game too ;)

that aside. looking forward to meeting up with mad on sunday with ivan. been a while. and ice cream treats next week. hoho. rene's sinful delight. =P

friday morning training was good. felt i played pretty well. anyhows. that aside. the atmosphere of training is starting to have some bad smell to it if you know what i mean. i'm starting to feel the strain of having to be neutral and it's worse when your friends are the ones that are involved. sometimes you don't know whether to stick your nose in for one friend or the other or just stay out of it.i guess we all need a wake up call once in a while and remind ourselves why we're playing floorball or even any other sport for that matter. like how wani put it a couple of nights back. everyone should just remember the days when we all first started out. when fun was the main thing. not who's better than who and who's in the wrong. fun. where's it now? sigh.

Asian Aerospace was a disappointment. was at cmpb for a medical that was faster than i thought. 1 hour instead of the predicted/expected 6 plus hours that my friends told me it would be. so rushed all the way to pasir ris to meet wani and aisyah. didn't exactly help that it was raining too. what a bore. think my face said it all. hahs.

Oasis concert was ok. went with shaun mel and widya. wasn't what i'd hoped it would be but it was still good. 7 out of 10 maybe.. great to hear the nice songs even nicer and 'live'.

anyways. tmr's going to be a big day. or night rather. tampines sports hall. 8pm. proving grounds. hopefully i make it past the 1st and maybe 2nd selections. no kidding myself. i know where i stand. i'm just greatful that i've been given the chacne to even try. hope i make the most of it. not very often a chance like this comes along. singapore flag on my jersey someday? never thought so. but i'll try. no harm right? hah. -_-

so what's so wrong or funny about liking someone from a different race and/or religion? i may have told myself last time that there are certain 'requirements' and stuff. but sometimes things cannot be controlled. feelings happen to be one of them. nevertheless. like i've said many times before. no one ever comes close to how i felt for a certain marilyn (hah) and maybe even chinx. no one. at least not yet.

wednesday morning a lot's happened the past couple of days. good and bad i suppose. haha. to start of. floorball's ok. played one of my best games in a long while against Motorola Red Flamingoes. lost 15-3 but heck. i'm satisfied with how i played and that's what matters most to me. the highlight of it all was on saturday. the letter that i've been waiting for:

Republic of Singapore Air Force. Pilot. Application accepted. Pilot placement test on 2nd March 0800hrs.

that's the summarised version of the letter. man. words can't describe how i felt when i saw that letter. funnily enough. i put pilot as my second choice in my application. hell. i'm not complaining. thank God! =) fulfilment of a childhood dream? i hope. i pray. one step in a long journey.

university. hah. i hope i'll get into Nanyang's Business (IT) program. if i had to choose that and SMU's Info. Systems Mgmt. course, i think i'll pick NTU. better still. i get accepted into the double degree program. will die together with shuren tianci choonyan ben and whoever else. hahaha. well. see how it goes. i guess most importantly as long as i get accepted into uni (any one will do!) i'll be more than pleased.

the future's in Your hands Lord

sunday week was pretty alright i guess. back to school for Viva on monday. end of it. end of school. hah. anyways. still got prom night to plan for and run. got floorball handover and my testimonials to chase after. blah blah. the usual works.
floorball wasn't all that great the past week. was pissed off on wed's training. friday's worse. the flare ups. the bitching and me getting my left thumb and right wrist (and knuckles) all busted up. can't bloody hold a stick properly nor can i type with my right hand effectively. and oh. league game was a joke. took the lead 4 times only for merahans to equalise. what the hell. and oh. they won it 6-4 by the way. how charitable of us. pissed.
anyhows. saturday was the only good day i think. after refereeing with emily. went on down to serangoon gardens to meet rene brandon and reena at chomp chomp. ate and sat there talkin till about 12-ish.. went to rene's house after that. man. HUGE. -cue jaw dropping- so reena stayed at rene's place while brandon came over. soccer on tv all night. winning eleven and epl. haha..

monday afternoon had a long two week. chinese new year, went to sharon goh's house, floorball training, peicheng's steamboat dinner, yiwen's birthday party, open house, league, preparing for Viva, planning the melbourne trip. it's all done. julian's left for sydney, sarah's leaving again at the end of the month. well well. australia's the 'in' thing for alot of students eh? hopefully i'm not heading that way though. smu or ntu would do just nice.

think i'm starting to find my form in floorball. played a very good game on sunday against salibandy. won it 6-1.

think i'll have to start printing and filling in uni application forms. and start preparing for NS. hahaha!

mentally tired from all the work
physically tired from all the training
hungry.going off to buy lunch.

thursday morning wednesday was fantastic. up and about early to head to school for some open house briefing before heading to town to meet the one and only sarah tan. haha

pick up line of the year (or word): zimbabwe.
that's how it all started. the memories that have been split into four sections; namely the "before", "happy times", "unhappy times" and the "after". sometimes when i look back. i wonder how things would have turned out. anyhows. had a great time. didnt do much except chilling out. wanted to catch a movie but all the timings were weird. so forget it. hehs. oh wells..more for the memories =)