今天有点ブル

今天有点Blue.

Dear deleted my comment on his Friends For Sale application wall, thinking I will never know.

"Dont put such hostile comments on my profile" was his only weak justification.

I didnt ever think I will need to reinforce the concept of "POSSESSIVENESS" in my world, which applies to like 98.9% of ANytHinG which belongs to me -- apparently it did not struck him that even in the Online World, I am who I am.

MT PIG FU**ER GARGOYLE ^%$%\%!(*!$%!

Also found that Dear dont really know how to handle queries of people about me in his life.... and I wonder how Dear will never thot I will need to handle queries of my friends (Particularly the working days found friends) about his SON (?!) discussions etc on FB...?

白头偕老真难得

For a long time, I’ve not found myself crying over shows, the last one was 10 Promises to My Dog (Japanese Movie on Labrador & his owner). I never cried when I watched Marley & Me, much as it did touch me at heart.

Been established as a fan of our local drama Perfect Cut since its first series, definitely I wont miss out on its sequel which is currently showing on Channel U at the same time slot.

Today’s episode really struck me very deep at heart & emotionally.

My tears just could'nt stop overflowing for some bit of time, especially when Stella’s final letter was being narrated out after her suicide. Although her contraction of AIDS could be the turning point when she sees the vengeful stuffs she had been doing, made her think and sort out her thoughts and real emotions, and of course realize the intense fatigue in her failed marriage relationship.

老头子，不知道从什么时候开始。。。我渐渐的发现。。。要和一个人一起变老。。。原来 是一件很难的事。。。

How long a relationship can last has always been such a variable which I perceive to be beyond any one’s control. Seen so many failed ones, it is more than losing faith in the abstract concept of “Love”, but also losing confidence of what people value, and the unpredictability & scary ways one can change - over time, or overnight. Like all women who become fools when it comes to love, Stella tried means and methods to attempting getting her husband back – getting his attention, agitating him, spiking each other – only to find no impact in salvaging her marriage, but hurting herself more.

Somehow, I empathize with her when she says she is tired, very tired -- So tired that she had no wish to continue.

It is not that my relationship is having issues at this point in time, but because I understand totally that it is so much futile effort for one party to keep trying & giving in a relationship while the other is not at all interested.

Glamorous as she may appear – wealthy, can well afford playing around playboys, maintained figure & Botoxed face, she lost to loneliness.

二十年前你常唱给我听的那首歌， 我到现在都还记得。。。虽然你从来都不肯为我再唱一遍。。。。。。

Very sad, very poor soul. And I am impressed that she after all chose to not hurt his unfaithful husband (by spreading the AIDS virus to him) and passed on quietly, still for the love of her husband – which had not changed from how she has loved him from the start.

Is love so fragile and unsustainable?

How did some people work the magic to achieve a lasting marriage?...

Its a Big Big World out there

今天慵懒的下午，我坐在电视机前，无聊地看着任何在播放的节目。

本来没什么精彩或了不起的节目，却因席上嘉宾所道术的精辟经验之谈，令我豁然觉得有所感觉。一向让我认为是个不认老，不检点不象话的高某某，竟然打从肺腑说出了一段让我点头认同的话：

男人们都要清楚记得一点 - 外面的男人，个个都很优秀。
一个男人，你不要看他没钱，他有的是个好身体；
一个男人，你不要看他长得不帅，他有的是钞票；
一个男人，你不要看他什么都没有， 他有的是专业知识。
外面的男人，个个都很优秀。
男人们你们不要神智不清楚， 还发发个脾气，这女人她一出去 --- 海阔天空！

鼓鼓掌！原来他也有他的顾虑... ...

视力短浅的男人门，不知有几个能领悟这点？

People who have lost something precious to them will most likely strive high & low to find the lost item.

Happy are those who managed to somehow locate & retrieve.

But,

Little did they realise what was lost and later found will no longer be the same as before.

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Some people just do not understand.
Try to play God, try to go against what is a hard fact.

How i would love to show some pity for these souls who fail to live in the reality.

Yet i can't help but wonder...

"Do They DESERVE my pity?"

Amazing Why Some People Just Wont Listen.

Every once in a while, I get confronted with this not-so-amicable part of myself -- When people continue to just keep proving to me that listening, or getting some notions/facts into their chicken-little brains is simply Misson Impossible(?!?)

WHY CANT THOSE PEOPLE STOP THEIR NONSENSE?!

I know, purposefully putting up those pictures which are took without my boyfriend's intentions, or even knowledge, are for the aim of spiking me. But the thing is, I cant not get angry! Something ought to be done to put a stop to such from ever happening!!!

Worst is the male lead REFUSES to do anything. Just let them be. And see me burning in anguish again and again. I have REITERATED many many times already HE doesnt believe me. Look, I've chanced upon my evidence today. F

***EXPLODED***

Princess, Are You Happy?

Happiness,

Can be so simple yet so difficult to sustain.

If One is being trapped in a nexus of disheartening issues,
How does one catch hold of Happiness?

Standing here,
I have been watching Happiness walk by to & fro hastily - A faceless passer-by on a busy crowded confusing street,

Efforts were in vain to stop Happiness in its track...

So Far So Good....

Guess i better make a squeak or a moan here before i'm comparable to one of those missing persons of Singapore....

Its me...I'm still well and alive... Don't really know how to comment or update abt my life since its basically....err.. MUNDANE?

Mundane as in.. its all work and work... if good enough i get a bit more time on my own or to be able to go home fer Mom's dinner... Weekends are spent with Dear...

What can i say...? Fine and simple life... 再简单不过了...

只是、忽略了朋友们。
I kept telling myself they would understand.

I know this kinda simple life could very well be how it will be for the years ahead...especially when everyone gets into the working world... and everyone start to understand...
(But well, i also deeply know i better have a change of better job! Cant be in dis shitty no future job fer the road ahead..but hey, i'm still the lazy me.. *sighed*)

Anyway, just wanna say a big "THANKS" to all my friends who still remember my existence!
It was my humble birthday last Thursday.
And surprisingly i think i got more well-wishing smses than i did last year!
Thanks fer the bdae prezzies too! (I know i still have lingering ones..hehehe)
I've got fabulous accessories so far!
The bling bling gold & glam key charm with a nice dingle, the matching Doggie & long-awaited clear tinkling angklet! (Matching with my bracelet), and the coppergoldish elegant feline earrings!
My colleagues treated me to bdae lunch at my favourite lunch spot @VCH on the 19th too... Sweet Huei Ching even bought me a little choc cake on my bdae but she wasn't aware i was on leave. (Oops)...
Not forgetting my angbaos and gifts from Mom, Cadbury Sis and Spirit Bro.

Actually, dunno since when...
'Birthday' to me is just another simple day,
only that 23years ago on dat day i came to this world...

Maybe, each person who celebrates or remembers it means that he/she cherishes the fact that because I came to dis world, we had the chance to have met and share memories together...

To me this is quite a warm feeling, when people are happy and glad I existed afterall, and that i have somehow somewhat made an impact, big or small, in their lives.

Although i like to crap to my Sis that people should all come before me with gifts to 献给公主,
I was seriously jus joking.

或许、因为期许少了，所以感觉获得的反而多了。
Hence this year I felt much more fortunate. *shrugs*



I'm slowly getting into the Chinese New Year Mood already.... i like CNY!

Christmas 2006

S-E-N-T-O-S-A~!

Its traumatising 911 fer the ang mohs but its yipee holiday fer Dear & me.
Dear & I took leave and we had a delightful escapade to Sentosa for the day!

We both realised its been centuries long since our last visit to Sentosa cos it just looked so different! Unfortunately, most of the places were under renovations or being rounded up by constructions going on...

Apart from the Siloso and Palawan Beaches which we circled again and again be it by foot or by the Beach Trams, we trod miles (haaa) trying to locate certain attractions using the disgustingly useless island map. In the end we walked the Forest Trail and Dragon Trail and i could feel my legs' intention to break away from me a little now-n-then... BUT still manageable.. I guess I haven been walking much for a long long while already... I enjoyed Dear's company too..

We waited and caught the last Magical Fountain Show @ the musical fountain at 8.40pm...Call me swaku or wad but its my first time watching the musical fountain show! Having Dear beside me esp when it was raining abit... its romantic neh...At the very least that is TO ME.

We ended our day in the island by cruising around the island on Dear's ride before heading for the city. Wonderful day and it ended so fast...

Luckily...photos always do abit of help capturing the memory snapshots... ;)



The Southern most tip of Asia continent...


At the top! Its W-I-N-D-Y...


Us at the top...


Who else but Us on the Beach


I took this shot of Dear while we were travelling on the Beach Tram... Nicey...帅帅的 ;)


Then he started to pose......


The highlight of the day-- Musical Fountain show! Err..the Kiki monkey i dun really appreciate..
I mean... i dun find it cute...


I like the fishies part of the laser show though! Somehow, strangely i found the fishies cute! See!! This one got a trumpety nose..horn-y snout..and its smiling.. The color..SImplY CuTee


Then suddenly halfway thru the show it started to rain...huge droplets of rain started falling on the audience... Alot of people abandoned the show and left hurriedly. SO sad..i think the crew/team put in a lot of effort each show to make sure the show runs well and all the laser and water fountain terminals are working fine... Then the time comes and it just take a short pour of rain and Poof! The audience's gone! Luckily we've got brolly... so we stayed and continued watching.. along with others who appreciate the hard work to put the show on AND has umbrellas...



The show is just as glamour-good despite the rain... Whoopiiiiii..(3 Cheers for them!~) A pity, just like fireworks, the brilliance and beauty of the effects cant possibly be accurately captured on film or photos..


Datz us after the show~


The small dragon at a fountain... Dragon Trail...the tedious but nice trail to explore-- if given more time and at a slower pace...Haa.. Dragons dragons..... Sentosa's dragons all appeared unfriendly neh..


Picturesque!!! Splendid!!!


The old man in the tree-- which we passed by, before we head for the car to leave... Hmm..wadz that garden's name i forgot... The gardens are nicey nicey..


Bye Bye Sentosa~ till I visit ya again!