maylin, me on the ferris wheel

maylin, me, pris (:

view from the ferris wheel. look how high we are.

the first spinning ride we sat on.

yes. i'm cold. what a day to go to a carnival...

this ride is called no limit....ppl strapping in...

up...

and up and over!

we could still manage a grin after 'no limits'

a lil piggy in a skirt..haha

pigs getting ready to  race their lil curly tails off

this is 'speed'

me, pris

maylin, me

happy bday to me! @ rococo, st. kilda's

group pic!

night out! before bass lounge

gone.

Pack up all your things.
And box up unspoken dreams.
With nothing lost and nothing gained.
I'll get back on my feet again.

that feeling i got when i was sick yesterday..that horrid feeling. the feeling that my body was dying on me. everytime i get that feeling, it reminds me of you...it was you..
you who had cold towels on my forehead when my fever was rocket high
you who made me hot milo and tended to my every whim
you who walked out to buy 2 different porridge for me cus u didn't know if i wanted fish or chicken and didnt want to wake me up from my sleep by calling me to ask and i had only one spoonful of porridge in the end
you whom i was too afraid to love cus i couldn't bear to hurt u again.
you

melbourne (:

i was in melb for a week. just got back to adelaide yest (yeah..on my bday) and i fell sick on my bday. can u imagine? sobx. i came back from the airport at 3 and slept all the way til 8. woke up and had some porridge. watched a movie on dvd and jo, sharms and trish surprised me with a lil bday cupcake. haha so nice! and i went back to sleep again at 11! ): fever and sorethroat. my head constantly spinning everytime i stood up. but im feeling much much better today. probably lack of sleep and not enough water. see..had too much fun in melb. oh and probably too much choc too. choc overload!!!

anw about melb. it was heaps of fun! the first 2 nights i crashed at sharm's place in hoppers crossing. it's pretty far from the city though. we had drinks and poker at night with her melb friends and we went shopping in the day...melb central and chapel st and smith st (bought myself a pair of keds). her friends cooked us dinner and breakfast and all. so nice right? it was uber yummy too! on sat i went over to pris's place on elgin st. thats near melb uni. we had dinner at this fabulous restaurant called bear brass (www.bearbrass.com.au). i had morrocan style lamb kofta with riata and iced chocolate. and OMG it was the best iced chocolate i EVER EVER EVER had. the restaurant is at southgate. by the river. near crown, where the casino is. later we went clubbing at night with some of pris's friends at this place called bass lounge. the guys opened 4 bottles of chivas so it was mostly chivas and green tea all night long. had a few tequila shots as well. and my first london bridge...it wasn't that strong as ppl said it is. it's just the flames that kills the throat. and what coincidence that pete, jason and joseph were there as well along with a few other 4th year ppl from adelaide dent. their fren was having a bday celebration there as well. haha. anw the music was good and so was the crowd. i'll put up pics when i get them from pris or novita. on sunday we went shopping at victoria market and victoria st (got a pair of levi's for 50 and a dress). went to kokoblack on lygon st. i tried the hot choc with chilli. had dinner at a popular thai restaurant called ying thai. whee! i miss spicy thai food! it was really good. and what a coincidence again i met maylin there who was with her frens. we went back to pris's place and had a game of poker again. addicted to it man!
on mon, me, pris and maylin went to the royal melbourne show..i blew 140 there on rides and showbags etc. but it was all worth it. so much fun!!! we sat on the ferris wheel first. i love ferris wheel..it makes me happy! haha. then we had a shot at this spinning ride..that made us all abit sick after. then we became more adventurous and sat on no limits...it was 42m high and it spun us round and round, up and down. it was scary but fun nonetheless. and me and maylin sat on speed at the end. pris couldn't take any more of those spinning up and down rides. but the view above was spectacular. we could even see the city lights!!!! we had a go at the roller coaster as well but that wasn't much of a kick after no limits and speed. oh oh and we went to watch the pig racing and diving. they were so cute!!!! they actually dove into a pool of water. hehee. and they actually ran pretty fast in the race too. like whoever said pigs were lazy?
crashed over at maylin's place for the last two nights there...so on mon night we had dinner at this place called dessert cafe..it's a hongkong cuisine. went over to crown casino where i lost 50bucks but oh well..thats ok..all part of hol expenses. haha. we went to have dessert at greco's after. we shared 3 cakes (hazelnut meringue, chocolate tiramisu and mars cheesecake) among 5 of us. yummy! on tues, we went shopping at dfo cheltenham where i bought another dress! and then chapel st again to get someone's penguin shirt. had dinner at st.kilda's rococo with maylin, mike, pris and her friends! it was a bday dinner! the food was good and then they surprised me with a cake!! hahaaa so sweet (: we went back to pris'c place to play mahjong and then at 12, they wished me bday with bubbles!! haha yupz, they blew bubbles at me. that was nice as well (: AND after that, i felt abit sick with a sore throat coming on. went back to sleep at maylin's. mike and her sent me to the airport the next day. the avalon airport which was so uber far away and ulu!!!! oh gosh. i felt bad. gonna treat them dinner when we meet in kl again. hmm..but luckily i managed to catch my flight lar..was late though. jo had to check in for me first and i had to carry all my luggage in with me but it wasn't heavy so it was ok.

overall, melb was awesome!!! i'll go back there again some day. hehe and maybe i should take the great ocean road tour next time. would be fun eh?

curve of the earth

I tried to come down from you
I tried with your voice in my head
Knocking me back
Every inch I moved
I'm a sucker for a good lie
The way you say you understandand
how you always talk of catching me
but never open up your hand
Tell me does the world revolve the same
Tell me do the people all take care of you
Did you doubt the curve of the earth
And every word..
Every word
I'll bet you heard
I know you hear me catch your breath
But I'm not listening for the right words anymore
I'll take what's left
You're vicious like the blue sky
Right before the rain comes pouring through
Tell me does he look like me at all
Cause they're all an awful lot like you
Tell me does the world revolve the same
Tell me do the people all take care of you
Did you doubt the curve of the earth
And every word..Every word...
Tell me does the world look all insane
Tell me how the people all just scare you
Did you doubt the curve of the earth
And every word..Every word...
I'll bet you heard

- matt nathanson, curve of the earth

i love this song. go listen to it.

with/or/without/u

families. they make or break u. almost everyone i know has a family problem. or maybe almost everyone that i'm close to. u see...there are the ones with a parent always missing from the picture, then there are the ones with an abusive father, the ones with moms with p(ermanent)ms, the ones with super strict and unreasonable parents, the ones with a parent having an affair, the ones with divorced parents, the ones with irresponsible moms, the ones with an alcoholic dads, the ones with gone-wild older siblings, the ones with younger siblings running away, the ones with.....the list can go on. and it just struck me how difficult it is to find perfect families..even almost perfect ones are rare. i used to think ppl..my frens..seem to have perfect families but as i get older, i see that i was just so naive. ppl dun disclose their family problems to u...they try to cover up as much as possible. but when they start to confide in u and i see the whole picture, i realised that almost everyone has a flaw in their family. i believe there are perfect families somewhere out there. and i'm sure some of u do have perfect families. but i just wanted to note i was wrong for many years. the times i thought i was being unfairly treated, the times i whined, the times i brew in envy...i was so wrong. i wouldn't judge the "perfectness" of any family from now on. everyone has their skeletons in the closet. dirty lil secrets.

of parties and racing cars.

it's the hols now. 2 weeks break. melbourne from 21-27sept.
last night was of ciggies and alco.
alco in abundance.
ciggies offered ard in abundance too.
went to some basement party. gotta pay 5 bucks but free flow man!
and i had some chick's 21st bday party after. omg free alco!! too much to finish. can u imagine?
rawwwh. was terribly high. but could still think straight thank goodness.
rode in an mr2. haaha short guy but rich
too bad my bf is so much hotter eh? hahaa.
i'm not unfaithful.

max:two/day

sometimes i dunno if it's better to let go of the past
or hang on to every strand of it
i'm so confused and frustrated
and jealous sometimes
what i had
what u had
some things dun turn out the way u think they would
and even further from what u hope they would
embrace the future?
cherish the past?

someone told me..depression is a choice
no im not depressed.
she was.
but the fact that she came outta it all by herself
barely scathed.
oh i'm so proud
and she became so much wiser and mature
and i'm just proud.
what more can i say?
and she's telling me all about how to live a better life etc

basically, everything is a choice really.
do u want to speak out in class? hold a proper conversation with complete strangers? say things that may offend ppl but it's what u truly feel?
u nvr know if u nvr try
who cares if they think u're dumb? cus it's ur opinion and if they're not mature enough to recognise that
then who's the one at fault?
whose loss is it really?

who's to say?

bathwater. yeah.

You and your museum of lovers
The precious collection you've housed in your covers
My simpleness threatened by my own admission

And the bags are much too heavy
In my insecure condition
My pregnant mind is fat full with envy again

But I still love to wash in your old bathwater
Love to think that you couldn't love another
I can't help it...you're my kind of man

Wanted and adored by attractive women
Bountiful selection at your discretion
I know I'm diving into my own destruction

So why do we choose the boys that are naughty?
I don't fit in so why do you want me?
And I know I can't tame you...but I just keep trying

'Cause I love to wash in your old bathwater
Love to think that you couldn't love another
I'm on your list with all your other women
But I still love to wash in your old bathwater
You make me feel like I couldn't love another
I can't help it...you're my kind of man

Why do the good girls always want the bad boys?

So I pacify problems with kisses and cuddles
Diligently doubtful through all kinds of trouble
Then I find myself choking on all my contradictions

'Cause I still love to wash in your old bathwater
Love to think that you couldn't love another
Share a toothbrush...you're my kind of man
I still love to wash in your old bathwater
Make me feel like I couldn't love another
I can't help it...you're my kind of man

city of blinding lights

i'm going for U2's concert! they're coming to adelaide in november! how cool is that? u2 are legends! haha. happy happy but i hope my finals would be over by then...

hmm we went to the hilltop on fri night again. it was amazing. the view is just so beautiful. imagine...in a car on a hilltop with good music blasting on the radio, the cold breeze lightly brushing against ur cheeks as u take a few puffs of that adorable(hehe) ciggie, staring wistfully as the bright lights of the whole adelaide stares back at u..each light representing a place, a home, ppl with separate yet connected lives, and having random conversations in the car with apple juice and arnott's tim tams.

tell me what's the sense in waiting.
u gotta be honest.

playing for keeps

for all of u out there who have no clue where my uni is, let me tell u! it's in the middle of the city. yups. something like smu i guess. but for smu, u gotta walk down for 10 mins to reach the main shopping area right? mine? just cross one bloody road. and that kinda explains the extra huge lunchtime shopping. uh huh. bad bad bad. next time i should walk the opposite direction...towards the torrens river. look at more ducks or something. haha.

i was at the airport the other day sending jo's mom off and do u know the airport here u can actually go right into the transit area? so u can like shop at their duty free shops etc. anyway airports always give me an overwhelming feeling. drowning in a crowd of faces; each with a purpose, each with somewhere to go, each with stories to tell, each have new adventures to embark on. and my friends are travelling and living in different countries as well. poi and kienji are officially in canada...i'm so gonna visit them! wf, terence, jon will be in uk soon. me in aust. yihaur coming over to melb (where a gazillion other ppl i know are already there) next year. maybe cy too in 2 years. see, 5 years ago...we were only dreaming of uni and foreign places and now, look where we all are.

Stand up straight
Do your trick
Turn on the stars
Jupiter shines so bright
When you're around they tell us slow down,
We're too young you need to grow
The speed's the key
And they don't know who we are
And who's to say that we're not good enough?
And who's to say that this is not our love?
And who's to say we won't burn it out?
And who's to say we won't sink in doubt?
Who's to say that we won't fade to gray?
Who's to say we won't stay together?
Who's to say we aren't getting stronger?
Who's to say I can't live without you?
Who are they anyway?
Anyway they don't know

pics from the masquerade ball.

politics!!!

i got my politics essay due soon and i have barely started. i've got to read at least 5 books or journals to fulfill the minimum requirement of 5 different sources for citation. and and...i dun even know my stand on the question yet. rawh.

anyway, dent ball went fine i guess. a little overwhelming and daunting with the unfamiliar smiles. but it was a good breather taking a puff outside and just having random conversations. although it was cold. the weather have been feeling moody lately. it's warm one day and freezing cold the next. damn! please make up ur mind.

oh my and i was just checking out a few friends' blogs. and the pictures look awesome. the smu bash. the ntu d&d. the nus pageants. etc. i'm sooo JEALOUS. ): i wanna be there too. but but but must always think positive. it ain't too bad here as well except for the absence of my darling babes. *pouts*

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your sideI wait for you
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you
With or without you
With or without you
Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you
With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
My hands are tied
My body bruised, she's got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

-someone sang a few lines of this song to me last night. he should sing the whole song next time (:

day out

the day i did all the tourist-y things in little adelaide