spanish test wasn't too hard (:

last night was spent at engine pub crawl...smoked up at a friend's place. it totally kicked in and at some point, i rmb being unable to walk properly. a friend carried me to maccas. and i rmb pigging out on friends' food like there was no tmr. i rmb humming and singing as well. and i rmb going home and trying to call. but then everything seemed to be in a dream. i was in complete daze. i wasnt sure what i was doing happened in my head only or it really happened. yupp. my tolerance is waaaay down.

but im wide awake on a saturday morning. sheesh.

boys over friends?
friends over boys?

hectic week

omfg. this week is so uber busy. i've got essays and essays to write.
comparative politics due on fri.
international studies due on mon.
spanish test on fri.
plus i cleverly decided to apply for TSS last min. so i had to rush through 2 application essays asap. and i took barely an hour or two to complete them. shit. i hope it's not crap. although it reads like crap. i was sick and tired of staring at my screen trying to get some sort of great inspiration or come up with some genius catch phrase. and i'm too fucked to edit anymore so i just clicked 'submit'. damn. now i hope i do get in. do i really want this? (more than u can imagine) i feel like i need to get away again. and this is one great and awesome way to.

today sucks. big time. it really does. i hate today.
i hate every year of today.

$598

omg it only costs $598 return from sg to adelaide. ppl should come to visit me.

ok im a little tipsy now.
just got back from pharm pubcrawl. everyone is so gone and drunk. i dunno whats happening man,

i should go to bed. there's work to be done tmr. rawwwwwwwhhhhhhhhhh. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

a song for me

without a clear sense of the future, we search the past for guidance.

work has been good so far. learning pretty interesting stuff like making coffee ie. cappuccinos, lattes, flat whites, long blacks etc. really cool stuff. mixing drinks as well (: i know how to make lemon lime bitters. and my colleagues are fun as well. rather diverse group..one from norway, another from argentina and the rest are aussies i think. the owner is definitely italian. plus it's only a 25 min slow walk from my house. and i love walking with my ipod and just looking at people and the pretty shops along the way. i hope i get to keep this job (:

AND...someone wrote me a song!!!!!!!!!!!! YUP I'M UBER HAPPY!! how many ppl have songs for them? ok maybe alot. but it's my first. woots!!! plus it's actually a song that sounds good. deep lyrics too. it's an awesome song. everyone should listen to it. i'll send it over msn!!!!! haha. (: (:

sexual healing.

tragedies bring about booze and addiction booms because when ppl don't like the way they feel, they look for something outside of themselves that will change the way they feel- and that could be drugs or sex or alcohol. you feel like you're taking control that way but actually you lose control, so people get more lost than ever. - Heidi Wilson

it was a busy busy week. i've got 2 essays due soon. and i haven't even completed one. boo! there was dave's house party on sat night as well. and i started my job on sunday. yup. u read right. i've finally gotten a job. as a waitress...brings back memories of bq bar...love-hate relationship with the job. but at least it occupies some of my extra free time and i can save up for peru (: hopefully i can earn enough by june *crosses fingers*. this weekend is gonna be filled as well. plans on driving down to victor harbour again and uniSA's pharm pubcrawl. a neighbour's bbq lunch on sunday.
oh yeah. me and jo made a really random road trip down to victor harbour last thurs night. we left at 11pm and arrived around midnight..crashed a friend's place and yes, we had to get up early and drive all the way back for classes. but i love impulsive road trips or any kinda road trips for that matter. (: uber duper fun!!!!!!

omfg. wf just told me she's going to spain for freaking 8 days this friday!!!! i'm so jealous. and all of them are going to be staying in hann's villa at marbella. he has a bloody villa by the beach. omfg. i hate them!

We all think we're going to be great. And we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren't met. But sometimes, our expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations because the expected is just what keeps us steady, standing, still. The expected's just the beginning. The unexpected is what changes our lives.
-grey's anatomy, great expectations

anyway, i've been thinking(again!) about going to peru for the volunteering stuff this winter break for a month or so. i've been in contact with the gen-acts ppl and it costs USD950 for 3 weeks there. it's basically working with the poor children over there. ermm...anyone wanna come with me? (:

without the conversations

ok. i realised i haven't exactly blogged "properly" in ages. that's cus there's nothing exciting really going on. and the exciting and juicy gossip bits can't exactly be told to the whole world wide web. so...there!! anything touchy or emo is in poetic form, not prose. i think i'm definitely ranting. maybe it's cus i'm sleepy. maybe i'm just glad i gotten over 2 weeks of uni. i'm beginning to get use to adelaide (finally!). it's weird isn't it? how long i take to adjust to a new environment. cus i had that undescribable cosy, familiar, home-feeling when i got to adelaide after the summer break. like..i felt comfortable.

the only class i look forward to all week is spanish (4 hrs/week). i think cus it's something new and challenging. i'm not exactly excited about my politics classes anymore. that's rather sad isn't it? after all my major is in politics. so i have decided that i'm definitely switching to a single degree. that means 2 and 1/2 years more to go b4 i graduate and start working my ass off. i reckon i should make use of all my hols from now til then to travel!!!! currently the plans are taiwan in early july and new zealand in late december...yup..heading to new zealand to do all those extreme shit ie. sky diving, bungee jumping and zorping, of course. hopefully all works out as plan (:

beautiful oblivion

I would swallow my pride
I would choke on the rines
But the lack thereof
Would leave me empty inside
Swallow my doubt
Turn it inside out
Find nothin' but faith in nothing
Wanna pull my tender
Heart in a blender
Watch it spin round to a beautiful oblivion
Rendevous, then I'm through with you
I've been burned like a wicker cabinet
Chalk white and oh so frail
I see our time has gotten stale
The tick tock of the clock is painful
All sane and logical
I want to tear it off the wall
I hear words and clips and phrases
I think sick like ginger ale
My stomach turns and I exhale
So callous where my mind states
But it's not my state of mind
I'm not as ugly sad as you
Or am I origami
Fold it up and just pretend
Demented as the motives in your head
But I alone am the one you don't know
You need to keep for your ego
Make me blind when your eyes close
Sink when you get close
Tie me to the bed post
You need you don't you need me

et wants to go home.


wherever that is.

so much for resolutions and the supposed health year.

flings. flings. flings.

life should be less complicated ):

my cousins.