im so fucking ill.
blearggh.
and im right in the midst of midterms...
what perfect timing.
i get sick so many times in a year..so annoying!!!
but my friends onboard have been really sweet though.
getting me hot tea.
hugs and kisses.
giving me sweaters.
(:
arghh..
bloody fever
cold flu.
go away. go away.
and i think im spreading all my germs around too!!
i feel so guilty...
Saturday, October 27
Tuesday, October 23
costs
this is probably gonna be one of my rare posts from now on.
fyi, they are gonna start charging internet tmr. so 50 US cents a min is bloody over my budget.
sorry if facebook replies etc are gonna be very rare from now on.
dont worry. i still love u guys ok?
ecuador is easily the best port i've been to.
the whole experience was madness.
hiked through the amazon rainforest.
gorgeous views and insightful indigenous knowledge.
friendly ppl.
fucking delicious food.
what more can i ask for?
in the middle of class now.
im physically here but not quite here.
out and about.
my mind is just wandering away from the present.
incoherence.
fyi, they are gonna start charging internet tmr. so 50 US cents a min is bloody over my budget.
sorry if facebook replies etc are gonna be very rare from now on.
dont worry. i still love u guys ok?
ecuador is easily the best port i've been to.
the whole experience was madness.
hiked through the amazon rainforest.
gorgeous views and insightful indigenous knowledge.
friendly ppl.
fucking delicious food.
what more can i ask for?
in the middle of class now.
im physically here but not quite here.
out and about.
my mind is just wandering away from the present.
incoherence.
Wednesday, October 10
im finally blogging.
yeah it's been a really long while. due to the poor internet connection. ok im lying. because im so caught up with all these travelling and activities onboard the ship. that's why. oops. now that i finally feel like blogging, i kinda forgot most of my personal thoughts and feelings at the beginning of the journey. anyway i'll try my best to give a brief summary of my voyage so far. well i'll start off with my 5 hour stop in singapore.
sg:
meeting my darls was awesome and i cannot describe how much i miss them. and i also cannot begin to describe how happy i was to spend time with them, even for a brief moment. it was like we picked up from where we left off. and how we still get along like it was 2004. maybe we've experienced different things and we've changed from that but it was as though the bond we had never altered. i totally love the bak chor mee, bbq wings, sambal lala and whatever else we pigged out at block 85. thank you ser for providing the transport. and i finally had a smoke with char too. haha.
athens:
it was overwhelming and pretty scary at the same time..meeting so many new people at one shot. sightseeing around the city while being fucking excited to get onboard. the first few people u hang out with are prolly those u nvr forget huh? surprisingly, i am only close to one of the girls now.
lisbon:
beautiful city. we partied like there was no tmr. maybe because we had no hard liqour onboard for 8 days. many ppl were in withdrawal stages. haha. plus alcohol onboard is generally more expensive. beer or wine only. and they are USD3 each. so can u imagine the havoc we created in portugal? hung out with a new bunch of ppl. the group just came together randomly. and we were all from different countries. 6 of us. germany (martinette), morocco (dounia), norway (jarle), us (joel), sweden (adam) and me. it was so much fun (:
panama:
had an amazing academic field program (AFP) there. i learnt so much about social development and NGOs. we visited nutre hogar, a malnutritious children home. the kids were adorable although they were skinny or bloated. they were only 1 to 4 years old but needed intensive medical care. rather sad. we also went to visit gang members in one of the poorer parts of the country. interesting experience. on one of the last days, we visited an indigenous community 2 hours away from the capital. talked to elders and youth of the community. we were similiar yet different in so many ways. i think i learnt as much from them as they did from us. got me thinking about alot of things and how we perceive societal norms. on another note, of course, we partied again. tsk.
atlantic ocean:
life onboard has been great. there were ups and downs but overall the positives outweighed the negatives. it's been a month since i met these people here. the diversity and the differences yet we do get along so well. i havent spoken to anyone i really disliked yet. strangely, i really haven't met every single person onboard yet...there are 200 students and honestly, until today, there are some ppl that i have not seen before. heh. i prolly know half of the population here. it's all good. i've got 3 more months to get to know everyone. classes have been a chore really. i wish we could just hang out and have fun all day long. but then again, it is good that lessons are academically challenging and i get the experience of different learning styles and other people's opinions and how their background affects the way of thinking. there's always some event going on and i don't see how this is a conducive study environment. there's just no time to study or complete assignments really. we have so many activities and parties and birthdays to celebrate almost every day. and when we are in ports, obviously we wouldnt even look at our school work. mad mad rush. that's our daily life.
current feelings:
everything is sinking in. the experiences. overwhelming is the only word for this. it's crazy and unreal. we just crossed the equator and had a huge open mic session under the stars to commemorate it. arriving in ecuador tmr. time just seems to fly by so fucking fast. i havent got time to grasp everything yet. i hate thinking about how this would all end sooner than i would like to. nevertheless, i do feel torn in between. part of me really wanna go back and see my beloveds. part of me dun wanna leave these awesome new friends. i sit on the riviera deck (my fav smoking spot) and all i see is blackness. the ocean and the sky is dark save for the shining stars. btw, there was one night where i actually saw a shooting star or meteorite or sth. beautiful! sometimes ppl play the guitar and we all have a mini sing-a-long session and it's just indescribable. the vastness of it all.
nic called me a social butterfly. and im pretty disturbed by that comment. i nvr saw myself as that and i nvr was that. somehow on the ship i seem to have a few groups of ppl that i hang with. and i believe it's just the circumtances that made me close to different groups...
1. the group i hung out with in lisbon
2. my afp group in panama and anthony, gioel
3. my riviera deck group
see...im more comfortable hanging out with just one clique. i'm not a very sociable person...at least i dun think so. and it's strange because i feel rather sick in the stomach thinking that im a social butterfly. i think i'm gonna stay in my room the whole of today (it's 2 am now btw) except for meals and classes. stay out of hanging out with ppl for awhile. see how it goes. furthermore, i've been pretty down the past few days. probably need some alone time and personal space for abit. being confined with 200 ppl is really exhausting sometimes. too much socializing fucks me up. heh. dun get me wrong...i love being here and i love the ppl i hang out with, i really do. there's alot of love and care going around. but i need a break. when i get to ecuador, i'm going to have my last afp and i'll be spending 5 whole days with ppl in my group so byebye alone time. i should stay in and away for today. or maybe i should just stick to one group and hang with them. it's gonna be difficult though because i have so much fun with each group. ahhh fuck.
sg:
meeting my darls was awesome and i cannot describe how much i miss them. and i also cannot begin to describe how happy i was to spend time with them, even for a brief moment. it was like we picked up from where we left off. and how we still get along like it was 2004. maybe we've experienced different things and we've changed from that but it was as though the bond we had never altered. i totally love the bak chor mee, bbq wings, sambal lala and whatever else we pigged out at block 85. thank you ser for providing the transport. and i finally had a smoke with char too. haha.
athens:
it was overwhelming and pretty scary at the same time..meeting so many new people at one shot. sightseeing around the city while being fucking excited to get onboard. the first few people u hang out with are prolly those u nvr forget huh? surprisingly, i am only close to one of the girls now.
lisbon:
beautiful city. we partied like there was no tmr. maybe because we had no hard liqour onboard for 8 days. many ppl were in withdrawal stages. haha. plus alcohol onboard is generally more expensive. beer or wine only. and they are USD3 each. so can u imagine the havoc we created in portugal? hung out with a new bunch of ppl. the group just came together randomly. and we were all from different countries. 6 of us. germany (martinette), morocco (dounia), norway (jarle), us (joel), sweden (adam) and me. it was so much fun (:
panama:
had an amazing academic field program (AFP) there. i learnt so much about social development and NGOs. we visited nutre hogar, a malnutritious children home. the kids were adorable although they were skinny or bloated. they were only 1 to 4 years old but needed intensive medical care. rather sad. we also went to visit gang members in one of the poorer parts of the country. interesting experience. on one of the last days, we visited an indigenous community 2 hours away from the capital. talked to elders and youth of the community. we were similiar yet different in so many ways. i think i learnt as much from them as they did from us. got me thinking about alot of things and how we perceive societal norms. on another note, of course, we partied again. tsk.
atlantic ocean:
life onboard has been great. there were ups and downs but overall the positives outweighed the negatives. it's been a month since i met these people here. the diversity and the differences yet we do get along so well. i havent spoken to anyone i really disliked yet. strangely, i really haven't met every single person onboard yet...there are 200 students and honestly, until today, there are some ppl that i have not seen before. heh. i prolly know half of the population here. it's all good. i've got 3 more months to get to know everyone. classes have been a chore really. i wish we could just hang out and have fun all day long. but then again, it is good that lessons are academically challenging and i get the experience of different learning styles and other people's opinions and how their background affects the way of thinking. there's always some event going on and i don't see how this is a conducive study environment. there's just no time to study or complete assignments really. we have so many activities and parties and birthdays to celebrate almost every day. and when we are in ports, obviously we wouldnt even look at our school work. mad mad rush. that's our daily life.
current feelings:
everything is sinking in. the experiences. overwhelming is the only word for this. it's crazy and unreal. we just crossed the equator and had a huge open mic session under the stars to commemorate it. arriving in ecuador tmr. time just seems to fly by so fucking fast. i havent got time to grasp everything yet. i hate thinking about how this would all end sooner than i would like to. nevertheless, i do feel torn in between. part of me really wanna go back and see my beloveds. part of me dun wanna leave these awesome new friends. i sit on the riviera deck (my fav smoking spot) and all i see is blackness. the ocean and the sky is dark save for the shining stars. btw, there was one night where i actually saw a shooting star or meteorite or sth. beautiful! sometimes ppl play the guitar and we all have a mini sing-a-long session and it's just indescribable. the vastness of it all.
nic called me a social butterfly. and im pretty disturbed by that comment. i nvr saw myself as that and i nvr was that. somehow on the ship i seem to have a few groups of ppl that i hang with. and i believe it's just the circumtances that made me close to different groups...
1. the group i hung out with in lisbon
2. my afp group in panama and anthony, gioel
3. my riviera deck group
see...im more comfortable hanging out with just one clique. i'm not a very sociable person...at least i dun think so. and it's strange because i feel rather sick in the stomach thinking that im a social butterfly. i think i'm gonna stay in my room the whole of today (it's 2 am now btw) except for meals and classes. stay out of hanging out with ppl for awhile. see how it goes. furthermore, i've been pretty down the past few days. probably need some alone time and personal space for abit. being confined with 200 ppl is really exhausting sometimes. too much socializing fucks me up. heh. dun get me wrong...i love being here and i love the ppl i hang out with, i really do. there's alot of love and care going around. but i need a break. when i get to ecuador, i'm going to have my last afp and i'll be spending 5 whole days with ppl in my group so byebye alone time. i should stay in and away for today. or maybe i should just stick to one group and hang with them. it's gonna be difficult though because i have so much fun with each group. ahhh fuck.
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