If you are needing an uplifting, inspiring post for the new year. This is not it. I could direct you to some lovely happy blogs. But today it is sarcastic, Debbie Downer style ranting. I feel this will be therapeutic for me.
For the new year I would like to give a damn. Really, I could use an ounce of motivation. I have been sleeping so very many hours a day. I take one or two naps a day and at times they happen while my kids are awake. Which usually results in a mess that I have no energy to clean up. Last week my one accomplishment for the day was undecorating the christmas tree. This did not, of course, include putting the box of decorations away. So then the next day I fell asleep while the kids were awake and I woke up and they had redecorated the tree...yea!! My hair dryer broke before Christmas and I did not need more incentive to avoid washing my hair, but then there it is. I am really fascinated by my apathy toward going days without washing my hair even after exercise. There is a Heather in my past that would shudder at this behavior. But that isn't even the worst of it. Yesterday I did manage to get dressed which felt like an accomplishment, but by bed time the effort to change into a pajama top was too much. Really, not too big of a deal right, but then the next morning I woke up and put jeans on...Ta-da I'm dressed(notice that I did not mention changing my underwear). Gross.
The sad part is I don't think that even captured a complete picture of my apathy. One day a friend called me at dinner time Charlotte came in requesting turkey and cheerios with no milk for dinner...sounds easy enough...and her wish was granted. Truthfully, I had stopped cooking all together. In the mornings my kids would come get in bed with me and have nutritious breakfast of saltines and water in our bed while watching shows on my phone...did you catch that...shows, as in multiple. BUT...I had good reason! I have been a vomiting, sleeping, whining, chubbo pregnant mess. Now I have to say, I think the infertile Heather of circa 2008-2011 would slap me (hard) for whining about another miracle baby. But in the words of the great Joe Fox, "[she's] not here."
Truthfully, I am really happy to be having another baby, but this has been much more challenging for me than the other two pregnancies. I was kind of hoping for twins because I would like a big family, but I do NOT like this first trimester (and then some) pregnancy yuck...but alas just one kiddo in there. Here is the crazy part this kid is due smack dab in the middle of July which means our entire family has July birthdays. I think we should probably stop now while we are ahead...right?? right?? Thanks great void for your support on the subject. I'm sure by the end I'll forget all about this. My friend wrote herself a letter about how horrible pregnancy was just so she would remember when she forgot...but it didn't help. Again, 2009 Heather would be giving me a talking to.
I don't know why I'm still posting this whining. I really had intended on leaving the January words as they were and moving into a very happy upbeat post about YAY!!! Baby!!! and about YAY!! I cooked dinner 3 nights last week!! and about YAY!! I finally found enough energy to mop my floor for the first time in many moons!! Well oops...but really things are getting better. The fog is clearing and all I have to say is for you lovely moms out there who are nauseated the entire nine months and still do it multiple times...You are my heroes.
So Before said pregnancy we had some lovely family photos. My kids (mostly charlotte) were crazy during the photo shoot, but they turned out so good they make me happy. Also, we got to go to skiing with my family at Grand Targhee, disney, had a wonderful Christmas with the Sedwicks and a visit to see my family. It was all so nice and a great distraction from not feeling well. (please excuse the reverse order)
Poor, poor Richard. On the third run on our first day Rich caught an edge, took a very fancy looking fall, heard a pop and got a ride in a toboggan. We are waiting for an MRI, but it looks like he might looking at surgery.
Charlotte LOVED playing with her new cousin Bridger. I know a few of you have asked for updates on Bridger. He is doing very well. He is six months old and is so happy and smiley. He has a feeding tube still and he has a crazy belly button/scar tissue, but other than that he is just a normal happy 6 month old boy!
Charlotte skiing. Oh boy, I might need to post another time about the run up to Char's "first ski lesson"
"Awkward Family Photo"
Elliott is rocking the purple boots in true little brother fashion.
Elliott's First haircut
Going to Florida in December is lovely....I think I could go to Florida every winter, for the entire winter.
The sad part is I don't think that even captured a complete picture of my apathy. One day a friend called me at dinner time Charlotte came in requesting turkey and cheerios with no milk for dinner...sounds easy enough...and her wish was granted. Truthfully, I had stopped cooking all together. In the mornings my kids would come get in bed with me and have nutritious breakfast of saltines and water in our bed while watching shows on my phone...did you catch that...shows, as in multiple. BUT...I had good reason! I have been a vomiting, sleeping, whining, chubbo pregnant mess. Now I have to say, I think the infertile Heather of circa 2008-2011 would slap me (hard) for whining about another miracle baby. But in the words of the great Joe Fox, "[she's] not here."
Truthfully, I am really happy to be having another baby, but this has been much more challenging for me than the other two pregnancies. I was kind of hoping for twins because I would like a big family, but I do NOT like this first trimester (and then some) pregnancy yuck...but alas just one kiddo in there. Here is the crazy part this kid is due smack dab in the middle of July which means our entire family has July birthdays. I think we should probably stop now while we are ahead...right?? right?? Thanks great void for your support on the subject. I'm sure by the end I'll forget all about this. My friend wrote herself a letter about how horrible pregnancy was just so she would remember when she forgot...but it didn't help. Again, 2009 Heather would be giving me a talking to.
I don't know why I'm still posting this whining. I really had intended on leaving the January words as they were and moving into a very happy upbeat post about YAY!!! Baby!!! and about YAY!! I cooked dinner 3 nights last week!! and about YAY!! I finally found enough energy to mop my floor for the first time in many moons!! Well oops...but really things are getting better. The fog is clearing and all I have to say is for you lovely moms out there who are nauseated the entire nine months and still do it multiple times...You are my heroes.
So Before said pregnancy we had some lovely family photos. My kids (mostly charlotte) were crazy during the photo shoot, but they turned out so good they make me happy. Also, we got to go to skiing with my family at Grand Targhee, disney, had a wonderful Christmas with the Sedwicks and a visit to see my family. It was all so nice and a great distraction from not feeling well. (please excuse the reverse order)
