I have officially graduated. I have said those exact four words a year ago. The only difference this year is that my studying days have finally come to an end and reality starts now. As bad as it may sound and as much as I dread going out there into the real world with incredibly huge responsibilities, I know that this day would eventually come and here I am welcoming it with open arms. Those days felt like seconds and those seconds felt like it never existed. It is simply mind boggling how quick time flies, one minute you’re enjoying, the next you’re struggling and at last, blood and tears you made it. I look back, I always look back, memories fresh in mind (ones that I want to remember). Tears start rolling as I recall those laughters, screaming, crying, all the hugging and kissing and I regret not documenting them in videos or diaries. The past is the past, yes never a doubt I will keep going down memory lane just to lift a smile off my face. Now comes the future, the unknown, it’s like having a wall that instantly pops up right in front of my path and me with my tools in hand must knock the shit out of that wall till it breaks and I can then continue on this path. All these philosophical self talks can be motivating at times like this and now I live..

Rambling theories is what I do best, its a daily affair of new theories for me. Picturing real situations and identifying the links to my perception of life. Today it was of two swimmers both aiming for the finish line and had their own different methods of reaching that goal. Swimmer 1 laid flat on his back and floated freely moving his arms with the slightest push and patiently wait till he reaches the finish line. Swimmer 2 one the other hand has prepared in advance, stretching his limbs and diving into the water with strong strokes of arm movements pushing himself forward through the water. Its pretty obvious who reaches the finish line first isn't it. Now think of the finish line as your current life goals and think again, which swimmer you most likely depict. A majority of us picture ourselves as swimmer 2 because with hard work comes rewarding success yes? However this majority of us also fail to realise that we are in fact and undeniably in the position of swimmer 1. Yes we do work hard, but again these things don't come at one full force and boost us all the way to the finish line. It has to be CONSISTENT, consistently pushing your limits just like how swimmer 2 pushes himself forward with continuous strong strokes and not just one stroke. What we're doing right now is working hard then letting it go just like swimmer 1 who pushes himself just slightly and see himself float. Yes you are moving forward but as compare to swimmer 2, you are moving at a much slower pace and eventually reaching your goals much later. It doesn't matter whether you are swimmer 1 or 2 because if you do something be it the least or the most effort, you are moving and you are at least one step closer towards achieving your goals. Unless of course u stop pushing and eventually drown in relation to my swimming theory or in simple words, failure in life.

Hello Stranger

Do you ever get that feeling when you see a stranger be it in a bus, train, on the sidewalks and both your eyes meet. Do you ever wonder what's the story behind this very person that you may never see again for the rest of your life. Are our eyes really windows to our soul? If I find this to be the truth, I shall stand by it firmly. The saddest part is when you feel that there's a connection somehow with just one glance or maybe a couple of glances and a sinking feeling when you part ways knowing the chances of you seeing that stranger again is close to null. This I might add is portraying the fact that people come and go literally. If its meant to be its meant to be if its not then there you go, mere seconds of glimpses and glances.

May I say that I resemble a ball of tumbleweed, everything is messy, uncoordinated and unorganised. I need to get my life back on track, I'm always going with the flow which I must say isn't a bad thing but there are certain things that needs to be planned and prepared for. This three week break isn't doing me justice and first week is almost gone. Piles of assignments to be done and a test to study for. I've always stood by this phrase 'when the world pushes you to your knees, you are in the right position to pray'. But I don't want to be seen as the type who searches for help only when the time calls for it. I mean these things has to be consistent and I keep reminding myself to be grateful to the Almighty and constantly seek his guidance no matter how good or bad my condition is. That aside, I've started my driving lessons as well, finally after so long. As estimated it would take me ten lessons to prepare myself for the test and I am so committed to do so. Only on my second lesson, I've been taught how three different ways of parking, u-turn, steering, overtaking and turning. Awsumzz. With other stuffs slamming in my way, I've to now choose which one to grab and which to let go because for all we know we might be spending too much time on stuffs that don't matter and cause very little benefit to this life of ours.

Things have changed for me and that's okay I'm still the same

Things have changed for me and that's okay I'm on my way

You look in the mirror and you can’t recognize the person you've seen each time you looked in the mirror over the past nineteen years. Your actions are read back to you and you can’t recall yourself. All the time. The process of evolving.

When you find yourself in a confused and dazed position questioning your satisfaction in life. We have to admit that we are never satisfied with what we have, always yearning for more as we climb up that ladder of success competitively. Nothing is wrong with wanting more yes? I mean that's the way we function naturally and those who aren't are just living in their own surreal world. Being ruled by this hypothesis had me thinking of my limitations to my success. What do I really want vs what do I really need. Thats the point and strength which leads to my answer. I don't need to be on top, to be lavished and be driven by power. All I need is to be grateful towards my creator and know that there's so much more to life than all that. As long it puts a smile on my face, gets me laughing, jumping, adrenaline rushing, I'm all good and cannot ask for anything more :)