PAP SMEAR TEST

Finally,i go to check my uterus at woman specialist..cost abt 120 including pills. Coz my menstrual oso bad...really bad. Hv u heard "once in a blue moon"? Mine is once in a year.

At first,i tot my hubby will accompany me go to there but...at last, i go by myself. I am thinking, how to trust him when i needed him the most in future? Haiz. Its my luck maybe.

So,take a bus. Reach there. Register. Sit and wait about 1 minuets. XXX！ Is my turn.

Tell him i wan to do PAP SMEAR. Then, hv to naked down part. Scan my woman system. Show n tell wheh is ur uterus.. then he take a shot from my uterus, Gaodim. But, the feeling is kinda weird and cold. The doctor oso says you hv to slim down at least 20kg. If not, dun talk about pregnant. Shoot!

So, he says, come back take ur report after two weeks. That's it.

Actually, i already survey his name n his clinic. Kinda famous. Most of them, says he is good at baby check up..and baby delivery...

So, god hv mercy pls.... give me good news..

Actually, got one song encourage me to do so... IS really touching.

All:
Everything will be alright, yeah

Beyoncé:
The heart is stronger
Than you think
It's like it can go
Through anything
And even when you think
It can't it finds a way
To still push on
Though

Carrie Underwood:
Sometimes
You want to run away
Ain't got the patience
For the pain
And if you
Don't believe it
Look into
Your heart
The beat goes on

Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you

Rihanna/Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through
Whatever
If you fall
Dust it off
Don't let up

Nicole Scherzinger:
Don't you know
You can go
Be your own miracle

Beyoncé:
You need to know

Chorus (All):
If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up
Who are we to be
Questioning
Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up

Fergie:
It's like
We all have better days
Problems getting all up
In your face

Leona Lewis:
Just because
You go through it

Fergie:
Don't mean it got
To take control, no

Leona Lewis:
You ain't gotta find
No hiding place

Keyshia Cole:
Because the heart
Can beat the hate
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/v/various_artists/just_stand_up.html ]
Leona Lewis:
Don't wanna
Let your mind
Keep playin' you

Keyshia Cole:
And sayin' you
Can't go on

Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you

Rihanna/Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall
Dust if off
Don't let up

Natasha Bedingfield:
Don't you know you
Can go
Be your own
Miracle

Carrie Underwood:
You need to know

(Chorus-All)

Mary J. Blige:
You don't gotta be
A prisoner
In your mind

Ciara:
If you fall
Dust it off

Mary J. Blige:
You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie Underwood:
Yeah

Mary J. Blige:
Let your heart
Be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie:
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Mariah Carey:
And you will know
That you're good
If you trust in the good

Ashanti:
Everything
Will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark
If you follow your heart

Mary J. Blige:
And it will get better

Mariah Carey:
Through whatever

(Chorus-All) x2

Fergie:
You got it in you
Find it within
You got in now
Find it within now
You got in you
Find it within
You got in now
Find it within now
You got in you
Find it within
Find it within you
Find it within

All:
Through it all
Just stand up

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/v/various_artists/#share

眼

我已经很累了。好像脱掉全部，一走了之。不要回头。每天帮你看清这个世界，都感到一丝丝的残酷现实，当然，也有你想看的欲望。

心小姐，你好吗？最近帮你检查，医生说你是正常的。可喜可贺！

如果有一天，我得到我想要的，我会开心一点吗？

能不能确保那时候的我，没有增加的烦恼？

在工作方面，每天都不如意。别人只花7个月便能pick up工作。我已经超过了，但是还是new entry的程度。老板对我的眼光，我已经怀疑自己了。还要呆在这里吗？

家庭方面，我已经一次又一次的被伤害。好心被浪费。只好收起来，有需要用到才拿出来吧。我的好心不能浪费。。

自嘲的哈，别人一年后，已经有可爱的宝宝。。。那个人竟然跟我说，如果照旧时代的人的话，早就休了你，找别人生了。

那你去吧，愿你得到更有福气的人。我无德无能无力。

以后的我，还能像现在一样吗？活在别人之下，不能呼吸自由的空气。缺氧。

我可能得了忧郁症。焦虑症。