thursday had a pretty slack day in school.drifted from psp2 practical to mma lecture.headed to canteen 3 for lunch.met up with t13 peeps as usual.set and talked abit.went to level 7 to look for mr melvin tan.collected my birthday party's photos from last year as well as our immf files.boy were they heavy.total load: 5kg on my left shoulder (laptop and textbooks) 3+kg in my hands.definitely not good for my weak neck.still suffering a little of the effects from the whiplash.slept through evp lesson.woke up to reply an sms and went back to sleep before os started.did linux scripting (which is basically unix)..pretty easy.tutor challenged us to solve a file sorting thing in 5 min.so won that.and the prize? 5 nougarts -shakes head in disbelief- but oh well :P just living day to day. [ft: s'pore 1 japan 2]

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

wednesday think day was pretty fine.went for ocom and s&w.tennis as usual ended early cos of lightning and rain.it almost always seems to rain at 3pm on tuesdays.so headed to the snack bar to grab a drink and kill off 2 hours before training started.but met sarah instead.saw her sitting at a table alone.so decided to sit with her.she looked pretty tired as usual.silly girl always sleeps late.talked a little while before i did my own stuff.practiced my no-look dribbling.but was totally off.wasnt focused cos my mind was in a whirl.so many things i want to say to her.but realising its pointless.-shrugs-like i said.somethings will never be the same again.stopped after 10-15 minutes (i think).so sat across her and i guess we started talkin about just about everything except what happened yesterday.guess it served us well.helped us get back on track to when things werent different.just read a little something she was writting when i met her.i wont say what she wrote.but all i'll say is this. if i had known how she felt last october..things would definitely be different..cried a little when i read it all.i'm rereading that part over and over.but what's done is done.if i could turn back the hands of time and made my move.i'd give just about anything to do so.now that almost all's been said and done.i guess i'll be around.always watching over cos thats all i can do now.ming yao asked.will i hang on or will i let go.i guess i'll hang on for now.false hope maybe? who knows? God works in mysterious ways.still hoping we'd watch The Passion of Christ together.. -

in silence the gentle wind blows
in darkness the deafening silence holds
a void to fill
a life to feel
a dream that seemed so real
a love that you had to kill
a wound i have that is hard to heal...

-12.01am

tuesday 9.30am now.cried myself to sleep.nothing new.had a good talk with mel in irc and with my mum when i came home last night.perhaps it was for the better.perhaps us being best buds is enough.i'll live to find that out wouldnt i? but it still irks me that we didnt try.but now that's over.i'll try to move on.managed to talk to her as if we were still status quo.but it was different.i duno how best to say this.but the difference.i guess is only internal. 9.32am. tears rolling down my face.the comfort of friends and family helps sometimes but not this time.mel asked if i knew the true meaning of love.and going by her definition then i supposed i've lived and loved two in my 18+ years.and for all the shit that i've been through this year.this definitely doesnt help one bit.but i'll be stronger.i'll take it as guys should.so for now the acting goes on.i'll act alright and try to move on.but everything's different now.everything's changed

I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back to me
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday
Waiting for someday Believing in someday
Praying for someday, I'll be....
Longing for someday Clinging to someday
Cherishing someday, I'll be....
Thinking of someday Dreaming of someday
Wishing for someday, I'll be....
Living for someday Counting on someday
Knowing that one day....
I will see you

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There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

monday march 29th 2004.epitomises "monday blues".literally.woke up late for bis.so rushed down to school in a cab only to find out tt lesson was canceled.wasted $10.80.and from there it just went all downhill.contrary to what i posted this morning.i guess my hunch was spot on.controlled alot till i made it to psp2 class at 3pm.somehow.it just all came out.perhaps its with the knowledge that i had a bunch of friends to fall back on.simply broke down at egarage.so to cut it all down as much as possible.i was wasting my time.i was playing the fool.and for the 2nd time in a year.i'm either too late or just plain too fucked up for anyone.so i've been there for her for past what? almost 4 months? i guess at least now my questions are answered.feelings are "can cry" and "ignorance is bliss".but i'll pass on the ignorance bit.it just wouldnt be fair to her.but coming to fairness.when was life ever fair? having honestly loved that girl for who she is and for all that she's given me (not materially).i get my ass handed to me on a platter.and now what? i have no idea.she's the 2nd girl i've loved alot..and lost.but i guess its all part of growing up isnt it? love's never fair and i dont expect it to be fair to me anytime soon.so best wishes to her and jon.i'm just plain sorry and disappointed that for all the potential we had.we didnt give us a try.


Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

monday morning last post was.in my opinion.very bitchy and obsessive.so i have to apologise to everyone.sarah especially.sze wei chris and my parents.my parents cos i made their sunday rather miserable at funan.but as always.questions remain unanswered.so anyhows.had my hair cut in the morning.went to funan with my parents.dad wanted to get a desktop replacement.headed down to great world city and ikea after that before going to school's busstop to meet weiren kenneth and jason (who's always late).went to swiss club to see SCPF vs NUS and SCRF vs NTU.took a cab down to chijmes to catch the last bit of newcastle v bolton and arse(holes)nal v man utd.pretty tired now.so i just might crash after i hit the sack.

thanks to the following people for helping me out in psp2:

sarah-for staying up till the wee hours of the morning and helping me out and for being who you are
sangar-for insightful tips and for helping me debug one error which i swear i couldnt have seen if you didnt point it out
yiwen-great senior buddy.thanks for helping me check my program
sze wei and chris- for helping me chill out on saturday and sunday
parents- for pushing me to finish up my assigment


now's time to get my BIS and EVP done.shouldnt be too much of a hassle.shouldnt.



i feel i've said things i shouldn't have on sunday at 1:37:41am
i feel i shouldn't have doubted on saturday 6:47:--pm
i feel terrible on monday at 1:32:44am

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Nine Days - If I Am

sunday morning just got home from chijmes.was watching birmingham v leeds and chelsea v wolves..psp2 walkthrough was surprisingly easier than expected.polympics..well.i guess 3rd place is a pretty good result.got banged up a little.back and right foot.so went out with chris szewei jolene sengkee.went to queensway and town.ended up at far east plaza cos chris wanted to cut his hair.after jolene left. we ended up some chinese-muslim makan place (called chahaya i think) to eat claypot rice.and then my heart sank.literally.saw her with a friend.shouldnt mean much but i think too much.so i've been abit bothered by that ever since.it's pretty stupid i think.i mean.i love that girl loads.so what? perhaps i'm thinking too much.paranoid if you want to call it that way.but i'm just worried that it'll end up with me getting my ass handed to me on a platter when i find out that i've got no chance at all.really sucks big time.told chris and sze wei just now.the feelings are all mixed and can be described in one or two ways: "can cry" and "can die"..it seems like i'm so near yet so far from where i hope things will go..-hands to heaven- -buries face in hands- wonder if what yiwen asked me last time round was a hint of sorts.-sigh-

The Moffatts - Misery

thursday morning just realised my blog's background's disappeared into oblivion.no problem.doesnt bother me as much as psp2.-grr-so anyhows.going to edwin's house later for meeting to decide what antioch should do for its 10th anniversary.slept at 1.30am.was up all day doing psp2.realised that i made alot of stupid mistakes.today shall be no different =|

sarah- hey thanks for helpin me out.sorry for holdin you back on your sleep ;)
xr- yo bro.chill man.there's alwaz "Javacat" in irc #Java-Help..haha
szewei- u keep takin my program for wad.no point loe..
it15- GO AND DIE YOU UNGREATFUL BUNCH OF INGRATES

Dishwalla - Candleburn

on Vineland past the candle shrine that burns on every night
for someone
she lets herself go
like an angel in the snow
she lays down on her back
down on her back - she goes

take me over when I'm gone
take me over make me strong
take me over when I'm gone
will they burn for me

on Vineland past the candle shrine that melts into the street design
she waits - for someone
tonight she'll give herself away
she'll break apart all by herself
its so easy how we come undone

take me over when I'm gone
take me over make me strong
take me over when I'm gone
will they burn for me

she pulls me in - strips me down
she pulls me in - turns me out
she pulls me in - strips me down

take me over when I'm gone
take me over make me strong
take me over when I'm gone
will they burn for me
will they burn for me

wednesday evening have been doing psp2 since 3pm.guess it's not helping my head.hah! oh what the hell.swore to get it done by friday so i'll just stick with it and do what i can. -sigh-

her- stop sleeping late la -preaches about sleeping early- -frowns-
xr- damnit.600 plus lines and i cant see the end nor can i see 800 anytime.how the hell hit 900+? -sigh-
marilyn- hey.hope ya feelin better :)

so if you want to love me.then darling don't refrain.or i'll just end up walking in the cold november rain

sunday got home from about an hour ago.had the national floorball challenge at taka today.was pretty good though we started off wrongly.got kicked into the loser's pool from the very first match.lost to team taz..4 national players.but 1-0 was a pretty good scoreline.i'd admit we were outplayed but they didnt exactly deserve the win.i had 2 long shots hit the post and missed a total sitter.after that.we barged out way to the quarterfinals before being knocked out by sgs-something.was abit unlucky on that.cos when the final whistle was blown.the other team scored.so was pretty piffed by that.but no complaints though.quarterfinals was a good result i think.heh.made good on my promise to joy quek that i'd score.almost fulfilled my target of more than 5 games (played 5.winning 3 losing 2).so i guess it's pretty ok.need to rest alot though.got banged up a little bit.tmr onwards..psp2..got no more time to waste

sarah- hehe.whack summore la :P
szewei- u cockster..sitting there so nice oso cannot find me?
xr- help.psp2.help

friday night ok.so i do have whiplash..hope it wont get any worse though.got myself 7 days medical leave but quite obviously i cant make use of all 7 days of it because of psp2 assignment (of which i've only gotten 10-15% done)..so went back to school after seeing doc alex to do some mma.met with sarah and just hung around till her lesson started.waited for her before heading to clementi central for hot fudge sundae (feelin guilty yet? ;) haha) at macdonalds.chatted abit before taking the train back together.made a couple of observations:
-she is damn good company to be with
-i have a damn low voice (no one seems to be able to hear me)
-i have a tendency to eavesdrop on people's conversations
-she makes my insides go soft
-i dunno if love's the word to use

point is.i'm dead serious.and i'm not going to let anyone stand in my way -glares-

:D

friday morning had mma test yesterday.was pretty ok.spent more time doin animation than scripting though.but was hillarious.got back my BIS paper too.got a disappointing B+..but oh wells..so anyhows..went to send off mohan and rene just now.and when we left house.turned out of our place and onto the main road..and got rear-ended by a car who was rear-ended by another.impact was hard.hit my head against the seat rest and it hurts like hell now.got a mild case of whiplash so i'll be seeing doctor alex for the 3rd time in 2 weeks..hope it'll get better though.dont wanna end up in hospital =| -scared- damn woman driver -gRRR!- and oh yeah! might be going new zealand by business class sometime in june..had some offer in the newspapers that my parents are takin a keen interest in.so would be cool to take business class -grin- can imagine the air hostess "what would you like for dinner mr shen? red wine perhaps?" wahahahah -dreams- gotta go now..head's pounding.

wednesday now now.psp2.hah.just started today..did the skeleton only and its already 133 lines long..feeling quite tired mentally.duno wad to write man. =| floorball carnival's on sunday.looking forward to it.more immediately..my team's in polympics finals (jason vasan andre joey myself)..hmm..what else..oh.. mma practical test is tmr..its a goner more or less.no one has a clue about it.neither am i.hah! -bang wall- -calls marilyn- -bang wall again- -talks to sarah- -talks to sangar- i'm bonkers -.-

wee hours of sunday morning anyway.decided to do an extended entry.thursday was pretty ok 'cept for the sms-es i got from cedrych..was abit of a shocker..was on mc on wed and thurs cos my eyes were quite bad and was sufferin from a bout of flu.met cedge tham and tham's gf later in the evening for dinner and went to orchard library to watch sherman aaron adam and donovan perform.stick broke during tuesday's training (slashing incident that saw 5 sticks break..amazing).so was desperate to get another one before my friendly match.borrowed $100 from my sister to help cover the cost.gotta collect $136 from daren (npfb captain) asap.went to tiasa with jason on wed.nothing was ready so i went back on thurs with weiren.got the canadien avenger.pretty light and good ball control too.so went back on friday to get it hooked.but daren (tiasa) wasnt in so i couldnt get my bracket hook.joy quek was in though.so she did it for me.was pretty good.and friday was pretty much revolved around tiasa.shop was pretty crowded.6 to 7 st gabs pple.3 bt merah sec girls.5 sp guys.so when i arrived.helped joy tend the shop while she went to the ladies.felt as though i was working there.was pretty funny cause we both were sort of flirting with each other in front of everyone on purpose (like hello! i'm 19 this year.she's probably what? 25? 27 at most?) so was laughing my ass off when i went home.but she really isnt as bad as most people think.i guess you cant really judge a book by its cover.so anyway.spent friday night talking to yiwen (mostly) on msn about what my friends would call "the sarah situation".i guess to a certain extend she's right.maybe i have to bid my time and just see what gives.yet at the same time.i'm begginin to feel for marilyn again how i felt last time.feelings never die now do they? -shrugs- but what matters most now is sarah.but to be perfectly honest and open.without lying to anyone.what i felt for/with marilyn..well.lets just say i might never feel it again.was almost perfect that time.but like i said.sarah.she gives me the same feelin too.i'm crossing my fingers that things will work out.and i'm hopin that i'm not goin to blow this chance

sunday morning parents coming home today.so hopefully they bought my tshirts.hehe.anyhows.had a friendly match today.lost 4-5 to merahans.but wasnt a bad result for me.played pretty well.created 6 chances in all and nobody connected to score.so was actually quite pissed that 6 clear cut chances werent taken.but i guess it really showed how rusty alot of us are because of the 2 week break we had thanks to the common tests.so this coming week's gonna be packed.tuesday and thursday will be having the polympics.a possible friendly match with uwc on wednesday or saturday..so floorball week.hoho :D

marilyn- haha.win one lose two..tsktsk.lost to rjc?
sangar- oi.send psp2 assignment over ;)
it15- i give up teachin u all la.waste my time =x

i'm very bothered.cedge's friend saw her with a guy.she said that was her bf.-shakes head in disbelief-now i'm confused.haven't a clue what the hell's goin on.rain's pretty heavy now.only adds to the gloom.i sure as hell hope it ain't true if not it'll be another heartbreaker.and God knows i'm not so keen on experiencing another one this quick.
-sigh-

98 Degrees - Why Are We Still Friends

monday raining all day.what else can i say? wasnt a fantastic day.got back my OS results.did as well as i hoped.got 96%.but somehow some people still get 98 -glares at sangar- so anyhows.got to install my usb bluetooth thing.quite cool to play with.accidentally deleted some crack for the fifa that i installed on my n-gage.so now i'm gameless on my phone. -grr- eyes giving me alot of problems.think i really gotta see a doctor soon.get some eyedrops and be done with it.tmr's even week.so i've got iac.and well lets see.it'll be only my 3rd time in iac class? hah.skipped too many already.but hell.its an is module.hardly anyone gives a damn about it.frankly.i think its a waste of time.getting hounded by my dad to sleep.so off i'll go.but definitely not to sleep.got some reading to do.-waves Tom Clancy's book around-

sunday i'm surprised at myself sometimes.today was one of those days.i managed to wake up to watch formula one..so bummed around at home till f1 ended.ferrari one-two finish.schumacher barricello (i think thats how its spelt) alonso (renault).. so went to funan center.was looking for a usb bluetooth adapter and a usb video capture card..got the bluetooth adapter at $79 and put on hold the VCC..cost $250+ ..realised later that my dad got one free somehow somewhere..so i didnt have to buy..BUT..my lunch was a killer..had sakae sushi again.my goodness.was terrible.had the usual tuna prawn egg and what-nots.then the STUPID touchscreen order thing made me pissed off..cos i ordered 2 plates of of the fried scallops thing ..and it didnt come..so i thought the order didnt get through..so i happily ordered 3 plates this time round.and when it came.damnit.ALL 5 plates came at the same time..meaning 15 scallops! so forced myself to down 6 of it..the other 9 i packed it up and brought it to my class bbq..met my class people at giant supermarket at parkway parade to buy wire mesh and thongs.oh.marshmellows too..took mike's car to east coast..so helped set up the pit and all..rented a bike for 2 hrs with alphonsus and hakim..cycled to 7-11 to buy charcoal (twice!) and ice..so cycled to bedok jetty..hung around for almost 20 min just talking about school with alphonsus..funny how time really flies..seemed just like yesterday when we were all strangers..and what emily said is kinda true..by next july we'd be year 3s..oh man..i feel old..so anyhows..went back to join the gang after making a 2nd trip to 7-11 (literally sprinted all the way there and back..legs gonna give way tmr i'd bet) ..had bee hoon sambal sausage and crabstick..chicken wings with honey and bbq sauce..talked to emily abit about school (again!?) and our silly lives since last july..friends we made and all that..so much for bonding session huh? haha. went to macs afterthat..bought myself 2 cups of hot fudge sundae (sarah.hahaha) and cornetto (the cone thing from walls)..walked back from macs to the pit and arrived just in time to...pack up.. -grr- took a cab home with alphonsus after that...started to rain and all..so we ran from ecp all the way to marine parade..where we were lucky enough to get a cab as it dropped off a family..have no idea who'd be going school tmr though..i figure alot of us would be there..but we wouldnt have the mood to study..besides..we aren't looking forward to our common tests results now are we? ;)

sunday morning -stretches- ahh..woke up at 2.45pm on saturday..woah..that'll probably in my top-10 for waking up in the afternoon.so anyhows..played lord of the rings: return of the king on my xbox..had to clean it first though.collected alot of dust since i last played..completed the 2nd last stage and then moved on to Top Spin tennis.haha..kicked Pete Sampras's ass..6-2 6-0 7-6..thumb hurts like hell now..dinner followed at New Taiwan Porridge Restaurant.went to celebrate Mohan's 50th (i think) birthday..anyhows..if anyone's wondering.Mohan's a family friend.works for the UN in switzerland and knows my family for 30 or more years now..so we're kinda close..dad bought him a digi cam and 64MB memory card to go along with the free 16MB..drank Italian red wine..one of the finest i've ever drank.EVER.sweet and smooth..bill came up to almost $130 or $150..cant rememeber..but was pretty decent counting the number of dishes we had..so 8 of us..dad mum mohan rene (another family friend.he's from switzerland) sis my sis's bf (commando fella.but don't look like one..) and myself..laughed our butts off quite abit..so was pretty enjoyable a dinner..took a cab home with my mum cos my dad had to send mohan rene and my sis bf home..all stayin in bishan..caught the last 10 min of man utd vs fulham..not much except at least their back to their winning ways..2-1 it ended..

sarah- hey you.you're fine the way you are.doesn't matter what people think of you as long as you know that you're being yourself.nothing to hide and unafraid.like you said.you're who you are.you present yourself as who you are.nothing's going to change that and i don't expect you to.i don't suppose anyone expects you to as well..Joey McIntyre's song..Stay the Same..remember that?
shank- ok.so your blog's up..xia lan la.haha...your own blog system..shankster la...blogxter not nice..
marilyn- hope you found what you wanted? (the pharmacy thing)
it15- i have not the darnest clue what the hell you are all gonna do from 3.30pm to 11pm..and how you all are going home after that...and no..my house has no space.. =x

friday got home about an hour and a half ago.so BIS was a stroll in a park..well..mostly..am sure i've secured myself at least a B+..would be terribly disappointed if i got anything less than that..so anyhows..went out with sangar+aisha.xiangzhong.owen.chris.jason.floyd.jolene.had to wait for chris to come out of some rubbish feedback session.so we didnt leave school until around 1 or 1.30..journey in the bus was BAD.stuffy.walked quite abit at heeren and basically whole of orchard.caught Butterfly Effect at cine.so here's the summary of the show:

1. thriller vs comedy: i was laughin for almost 50% of it
2. overused words: "sick fuck" "he's twisted" "kiddie porn" "what the fuck" "stop it" "i'll kill you"
3. basically the guy (evan) has some brain damage.has memory lapses (called "flashes" in the show) and everytime that happens.something important is missing in his head.so he writes a journal on doctor's advice.and when he's 19 or 20 (count the years) he realises that he can go back in time to change his past by reading his journal and paying attention to it.so he does it a total of 5 or 6 times.each time having one of his friends killed/his mom sick and even himself armless (-cue "what the fuck's this?!-) so finally.(-cue Oasis' Stop Crying Your Heart Out-) he goes back to when he first met the love of his life and forces himself to tell her to piss off (not literally of course).and everything turns out fine (aka. girl doesnt know him.so non of the shit will happen).show ended with Stop Crying Your Heart Out as background and him walking out of his office and walking past guess who? the love of his life! they stop to see each other but he walks on..quite a sad ending (because of the song and all) because most of us expected him to turn around and intro himself all over again and get the girl.but no..it just didnt happen.

so when the show ended with the song.everyone was practically singing the song.was quite amusing.cause i was singing along too.haha..walked around even more after that.jolene spent $100.owen and chris combined to almost $90.myself? a meager $20+ purely on food. =) so..am back home listenin to my Oasis CD.given to me the year before (2002) by the one and only darling of a girl..marilyn see! =) miss that girl quite abit.used to talk on the phone alot =x okok.wont let that disrupt whats left of my day..gonna run norton anti-virus now.heh.peace out

thursday morning
quote of the day:
* cedge has quit IRC (Quit (a moment of silence for all those who just enrolled into ngee ann polytechnic.))

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alright..anyway..evp was pretty ok..got 3 or 4 wrong..but should still be getting an A or A+ if all goes well..just studied my psp2..think i'm as prepared as can be..just hope i dont panic again..always seem to panic when i see the last question where we're required to write a whole program.. -sigh- day was pretty funny..went to jurong point with t13 people to study..all the shit we had to do just so we could do it without one person around..was terrible but i guess i cant really say much..not my war to fight..not yet anyway..if he gets on my back like he does on theirs..boy will i flip.. anyhows..headin to bed now..needa throw myself off the bed by 10am..1030 latest..so yeah..laters

her- sleep early la.
it15- eh.bbq on a sunday..bbq brkfast ar?! -_- weird loe..seriously WEIRD.
xr- ya la ya la..AD student -_- finally hold hands in front of everyone huh.hehe.achievement my boy..
sze wei- i paid for the ice cream loe.not you loe.so kylie wasted my money and your time =x k la k la..25cents only..wont ask you to pay back..haha :P

tuesday OS was good..think A or A+ shouldnt be a problem even though AD would be the best result..heh..hmm..got stuck at one question though..worth 2 marks..perhaps those 2 marks will decide the difference in my grade..but oh well..over and done..shant brood over it =P so i've got evp tmr at 1 (or isit 1.30?)..gonna buy myself kfc to school and eat at atrium..might meet firdaus early so i'll have to call him when i wake up.. back to today..was supposed to study out but erm..procrastination took precedence today..walked to tiasa and bought a new blade for my stick..and its a horrible red.. blah..all black stick with a red blade..man.. went to borders to read a star wars comic before heading home..took a short nap then a shower and watched the simpsons..ate a good dinner and started my pretence..pretendin to study evp.. -grin- but got back to it whilst talkin to her and a some of my classmates..so was multi-tasking quite abit..but i'm feeling quite confident about tmr's paper..should be ok.. -cross fingers- i'm just not looking forward to thursday..psp2..killer =|

her- je t'aime :)
class of '03 it15- eh..cant let it13 get all the top students leh..help mingyao chongsoon and me can? =x

To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give. That takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.
Madonna (1958 - ), O Magazine, January 2004

monday morning hmm..won some money..leeds drew with liverpool..hehe =) so sunday was ok (DAMNIT! portsmouth just scored.means i cant win my 2nd bet..more on the bets later)..went to church (yes sarah.i did go to church.hehe) and attended the opening mass for Lantern Youth Campaign for the Poor..so was assigned warden duty..had to do the collections after the homily..was pretty nervous but i just planted a smile on my face and collected money..helped to count the money in the priest house after mass.my goodness..i have never seen that much of $10 and $50 notes..woah..overwhelming..so anyhows..went to have a quick lunch with paul jere chris and reuben..paul wanted to bet on sunday's epl matches and buy monday's toto draw so i went with him to the minimart..decided to put down a tiny sum for leeds v liverpool (draw) and newcastle v portsmouth (newcastle win)..went to study after that with weiren..was attempting to do psp2..so gave up finally at 5pm..decided to go to MI to watch the NP girls play..tied NUS 1-1..so it was pretty good..came back to watch leeds take on liverpool..stuffed myself with 3 slices of bread with peanut butter..ate a pack of oreos with milk at 12..hoho..am still hungry actually..will save it for breakfast (shall buy mee goreng from the coffee shop if i can wake up) or brunch (ljs? kfc? hehe)..lucks to all for ya common tests :) see ya'll when i do

si je ne vous demande pas d'être le mien, je le regretterai pour le reste de ma vie