priorities

baaaaahhh..my sense of priorities is screwed. mango sale is more impt than blocks or sleep or even breakfast!!! i woke up super duper early with ser nic and liz to queue for mango sale. hahahaa..on thurs!!! 4 days b4 blocks. wtf. played mahjong for a couple of hrs on wed night... haihz...i just can't sit still in my room and concentrate..i hafta talk every few hrs or move abt. boooo! and the rush to try on mango stuff and the impatience to queue led the four of us plus many other women to strip in public!!!!! hahahahhahaaaaa.....

you & u

arghh. this is frustrating. why did u just leave like that with no explanation? things were hanging in the air. we were in the midst of something. u are sucha bitch. you have issues. i dun blame you. but can you please get over them? i'm in such a fix because of you and u. everything is in a mess. i figured i had it all sorted out with you and u. but at this moment, everything is sucha blur. i dunno wat i want. if i'm doing the right thing with you. u keep coming back to haunt me...in my friends, in the songs i hear on radio, by ppl who talk about u. life is so fucking screwed already and i dun need anymore issues to deal with. but there's you and u. and i admit i got myself into this shit in the first place. wth. i dun wanna hurt your feelings again...but wateva decision i'm gonna make will in the end. it's just whether you know it or not. i guess i have to choose the one which you wouldn't know. why is it always about u?

trouble sleeping- the perishers

I'm having trouble sleeping
You're jumping in my bed
Twisting in my head
Leave me

I'm having trouble breathing
You're sitting on my chest
I sure could use the rest
Leave me

It's you
Why's it always you
and never me?
I've never dared to let
my feelings free
Why's it always you
and never me?
I've never cared
too much about honesty

I'm having trouble sleeping
I'm thinking of what you said
About the tears been shed
Leave me

It's you
Now and always you
but never me
I've never dared to
let my feelings free
Why's it always you
and never me?
I've never cared
too much about honesty

-the perishers...trouble sleeping.

a long-awaited thank you note

the k1 experience was certainly tough and definitely challenging. so before i "retire" from this kayaking business (haha), i just wanna thank those who have helped me alot and sacrificed their time and energy in one way or another. booo...i'm so indebted. haha

those who "saved" me when i capped
victor, char, carol, jon chua, sarah, rifdi

those who tailed the slow me just in case i capped
victor - thx for caring if i drowned...

those who taught me the k1
rifdi - thx alot alot for the patience and time in teaching me the balancing

say goodbye to trainings.

maybe that's why sheep tend to flock together

i've been thinking..(again)..haha. aunty april ( for those who dunno her, she's cjch hostel matron and for those who do, pls dun groan or wince in agony) was right..in some sense. during one of those times i got called into her office for a long lecture about bgr, she said something like "ppl with similiar background tend to somehow stick together". the story behind why she said that i shall not elaborate cus it's really complicating but i think wat she said was true. i mean..i find myself able to connect with ppl from broken homes or troubled families better. i'm not saying that my close frens all have dysfunctional family etc cus most of them dun! but i feel more at ease talking to those who have about my probs. in a way, i think they can somewhat, not entirely but at least to a teeny extent comprehend and understand wat i'm going thru. and they do the same. i'm not sure if they feel the same way about sharing "similiar" experiences hence understanding wat they're going thru. i mean alot of times i dun really confide in my close-close frens when life isn't too good..i talk to only one or two about wat is really going on inside me. most close-close frens are just about having fun together and confiding in one another about the stressfulness of college or boyfren/galfren probs. ttz all. dun get me wrong..it's not that i dun trust or love my non-dysfunctional family frens less but it's just not so easy to express feelings that they nvr felt. yeah...it's not too comfortable a topic too cus it'll spoil most ppl's mood.

the hols

hehe. i'm in jon chua's house now. he just bathed..eew! 4hrs after training. lala now sarah, tim and carol are cooking dinner while i slack off. haha. mm...the food smells good and jon's house is loaded with snacks everywhere..yummy!!!!! well..k1 today was pretty bad i think..i capp-ed 3times? or more? then this nus guy/coach for them came to help me and taught me some stuff like adjusting my seat and footrest for me. haha and telling me to start paddling from the left cus of dunno wat twisting motion..yak yak.

**carol then invades!!! I love goddess!!! We are slacking and not helping w cooking!! :D I love engtze!! MUAKS!!! *big fat slimey kiss!!!* Oh princess we miss you!! :D ciaos!**

song playing: dun phunk with my heart!!! black eyed peas!

ooh. ics night was great!!!!!! haha faisal totally rocks i think. haha salman too lar... me char carol and dawn all wore tubes and ppl were referring to us as the tube gang! haha we went thai express after tt to eat our dinner!!! finally at 10pm! char and dawn can really eat alot lar. wat pigs! **oink oink* :D

I LOVE ENGTZE!!! :D I'm Carol Then by the way and I'm hungry, and when i'm hungry..I'm sad ))))): Et say she dunno wht to blog alr..tt's sad )): Hmmm, I dunno wht to type too! Hmmm..et is a real bimbo! but tt's ok ((: I still love her alot alotttt!!

oh yeah!!! jon's house is like a zoo!!! got 12 tortoises and many many eggs! haha one hammie tt is fat. plenty of fish and a parrot which can't swear. haha although multiple attempts of teaching it. and we played ddr-dance2 revolution. haha i suck at it but carol rox at it. boohoohoo. we played winnie the pooh's friends of the forest game and of cus i won!!!!! haha.. i collected 3 trees and had a clean river! hah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm happy now (: