BBMak - Miss You More

There are so many reasons that I find to run to you
Cos there's so little loving in my life, now I am wawy
And thinking about it I want things back how they used to be
There is no way round it, nothing good comes easily
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong

[Chorus]
So here I am all by myself thinking of you nobody else
There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try it just won't go away
Are you finding it hard it all on your own
Having to face each night alone
Knowing that you are the one with the love that I need
And I miss you more each day

So many feelings emotions running away with me
Cos it's you that I believe in and I love this one so deep
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
Now I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong
Back where I belong

[Chorus]

So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong
Back where I belong

hm.decided to post this..these dudes are my fave band together with simple plan..at least in the punk rock genre..the 4 dudes ply their trade (well.at least while they're practicing for it) at the very same studio i alwaz go to for jammin..so it wasnt much of a surprise when i was told they were formed in s'pore..stayin ard holland village..and seeing them practicing in the next studio two weeks ago..

Name:Matt Cooper
D.O.B:06/10/87
Nationality:Australian
Place in Pug Jelly:Drums and Back-up Vocals
Hobbies:Drums and recording
Boxers or Briefs:Boxers
Favorite food:Chocolate
Favorite Album:The Ataris-End is forever
Favorite Movie:Saving Private Ryan
Favorite Band:Unwritten Law
Favorite Phobia:Spiders and heights
Favorite X-men:Beast
Siblings:A sister and a bassist
Gear:
Tama Drums
Tama Hand Hammered Copper Snare
Sabian Cymbals
Vic Firth Sticks 5A

Name:Adam Nelly Nelson
D.O.B:17/09/1931
Nationality:Perthian
Place in Pug Jelly:The Ace Riffer
Hobbies:Tennis and Juggling
Boxers or Briefs:Ball Smugglers
Favorite food:Canned Beans
Favorite Album:Rod Stewarts Greatest Hits
Favorite Movie:Finding Nemo
Favorite Band:Reliant K
Favorite Phobia:I have a rather large fear of Cat Fish...
Favorite X-men:The Beast
Siblings:A Felicity.
Gear:
Hughs and Kettner Amps
Fender Stratocaster Guitars
Ernie Ball Picks (Thin)
Ernie Ball Straps

Name:Sam Cooper
D.O.B:21/03/1985
Nationality:Australian
Place in Pug Jelly:Bass, Vox and Song Writing
Hobbies:Recording, Shows and Beer
Boxers or Briefs:Boxers... Strictly...
Favorite food:Crunchie Ice Creams and Vanilla Coke
Favorite Album:Useless ID - No vacation from the world
Favorite Movie:X-men 2
Favorite Band:Seraphs Coal
Favorite Phobia:Fear of heights, i don't know the technical Jargon for it though...
Favorite X-men:WOLVERINE
Siblings:A sister and a drummer...
Gear:
Marshall Dynamic Bass System
Ernie Ball Music Man Sting Ray Basses
Thin Tortex Picks
Ernie Ball straps and Dunlop Strap Locks

Name:Masashi
D.O.B:16/07/1984
Nationality:Japanese
Place in Pug Jelly:Guitar, Backing Vox and Arrangements
Hobbies:Sports, Music and Friends,
Boxers or Briefs:Boxers.
Favorite Food:Milo Bar
Favorite Album:Midtown-Living Well Is The Best Revenge
Favorite Movie:Pearl Harbour
Favorite Band:The Ataris
Favorite Phobia:Heights and Getting Dumped...
Favorite X-men:Gambit
Siblings:2 Brothers and a dog (Vicky).
Gear:
Roland Amps
Epiphone Les Paul Custom SG
Ibanez Picks
Ernie Ball Straps

www.pugjelly.com

saturday am learning to ignore rumours in school.fuckin bitch can accuse me of everything she wants to now.i'll just pretend i don't know..just came back from esplanade after attendin baybeats2003..caught pug jelly..was totally ruined by LOTS of motherfuckin malay metal suckers..screaming "fuck pug jelly" and shit like that...saw quite a few gettin whacked by the police with batons before being arrested..there was a photographer takin pictures of all the trouble-makers..i suppose they'll nail those suckers after the performance..after all..they nailed my friend 2 weeks after he was photograhed for throwing a water bomb durin pod's free concert..was pretty exciting to see those bloody metal punks gettin their asses kicked by the police..sat around the steps at one corner with sam sherman and emman after that..talked alot about everything..have decided to share money with sherman to buy sam a bass guitar and amps..speakin of sherman and sam...i dunno how i'm goin to get this into his head..analyse this yourself- he loves her.and i mean love..and i'm pretty damn sure that no other guy i know knows her as well as sherman and i do...so he goes to the extend of recordin a cd with lyrics written specifically about her..hopin she'd know..but yet at the same time..he keeps sayni nothing will work out..and then all the excuses come..fact remains that he doesnt know how she feels (and honestly neither do i..but i sense something though)..and it'll remain unknown until he says something..AND..he doesnt want to say anything because he fears that she'll feel nothing for him..something i doubt alot..and honestly..i can think of noone better woh can look after her..who is committed to her as much as he is..got really pissed at him on the way home when he kept sayin "it aint gonna work out.i know it man"..flared up at him when sam went to the washroom and we were waiting for her..i don't know man...somehow i know..and i feel it..things CAN work out if only he'd try..

Simple Plan - Addicted

monday hah! got back my statistics test..i actually passed..i'm amazed.. 9/15 =x a far cry frm wad i actually can do..but to hell with that.i've forgotten my class boundaries..class limits blah blah..had fun durin programmin class..played cm4 whilst mrs goh was teachin..(i've got gd reasons. 1. i'd done my tutorial 2. i know what's goin on 3. i wasnt much of a disturbance to the class)..got the stares whilst waitin to enter LT22 for FS and IMMF lectures..bloody girl wants to make matters big..make it big i will..attended my first french class for the year..has a cute girl from ECH..stays at woodlands (we did introductions of ourselves in french..thats how i know)...had trouble pronouncing singaporean in french..shall not attempt it anytime soon..

u fuckin backstabbin bitch.fuck you.

tips frm my ever wonderful friend..

fatzilla> oh
fatzilla> let me teach u the art of slacking
jase\> ?
jase\> lol
fatzilla> u know u have to reach minimum 80% attendance right?
jase\> uh-huh
fatzilla> ok
fatzilla> for ICT modules, the tutorials and practicals are marked differently
fatzilla> so its 80% attendance for tutorials, and 80% for prac's
jase\> ok..
fatzilla> to reach minimum 80% attendance, u can only skip 3 classes in the entire semester
fatzilla> so u can skip 3 lessons for tut's and prac's each. that amounts to 9 hours.
fatzilla> 9 hour's/ ICT subject
fatzilla> HOWEVER
fatzilla> for the IS modules, u can only skip 2 lessons.
jase\> wahh
jase\> slackers' united
fatzilla> 3 IS modules * 2 hours each, 6 hours
jase\> -kowtows to cedge-
fatzilla> 6 hours * 2 = 12 hours
fatzilla> 4 ICT modules * 9 hours = 36
fatzilla> so all in all, u can skip 48 hours of lessons without getting debarred

wednesday hah! posting this entry while in school..waiting for my psp practical lesson to start..got here at 1240..lesson starts at 1300...non-stop till 1700...hai..had a so-so lunch..buttered rice with chicken and egg..blah

tuesday hoho.got a date tmr mrng with a chick.hahaha =x was outside e sch library waitin with my IS classmates..den she came alng..and it just happened.haha! bah.but for now.it'll be school..first common test is in 2 wks..am appointed class rep for ALL my 3 IS modules..will be giving up 2..i'll just be rep for SAB..cuz i enjoy tt class e most..so far..hah..need sleep..meetin her 9 at atrium! :D

monday first day of school.wasnt exactly fabulous.orientation was a bummer..imagine countin the number of fans and tables in the two canteens..pretty stupid..went for a tour ard the school..or rather.the red zone where sch of ict is located in..my class seems ok...there's 8 girls and 12 guys..and it's ok for now..cause the class politics have yet to start simply because we dont know each other as yet...was arrowed by my mentor who is also deputy director of sch of ict (i thnk tts her rank/post)..to be the class rep..aka class chairman..so anyway..didnt take the post..my argument was that it wasnt fair cause the class doent know each other..so we couldnt elect any of the committe( one 'e' or two?) members..had to learn the Ngee Ann cheer..i mumbled away..hah..had a freshmen briefing from 9 till 1215...3 hrs sittin in the lecture theatre! ass was numb as hell..when we could finally leave the LT..walked out and bumped into cedge..had a short chat before spotting joshua (my micromouse senior)..had hi-bye sorta thing..gave him my last chewing gum and left for meet-the-mentor-session..apparently..my mentor's supposed to be the best tutor in the whole of sch of ict..so i guess i'm pretty lucky..has a better than average sense of humour so i think i'll be wide awake during her lessons..thats IF she jokes during lessons..overall..orientation was a waste of my time and we ended at 6 instead of 5..so i missed my first french lesson..bah..feel damn bad now..

saturday woke up to news that my great-grandma passed away at 5 in the morning..that means the last of my great-grandparents has passed away..in the past 15 years...paternal grandma passed away on christmas in '92 or '93..2 grand aunties.both whom i'm very close with..passed away within 3 years..both of kidney failure..hai..dunno man...i guess today doesnt really affect me much..but it got me thinkin..how'd i cope without my maternal grandmother...she raised me as a kid...taught me chinese (was damn good at it in pri school..) and how to cook...am in a limbo..should i attend church tmr or follow my parents to the wake in the morning.service is at 8.30pm so i dont see why i should be there from 11am..i'll kill myself out of boredom...so yeah.if anybody actually glances at the orbutaries..look for Mary Neo in Sunday Times (6th July copy)..i'm one of 9 great-grandchildren..

thursday the day just doesnt get any better..first i've got problems in church and now family...just had a row with my mum and my sis..got a lecture from my dad..all the shit started when i was in the middle of some work when my mum comes asking me how to work the ps2 to play a dvd..so i just walked out of the room plugged in the main power and turned it on..stuffed the dvd in and pressed play when the menu came on..walked right back into my room and then mum comes shoutin "come out! i want to talk to u!" "u and ur sister got a problem"..blah blah..so i shouted back "u know how much i hate sam's attitude these days..you expect me to do what?" and then a whole lotta shoutin goes on till my dad comes out from the room and starts giving a lecture about how my mum blew her bank account during the trip and how much we've spent and all that...i just kept quiet and stared straight at a coke bottle in the display cabinet..in any case..3/4 of the lecture was directed at my sister so i was thinkin to myself..why the hell am i lyin to my parents these days just to cover up for my sis where she's been to and what time she's coming home (which is usually abt 12-1am..)..and whats worse..is the fact that my parents wanna know who she's out with..and i havent said a word..at least not yet...am damn friggin pissed at how everything seems to be my fault everytime an argument like that breaks out..

Lit - Over My Head

I'm in over my head
They wanna try and build me up
So they can tear me down
I wish that I could be back there
But I'm writing here right now

They've taken everything that I've had to give and
They say it's over but man I'm still here livin
I don't know what to do, I think that maybe

I'm in over my head
Stuck in the red
Somethin they said
Makes me think that I'm in over my head
Over my head
Over my head

I've got to get away from here
And it couldn't be too soon
Cuz I see the stars are here with me
Like rockets to the moon

You take me everywhere that I've never been and
Show me the meaning of what life had to give and
I don't know what to say, I think that maybe

I'm in over my head
Lyin in her bed
Somethin she said
Makes me think that I'm in over my head
Over my head
Over my head

They've taken everything that I've had to give and
They say it's over but man I'm still here livin
I don't know what to do, I think that maybe

I'm in over my head
Stuck in the red
Somethin they said
Makes me think that I'm in over my head
Over my head
Over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head

thursday morning realised alot of shit happening in church now..i think as far as eileen's wedding is concerned..antioch people wont be playing for her mass..including myself and sherman...as it stands..there's alot of friction between clarence (one whom we all hate to love and love to hate and who happens to be in sajc).emmanuel and sherman..and honestly..i know for a fact he hates me..but to hell with that.i hate him as much.may be more...but in any case...the thing about 6 chords and a song and the threat to sue sherman (who at present is recording a cd) for "stealin" clar's song...really erks me..analyse it yourself-

]clar comes up with 6 chords that sherman likes alot
]sherms adds in a couple of chords here and there..ups the tempo and adds lyrics to the harmony
]clar claims that the song technically is written by him because the 6 chords form the base of the song
]sherms argues that since clar didnt copyright the song its technically not his.on top of that.sherms offered to pay $200-$300 for it.but clar wants $2000.like wtf? i quote sherman "who the fuck does he think he is? he aint bbking or lionel ritchie.he's just some dumbfuck who's cocky just cause he knows how to play a few jazz chords"

i mean like.hello? from a legal standpoint.clar does have every right to sue sherman.but the fact that he did not copyright the song means that IF sherman decides to files a counter-lawsuit..in all probablility clar would lose it cause he just doesnt possess the rights for the songs..what pisses me more is the fact that he accused sherman of "falling for the commercial devil" in recording a cd..but really..how many people DARE to go record 11 songs on a cd.get it sold at HMV and then hope that people like the music..i admire sherman for that..no doubt he's an unspotted (if there's such a word) talent for music..and truth be told..i want him to sing a couple of the songs i wrote in his 2nd cd together with jeremiah's..i WANT my songs to be sung because i know for a fact that i can write songs..but songs without melodies are just poems..with meanings no doubt..but poems they'll just remain..put together 3 songwriters who write what they feel together with one hell of a fantastic musician and another good vocalist...i'm very sure the songs would get far...simply put..songs that sherman jeremiah and i write..are based on what we feel..things we've been through..and for sherman and i..are for specific people..

bein in church now really sucks..i have no idea how to explain to eileen and justin that i just cant organise a band to play for their wedding..clar confided to victor about sherman and they had a blow-out..so now its sherman emman and i at loggerheads with clarence and victor (though i dont have much of a prob with victor..at least for now)..i'm beginning to realise why aaron and darryl left antioch..their reasons for not coming back..i believe thats also why sean nai didnt come back as well..perhaps its the fact that the in-fighting that goes on..more than that..i can work my socks of just doin the website for antioch..but it just doesnt seem to catch the interest of the members..even the TLs dont give a fuck..and to make it worse..clarence's one of the TLs..i hate the way he's running the group..he doesnt approach people for opinion..he cant remember details..he doesnt ask if anyone's free to do a certain duty..he just demands it be done..i'm sick and tired of people like him..all these just gives me more reason to jump ship and join YA in holycross..better still..i might as well channel my energy and work on giving NP's Catholic Apostolates a new lease of life together with matthew (we've got plans and ideas..problem is.we wont be able to work on them if we cant even find the society..)..i guess God's testing me..my will to press on..my strength to succeed..i made a committment to antioch..and i intend to see it through with my "appointment" as logistics i/c...and if i ever..emphasis on 'if'...become a TL..God willing..i'll introduce a new formatt of camps..and activities..again..God willing..the young adults grant me the freedom..cause really..i find it sad that antioch isnt able to retain most of the confirmants after the pre-confirmation camp as well as the end of year antioch camp..

my prayer for antioch:
"Dear Lord, light up my darkest hours, give me strength and wisdom, grant that i might see through all the trials and tribulations. I pray only for a tight-knit community in Antioch, freedom be given in planning for camps and new ideas be introduced."

on a more personal note..been thinking alot of the past lately..and am stuck on listenin to a1 songs..again...dont go laughin your ass of the chair now..cause in truth..they write DAMN GOOD ballads..and some of them really hold special meaning..

for zhenni and marilyn- "Forever in Love" and "If I Can't Have You"
for chinx- Caught in the Middle
for zhenni- "Walking in the Rain" and "When I'm Missing You"
for dyls- "Learn to Fly"

(yeah yeah.all girls.so shoot me..cause guys..go listen to Lifehouse.Our Lady Peace and Switchfoot)

wednesday morning hey ya'll..been a week.hah.feels good to be back..shall not comment about the time in england..not really something anyone should have to go through..was in bangkok as well..so i did my fair bit of shopping..7 shirts.3 berms.19 dvds.3 mechwarrior toys later.i'm home after a flight delay.was on TG409 if anyone wants to know..so anyway..woke up coz i had a weird dream..felt so real..(sorta like matrix ya know?)..yeah..dreamt i was makin out (can you believe this?!) with someone i know (wont say who.hah!)..and as far as i'm concerned..whatever i've dreamt of..90% of it has come true so far..and i'm beginning to wonder if their signs from big guy up above..i'd like to think so..cause this sense of deja vu is really giving me the creeps.things i dreamt of 3 maybe 4 years ago are happenin now..perhaps the most vivid of all was when i dreamt about a camp that was to happen..and that camp turned out to be my confirmation camp when i was in sec 2 (like 4 years ago!)..so yeah..scary stuff..and oh..think i have a crush on the guide who brought me around bangkok on saturday..i'll try to go into details.at least on how she looks like..think michelle sarem (from meteor garden 2.so says my mum and my sis.i wont know cause i hate f4 and all their thrash..makes me sick but i'll tolerate them since they were the cause of me gettin my ps2.hah.) ..looks pretty sweet..shoulder-length hair..very slim..nice figure too.hah! =x hmm...i dunno..shit..she looks damn good..took a photo with her too..so yeah..but its with my mum and sis..and i think my mum was stadin next to her (darn it!)..had a dumb idea of flyin back next year or something and specifically requesting for her as my guide..haha..but i'll have to shoot someone..cause i dont even know her name for crying out loud.. J.Patta-something..thais have damn long names if you dont already know.. so anyway..saw people who looked EXACTLY like- crystle.dylanne (now that i've seen you.i'll know).cedge (unfortunately he was the guy behind the tax refund counter at the airport.who also happened to act like a faggot.note the word unfortunately.means no insult to cedge)

dyls- kap.u elaine and me -grin-
mar- oi.rotting and collecting dust.you know what i mean
brian- gym/bmt before school starts!