hihi!!

damnsit. as i write this, i am having this really gay prank pulled on me. someone added me on msn pretending to be girl "i picked up at zouk". hahaha ya right. at the same time she added andre telling him that she is "jon's friend" and that i said he was "really handsome".

INFURIATING!

whos behind this! prime suspect is Sean Bai Bing Yi. but apparently not. well the saga continues...

dear friends, please do my "Johari's Window" and "Nohari's Window". it'll only take a minute and is quite interesting:)

http://kevan.org/johari?name=jonchan

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=jonchan

sometimes i really think im a retard. lol hahahaha

i have tried to write music before, and it proved to be one of the most futile experiences ive ever had.

but it was different today. it was simply amazing how the words and music just flowed into a coherent song. as cliche as it sounds, music really does come from emotions, and cant be forced. if not all your songs will end up sounding like franz ferdinand:/

i could write a song today because my emotions were so REAL and very private. private, thus i can safely say that no one else will EVER hear it.

if all the music written out there really do come from true feelings, it makes me wonder how these 'feelings' can be so inpersonably publicized like that. maybe im just the type to sing quietly to myself, instead of shouting/crying it out to the world. thank goodness i have this outlet, if not i might just die.

i dont really know how to describe how ive been feeling the past few weeks, it seems that i have been enveloped in a thick, damp blanket, which has been quelling my enthusiasm for almost everything. lethargy. as evidenced by my reluctance even to blog, something i used to enjoy doing.

yesterday was particularly awful. i was definatety slightly under the weather. i suspect wednesday's ndu biathlon training was largely to blame. swimming 6.2 kilometers might be nothing to some, but it is A LOT to a hum-bug, part-time 'waterpolo player'. my armpits were burning from abrasion! so i spent most of thursday sleeping, i would say i only really woke up at about 5pm. which sucked coz it left me with a massive head, back and neck ache, but at the same time left me still feeling even more sleepy! wtf!

today was slightly better i guess. morning was spent in camp chaokenging again. followed by easy training at acjc with the safsa waterpolo guys. training was very light, but still i dont think its good for someone who is recovering from illness. then we dota-ed, which i should have found very fun because 1) my team won both games 2) andre played like sh*t and was the arse of everyones ridicule, alas, i still felt 'sian'.

my stomach has also been in a perpetual state of discomfort recently. bad colic. with my poorish health i think i must have dropped at least 3kg recently. sigh not looking forward to having to gain it all back again.

its not all bad though, i do have more positive things to talk about, but not tonight. i shall also post up pics of my other 'happenings' once i get them from that davis.

good night!