friday singapore 7 hungary 6 (0-1, 5-4, 2-1)
so s'pore is through to the semis. 2 wins and a lost (to russia. 11-4. hammered.) would be great to see them make it to the finals too. haha!
anyways. thursday was a crazy day with regards to training. yazid had severe muscle spasms and we had to send him to hospital. so called 1777 and waited. ran in the rain to get the paramedics up to the grandstand. so went to NUH with emily sue nanda cedrick and jason esli. hope nothing like that happens again in NPFB.
so yup. selections. we've got our 23 but the comm's going to cut it down to 22 or even 21. so there'll be more cuts. unfortunately we're disagreeable on who to cut (no names mentioned here). but it'll have to be done by next friday. need to pass on names to gerald. get jacket sizes and collect jersey money. all the work. -.-

countdown to 'break' - 28 days

thursday morning latest news: netherlands 7 singapore 10 (1-3, 1-1, 5-6)

looks like the young guns of singapore floorball made a good start. from what i can make out from the dutch site is that we were up 2-0 within 3 minutes. cool.

anyhows. everything's thinking it's toll on me. will be taking a break sometime in november for about a week. don't really feel like coming online this few days. no idea why.. sigh.

it hurts

98 Degrees - Why (Are We Still Friends)

We do almost everything that lovers do
And that’s why it’s hard, just to be friends with you
Every time your heart is broken by the fool
I want you to know that it hurts me too
It’s hard to wipe your tears away (tears away)
Knowing that you should be with me
Now tell me why

[CHORUS:]

Why – why are we still friends
When everything says
We should be more than we are
And tell me why every time I find
Someone that I like
We always end up just being friends (Just Being Friends)

I would hate for you to find somebody new
Who you really love, cause it would mean losing you
But am I a fool girl not to say
If I’m always scared I’ll lose you anyway
Somehow somewhere I’ve got to choose (got to choose)
No matter if it’s win or lose
Now tell me why

[CHORUS]

I don’t wanna be like your brother
I don’t wanna be your best friend
I only wanna be your lover
When will this end
If I told you that I wanna be in your life
Then you could be the woman in mine

[CHORUS x2]

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so there. another sleepless night (thus the blogging at 10.15am when i would normally be sleeping). so here's more rantings and stuff.
well. basically it's all as it says in the song. another bit from another song:

"There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away"

guess i don't really know what to say. the pain is barely bearable. but hey. at least there's a chance. new year's. valentines'. prom night even. oh well. the never-ending wait for that special someone. the feeling sucks. really.


I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see

complaints screw ICT's eLogbook shit. doesnt work for nuts. i'm only getting "DNS Error - Contact Administrator". eat shit and die goddamnit. for a school that teaches computer systems and server admin etc. they can't even get their own systems working properly. wassup with that? been trying to log in for the past 40 minutes (almost) and it's always one of two results:
1. page loads really slow. and POOF. "dns error"
OR
2. page goes straight to "dns error" or "bad gateway". and as always "contact administrator". damnit.

thursday 20 years old! and not getting any younger! hah! anyhows. birthday was great. would have been better if it werent for ihp. had to be in school on tuesday. so yup. that was the only spoiler i guess. anyhows. the girls team sang me a song but tried to kill me after that by lining up and shooting at me. saw that coming :P hehe. so then. had dinner with my family and my sister's boyfriend. ate loads. parents bought cookies and cream ice cream cake from swensons. so it was all good. been fun so far. still a little high over the stuff i got. man utd jersey, PSP and others. met brandon and reena yesterday to celebrate again, belatedly but who cares? haha

happy birthday to the following october babies (belated or otherwise. haha!)
chinx- my 'da jie' who sings songs on the phone. hahaha =)
rachel- long lost friend. wonder where you are.. hmmmm
dyls- lil' sis from heaven/hell/everywhere else. haha! happy studyin ya As =x
hilmi- linemate and joker
yvonne- my fellow 18th oct baby :) have fun in england!
eugene- eGarage friend! movie tickets please? haha
matthew- gayish friend! haha
audrey- erm. french class friend? haha. (geri/ulf/amilin: you didnt see this)
jeremiah- wassup bro! java 3d aint that bad. it just sucks bad. haha

ok. see what i mean? i'm high. -_- anyways. its back to the real world now. ihp's progress is painfully slow though i'm almost 3/4 done with my planning/building of the server-side system. just need to know how to link it to ivan's portion of the project: the gps system. hmmm. shank + shuren. help please. haha =D

saturday friday was great. woke up real late. 3.45pm to be exact. haha! anyhows. went for coaching course before meeting up with delin shank shuren shaun ben ivan. got my first few birthday presents. haha. a bloody blue g-string from topshop which i had to parade around the stretch of road/walking lanes from paragon to tangs. went to starbucks after that. sat around and just talked till 12. and oh. thanks to them all. i've got my first ever man utd jersey. complete with number 18 and "Jase" printed on it. thanks guys =) sent deline home after that. great fun with her around and was a joy sending her home. -grin- got home. talked to her more on the phone after that before i attempted to sleep. found myself staring at the ceiling till around 3.30am before i finally dozed off.
so saturday came. went to peixin primary school for my coaching course exam. think i did ok for the lesson plans and theory (though i think i'll get penalised abit for missing one or two key points). not sure about the skills assessment test though. got screwed on the physio component as well as the sweep pass. like deline said. pray hard. haha! as it is right now, watching man utd's game. what a laugh the way they scored their goal. well, back to the second half now.

a tribute to friends and other ramblings

every once in a while you sit down and reflect upon what has been your life so far. be it in sports, academics and whatnots, sometimes all that matters most are those that surround you.

i've been blessed with wonderful friends. friends that i'll never be grateful enough for. sometimes i feel i've let them down.aight.

firstly, a big thank you to sue for the testimonial on friendster. you're probably one of a few who can really see through me, one of those who can appreciate people for who they are, BEYOND what they project as a person, be it an arrogant one (as i've been alot of times) or someone who pretends to be humble (which i'm not. i'm just stating the other extreme). at the same time, friends like marilyn and chinx always stay around. sarah and shank. shuren ivan and fengnan. every now and then whackos like shaun and ben come along to make things a little bit more fun. floorball people like yazid zak nanda emily and dennis. yingzhao and mel also. i appreciate the fact that every single one of you know how much floorball means to me, the passion for the sport is there for me. maybe too much passion is a bad thing but hey. that's what it's all about isn't it?

i harbor no hopes of making the national team. but maybe, just maybe, with hardwork and continuous training, i'll get there someday. that much i promised dennis and emily. but for now. all i want to do for the remaining months in NP is to make NPFB as good as possible. fahmi cedrick and brandon fortunately share the same vision as me. i'll be eternally grateful to them for all the help. and like sue said, i'll stick my neck out, going beyond what i'm supposed to do to get NPFB to a level where it's never been. and i guess i'm quite successful so far. all the writing's on the wall: boards, new equipment, first ever training camp, coach for the guys and soon enough, due recognition and credit for the girls coach. and to top it off, in january, i want a winners medal in the IVP to end my NP floorball career..

in God's name i place my faith and trust. my promises i make in His name. i'll put my mind and body on the line for the team now till IVP ends. i just pray and hope that everyone else is with me...

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floorball aside. there's been alot of things that's been happening the past couple of days, really hard to concentrate on ihp and even floorball (guess it was evident during the TP game). need to dig in and get on with it. oh. yesterday night was cool. talked to yvonne again after a long long long long long time. seems like she's enjoying life alot in england. haha. oh well. looking to go there again next year before enlistment. but first. i want to go to sweden. partly because i want to buy some stuff there but also because i want to try to watch the floorball games there. would be really interesting.

tree - she don't believe! hahaha! siao liao.
the usual gang - FRIDAY!

saturday exam results as follows:

World Issues: A Singapore Perspective - AD
Systems Security - C+
Audio and Video Fundamentals and Editing - B+
Web Server Administration and Security - B+
Professional Issues - C+

i guess i did pretty ok. disappointed with AVFE and WSAS though. thought could get an A. heh.

anyway. had a game against TP just now. a culmination of stress, lack of sleep and my ever turbulent temper caused me to get a 2 minute interference penalty and a 5 minute "unsportsmanlike behavior" for retaliating to a holding/hooking + tripping foul on me. oh well. learn it the hard way again. need to control my temper man. i really do. hais. anyway. game was pretty alright. got fouled pretty bad a hell lot of times so i guess thats why i lost it. so yup. for the 3rd time this year, apologies to all floorballers. drew with them 3-3. well. at least FC Squirrels did. wonder if this is the last game for me with FCSQ. i'm still stuck in a limbo over whether to transfer or not.. and oh. new eye candy from TP floorball! haha.

thursday morning work work and more work. all bogged down with floorball work, APAC planning soon to start as well. and as it is, 2nd week of IHP and we've yet to do anything. God help us. the upside is at least we've got an idea (i think) of how we want to approach it

anyhows. watching Love Actually on cable now. the soundtrack's absolutely wonderful. of course the instrumentals are always nicer (especially the one where the small kid runs past airport security to say bye to a girl). a very good example of how good background music can stir up emotions even for a love-comedy movie. not that i'm tearing or crying. but well, i've seen people who have. of course there's the unforgetable seen of the writer who flies all the way to france or spain (i think) to propose to a girl who was his maid. the whole restaurant scene was fantastic. maybe i'll do that someday to someone. hah. but as it is. i just want to run up and tell her words that may never leave my mouth just because i'm scared of telling her. damnit. i'd go skydiving, jumping out of perfectly good airplanes and helicopters, putting my limbs to the risk playing ice hockey but i dare not say a whole sentence. DAMN IT.

ANYWAYS. 20th october there'll be no training. em and i decided to take the guys out for a movie outing. hahaha. will have to confirm the number of people asap and get the tickets bought. will be watching the soccer movie Goal!. caught the extended trailer of it on cable. looks good. and exactly the kind of show to inspire the guys to perform as best as they can for IVP. another one we're thinking of showing to them is Miracle and Remember the Titans. the things you do to inspire your team-mates. haha. quote: "jason. you and your ideas". right. they work don't they? haha :)

so results will be out in 8 hours and 40 minutes time. think i'll do ok. but i have this sneaky feeling i won't do as well as i hope. but oh well. nothing i can do now, no regrets. so i'll just have to wait.

shank, shuren, shaun, ben - muddys this sat! watch england game also! =D samy's curry next friday! =D~
delin - take care yar? cheer up too
ivan - howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww... outsource?
fengnan - enjoy your trip bro =)

monday woke up early (well ok. 10am) to head down to tampines. met up with zak suhardi fahmi hilmi khien and emily to pick up the temporary boards from ite tampines and australia international school. the journey from ite to ais in the back of the truck was hillarious. em sat in the front so she didnt know what we did (i think). played 'shadow floorball' and did actual warm-up excercises and stuff. laughed all the way to ais. oh. while waiting almost 2 hours for the truck to come to ite, em was having a ball of a time seeing how we entertained ourselves. hahaha.

anyway. IVP selection. well. i can only say there will be a fair bit of surprises. some deservedly so others, well.. i guess i'm not allowed to say. but as far as that goes, at least 10 people are already confirmed, will have to sit down with em and the selection comm to discuss the remaining 12 spots for the team.

was talking to fahmi at BK this morning before heading to ite. the idea to have another camp in december came up because quite frankly, the training camp that just ended, was more of a bonding and get-to-know session for the guys team; not sure about the girls though. so we thought that having a really intensive floorball-only camp in december would do us some good

so the day went on. went back to school with the truck to store the boards. after which, the guys left for makan. so em and i decided to waste as much time as possible before heading for the coaching course. met najib at clementi. somehow we were still early (damn it!). anyway. played games today. wasnt really feeling too good so i kinda screwed up the tactical play. 2-1-2 + wiper. shit man. wanted to vomit and felt kinda giddy too. but pressed on anyway. stefan was nagging all the time. grr. think i'll take a break this week from floorball. really need to rest up.

oh. still considering moving clubs. brandon and em want me to go back to MI. so if i do, i'll be in Skools Floorball. the 2nd div 1 team of MI. i'm up for the challenge of playing in div 1 but at the same time i feel obligated to play for FC Squirrels at least for one more season especially now that we've secured sponsorship. but to a certain extent, i want to move up one more level. i feel like i'm quite stagnant now. apart from improving my passing and movement as well as shooting. i don't see how much more i can really improve. of course, as dennis said. i can and should aim to be the best player in the team. well. as far as that goes. i won't say i'm the best but i think i'm one of the hardest working players and of course i never give up.. so. the question still begs. to transfer or not to transfer?

sunday training camp's over. what a relief. everything went as well as i could have asked for. even better at times. sure. we lost the 2 friendly games we had. but it didnt matter. we achieved our goals of trying out new formations and tactical play. more importantly, we had fun. loads of it. it was funny to see us applauding just about everything. and oh. we've got ourselves a team name now: NP Scarecrows. hahaha. all thanks to Emily's training and 'torture' sessions. hahaha. was great fun all in all. now that its all over, the usual "that was fast" feeling is setting in. wished it could be longer. then again it it were any longer, i'd lose more hair and my blood pressure would probably see a ten-fold increase. hah! but anyways. thanks to the following people:

sue najib and yazid for always providing encouragement
amilin for being the comic relief. ahaha. 2 VPs always bickering. tsktsk
aisah amalina zhiwei filbert and whoever else helped out in logistics. did a fantastic job
shahmen zak nanda karthik ulf and khien for helping me out with the admin, collection of money and indemnity forms. additionally, nanda and karthik for listening to my rantings and complaints. haha! and for defending me against imbeciles who comment but make no effort to help
emily and debbie for helping make the guys team more structured and making the guys team more fun to be in now
alvin and boon for the late night soccer chats. haha! 3-2 was crazy.

so yup. it's all over. probably the final thing i'll do in my capacity as VP for NP Floorball. i've done more than my fair share. getting in the boards, the new equipment, emily as coach and this camp. i've no regrets about it. sure, i've been pissed off with just about everything but in the end, its all worth it. for now i'm quite pleased with things. two things left i have to do though. help with the final IVP selection and then selection of the new committee. after that, my time as VP is over. next year, i'll be back as coach (with Emily i hope). a whole new challenge awaits.