oc (:

oc soundtrack rocks (: i think i might be addicted! can't wait for mix2 to come out and the season2 to air on tv. oh but i'll probably d/load it cus i can't wait for them to screen it a few months later. *sighs* u know, sometimes i think it'll be quite depressing to watch oc cus their lives are like so damn fun and un-boring! they've got beautiful homes, cool parties, nice clothes etc. and ryan is so cute. summer and marissa damn chio. if i could live like that. IF. but i know it's all fiction and not real. however, i can still wish and dream rite? haha. oh no. oc is bad influence huh? BUT nothing's gonna stop me from being hooked onto it.

forwarded sms~

sometimes sweet forwarded sms just makes my day. especially from my close dear frens whom i miss so badly. i dunno. it's just the words in the sms that makes me break into a smile. it can lift my mood in a wink. it can make me feel loved and missed.

there was once when i felt like giving up. just giving up everything in life. i just couldn't be strong anymore. like the pillars i've toiled to build up to support me had just crumbled down in one night. that was a few days after wanfong went home after visiting. oh well, maybe i just missed my friends and my used-to-be-almost-perfect life. i was out by the wooden tables and chairs looking out at the sea. it was really so serene. u can see little yellow lights from the ships and feel the sea breeze against ur face. every half an hour an aeroplane would fly off from changi airport and flicker across the nght sky. i thought about alot of things. how the peaceful surroundings were a total contrast to my fucked up life. and of cus i felt sad and depressed and alone.

looking at the aeroplanes, ppl leaving and ppl arriving. a billion ppl, a billion different lives. what difference am i going to make? i hate to see ppl leaving. no matter if u r not close to me or not significant in my life, i'll still feel sad and miss you. i can tear for u. i'm one who hate ppl leaving. i imagine how i'll probably won't meet u for the rest of my life. how our paths in life would never ever cross again. i hate changes! i really do.

those were a few thoughts playing in my mind. and wanfong sent me a forwarded sms. it was super sweet. it was sincere and just mentioned that she cared. it was so timely and i was touched. i smiled, looked at the beautiful scenery in front of me and turned to go.

liz has been sending me super sweet sms-es the past month (: thanx dearie! i love getting sweet sms-es.

this song kinda reflects what i feel.

breakaway- kelly clarkson

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)
Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

[Chorus:]I'll spread my wings
and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til'
I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway
I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

updates! updates!!

gonna blog a few entries today to keep my blog updated on events that happened the past week.

hmmph. guess wat? i got chased out of lecture on mon by this attitude problem teacher. haha it was quite hilarious really. me n my fren were bitching bout our ct tutor and she decided to send both of us out cus she saw us talking. practically the whole lt was talking lar and just our luck that she had to pick on us!!! haihz..damn embarassing cus like practically 2 whole facs were there!!!! anyway, a few ppl i know came up to me later to tease me about it and also gave me assurance that the lecturer is sucha bitch and after we got kicked out, the lt was even rowdier and ppl were complaining bout her lecture slides to her [asking her to change her font colour and all]. pon maths lect as well to eat swensen's topless 5 ice-cream! haha yummy! choc chip, choc freckle, choc peanut buttercup, frozen choc malt, mocha almond fudge.

anyway i pon maths lect AGAIN yest..very bad..but yeah vary lazy too!!! not good cuz promos are coming!!!! ahhh!!! haha sorry for constantly blogging bout it BUT very stress yah??? so i pon maths lect to help my fren cut her hair!!! haha damn fun larh...she mentioned about how her hair is like sticking out everywhere and she was irritated by it during tutorial so after tt we decided to cut her hair!!!! hmmx i think i can cut it out as a hairdresser liaoz (: was snipping away happily...while my 2 other frens watched on. this guy was very amused and he kept on saying "uh oh. bad..very bad. can't believe u r letting her cut ur hair!!!" and my other fren didn't dare to touch the scissors. probably fearing of balding my fren haha. anyway it turned out pretty good and my fren liked her new hair soo (:

oh wellz

yeapz i know i've been pretty lazy to blog these days but i figured i need a channel to vent out all my pent up thoughts and feelings again b4 they burst!!!! some stuff have happened since i last seriously blogged.

well just to update on my day..i had fun (: thurs are the best cus it's like the slackest day! pe was great cus i love floorball. mr seet actually played with us. he was on my team. yeapz even that we drew for our game 6-6. faisal is freaking good yah? no wonder he's in hockey!!!!

got the oc soundtrack from my fren today!!! that made my day man!!! hehe...the music is good. listening to it right now. somehow a few things made 2 of my friends' day as well. and it was all because of their special someone (: friend A's crush said hi to her today after 2 whole weeks of silence from him. and friend B's crush gave him somethign which tastes good! haha food lar!!! yeapz..so both of them were really grinning from ear to ear when they told me. hehe.

been thinking alot lately bout why i have to do well for promos.
1. to retain my scholarship
2. to get promoted (obviously)
3. do s papers in the hope of getting a uni scholarship?

if all these fail, i could just fulfill my dream of becoming a scuba-diver i guess.

}ponder{

i think i live my life full of regrets. i know it's no point looking back in life wishing things would change. neither can i turn back time and change the course of events that took place. but sometimes i just can't help it. i really wonder how life would be if..if..things were different.

p/s: i never learn from mistakes.

cannonball~ damien rice

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer EACH DAY
Still I can't SAY what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer TO ME
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't WANNA scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know