sunday morning..again damnit..eyes itching again..n contacts for the day..AGAIN..alritey.dad's in the bathroom.i'm in my room.waitin for him to send me to church.hoho :D

sunday morning i have to quote sarah's blog.i just have to because something struck me as very true..so here's it:

"Look, I guarentee there'll be tough times, I guarentee that at some point, one or both of us will want to get out of this thing. But I also guarentee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, 'cause I know in my heart you're the only one for me." -Runaway Bride came up twice in the movie. :)

kinda true isnt it? its really amazing how things can change in an instant.from good to bad and vice versa..so anyhows..was talking to yiwen (my class's senior buddy who also happens to be her classmate)..am getting really worried about her health and all.she's always up pretty late at night.she's got an eye infection of sorts.and frankly i'm plain worried cause i think she's kinda under a hell lot of stress.just wonder if my jokes (or lameness.whichever side of the coin you're betting on) and all are really helping her relax/chill out/i-dunno.well.she seemed pretty pissed when her mum (i think) asked her to go to sleep at 2330..got an sms from her.replied and then nothing came back.so i suppose she's sleeping by now.in other news.jeanne's in saturday's newspapers.haha.cool eh? she's one of the top eurasian students (woah woah) for Os..pretty happy for her.my lost sister dylanne got a 7 (hoho! sister!).jason chua.well.he refused to tell me what he got so i shant press him for it..i guess most of my friends did pretty well..so yeah..i'm in good company.i think.haha =x cheerios.church's at 10.meeting weiren at 1 later..

sarah- now now.you need to relax some.it didnt occur to me till i was talkin to yiwen that you were probably stressed out.if a picture's a thousand words.the picture of you in hospital surely isnt a pretty one.so do take a well-deserved rest yeah? next movie's on the house (not mine =x j/k) and ermm..well..just take care yeah?
anne- EH.your french song how?! hahaha.. k la k la..chunG kiat =P
xr- no need to flood one loe.and install fifa on ur fone la.play in exam hall. =x

Somebody needs you like never before
Somebody wants your love
Baby so open the door
Don't you leave me alone
Don't you turn out the light
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you tonight

err...got this off my email..seems pretty accurate..so check it out..follow the month of your birthday =)

JANUARY: Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Homely person. Loyal. Needs to improve social abilities. Easily jealous. Very Stubborn.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Showing anger easily. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on! the ins ide not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Learns to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality Affectionate Shy and reserved.. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others.. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners.Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling. Friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivate oneself and the others. Sickness usually of the head and chest.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts.. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention.. ! Deep fee lings Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirit.. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness.. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind . Hesitating. Tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer.. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional. Temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes no! nsensica l and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving... Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet.Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Shy.Fun to be with.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defenses. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and rusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Trustworthy, loyal and honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. C! lever an d knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and travelling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Choosy especially in relationships. Loves wide things. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves him. Loves to takes things at the center. Attractive and suave. Inner and physical beauty.. Does not lie or pretend. Sympathetic. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel! the arts and literature. Soft-spoken, loving and caring. Romantic!!! Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair.. Spendthrift and easily influenced. Easily lose confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Pa! tient. S tubborn and hard-hearted-if there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciates praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships.. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets.. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations.. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

saturday morning alritey! first up.she knows.but i have no idea what to make of her response.but i figure it should be gd once i prove tt i aint lyin or fakin stuff.now.i sure as hell dont lie about this kinda stuff and i sure as hell am dead sure that what i'm feelin is true.so sue me if anyone thinks i'm faking it. -glares-
so anyhows.friday was O level results day.congrats to jeanne (6p) sean (18) angela (16 or 18) leonard (16) hanni (18) and others whose points i've forgotten.anyhows.wish you guys all the best for whats to come.sure as hell aint gonna be any better.
went to parkmall bus-stop to meet up with birthday girl anne.terry.chung kiat.melissa.sookie.wenhan and alicia (my new found good friend.so she says..hahaha..havent seen her in quote."donkey months").so took a bus to liang court and ate sakae sushi.so lets see.i survived my first sushi buffet meal.so had loads of fried scallop (8 or 9 plates of 3.shared with wenhan and chung kiat).tuna sushi.COOKED prawn sushi.crab stick thing.erms..almost ate abit of everything.i'm just glad i survived.went to esplanade to sit around and take digi photos (not my camera) walked to marina at 12 to catch a cab home with chung kiat.so yeah..great day =)

marilyn- hey hey..stop shooting yourself.what you got is lets just say.something not many can get.cheer up some ya? s.m.l. 24/7 =)
jere- hey bro.dun exactly know what you got.but heard you were pretty disappointed.well..i guess some things in life happen for a reason.seek solace in God and trust in Him to show you the way

thursday alrite.so thursday was downhill since i woke up.but ended off alright.didnt exactly teach much psp2 but am just glad that at least people understand what i'm teaching.maybe a new career option for me.hah.anyhows.being inspired by my friend (aka sangar) ..i'm a total lost at how to tell her.i mean.hey.its plain simple to say "just tell her la" or "straight up in her face" and all that.but damnit! it never is easy.so lets see:
1. i'm scared
2. i'm unsure of the repercussions if i do tell and half of ict finds out (not literally of course)
3. i have absolutely no idea how my closer group of friends would react.not that it really matters
4. i don't care what my parents think.then again.my dad's seen her.my dad's sent her home

now.i think this is about as public as i'd dare make it.i'm sure anne/chinx/brian (if he ever reads)/sangar will be grilling me soon.not that sangar hasnt already started grilling me. -shrugs-

just got home from school.to put it very..and i mean VERY mildly.i'm frigging disappointed (note the use of word.DISAPPOINTED not angry) with today thus far:
1. baby chinchilla ran out again.dont know how.shant bother how.had to bloody get down on my hands and knees again to get the fella out from under my sister's bed
2. wasted $11 taking a bloody cab to school not knowing that NO ONE was in class.left house at 1015 after putting the chinchilla back in the cage.thus the cab ride
3. class didnt exactly turn up in school today.was pretty pissed that alot of them didnt bother coming at the last minute.leaving myself kelvin emily and jesline.dare them to ask me to help them again.i'll bloody throw the damn textbook at their faces
4. so much for having lunch and stuff.things never go according to plan.aint her fault.not saying it is.not implying it is.she's got work to do.so i'll shut my mouth about this
5. i hate.no..i DETEST people who cant fucking make up their minds on where to go and when to go.indecisiveness pisses me off.

definitely not a happy post.was actually looking forward to today.but what the hell.all things conspire against me.gonna meet firdaus later..who called not too long ago..to teach him psp2.whole day's literally screwed up.as if sleeping at 6am and waking up at 9am isnt bad enough.all this crap had to happen.leaves me fuming inside.

step on my toes and i swear i'll break your nose

thursday morning just a quick post..went to school today for OS..stayed around to help a few friends with BIS then went to Lido to have dinner with firdaus.alphonsus and hakim.ate lasagne meal and popcorn chicken.was terribly full.went to kinokuniya to look for my macromedia director mx book.found it.paid $82 for it.what a killer.but it's pretty comprehensive so yeah..worth the money i think.staying up to watch man utd take on porto.so i'll be doing as much revision as i can half-awake/half-asleep..heh..gotta be in school by 1015..so i'll be hard up on sleep..will wear my contacts if my eyes arent red..been pretty itchy of sorts..so i've been rubbing it quite abit..blah..see how yea? peace out people =)

Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.


and since we cant see the darn picture and text..it's as follows:

You are the epitomy of what every man should be. What sets you apart from the other men of rank and nobility is you combine every best quality they possess into one. You are skilled, motivated, ambitious, filled with a sense of purpose and morality. You know when to relax and have fun and when to be serious and courageous. You seek peace, prosperity and love in your life, and as a ruler, you seek it for your kingdom. Others follow you because of your ability to move them, and because you earned their respect. You are admired, even envied, but above all else, greatly loved.




-breaks out in laughter-
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

lesson of the day

chinx-> ah. i nv knew wat sngs was talkin abt when they talk abt lent. i jus gues its gotta do wif gd friday = yup
jase\> all leads up to gd friday
cedge> orh its cos.. u see, God lent earth Jesus.
cedge> thats why called lent, see.

Peace. You Truly Desire Peace. Just relaxing
somewhere calm with a light breeze against your
cheecks is our ideal of pefect. You don't like
to start fights, but instead, end them without
using violence.

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now that's weird.its true i dont like to start fights.but i'll use violence to end one if i have to.contradictory dont you think?

hoho..just studied 3 chapters of BIS..and did an analysis of the common test case study..-feel good-moving on to OS now..blahh..

sunday hmm..grrr..bahh.. -_- a very lousy day.VERY.was quite irritated at pyc meeting.perhaps its because i was rushing.so anyway.pyc meeting was so-so..left at 1.30 to meet jason and kenneth to go to swiss club..girls lost again.7-0 this time.man..God knows what can save them..was supposed to meet sarah at 6pm..but some rubbish came up and i couldnt..so i'm feeling very lousy because of it..was to be the high point of my day..GRRRR.. =| looks like i'll have to wait before i'll be able to take her out.HAH.damnit man..study break's this week and i dont know if i'll actually be studying..cant feel the momentum as yet..-dies- oh wells..the damn zit on my right cheek aint any better..so tuesday i'll be meeting chinx cedge and sean with a plaster on my face..pretty cool i think.heh -grin- whatever yeah? no damn mood to blog now actually.. -sigh-

sunday morning i cant emphasise how much broken english is really starting to piss me off real bad.I HATE IT.anyway.saturday was pretty ok.woke up close to 1pm..was feeling really tired so i just slept the whole morning away.dad came home from work before picking mum up and then headed to Samy's Curry for dinner..so i had that craving satisfied.cant say that the service was good though.apart from the drinks guy..the services was actually quite bad..met the owner of Coca Restaurant (ya know.the thai steamboat thing? yeah.that one)..nice and friendly..heh.offerd to treat my family sometime..but it wont happen..we're not the type to get treats from others -proud of it- so then.went to turf city to go to a pet shop whose owners are my dad's friends before going to macs for hot fudge sundae..went to bras basar to look for books on macromedia director after that..that was when my day when downhill..found 2 books but didnt know if they were good.so decided to walk around more..somehow my mum and i ended up at swee lee music..so went to take a look at the drumsets since i'm planning to get one end of this year..$630..the one i was interested in..could pack everything in the bass drum and carry (its a travel kit)..so went to tell my dad about it..i got REALLY pissed when he didnt even respond..so quite obviously i threw the wet towel on any conversation we had..really pissed him off afterward when he asked about the books..but hell..you give what you get. -grr- went straight home and just kept myself in the room doing BIS..was reading the textbook halfway before i played cm..got damn irritated again when they decided to leave house at 1930 for dinner..meant i had to miss the first half of arsenal v chelsea and man utd v leeds..got a lecture in the car..all i can say is..its tough being a teenager nowadays..and i simply dont agree with what my dad said about my parents having to do MY things.like what the hell..the past few weeks i've been doing most of my stuff myself..i mean yeah..sure i've done shit stuff a couple of times that pissed them off..but hey...what makes them think that certain stuff they do don't piss me off too? my dad's whistling irritates me sometimes..the fact that he's overly critical in his comments and lately his "to hell with you" attitude..but i'm left with no choice simply because he's my dad..i mean.i love my family.my parents my sister and my granny...i'm thankful to God for my family..but sadly there are times that things family members do can really tick you off..i'm just looking forward to later..meeting jason after pyc meeting to watch one or two floorball matches before meeting sarah (hopefully) for dinner..looking forward to tuesday too..meeting chinx cedge and sean for lunch (and again..hopefully dinner)..been 2 months since we all last met up (last was for christmas)..so yup..looking to the future..

shadows in the nights.i'll fight away your fears and make the nights bright.

to the one that matters most to me now..

Eva Cassidy - Time After Time

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Turning in circles confusion
Is nothing new
Flashback to warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories,
Time after

Sometimes you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you've said
Then you say go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

Chorus:
If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

After your picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows I'm wondering
If You're OK
Then you say go slow
I fall behind
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time

Chorus:

...If you're lost... Time after time
Time after time, Time after time, Time after time

saturday morning i just read cedge's blog.and i've come to realise how much bullshit there was in the examples of mma assignment proposals.i mean firstly..the lousy language used was really quite a turn-off..then came the lousy projects..some girl made a dolphin jigsaw puzzle (music was good though)..was totally pointless and was really quite silly to play..another person did a bad copy of pac-man..my goodness..the standard by which the projects were marked upon was pretty sad..i suppose my proposal of an interactive book about the founding of singapore for primary school kids would give me a better grade than expected if the standard of A- and B-grade projects is so low.. grr.. just wished people could speak better english..and write proper english too..i'm starting to feel frigging irritated when i hear "gee-row" instead of "zee-row"..tough luck i have to endure it for another 2 more years.. -frustrated-

sarah- hey girl.don't worry too much already yeah? shant repeat what i've been saying since yesterday afternoon..you cheer up some k? =)
chinx- hoi jie..heh..dun wry so much la..tekong isnt as bad as it WAS.so he'll be fine.lookin forward to tues (how? psycho cedge yet?)
cedge- to hell with the advant-garde bull..never really believed in modern art too..looks rubbishy to me sometimes.heh

friday grrrr..i hate sweat and oil glands.they're giving me loads of problems..have a HUGE acne on my right cheek..just under my spectacle rim..the stupid thing burst whilst bathing.so was forced to squeeze out as much pus as possible..blerguh..-refrains from getting into detail-
just registered for National Floorball Challenge 2004..to be held on the 21st of march at Taka's Civic Square (you know..the open space?) so team's called "Windwalkers 2nd Edition"..consists of weiren kenneth and tianle..3 attackers (including myself) and 1 defender..hoho..hope we'll do well..
school was a total waste of time today..apart from mma tutorial..which happened to be my first tutorial lesson EVER for mma..was pretty ok i'd say...but oh wells.. stayed till around 3 to help firdaus and hakim with their psp2 practical and to print mine before headin to ict resource centre to get some stuff sorted out..went to town with firdaus..went to the floorball shop before heading to lido for long john silver.walked around lido.wheelock place.wisma.taka and finally beach road before getting what i wanted..got a deuter one..pretty good...grey and blue color..
alright.am terribly hungry now.craving for Samy's Curry..blah..two things.i'll have to put on hold my wearing of contacts and i'll have to plaster the damn pimple up when i go out.i rather look stupid with a plaster on my face than have that damn zit be seen.. grrr -fights acne-

thursday holy cow! everyone ends at 5 tmr.like what the hell man.its a friday for God's sake! anyways..today was pretty slack..went to class for evp and bis tutorials..i think i'll do ok for those two modules..shant be too confident though.heh..psp2..aargh..just need to remember the syntaxes and coding and i SHOULD be fine..what else..of..mma..damnit man..its worse than i thought..have to do stuff like pac-man for my assignment..have a practical test on 4 weeks..dont really feel too confident about it though..in other news.. had a 3 hour break today..so alphonsus.hakim.firdaus and myself went down to holland village for kfc (dont ask why we didnt go bt timah plaza instead)..walked around abit and ended up at the windmill place.has a shop called chocoart/chocolate art..something like that..my goodness.the chocolates look damn nice (i swear marilyn would love it man..i swear)..so was debating whether to get some for sarah..its $7 for 4 and $10 for 6 i think (their pricing's weird.WEIRD i tell u)..decided not too in the end..1. didnt know what time she'd be free 2. was scared they'd melt before i headed back to school..walked to 7-11 before we spotted a mercs cab..so we decided to take it back to school..went for mma..got abit lost with the practical before ming yao helped to debug the damn thing..went for floorball after that..had a pretty good training session..scored a couple of goals..but still lost..hah..all stupid goals..-whistles- NPFB has a bright future man..almost all of us are spinning balls and doing airhooks (ok..only jason melvin and myself are doing airhooks)...oh yeah..bought my first pair of contact lenses..havent much of a clue on how to wear them nor take them out..guess i'll have to figure as i go along..sooo...took a cab after dinner at bt timah market..and guess what? another mercs cab! so anyhows..got home at 2230 thereabouts..quite tired actually..but hell..class starts 11 tmr.. -kicks back and relaxes- =)

monday -whistles in ignorance- french test was bad.real bad.couldnt remember last sem's stuff.stuff like "where do you live?" and "how do you do?".those basics.the only way i'll pass is using my oral marks.was pretty ok.but wasnt really smooth-flowing.so ameila and i paired up to do the darn oral.posed as a waiter taking orders from her and stuff.was quite fun but oh well.heh =) got my groove back for OS and BIS..still trying to find momentum for PSP2 though.shouldnt be too bad cause i actually know my stuff.but just unsure how to apply and when.so quite pointless actually.heh.-loodeedooo- so anyhow..over the weekend.had two new chinchillas.have a total of 10 now (probably more).so the 2 new babies were quite a handful.had to literally get down on my hands and knees to catch them and put them back in the cage (cause they just went "splat" on the floor after they jumped out.their pretty small you see..) tmr's gonna be one hell of a day.have to do 2 presentations for OCOM (was absent last tues) and i've got S&W and training.so i'll be walking around school with both a tennis racquet and my floorball stick.oh wells..kinda sleepy..so when my show's over.i'll just crash.blerguh.need sleep.quality time on my bed.heh =)

sunday...again i just realised.i've got 5 assignments due by tmr.all 5 are BIS tutorials.so i've got alot of writing ahead of me.shall get to it after i've bathed.which should be in about 10-15 minutes.. just came back from dinner.had seafood.and to be honest.i'd rather see-food.it was quite bad really.didnt exactly enjoy my dinner but i'll take it.better then not having dinner like i'm so used to..been feeling quite lethargic lately.seriously doubt my ability to get into an acceptable momentum of sorts to start studying.common tests is in 3 weeks.i THINK.oh wells.sacrificial semester.i'll pass.but just barely i think.oh wells :P i've got french test tmr and i havent studied shit.oh welllllllssss... -shrugs- need to focus on work REAL soon.blah.

sunday die ar dieeeeee..havent done shit for my BIS file.woohoo! oh wells..haha..screw it..BIS sounds and feels like econs to me..another day gone like that -cue snapping of fingers sound- had to wait up till almost 4 for my sister to come home cos she didnt have the keys.was pretty sleepy when i got up at 9..wanted to go down to OI to watch orionz vs osb..quite obviously osb won..but by a margin that was way too big.8-0 lost.really pity the ngee ann girls who were in the team..but oh wells..i shant dwell in other people's politics..went to church after that..was pretty tempted to join the girls for lunch though..but decided church needed my time more..so off to church i went..heh :D

saturday you know.if it werent for the fact that my mum reads my blog (much to my dismay).i'd be bitching a whole lot about how parents can really screw your day up.

friday yeah man.another day gone.and i'm gonna PRETEND to do my tutorials tomorrow.i'll probably take out my xbox and start playing lord of the rings again or something..one more valentines' day alone.no matter -puts of a brave face- -sigh- pathetic life man -spits-

thursday morning hehe..work work work..tsk..hamtum OS assessment..hehe..got B+ still..cool eh? cool..definitely :D my antibiotics is gone.finished. and my damn throat still hurts.the funny thing about it is.it hurts only on the left side.feels like something's stuck in there.hurts bad when i eat or if my throat dries up.even drinking ribena hurts.blah.i feel kinda bad lately cause i've been neglecting church.namely parish youth council and antioch.so...i guess i have to make up somewhere somehow.and funnily enough.my best bet is i'm quite safe from being the TL! hoho! dunno la.God works in mystyrious ways :)

wednesday morning fever's gone.comes back only late at night but i think it's negligible...for now. throat's getting worse though.down to 2 capsules of antibiotics left.guess i'll have to visit doctor alex again if it still doesnt get any better.i fear the need of having to see a specialist.spent the good part of monday and tuesday sleeping and basically recuperating my loss strength as well as catching up on sleep that i desperately need.just did my os homework.good eh? so anyhows.i'll be back to school again later.albeit only for os lesson.have been eating fish soup and beehoon the past few days.am longing to eat kfc's 2 piece chicken meal.-sigh-in other news.i seriously think sarah's ex has joined "the league of desperados who need love".i mean.shit.the kinda crap he says and all.it'll make u want to just ram my ice hockey stick right up his ass and make it come out through the mouth.if i get to meet him.hoho.mr fist is goin to have a field trip
hmm.lets see what else.oh.floorball.hah.went for training today.did a bit of coaching with imran and played a little bit.didnt want to push myself.lost my temper once after i got caught in the throat by this newbie.got caught by daren =x so needless to say.i got hell.and got another warning.if it continues.i'll have no chance of playing in the next ivp.so that's one area to work on for me.decided to play for NP this season instead of OI's Innebandy or Skools Floorball.makes sense to me 'cause i don't think they can just register me in last minute.so i'll ply my trade in div 2 for now before making the switch over to div 1 next season.for now my line looks to include steward (RF) kenneth aka rooney (RM) farhan (LM) imran (D).think i'm doin well with steward.scored 5 goals total the both of us.linking well with kenneth too.so i might decide to try 1-1-3 or 1-1-1-2 next time out.who knows? still too early to say anything about tactics but i guess better to start early and then get used to one another before getting all messed up when the div 2 league starts.NP Floorball has a cloud hanging over.most of us (at least myself and most seniors) can already feel the loss.girls team would lose 10 (maybe more) players.guys will lose about half that number.again.the worry's for the girls team
alright.my throat's acting up again.and i seriously think there's a river of phlgem and/or mucus in my head somewhere.seems like an endless flow.i still feel my playing and winning 2nd in the ict talentime is a phyyric (that's how u spell it?) victory of sorts.guess i really should have stayed home to rest.oh wells.what's done is done..looking forward to my canadien stick that should be arriving next week or week after.so...i hope my dad's topped up my bank account by then if not i'll have no cash to pay for it.heh.

if you only knew.that i'm crazy for you.then you'd understand

sunday body's weak.mind's strong.hah.i sound like some old men dying on his bed or something.but that's exactly how i feel.the constant 37-38 degree fevers are taking its toll on me.everynight is a struggle to sleep.i find myself curled up trying to keep myself warm from the cold that's actually my fever.everynight i think i've slept for more than 5 hours only to realise that only 2 hours have past.it seems as though time freezes when fever comes knocking.i pushed myself further by playin in the ict talentime with cedge sherman and don.won 2nd so it wasnt too bad.could feel myself on the brink of collaspe after playing the parts i was suppose to play on drums before sherman took over..got 5 days mc from alex..means i'll be out of action till tuesday..i seriously hope i get better by then cos if not i'll be missing tons of work..caught lotr marathon with sarah and sangar.sengkee.szewei.chris..i'd bet the whole lot of them slept through some point in the show..sarah especially..haha..caught her sleepin for almost the entire 2nd movie..definitely great fun..i think i shall try to stay away from relationships..at least for now..i realised that the feelings i have for sarah however slight reflect exactly how i felt for chinx years back.so.as a precaution.i'll shut my mouth and stay focused on God-knows-what.hah! -coughs hard- alright.fever's taking its toll again.my ears are blocked.and i'm starting to sweat.so much for paracetamol (otherwise known as panadol)..sigh.think i'll sleep and suffer in the aircon tonight.meanwhile.i need kong guan biscuits and milo.if not i'll be left with nothing to eat since just about anything that goes down my throat hurts bad..

thursday morning hah! got back my groove for school..at least for psp2 and os la..still finding momentum for evp and everything else (except IS modules).. have to do make-up test for os' round robin thing..something to do with memory management in computers..so anyhows..got screwed in class..some idiot told my mentor that i liked sarah (and i wonder how anyone came to that conclusion..-sigh-) but oh wells...haha..it jus might happen..-breaks out laughing- ah hell..so anyway..i flatly denied everything and got on with my psp2 practical..had it done in exactly 9 minutes before playing cm4 in class..signed up to do 4 hours of duty for the open house as a student marshall..so i'll be at the convention centre then the atrium... my train of thought's in a mess..cant think straight.. body's tired.mind's hyperactive.

tuesday i need motivation.i need drive.i need something to kickstart my academic year! i seriously need to gain some momentum for studying if not i'll lose total focus.. anyhows..NP finished 3rd in the iivp..girls finished 4th..wasnt too bad a result.. open house is this week..its on thursday till saturday...so i'll be pretty busy with floorball and facilitating those fellas who'll be coming as well as performing for the talentime thing (hah..) ..my NP email is screwed.. so school doesnt really have a bright outlook thus far.. would be watching lord of the rings trilogy at PS on saturday with sarah..boy will we have our asses numb after 500 minutes..hah..prob meet sangar and all before heading to the cinemas cos we're all watching it (but in different halls)..$25 a ticket..it sure as hell better include meals.. =x