maybe it'll be okay..

thanks sam!!you really noe me so well..make me feel like such a horrible friend ):

i'll scream into a box, and lock it with a key. Throw it so very far away, and wait for it to sink to the bottom of the sea. My perfect plan? Yes, the so very perfect plan of mine.

went to sentosa today!it was pretty nice actually, excluding e SCORCHING sun, mosquito bites and being dead tired!haha thanks for today! (:

lets begin den..

underwater world was pretty cool!but guess what?i think it's DAYLIGHT ROBBERY, e tickets i mean..$22.90 for one ticket??tat's madness can..they should have

singaporean price:
adult: $xx
youth: $xx
child: $xx
foreigners price:
adult: $xx
youth: $xx
child: $xx

right?!?!haha i'm just being silly, but seriously, going to sentosa is like burning a HUGE hole into many singaporean's pocket!no wonder some ppl has nvr been to sentosa for more den twice!

anyways, underwater world is interesting!can get to touch starfish!!i can't believe they're so hard on top..i always had e impression that they were soft and rubbery!lol

and stingray..tat one ahh, super cool lahh!!slimy and so rubber like!feels pretty nice to eat!!!well, it is very nice to eat right? (:

there were crab!!!some weird looking ones and some huge ones..and there were these really cute little sea angels!!the name really suits them very well, when they're swimming arnd(issit swimming?), they actually look like they're flying!!they look a little like people with wings!!thus angels!!!hahahaha

had lunch at Sakae Izakaya!haha and i just realised sth!!my mom & sis has e SAKAECard!!!lol 12% discount lehhhhh haha

oh wells, doesn't matter..lol went to see pink dolphins after tat, cos e underwater world ticket includes tat..e dolphins are so adorable!and they're really intelligent can!!but i can't help feeling uncomfortable tat they're trained till tat way..are they sad? ):

went for e skyride and luge!!haha e skyride was freaky!!!like seriously scary..there's nth to rest your feet on, they were just dangling in mid-air!and it was like HIGH..haha but my eyes were closed..so it wasn't as bad as it could've been!lol wat would happen if your slippers fell off?haha

luge down aft we got off e skyride!haha it was pretty fun!except for e helmet, it smells bad and it's SUPER GAY!haha ohh..and being partially blind doesn't really help either!lol cos one of my contacts went hay-wire aft e pink dolphin show!haha

so..e moral of today's experience is..

"don't go to sentosa unless you're feeling very rich"

alright den!gtg
byee~
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one day, we'll all realise how lucky we are..but tat time has to approach quicker..because time's running out..don't let things which you treasure slip through your fingers..just try to imagine tat feeling of regret..doesn't it hurt

i've come to terms with e fact that i'm an extremely last min person!gosh sia..i can't stand myself being tat way..but i just am, so too bad!!hahaha

had my dinner at 10.45pm!=.= ate maggi mee, egg and ham + cheese bread..so unhealthy sia..but my head hurts a little at e moment..it's like someone's knocking on it, but i refuse to eat panadol!don't want to become stupid..haha

i'm really tired, on top of it, i'm thinking so much my head hurts(which aggravates my headache!!)..fortunately, i don't feel tat bad inside..maybe cos numb le haha

today is such a horrible day..everything doesn't seem to go smoothly, what is going on!!!help help..but anyways, thx a billion sam!! (:

alright den!gtg
byee~
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here i go again, thinking abt things tat shouldn't really matter..i wanna be happy, i wanna stay carefree..but tat's not going to happen in life right?tat's a luxury tat'll nvr fall from e sky..i've tried over and over again, to stop this nonsensical contemplation..wat's going on..i hate this so much..what have i to say?nth much really, cos i'm nt in e position to think of it..i'm nt a 24h robot who can handle this constantly, i need to rest..i'm still someone who wants to feel needed..

such emptiness

got out of my bed and 1pm today!i've been sleeping really late nowadays..not good..slept at 4am ytd!haha

cos 2046 ended at 3.45!!lol though i watched e movie to e end, i really don't understand the movie..i'm just too shallow to understand it!HAHA

started doing my work from 3pm, and i only completed paper 9!!help!!i'm either constantly distracted or i need more time..*sobs

stopped at 6pm..and den i went to JOG!!!!finally found e time to do tat!!but my legs feel so wobbly now!!and i'm exhausted..which is wonderful actually haha but i've got dark eye rings all of a sudden!i scared myself when i looked into e mirror =.=

i feel mentally and physically strained..sigh..but i'm sure i'll get over it!jiayou!
(:

gonna have piano later..who knows, i might fall asleep while playing haha ohh!my sis says i have anger issues!lol which is quite true..i think haha i need to see a therapist!lol

alright den!gtg
byee~
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leef i woh uoy llet ot tnaw i
yltnatsnoc secafrus stbuod tey
em htiw gnorw stahw

i've finally decided to take e time out to blog!haha basically, i'm just lazy most of the time..

anyways, went to study with sam at changi!was suppose to meet her at 12pm, but i over slept!haha she called me 4times den came to my house to find me!lol i was half awake le, den she saw me lying one e bed..

'eh woman, you noe wat time is it already?'

haha sorrysorry!i was really tired..lol ate popeyes at T3, it was slightly better den KFC, but it was still oily!!haha luckily i didn't get a headache aft tat!cos i'll normally get one aft eating too much fried food lol

went to wang's cafe to study!tat place has a surprisingly conducive environment to study!den we studied frm 3+pm(i think) to 8.30pm!!haha we were suppose to have dinner at 7.45pm de..but my financial statement didn't tally!!!!!haha

sam finished reading 24chapts of work while i only did like 1 paper?!lol gosh sia..but everytime i study with her, will be relatively productive de!haha

ate secret recipe den came home!reached home at arnd 10.30pm..haha gonna watch 2046 now!it's like NC16 lahh!hahaha

alright den!gtg
byee~
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what am i to say when you're upset
i'm lost for words
a stifled plea

08.08.08
a nice day on e whole! (: it's like a super nice number!haha comes once every millennium!

e day started out with sch, den went to cut hair!but apparently, it's totally screwed up now!haha i'm so gonna cut my hair off when it grows longer!

i ended up being late,was suppose to be somewhere..cos my hair screwed up, den samantha say my dressing very unglam haha

so she helped me change and everything, told me what to do when i was on e cab!haha i'm really tat impolite mehh??

haha anyways, there was a sudden change of destination and ended up in tm's pizza hut!nevertheless, it was really wonderful (:

thanks for everything! =D

090808
had ljs breakfast!!got french toast and someone treated me!! (: haha free breakfast!but nxt time if cannot finish den don't eat le, later get indigestion not good ya!

came back to do my work!but my back hurts really bad *sobs

i dunno wat happened..mayb cos it's national day!haha have yet to finish my work!still got one more paper to finish!!howhow??

anyways, gtg, going to get teppanyaki! (:
byee~
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thanks for your presence(:

the weekends are approaching, and i can't wait!sure it's only two days of complete free time, but so what!haha

technically, it's only one day..cos sat is my study day..oh wells, my mom's gonna bring us to sakae for sushi! (:

i need to go jogging soon!i'm getting fat and upset..have to jog till i've got no more strength to think abt anything else!lol

anyways, i just happen to read sth on 'the zahir'..i noe i'm taking a LONG time to read tat book =.=



"That is why it is so important to let certain things go. To release them. To cut loose. People need to understand that no one is playing with marked cards; sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Don't expect to get anything back, don't expect recognition for your efforts, don't expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood. Complete the circle. Not out of pride, inability, or arrogance, but simply because whatever it is no longer fits in your life. Close the door, change the record, clean the house, get rid of the dust. Stop being who you were and become who you are."


i should've read this book a few years back, would've helped me a lot..i'm still glad to have read it though (:

alright den!gtg
byee~
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am i wrong or mistaken
ignored or forgotten
what am i waiting for
an answer tat'll nvr surface?
do you even care

today's so messed up..why can't you
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erred judgement
erroneous decision
effaced thoughts

confused
wondering what was wrong
requiring.
yet unprovided for

distraught
unable to deliver my thoughts
troubled
but what's e reason

free
though locked up from within
e sudden need to be alone
to think abt some things

trusted - wrong
care - don't know
what have i done, did i do you wrong?
why is everything so cyclical

it's just another disappearing act

friday is here again!time seems to be passing quickly, i've somehow lost track of it unconsciously!in a blink of an eye, it'll be monday again..

been reading a book borrowed from the library recently!it's called 'The Zahir' by Paulo Coelho, the book is interesting okay!though the summary isn't as captivating haha but it's fascinating to read about e thoughts and questions one can ask themselves!

but 'The Alchemist' is better lahh!haha by e same author, but that book was introduced to us when we went for OBS leadership camp!come to think of it, i actually miss OBS lol

all e kayaking, baking under e sun for 9h, feeling so frustrated during e journey yet feeling extremely accomplished at e end..e times when all e sports ppl sit down tgt and waited for everyone to start dinner!in e morning we woke up and talk abt wat had happened e day before..

being lectured by daniel cos we were too noisy at night, gave us e talk of e camp..stayed up for e last night just to make him sth and to write a song for him(though i fell asleep aft my head landed on e pillow and nobody dare to wake me up!)haha tat's like 2yrs ago..thinking abt all this has made me quite nostalgic..sigh

-i'm gonna stop thinking-

anyways, SAMANTHA LOH YAN TING!pls take care of yourself!don't anyhow eat this and tat, drink this or tat ahh!later you condition worsen den not good le!

alright, i shall end here..too tired le

alright den!gtg
byee~
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once, i gaze upon e stars
twice, i made a wish
thrice, i prayed sincerely
four times, but i still believed
five times, i started to think
six times, i started to see
seven times, i started to question
eight times, i had no answers
nine times, i'll say take care
ten times, it'll be..

-The End-