its been a reallyy long time since I've actually typed anything in here. sometimes it feels like, the older you get, the more difficult it becomes to pen down how you feel. cause really, there isn't anything that wouldn't pass on.
so many things have happened in the past 5 months, i'm quite astonished as to how quickly time seems to be passing by. In a blink of an eye, some of the most significant events in your friend's life, your own life just zoomed past. haha I'm just amazed you noe. At how things have been progressing :)
Then again, its been a really good 5 months. Definitely like all the other times, filled with ups and downs. but for some reason, everything feels much more at ease.
I've never really liked being alone, and without my boyfriend around after his enlistment, it was pretty torturous. From seeing someone almost every day of the week, to not seeing him for 3 weeks.. gosh, as much as I did consider how difficult it would be, you're nvr prepared enough for sth so drastic to happen. haha
so i've counted with my two hands, and I'll be meeting him a total of 7 days in Dec! :D with half of that due to him falling sick. so it's.. 4 days of actually talking! hahaha okay, i'm really not blaming him, as much as it SEEMS that way. I love him to bits, but i hate army. get that right! >=((
it's getting much easier for me to accept things now. I started out like a crazy crying baby monster, getting sad at everything for him going to army, becoming more vulgar (but he's really good now, no more vulgarities in front of me!), feeling neglected and all that tiny little stuff. its sorta like, when someone is a distant away, you sorta realise how much you really miss them.
And now, i'm on a 19 day journey without any contact with him. haha gosh. even during his bmt days, he could still call me at night. but now it's complete silence! GAHH. field camp for him this week and i'll be going overseas for the next 2 weeks till end of dec! no christmas celebration :( but at least there's new year's! :)
you gotta agree with me you noe, after i'm back from europe, he'll be going through POP in a week's time! :D reallyy looking forward to that cause he'll have a one week block leave!! YAY!! but after that, it'll be another period of waiting once again.
ohhwells. good things comes to those who wait. and I for one, believe in that completely! :) because you're worth the wait.
till then!
so many things have happened in the past 5 months, i'm quite astonished as to how quickly time seems to be passing by. In a blink of an eye, some of the most significant events in your friend's life, your own life just zoomed past. haha I'm just amazed you noe. At how things have been progressing :)
Then again, its been a really good 5 months. Definitely like all the other times, filled with ups and downs. but for some reason, everything feels much more at ease.
I've never really liked being alone, and without my boyfriend around after his enlistment, it was pretty torturous. From seeing someone almost every day of the week, to not seeing him for 3 weeks.. gosh, as much as I did consider how difficult it would be, you're nvr prepared enough for sth so drastic to happen. haha
so i've counted with my two hands, and I'll be meeting him a total of 7 days in Dec! :D with half of that due to him falling sick. so it's.. 4 days of actually talking! hahaha okay, i'm really not blaming him, as much as it SEEMS that way. I love him to bits, but i hate army. get that right! >=((
it's getting much easier for me to accept things now. I started out like a crazy crying baby monster, getting sad at everything for him going to army, becoming more vulgar (but he's really good now, no more vulgarities in front of me!), feeling neglected and all that tiny little stuff. its sorta like, when someone is a distant away, you sorta realise how much you really miss them.
And now, i'm on a 19 day journey without any contact with him. haha gosh. even during his bmt days, he could still call me at night. but now it's complete silence! GAHH. field camp for him this week and i'll be going overseas for the next 2 weeks till end of dec! no christmas celebration :( but at least there's new year's! :)
you gotta agree with me you noe, after i'm back from europe, he'll be going through POP in a week's time! :D reallyy looking forward to that cause he'll have a one week block leave!! YAY!! but after that, it'll be another period of waiting once again.
ohhwells. good things comes to those who wait. and I for one, believe in that completely! :) because you're worth the wait.
till then!