city of delusion.

things are getting out of hand.
i am not concentrating on uni.
i am distracted with things that are going to break.
and it's just strange how i feel so complacent.
it's there yet it's not.
it's getting harder and harder to explain.

that is why i need to go away.
i justify my traveling with ridiculous reasons like these.
but perfectly sound and logical reasons to me.
lisa and tim are coming to adelaide 23-27 july.
omfgomfgomfg.
(:

yeah, here's the thing.
bad things happen, and good things happen.
there's always the opposing forces present.
the push and the pull.
life eh.

cling and clatter.

i'm uber excited. good things are happening.
well...except the load of assignments and presentations i have to do for next week (uggh!)
but daniel is visiting in september. just bought his flights here.
it's going to be an awesome birthday, i can feel it in my bones.
(: with europe in june/july and daniel in september, i think i can be happy for the rest of the year.
everything else pales in comparison.
now i have absolutely no motivation to study.
gawd.

a comet appears.

and with a click, my life is upright again.
the thought of europe with its fab people
9 june to 21 july.
everything is ok now.

london-vienna-budapest-berlin so far.
perhaps warsaw and krakow, talinn, porto, and prague?
paris highly likely for a mini ship reunion.

6 weeks from now mofos.
i'll be in ecstasy.
who cares about the drama and teared heartstrings?
who cares about the suspicions and deluded love?

and this was the whirlwind romance of bielefeld...

rewrite.

my throat is dry.
my head is floating.
my week was wasted doing absolutely nothing, but highs.
reefer madnees vs. nelson.
orange tablets and lollipops,
chewies.
i think i might be falling down.
and the swelling.
who's going to pick up the broken pieces?

stir it up.

and i say europe.
just because.
(:
gioel in berlin. anthony in italy.
lisa in manchester. char hopeful.
that is really all i need.
puffs over skype is not the same.
and life would be ok once again.
i just know it.

u know it too.

live and let die.

and what should i say to you?
that summer was just a whirlwind break
that things that seem to be, seem not to be
maybe we should start living the life and live it all.