holiday from real.

shelter me from the weather.
this wouldn't be the first nor last time.
i'll figure it out.

europe pics are up on facebook.
two from berlin...

suspended.

it felt nice,
on the swings,
the sun even came out,

so strange how we have this disillusioned memory
and when we face reality,
we are pulled back down to earth.

i think i can finally sleep tonight
(without pills)

i always knew i missed the swings.

watch cars go by.

oh fuck.
i don't think i've felt this lost in a really long time.
it seems lonely even when i'm surrounded by friends.
oh fuck.

world in my eyes.

i hope i don't lose this drive.
the courage to pursue.
to step out of the comfort zone.
i realized that i have been like a lost child for the past 6 years.
and it is time to move forward.
to that world outside.
to the unknown.
and it is good to know that others feel the same way too.
and we can support one another
when we finally decide to lead our lives.

lower your guns.

i threw his toothbrush away.

into the bin.

so wrong, it's right.

aren't we scared of losing?
everything familiar,
everything close,
in the end of it all,
we stand to lose everything.

i am going to give it all up.
and risk you, too.

speak to me in poetry.

even in the happiest moments
there is a shadow of sorrow

but i feel much better now.
thanks.