wat i think?

i haven't been blogging for a long time. i'm lazy n i kinda do more blogging at the stick-sisters blog nowadays. but anyway, some things should be said ere instead of over there. those are more like updates n such.
it's been a tough year i guess. i mean adjusting to jc life. coping with studies. while missing kl, scgs n cjch so much. but vj is a nice place to be. friendly peepz n all. some teachers are nice n some are just plain bitchy? oh well damn sien of this place liao. wanna go some place else. somewhere far? some other countries? i guess when i grow up n if i can afford to, i'll migrate to some foreign country [anywhere besides m'sia & s'pore] just to get away from everything.  i think that's wat i eventually need. dun get me wrong, it's not that i dun like kl n all...i do love it! but i need to start anew i guess. fresh. go to some place where i don't know many people. starting all over again from scratch. a new beginning. like..just like...
i know it's scary for me n all to be in a strange place where there's no one to help u. no one u know who'll give a damn about u at the beginning. but slowly, i guess friendships will form n bonds strenghten. but until then i gotta be independent.
gotta find the courage first to move away from familiarity. that's the tough part. the first bold step.

wow!

we have a blog!!! haha well i haven't been updating or checking my blog for quite some time n didn't see liz msg. whee....

the stick sisters have a blog!!!

sabbath

i saw u
stunned
a cloud of doubt
i confirmed
it was u
stunned
confusion
unsure
i wanted
to say hi
unsure
scared
fear
nervous
rejection
stunned
u laughed
u talked
u smiled
u walked away.
u seemed happy
i'm still stunned.
lost for words.
it took time.
still no courage
 
 

belongings

how do u feel when it's gone?
when familiar things are taken away
moved, shifted, gone
strangers take the place where u used to be
where u belong
and felt a little at home
how do u feel?

when i'm back
it'll be gone
when i wish to visit
it won't be allowed
what is mine
eventually doesn't feel like mine
how do i feel?

vindicated- dashboard confessional

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of which has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that

[Chorus]

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]

[Chorus]

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...